Steven Universe episode 1:
Steven finds out that his power are activated by the joy of eating his favourite ice-cream.
Steven Universe episode 108:
Steven is tormented by the memories of all the people he had recently hurt and/or couldn't save, people who had tried to kill him because of his mother's (who is sort of him but not quite) actions, but who he can't blame because they had their reasons, because Rose Quartz had done things he can't condone nor fully understand. He has to deal with the fact that in the course of a small period of time the mental image he had of his mother has drastically changed, from this perfect, kind, powerful woman he couldn't compete with to a mysterious figure, with tons of secrets and a grey morality, who manifests herself in his ptsd-induced nightmare as a giant, treatening, scowling cloud towering over him.
Okay can I just. Steven curling into his tiny bubble after sending Eyeball Ruby floating off into space was one of the most heartbreaking things I’ve seen on a show with a whole lot of tragic backstory and heartbreak. Then, combined with that conversation with the Crystal Gems at the end of the episode about Rose doing what was best for the Earth and Steven’s quiet little “Thank you for telling me”…. That is going to HAUNT me, man.
Because Steven never gives up, never lets anyone go. He wanted to keep searching for Malachite even after Lapis repeatedly told him to stop, he refused to let Peridot stay bubbled when he thought there was a chance she might be willing to help them, he’s desperate to find a cure for corruption for centi and all the gems in the temple, and now Jasper too. To send Eyeball flying off into space like that… I mean, narratively, yeah, there’s good chance she’ll beat the impossible odds and come back later, but realistically, from Steven’s perspective, he might as well have shattered her then and there. Because sooner or later she’s going to hit another rock and crack or shatter or she’ll fall into a star and melt or she’ll get drawn into a black hole and there will be nothing she can do about it, and she’ll be left to die alone in the vastness of empty space.
So that he was forced to do that, forced to choose between letting them both die out there and saving himself at the cost of her life, that would be painful enough for him, and to have that come right on the heels of learning about what Rose did… While in some measure it’s comforting to know he hasn’t failed his mother, because she would have made the same choice, in some ways it’s even more painful because it reinforces the knowledge that there really WASN’T another choice. That there really isn’t always a high road to take, that sometimes difficult, horrible decisions have to be made - and that if anything there are only more of them in his future
My hobbies include staring at Commander Peepers in scenes where multiple characters are making the same expression and contemplating the fact that whatever face he’s making is the eyeball equivalent of that expression.
I find it funny that Eto said that Furuta was gross for licking his kagune, but she was the one that LICKED KANEKI’S EYEBALL IN A SHOW OF AFFECTION?? DO YOU KNOW HOW GROSS THAT IS??? THE EYEBALL HAS GOOP. SHE GOOPED HERSELF.