I've been trying to find help for finding treatment for dysphoria online but every article seems to assume I'm some normie grad student with infinite money and fancy things like a 'home'. It's been 9 months since the only human I'd ever trusted abandoned me and I'm getting worse. The world around me feels brittle and empty and I'm so emotionally frantic I have no sense of myself as a person anymore. What did you do when you had to get out there and become the Porpentine you were meant to be?
hormones are free on medicaid in cali so i found an informed consent clinic and did their tests until they gave me a scrip. as for the rest i relentlessly put myself out there and tried to find people who get me? it doesn’t help to look back, you can only move forward with these things.
The world still feels brittle and empty but “ambient easy listening suicidal” is better than “300 BPM suicidal” i guess?