I’m that type of fan

I’m the soft/worried type. I baby them a lot even if most of the idols I stan are older than me. On my daily basis I’m worried about them. Like, if they’re eating well, if the’re overworking, if they have free time to sleep and rest properly, if the companies treat them well… That kind of stuff. I feel attacked too sometimes with those dance moves moves, those looks, the performances- Yeah, I feel that too. But mostly I see how curte some (most) are, how noisy, funny, intelligent, talented they are. Excepting for just one case (because Jaebum is too much) I never dreamed about dating them, or I don’t feel that attraction towards them. Idk I mostly think about how would it be to have them like friends, or siblings. Like, can you imagine being friends with BTS, or Got7, or Monsta X, Astro, Black Pink, EXO (etc.)?  

I want to protect them and make sure they’re healthy and happy. That’s my duty here. 

Have you ever been so excited to read a book that you don’t read it immediately, you kind of just stare at it and smile thinking about how excited you are to read it?
Imagine this:

every single character in your room. All of them. Every single one you have ever read about, watched, imagined, created. All of them putting you to sleep. All of them surrounding your bed and protecting you from all harm with whatever kind of weapon or defense technique they have. They are all there for you. You are safe. And I think that is very very comforting to think about.

Every Fangirl's Most Likely Future...
  • Me: *Reads a book*
  • Me: *Joins its fandom*
  • Me: *Stays up all night reading the books again*
  • Me: *Spends the whole day reading fanfics and blogging about the fandom even though there's an exam the next day*
  • Me: *Fails the exam*
  • Me: *Ends up living with parents unemployed 10 years later*
  • Me: .....
  • Me: My life's a mess.