fandom consumes my life

can you imagine sam introducing steve and bucky to pokemon go

he has to go full Falcon just to catch up with those two super soldier nerds running around the entire goddamn city leveling up

they’re en route to a HYDRA base and bucky goes “wait steve drop me off here i’m gonna run the rest of the way” and steve is like “why the fuck” and bucky is like “i have EGGS TO HATCH, STEVE”

they’re under some alien attack and bucky is yelling at steve for backup but steve is on another street because “I HAVE TO CATCH THIS VULPIX”

meanwhile sam is just flying over a fountain dodging blasts because there’s a golduck

nat is the gym leader for the Avengers Tower gym and no one can beat her

….Is there like, an active Gundam Wing community lurking on here in shadows? Like for real? Did we remain in a secret underground bunker somewhere, only to emerge blinking into the light of day in year of our lord 2017? 

*touches screen*  are you out there? can you hear this message? 

anonymous asked:

hi! i keep seeing you reblog stuff about women and fic and i just want to say: i was that 14 year old girl who read gay fic and swore up and fucking down i was as straight as they come because i was fucking TERRIFIED like i dreamt about kissing a girl once and i basically refused to sleep because if i didn't sleep i wouldn't think about kissing girls and i'd still be normal. fanfiction literally helped me come to terms with myself and i'm pretty sure i'd still be in denial if i'd never found it

Oh anon, let me tell you, I was that 14 year old girl too. Though I was … haha, I had a longer way to go.

I used to be the most homophobic, vile little piece of shit. I’d make posts on fanficrants (once I got a livejournal, which was, uh, when I was 17-18) about how characters weren’t GAY what was WRONG with fangirls? I’d complain to my friends about how not everything had to be gay. I would watch shows (mostly anime) as a teenager and muse about how I didn’t GET why people made the stuff between Male Character 1 and Male Character 2 gay. 

And yet.

The first completed original piece of fiction I wrote, which I finished when I was 16, was incredibly fucking gay – I still have it, all 236 handwritten pages of it, and good lord. None of the characters in it act even remotely straight. I had an assignment as a 12 year old in art class to design a cartoon character and I basically designed an incredibly butch lizard. Pitching it to myself as “trying to understand why people ship gay stuff,” I wrote an uncompleted piece of original fiction (before the first completed one) that just involved literally everybody being gay. My mother and I had a small tiff about it without talking directly about it, just her saying she knew the sort of stuff I wrote in my spare time. My gayness was always there. I just didn’t know it.

By the time I was 17 I was aware that maybe I wasn’t really … completely … straight, but as a deep-set Mormon in the middle of “the Mormon corridor” (Idaho, Utah, Colorado, Arizona, New Mexico, Nevada) I shoved it out of my mind and tried not to think about it, until my first girlfriend confessed to me once during a sleepover and I confessed back. 

A lot of my self discovery process at that time was through fanfic. I’d been really noisy and annoying about how much I didn’t ship one (canon-intended) gay ship in my fandom of the time, Fire Emblem, and I wrote a 2000-ish word piece about that ship just using it to explore my own sexuality, my conflicted feelings about it. The deeper I dug into fandom to try and work out my feelings, the more comfortable with myself I became. It didn’t matter if it was m/m or f/f. I tinkered with both. I realized that I’d always kind of shipped Rei/Usagi from Sailor Moon, and just sold it to myself as caring a lot about their friendship. My first girlfriend and I, long before we confessed to each other, had shyly admitted we were both sort of interested in Kurama/Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho. I ran a fanfic competition (back when those were a thing) in one of my main fandoms and the winning fic made me cry with feelings I hadn’t understood at the time, but did now. 

I’m never going to buy into the purity discourse about what women – straight, gay, bi, whatever – should or shouldn’t ship, what characters are “healthy” for them to identify with, what fiction they are or aren’t supposed to consume, because in those years of my life, fandom was my only outlet. I still remember being 19 and making a terrified post on my livejournal about being bi (which I thought I was, at the time). How unhappy and uncomfortable I was with myself. How for years I told myself I hadn’t really loved my first girlfriend and, for a long time, even refused to call her my first girlfriend or my ex. How fandom is where I found other women like me, writing gay stuff like the stuff I was getting more and more interested in. Fiction is an important tool to help us discover ourselves. That doesn’t end when you get to fanfiction just because it’s based on already-existing work. (If anything, doesn’t that make it even more of a tool to discover ourselves?) 

So yeah. I’ve been there. And because I’ve been there and it was what made me discover who I was, I’m always going to support women getting to have that same experience. I often think of myself as a late bloomer in terms of my gayness, but the fact is there are people discovering themselves out there every moment of every day. Some younger than me. Some older than me. And they should all have that chance. 

anonymous asked:

I honestly don’t know what I’ve would have done if you weren’t in YOI fandom or if you didn’t make your AUs.

<3<3<3
honestly
I don’t know what I would be doing if I hadn’t gotten into the YOI fandom and made a bunch of AUs that are consuming my life XD
I AM HAPPY YOU ARE ENJOYING ALL THE NONSENSE!!!

anonymous asked:

Being in the Carmilla fandom has consumed my life so much, that when my mum told me she has switched to soy milk, my first thought was why the F*** would you want to drink blood for.

HAHAHA AMAZING

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im goign to stop activity on this blog bc i dont feel very safe in the pvz fandom?? bc there are Certain People in it who make me feel uncomfortable and i dont want to be in the fandom anymore. (the Certain People who make me feel uncomfortable arent mutuals/followers but i just dont want to be involved in this fandom bc of them.)

also cookie gun ovenbrebk has consumed my life and im not as into pvz as before?? i mean..it’s still very dear to me but..i kinda switched to cr bc i have no control over my hyperfixations

so,sorry yall; it’s been fun. thanks for coming to my ted talk

if u want to follow me on my other blogs or add me on discord, ask me for them off anon and i’ll give them to you if i trust you

Okay so at McDonald’s while eating french fries and ice cream I began to think about Voltron because you know, who doesn’t? So in my head I began to create a theory in my head about all of the homesickness coming from Hunk, Lance, and Pidge.

What if it was like near Winter Break and they were about to go home in maybe like one or two weeks? It would explain the simulations which might be like an exam of some sort or preparing for the exams. This would also kind of explain Keith wearing a jacket since some parts of Arizona remain fairly cool (on the belief that the 50s- 70 is cool).

Now think about Pidge preparing to go see their mother and keep her from spending more time without her family for holidays. She had the stockings lined up and the gifts under the tree only to have no one come home and the gifts unwrapped.
Think about Hunk being miles away from his warm sandy beaches and huge family waiting for him. He’s ready for all the poi, poke, lomi salmon, opihi, haupia, and the Kalua pig. But he’s missing it all.
Think about Lance so eager to go to home to his family and start celebrating on Noche Buena. Not only is he missing his family, he’s also missing being surrounded by all the people in his neighborhood. He’s been craving buñuelos since Halloween. But all of that is gone for all he knows.