falling out of love

I have never been happier than the moment your name was mentioned and I realised I had fallen out of love with you. Finally, it was like I was finally free of the chains I had tangled around my head and heart.
—  Getting over you was the best thing that happened to me.
People fear someone falling out of love with them, but no one usually questions what it’s like to be the one falling out. They can’t picture feeling that something must be horribly wrong with you because there’s no other plausible explanation for why your heart doesn’t flutter when you look at him like it used to. It was the position I never thought I would find myself in, yet here I was, looking at the man I supposedly loved and not feeling a thing. If there was anything there, it was negative. Annoyance, anger, sadness, the complete opposite of everything he used to make me feel. It wasn’t right to let him believe things were okay, so I told him. Watching his facial expression drift from a quiet seriousness into a brokenness I never thought I would cause, I wished I didn’t mean the words I said but I knew I did. I couldn’t keep running away, after all, where could I go when the person that used to feel like home no longer did?
—  Maxwell Diawuoh, Request: Telling the guy you love that you’re falling out of love for the same reason you fell in love with him.
I just wanted to hear you say you were sorry, sorry for hurting me, sorry for lying to me, sorry for not trying your best for me. I just wanted to know that you were sorry too that we didn’t last, that we both ended up heartbroken, that you’re always on my mind and I’m never on yours. I just wanted to know if you will ever be sorry for leaving me the way you did, for making me feel like I shouldn’t exist, for making me love you the way that I did.
—  t.i // Are you sorry yet?
This is how I’d fallen out of love of him:

I didn’t. It just that one day I woke up, and I just.. I just didn’t feel anything for him. Not love, not like, not hate, nor anger, not even sadness or disappointment, just.. nothing. Like my heart entered a sudden oblivion, and it just forgot. It forgot to remember to care for him or to think of him, and in a blink of an eye, everything about him, every feelings I associated with him is erased, and he didn’t matter anymore. Like he never really mattered at all.

And I’m okay with it. I mean, it’s a lot like looking at a blank grey canvas, what do you suppose to feel about it? Nothing, right? Nothing and just okay.
—  cynthia go // This is how I’d fallen out of love with him // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #33

Whenever you’re starting to get annoyed by her, remember how you felt when you first started talking to her and how beautiful her smile is

Whenever she’s driving you insane and you wanna yell at her, remember how at one point all you wanted to do was listen to her and know all her childhood secrets

Whenever you feel like you want her to stay away from you, remember those times when you couldn’t keep your hands off of her because you loved the touch of her skin

Whenever you feel like you don’t wanna spend time with her anymore, remember your first date and how the only thing you wanted to do was to spend as much time with her as possible

Whenever you feel like you don’t want to kiss her anymore, remember your first kiss; how nervous you were and how happy it made you afterwards

Whenever you don’t want to sleep next her anymore, remember how at one point the only way for you to fall asleep was only if you were in her arms

Whenever you feel like leaving her, remember how it felt when you couldn’t see her for two or three days straight and how terrible it made you feel

And if none of those memories break your heart and make you remember why you love her, then carefully explain to her that she’s the one that has to leave you

—  Because, darling, you don’t deserve her anymore
She is kind, she is loving, she is caring, she is beautiful but not just in a physical way but in her mind too. She is chaotic, she is anxious, she is exhausted, she is constantly challenged. She is crazy, she is shy but she is talkative, she is nurturing, she is respectful as well as understanding. She is someone you want, she is someone you need, she creeps up on you when the world stands still and all you can think about is her. She is a mess but she wears her mess beautifully that even on her bad days she still shines brighter than the brightest star in the evening sky.
—  t.i // Dear ladies you are all beautiful just the way you are, do not compare yourself and do not underestimate your capabilities.
I don’t even get upset anymore because I’m at the point where I’ve just stopped caring. And that’s something that should scare you.
See, you can keep doing the same things over and over and eventually it will stop hurting me but only because I will have become numb to it.. only because I will have become numb to you.
The only thing you’re really doing is helping me to fall out of love with you.
—  things they’ll have to learn the hard way
By this time next year I will forget your face but for now you’re all I see in a crowded room.
—  21 word story