family doesnt do that

Okay, guys. So my lights are off and I’m in bed mobile blogging and my leg is hanging off my bed. I did not hear my dog walk in and HIS NOSE JUST RUBBED AGAINST MY FOOT AND I AM NOT EXAGGERATING WHEN I SAY I JUMP SO BAD THAT I KICKED HIM IN THE FACE. It is 3:30 in the morning. HE COULD HAVE BEEN A MONSTER UNDER MY BED OR SOMETHING. I’m going to sleep. This is what happens when I stay up past my bed time.

~moment of silence for everyone else trapped down here in the bible belt with conservative white families who will sit down and quote fox news as they belittle and downplay the shitstorm that’s happening in “the land of the free” this holiday season~

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Please dont let all this injustice recently let you think that every police officer is a monster. I am not defending the ones who commit these atrocities, im simply trying to remind people that many officers truly want to help and make a difference and protect people. Dont let a few monsters cloud your view of people who could be just as appalled as you.

v close to leaving tulane for good tbh

had some insane dreams lastnight because i’ve come down with the flue and i’m stressing about being around my sister for my 21st. lol. nothing ever really goes how i want it when she’s around. our relationship has never been functional. she put me through hell when i was a child and so that resulted in me being fucked up as an adult and now whenever i’m around her i just feel total pure rage and hate and she feeds off of that and we regress into our childhood attitudes and ugh… i love her, dont get me wrong, but she’s a very very hard person to love and it takes every inch of whats left of my sanity to do that… idk… it also doesn’t help that mum takes her side and lets her treat me the way that she does because she’s scared of what my sister might do if she doesnt… yep… my family is super functional…

i’m not keen.
at all.

i can just tell my 21st is going to be awful.

i sort of just spent large sections of the last two days crying my eyes out over how royally screwed over i am for two of my classes and then i was like “why isn’t anyone helping me???why isn’t anyone comforting me or making me feel better or talking to me???” but wtf why would anyone do that when i can’t reach out to people or talk about my problems or communicate my feelings in any way like the moment my roommates came in i bit my thumb really hard until i could stop crying so they wouldn’t have to hear me and now my thumb is cut and my knees still hurt from hiding in my closet i am so ridiculous 

As shitty as I feel, I like to think that I just took all of the health problems so that my sister doesn’t have to deal with them. Yeah, it makes me angry every now and then that I’m the only one in the family to have all these problems, but in the end, I’d rather it be me than her. 

While I can’t pursue most of my passions or anything athletic, she can and does. I miss classes and lose sleep and lose weight because of the pain, but she doesn’t and that’s such a relief for me. I can’t stand having her upset or hurt and not being able to help, so it’s a gift from the gods that she’s perfectly healthy. I would hate it if she had to take all these medications and painkillers and have all of these surgeries done. 

It’s probably the only good thing about me feeling terrible right now.

atlantafive asked:

RICHONNNEEE and caryl for the ship meme <3

richonne

  • falls asleep on the couch rick, for the most part, would do this, and hes kind of gotten used to it and doesnt mind. sometimes michonne is so tired though that she cant stay awake no matter how hard she tries and shes just out cold so rick carries her to bed instead
  • makes friends with the neighbors both! they wouldnt just go out and meet everyone on their own initiative, but if theres some nice people around they enjoy just talking to them with all of them together (honestly this ones so hard to imagine because whenever i try to think abt it my mind goes to the za world and its hard to imagine them trusting people in the non-za because we saw so little of it and were seeing so much of ricks distrust of people lately that its hard to shake that)
  • is the adventurous eater michonne. she, in general, is the adventurous cook and is thus also always ready to try out those new things she makes, whereas rick would be fine with just ‘plain’ dishes, especially because i dont see him being a man that enjoys very spicy dishes so whenever he would try one of michonnes new experiments theres always that chance of it being spicier than he enticipated and for it to result in him spending half the evening refilling his glass by the tap to wash it down (and michonne laughing at him for it, of course, its all in good fun)
  • hogs the covers at night michonne. she probably doesnt even realize it, but she can be a heavy sleeper when shes out, and i guess she just tries to be as comfortable as possible once shes asleep without her being aware of it herself. rick doesnt mind though because while being asleep means really being asleep, that doesnt mean she falls asleep easily, so he just lets her get some rest whenever she finally manages to fall asleep
  • forgets to do the dishes at first i was going to say rick, but i think hed be the type that likes to stay sort of on top with the dishes and other household choices because he hates doing them, and he knows that if he doesnt do it right away, hell let it all pile up and then all motivation goes down the drain even more. he tries his best to keep up with them because of that, and michonne and carl know that so they try to all do the dishes together when they can, while listening to the radio during
  • tries to surprise their partner more often both of them! theres not necessarily always a lot of huge gestures, but one specific thing they all like to do is when they might be somewhere far away for a while or some cool place or anything like they, they bring back little memorabilia and leave it on the other persons night stand when they come home
  • leaves dirty laundry on the floor 
  • stays up til 2 AM reading michonne. she reads a lot more than rick. when he does occasionally find a book to get sucked into, he reads it everywhere, from the dinnertable to during brushing his teeth. michonne tries to avoid letting reading take time away from other daily activities so she opts to read later in the day instead…which also results in her getting totally sucked into whatever shes reading, untill she suddenly gets snapped out of it by the sound of getting a text or someone else needing to use the bathroom at night or anything else trivial that snaps her out of her reading. then theres no avoiding looking at that damn clock because she damn well realizes as soon as shes aware what she was doing that its probably way later than she intended for it to get!
  • sings in the shower rick! i cant help but thinking hes the type of person to start singing (unpurposely offkey) as loud as he can as soon hes hes convinced that no one else can hear him, much to the enjoyment of michonne and carl. oh bless your heart rick, its okay, im the exact same way myself.
  • takes the selfies rick! michonne takes pictures of when theyre on trips, when rick is cooking for once, etc, while rick randomly jumps on the couch next to her and whips out his phone to take a silly selfie, when hes in a good mood (theyre usually more like somewhat sporadic bursts)
  • plans date night they both do. it really depends on what it is! i think theyre both fine with just staying in for the night watching tv, and if they really plan something, theyd rather like, plan trips together! camping, walks in rocky areas, or just anything to travel and take pictures and see things they dont get to see at home.

caryl oh my god im totally filling that one out later but i dont usually write these kinds of things out and i dont have the mental energy to do it for caryl too right now (esp because i dont want to be afraid of having answers that are too similar)

  • falls asleep on the couch
  • makes friends with the neighbors
  • is the adventurous eater
  • hogs the covers at night
  • forgets to do the dishes
  • tries to surprise their partner more often
  • leaves dirty laundry on the floor
  • stays up til 2 AM reading
  • sings in the shower
  • takes the selfies
  • plans date night

if 5sos were sorted into hogwarts houses which houses would they be in….

my family were talking about how it is weird that my moms side of the family is all about hugging and shit but my dads side of the family doesnt do that at all 

and like why does that happen like why do some uh backgrounds or cultures of whatever hug and shit while others dont? 

anonymous asked:

So im depressed. And everyone sees it now. I got called down to the office at school today because they were worried about how i never go to school and then that it was because i was sad or whatever and im just so sick of listening to people ask me why im sad. I dont know it just happens. No one really understands. I have 0 friends that actually care and my family doesnt give two shits either. I dont know what to do anymore. I wanna end it. This world isnt meant for me. Not at all.

When they don’t give a shit about you than you should do the same with them. don’t give a fuck about other people! Do whatever you want, start new things which you will maybe like, meet new people. Do something with your life.