As shitty as I feel, I like to think that I just took all of the health problems so that my sister doesn’t have to deal with them. Yeah, it makes me angry every now and then that I’m the only one in the family to have all these problems, but in the end, I’d rather it be me than her.
While I can’t pursue most of my passions or anything athletic, she can and does. I miss classes and lose sleep and lose weight because of the pain, but she doesn’t and that’s such a relief for me. I can’t stand having her upset or hurt and not being able to help, so it’s a gift from the gods that she’s perfectly healthy. I would hate it if she had to take all these medications and painkillers and have all of these surgeries done.
It’s probably the only good thing about me feeling terrible right now.