For this reason the Lord is ready to show you mercy; He sits on His throne, ready to have compassion on you. Indeed, the Lord is a just God; all who wait for Him in faith will be blessed. (Isaiah 30:18 NET)
No longer delight in rebellion, doing things your way against God. Admit it as sin to yourself and to God. God can and will forgive - He redeems us out of that forgiveness. The Lord Jesus came that we may have life against sin and be born again for His glory - life in the purpose and eternity of His grace. All who wait on God will be blessed as He promised then and now. Place your faith in the Lord Jesus.
You can pray for Christ Jesus to have the throne of your life, in your heart, as Savior and Lord.
You can pray for His grace today, loved one. God listens and He responds to our hope in Him.
No matter how presentable and well you look or how your life seems to others (and yourself), if you’re harboring bitterness, insecurity, and deceit, you’re a prisoner locked up by your own evil. The heart is desperately wicked so give it to One who can bring it to life. Trust the Lord Jesus, let go of your choice of prison and let God guide you with your heart.
“Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. (Ezekiel 36:26 NASB)