farareushrieks

pokemon go is so wild to me like…. pokemon is real. people are behaving as if pokemon is real. “I’m out of pokeballs so i gotta walk to the nearest pokestop to get more” “oh wait for me i have some lures we can use” like what. augmented reality has become reality. the future is now

alexander. i have to leave. ALEXANDER. look AROUND look aROUND, at how lucky we are to be alive right nowHELPLEEESSS they are ASKING me to lead look AROUND - isn’t THIS enough he will never be SATISwould it BE ENOUGH he will nevTO BE SATISFIIIIED SATISFIIIED sISTORY HAS ITS EEEEEEYES OOOOONNN YOU ASSUME YOU’RE THE SMARTEST IN THE NOOOOONNNN-STOP YOU WILL NEVER BE SATISWOULD IT BE ENOUGH SATISFIED BE ENOUGH FII-IIII-I-IIIIIEEED RUNNING OUT OF TIME WHY DO YOU WRITE LIKE HISTORY HAS ITS EEEEEYYYYYYYEEEESSSS OOOOOOONNNN YOU i am NOT throwing away my JUST YOU WAAAIT i am NOT THROWING AWAY MY JUST YOU WAAAIT I AM ALEXANDER HAMILTON!!! HAMILTON !!!! JUST you WAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTT

I AM NOT THROWING AWAY! MY! SHOT!!!!!!!!

when hamilton says “am I talking too loud? sometimes i get overexcited, shoot off at the mouth” he’s trying to follow burr’s advice of being more personable and keeping his opinions to himself

then immediately after that his new friends say LET’S GET THIS GUY IN FRONT OF A CROWD and i don’t think they had any idea what kind of a pandora’s box they opened at that moment by encouraging him

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you’re right. they’re the same. they’re the exact same. the eyes line up and the noses are the same size and the heads are the same shape I can’t believe rapunzel’s been a furry this whole time this is i nc e rd l be

you know, the more i listen to Great Comet, the more i realise that either Anatole did his research, or his approach just happens to fit perfectly with natasha’s weaknesses

because natasha is vain - that’s not just an insult that mary uses against her, she genuinely is vain. She puts a lot of effort into her appearance, distracts herself by trying on new dresses and looking at herself in the mirror, and most importantly revels in being the center of attention. She loves when people look at her. she knows she’s beautiful and wants everyone else to see it. And then Anatole comes in and he never stops looking at her (an intimidation tactic in general, but something natasha finds extremely flattering in addition to terrifying), he constantly appeals to her ego (come to the costume tournament, countess, do come - you will be the prettiest there) and drowns out her protests by insisting that he is absolutely mad with love for her

which is also an appeal to natasha’s other weakness, which is that she is desperate for the approval of other people. she’s terrified that andrey’s family won’t like her even as she tells herself that nobody has ever NOT liked her. She loves seeing everyone at the opera talking about her (as she assumes they must be saying nice things). And Anatole’s frantic attention just cements that idea in her mind, that he must feel this way because she is so inherently loveable and not because of any malicious intent on his part 

We don’t know enough about Andrey from the musical to really tell, but i feel like it’s implied that he’s not very demonstrably affectionate - and i feel like…. natasha probably never even realised that that was something she wanted? speaking as a generally rational, mature person who has personally almost done (and actually done) a lot of really REALLY STUPID things for the sake of a little attention, it’s way more realistic than it might seem to have a character appear to lose her mind just because she wants to feel loved so badly that she doesn’t realise what she’s sacrificing

things that make me furious: 

  • the fact that “and the rest of the night, I can’t take my eyes from him” in relation to Anatole is the same melody from when natasha is humming as she tells sonya about how much she misses Andrey
  • “your childlike eyes and your distant smile”/”his glittering eyes and his tender smile”
  • “he’ll come home one day and take me away, I want nothing more”/if you love me, say yes, and i will come and steal you away, I want nothing more”
  • “I’ll never be this happy again”/”i shall never be happy again”
  • the parallels between andrey and anatole are Everywhere
  • i am Burning