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I always struggle with drawing characters consistently unless I draw them a 100 times orz
figured I might as well play with different headcanons!

so @delphyc and i were talking about andrew being a Strong bf and being able to pick neil up, so imagine:

  • the first time it happens is on court when neil is injured. he’s clutching his leg and breathing heavily, trying not to cry because he’s had enough broken bones to know what it feels like.
  • he’s freaking out a little bit, but then andrew is there, his expression tight and eyes narrowed slightly, snapping at the other players when they come too near. neil feels the panic slowly subside.
  • the referee tells him they need to get neil off the court, and andrew flat out refuses to let them touch him.
  • how to resolve such a difficult situation i wonder
  • he asks ‘yes or no’, and when neil gives a pained yes, andrew gently wraps an arm under neil’s knees and one under his arms and just picks him up!! no effort at all!!
  • andrew is angry bc his bf is hurt and that is Unacceptable (he’s also trying to plan an escape route out of the state, maybe the country, because if neil is never able to play again then ichirou can’t have him), but he’s still so gentle with neil. they’re such soft bfs it’s unreal.
  •  turns out that it was an undisplaced fracture, so no permanent damage, neil just has to wear a cast for a few weeks. (they ask him what colour he wants and the fucking nerd chooses orange. andrew rolls his eyes so far back into his skull)

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anonymous asked:

I'm transfeminine but for various reasons I'm not out. How can I appear more feminine and feel more comfortable in men's clothing?

Dress form fitting, bright colors, oranges, pastels. H&M, Express have really tight fitting clothes, accessories with necklaces, I mix and match with mens and womens clothing sometimes.


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(Glanni-is-a-pimp) "Heyyyyy..." He swayed drunkenly towards the other. "Guess who just shrank a whole bottle of Smirnoff and is ready to onload 20 years of baggage?" He gestured to himself, laughing hysterically before sobbing heavily.

“My, my,” Glanni sighed, shaking his head lightly. He looked at the other with a tight expression, almost thoughtful, before standing up and ambling towards the kitchen. “Come on,” he said, “If you’re drunk, I might as well be too.”

Glanni pulled out another bottle of half-drunk vodka from the freezer and set it down on the kitchen island. “Have a seat,” he gestured, taking a spot of his own on a stool. He twisted the cap off lazily before taking a swig and winced a little.


Saturn/Ascendant Aspects

Grave dedication to a routine. Reduced presence. Shyness. Gauntness. Pale, grim, and skinny. Bony. Tight expression. Difficulty reaching out to others. Confronting the other makes you contract. Contracting presence. Contracting in confrontation. Narrowing down. Strained expression. Cutting out the excess. Focusing on the essentials. A narrow viewpoint – not necessarily negative. Ascetics. Minimalists. Tunnel vision. Wearing blinders. Conservatism. Business sense. Business leaders. Managers. A reasonable outlook. Understanding what’s real. Incarnate. The recognition that you have incarnated (in contrast to Neptune/Ascendant). The clock starts now.

The recognition of having a finite amount of time.Time-consciousness. Waiting for the right time. Good sense of timing. The ability to put yourself in the right place at the right time. Not enough spontaneity. If not now, when? The ability to be discerning. Gray days. Raindrops are falling on my head. A dour outlook. Duly dour. Taking life seriously. Little gray men. Contracting into manifestation. Rigid. Maturity. Authority. Restriction. Barrier. Hard lines. The difference between me and you. Boundaries and barriers. Barriers to personality. Barriers to relationship. People put you in a box. You put yourself in a box. Lack of personality. Sticking to the rules. Standards of behavior. Standards of appearance.

Keeping people at a distance. No merging. Learning how to present yourself professionally. Learning how to have healthy personal barriers. Presenting a mask of maturity. Aging fast. Looking older. Acting like a parent. Taking on others’ responsibility. The rules of engagement. Literally, the rules of engagement … you might have a lot of rules that you impose on your partner. You make your partner jump through hoops to be with you. You might make your partner feel that they have to prove themselves to you. You are someone to be looked up to and respected. You might find it difficult to respect people who don’t have personal goals. You measure your progress by how people respond to you. It might be hard to break through and prove yourself. You’re hard on yourself and you’re hard on others. Or, you take on all the difficulties of your partner while they loaf.

Restructuring your outlook. Getting real about your presence in the world. Taking a step back to assess the situation. Learning to check your surroundings. Security-consciousness. Rarely letting go. Afraid of getting in trouble. I am me and you are you. Understanding of personal barriers and personal space. Respectful of personal boundaries. Respectful of other people’s situations. Wanting respect in return. Wanting to be respected. Wanting to be taken seriously. Looking forward to getting older. Looking forward to growing up. Not wanting to be treated like a kid. An adult. A serious person. An old man. A crone. A hermit. A twig. A bone. Fears of looking like a fool. Bad dreams of being a clown. Bad dreams of showing up with no clothes on. Fears of failure. Every interaction is a lesson. Cashing reality checks. Accepting reality. Accepting who you are and where you are.

So many obstacles. So many struggles. Things can be grim. Toughening up. Getting real experience. Having a real life. Danger of becoming too hard. Danger of the outer personality becoming too strong a barrier against the inner life. Over-identification with crystallized outer identity. Hard knocks. Imposing a serious view. Learning to balance levity and seriousness. Making peace with life’s struggles. Understanding that hardship is part of life.

The ability to take your version seriously despite opposition. The ability to go the distance with your viewpoint. The ability to cut through superficiality. The ability to consider long-term implications of choosing a direction in life. The ability to plan ahead. The ability to take your time. The ability to wait for rewards. The ability to trudge forward without praise or hand-clapping. Tenacity. Grit. Hard-working. The ability to set a routine and stick to it. Steadily manifesting a life path. Methodical fulfillment of path goals.

Planets in aspect to the Ascendant are also always in aspect to the Descendant. Posts will be split up between Ascendant and Descendant to show the different point of view that each of the angles brings to the natal chart. To learn about the flip-side of Saturn/Ascendant aspects, read Saturn/Descendant Aspects (Coming soon).

People with Saturn/Ascendant aspects:

  • Janeane Garafolo (actress/comedian): Saturn sextile ascendant
  • Hank Aaron (baseball player): Saturn biquintile ascendant
  • Stephen Arroyo (astrologer): Saturn trine ascendant
  • Ray Davies (singer - The Kinks): Saturn biquintile ascendant
  • Bob Dylan (singer): Saturn quincunx ascendant
  • David Copperfield (magician): Saturn sextile ascendant

From the account of Robert Oswald:

I finally asked him bluntly, ‘Lee, what in the Sam Hill is goin’ on?' 

'I don’t know,’ he said. 

'You don’t know? Look, they got your pistol, they got your rifle, they’ve got you charged with shooting the President and a police officer. And you tell me you don’t know. Now, I want to know just what’s going on.' 

He stiffened and straightened up, and his facial expression was suddenly very tight. 'I just don’t know what they’re talking about,’ he said, firmly and deliberately. 'Don’t believe all this so-called evidence.' 

I was studying his face closely, trying to find the answer to my questions in his eyes or expression. He realized that, and as I stared into his eyes, he said to me quietly, 'Brother, you won’t find anything there.' 

Venus square Saturn

Feelings of rejection, isolation and loneliness can start at an early age. How you deal with this throughout life depends greatly on how much love you received from your parents, especially your father. Along with love, you will have needed encouragement and support to boost your self-esteem. The thing is that you are usually attractive, but you don’t really believe it. You might either downplay your physical appearance or pay excessive attention to it. Either way, self-consciousness with adornments is common. Often, you sell yourself short. You’re not a risk taker when it comes to relationships, often choosing a path that you feel is safe, even if it is an uncomfortable one. Fear of giving can also express itself through tight-fistedness with money. You may have been brought up to believe that you have to work hard for a living and put aside your own wants and desires. Maybe you feel that no matter how hard you work, you never seem to get any further. Often there can be an ingrained belief that money is hard to come by, generating a poverty mindset. If you are creatively inclined, maybe you find it hard to believe you can make a living doing what you love. Perhaps deep down, part of you thinks that being an artist, writer, dancer or whatever you want to do is a cop out – not real work; not something worthy of being paid. You are often plagued by self-doubt as a result, always wondering if you are good enough, always working hard, and trying to make it “good enough.” It can at times trigger a melancholy response, making you feel like you never get to do what you like. Your inner parental voice may tell you that you’re ‘not allowed’. Depression can result from deep-seated unhappiness. You may feel lonely yet hold yourself back from love for fear of rejection. You can feel very unworthy of both money or affection. You may find it difficult to relate to others. Maybe you feel like you’re never quite up on what’s going on socially. Perhaps sometimes you feel left out. You may feel awkward, self-conscious, shy, or inhibited in social environments. You may come across as aloof. You may have an underlying feeling of being dissatisfied in relationships and sometimes like you’re the one who does all the work. Perhaps you feel you have to earn the love of others or that love is never given freely: that there’s always a cost, expectation, or obligation underneath those loving overtures. You don’t know how to express your emotions well. Deep down there can be a fear of rejection so strong that you put up defenses to ward off the chances of it happening. You are frightened of showing your love to anybody. Better to be lonely than to be rejected is what you say. But in doing this, you ultimately reject yourself out of hand. Perhaps in your early life you felt rejected by someone you really cared for, even a parent. As you grew, you sheltered yourself more and more from outside communication, always afraid of rejection. This conditioning may have produced the feeling you have that you are not destined for happiness in your relationships. If you accept others for themselves, realizing that everyone has to make concessions and adjustments to others, then happiness can surely be yours. Try to become more optimistic and give yourself a greater chance for happiness. Feeling melancholy and sorry for yourself stimulates some physical problems, such as high blood pressure caused by tension and anxiety. Learn to relax and let go. Life is too short to let it become unnecessarily burdened by unimportant matters. Although these can be very challenging, it does present ample opportunities to improve on your weaknesses. The constant challenges and lessons about self-worth and love, means that with age, you can achieve the long-term happiness you strive for. The key to working through this is self-love. If you let the criticisms and rejections take hold in your head, then these messages become reinforced. Erase that recording and replace it with positive messages such as “I am worthy of love” and things along that line. Once you start to project a more positive self-image, then you will gain the confidence to make and maintain relationships. No longer will you hide your affections and miss out on opportunities for romance. No longer will you miss out on the feeling of being loved and valued. At your best, you are a loyal and stable partner who takes responsibility for your own feelings. You don’t expect your partner to make you happy. You know that love is a verb and you are willing to put the work in to a relationship. You don’t give up when the going gets tough but at the same time, you know when to draw the line if things aren’t working out. In the realm of finances, you have the ability to make good financial investments. You tend towards quality over quantity and can also be good at hunting out a bargain. You are frugal without being mean and can save for what is important to you without feeling guilty once the money is spent. If you are so inclined, it can also give you the ability to make your creative interests a real and tangible business. To know you deserve love and respect brings with it a healthy level of self-esteem which allows you to say yes to what you want in life and no to what you don’t want. Maturity comes when you no longer need the approval of others. Instead you are your own authority who loves and respects yourself. Over time you have the potential to discover partners that give without expectation of return, love that lasts and a recognition that the key to happiness lies right inside of you. All good things come to those who wait. While puberty is generally a time of silly schoolyard crushes and superficial attractions for most adolescents, you were more serious-minded than that. As a teenager, you usually get involved in really dedicated relationships. You weren’t just exchanging love notes after class. No, it was virtually like a marriage. In fact, this might have been the time that planted that standard in your head. Through the pubescent stage, your idea of love was beyond your years. If it wasn’t a vow, a serious promise, an unbreakable commitment, you weren’t into it. So, here, you can see the teenagers who end up in relationships for several years, well into adulthood. If anyone is likely to marry their high school sweetheart, it’s you. There’s not really a yearning to date around for you. And sure, you might actually date around but it always leaves you cold. Instead, you want to only have eyes for one person. There are some necessary restrictions in love. And this means faithful dedication, as well. Few things hurt as much to you as cheating. “How could you even think of it?” you think. “You promised you would love me and only me.” For this reason, it’s very unlikely to see you in an open relationship. You have the tendency to doubt and to be suspicious and jealous. Things are pretty black or white with you. Either you’re with them or you’re not; either you’re in or out. It can make you either deeply hesitant about commitment or very dedicated but really trapped because of it. Maybe you alternate between both. Yet, you can make for a very reliable, steady partner. You just must get over all of your various anxieties about love. Then, you’ll actually find intense joy in the act of being tied down. You tend to end up with not only partners older than you but good friends who are older, even if it’s just by a handful of years. It’s often the people who are older who can appreciate you more. You will learn to be happy in love, to be at ease with yourself and to control your jealousy in the second half of your life, thanks to an older person who will give your self-confidence back to you, so you can then trust others. You’d think in these kinds of relationships that you’d be sort of behind them. But, that’s usually not the case. You are often a step or two ahead of your years, in terms of your life stage. When you’re 25, you enjoy the things 35 year olds do. And when you’re 35, your tastes are of a 45-year-old. So, it’s no wonder that you associate so much with those who are older. You’re usually right in step with them. And you might even be able to teach them a thing or two! It’s your earthy wisdom that draws people to you, especially as you age. Many of your friendships are conducted on advice-giving, often on your end. In truth, you really love giving people advice, feeling a boost in your own worth from being able to make someone wiser and more developed. However, just don’t indulge too much in this. You can become like a tiresome parent with your friends sometimes, dishing out advice even when it was never asked for. But, you make a wonderfully loyal friend, just as dedicated to your long-term friends as your long-term lovers. You pride yourself on those really solid friendships that last for years and years. Friends can readily come to you for advice on style, as well, because you have pretty distinctive taste. You are well-aware of how what goes on your body will affect your personal image. And this is an influence that can allow you to clean up very nicely. Formal wear is a real love for you, whether it needs to be worn at work or at a fancy event, as you actually enjoy having expectations of what to wear. When there are guidelines, then you can really put something special together. That air of class shines through in that suit or that little black dress, setting you apart. Your tastes in creativity can be just as distinguished. You prefer music that isn’t of the present day, valuing the throwback stuff to what’s playing on the radio now. The same can be said of movies. In fact, your taste in film and music can go far before your generation. Anything that’s before your time is very valuable to you. There is a taste here for something in its own league. You also often has a deep love of classical music. It may be latent but once it’s awakened, it’s a powerful thing. If you’re an artist yourself, you love being creative for the permanence that it can bring. You’ll be an ambitious artist yet you will also succeed because you manage to seem so beyond most of your peers. As an artist, you usually have creative sensibilities that come off as belonging to someone much older than the age you are. You have sexual feelings that are purposeful, goal-oriented even. To be blunt, there are sometimes calculating, seducing others as a means to an end. Sex can have an opportunistic value to you. But, of course, that will not always be the case. Instead, you’re just turned on by the process of sweating and rolling around with someone else toward a mutual goal. And, yes, the sexual satisfaction has to be mutual for you. Otherwise, what’s the point to them? All that time in bed will have felt like a waste! Business is also erotically mixed with pleasure here. So, let’s just say co-worker or employee relationships can easily get complicated. Few things are hotter to you than hard work.

61. Comforting hug

Too many had seen their end in this battle. Too much blood. Too many injured. It was just too much. Dear Angela was at her wits end. She was doing her best to save everyone and too many were dying in her hands. The young doctor was breaking. She could see it. The tears at her eyes and tight lipped expression. She wouldn’t go much longer without breaking down. 

Instead Ana walks over, pulls her aside and wraps her arms tightly around her. Holding her until the doctor caves in and does the same. She doesn’t say anything so neither does Ana. Not yet. There are quite sobs, ones that would be edged away soon - there was work to do. 

“I know, it hurts to have someone die in your care. It doesn’t get any better - it’ll eat at you and tug at your heart. It’ll drag you down at night as the weight sits on your chest. But, know you’ve tried you best and sometimes it’s not enough. You cannot save everyone.” 

Ana doesn’t expect a reply and only holds her a little while longer, waiting until those tears subside. Ana pulls away, brushing hair from her face, offers a tissue and a kind smile. 

“I’m here if you need me.”  

We Should Be Lovers


Sorry to hear about your ask box!! I was wondering if you could do an Obi and reader request based off “Elephant Love Medley” from Moulin Rouge?? Thank you!!

A/N: yES. This was amazing fun to write! Thank you so much for the request! That’s an amazing movie, and I think of it every time I see the second and third prequels. Haha. I’ve been wanting to write something just like this for a while. So, thank you very much!! I sincerely hope you enjoy it as much as I did writing it. <3 Thank you again!

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Creepypasta for the socially anxious

I felt my throat burn as I rounded the corner into the living room, where my mother was watching TV. “I think I need to go to the doctor’s,” I croaked, “my throat is killing me.” her eyes shot toward me, expression tight lipped and disapproving. I knew that look. I knew what was about to come next, and I could barely stand the thought of it.she wouldn’t do this to me. She couldn’t.

“You’re old enough to book your own appointments. ”

@a-decaying-heart | continuation

Hades expression was cool as he sat there in his chair, fingers drumming on the armrest as he listened to the awaiting footsteps of his rather insubordinate boy.

His expression was tight with anger and disappointment as he fiddled with an empty potion bottle in his hand. Potions, magical items that he had showed the boy recently. Well there was a particular one that went missing, but Pan denied having taken it. And Hades had given the teen the benifit of the doubt until one of his servants had managed to unearth the empty vial changing the teen’s mattress.

And now the god sat there, mouth a tight line as he saw the approaching form of the confused looking teenager, likely wondering why he had been summoned. Hades quickly draped his jacket over the empty bottle.

His face deliberately lit up. “Well afternoon, boy! Did you have fun playing in the forest and fixing up the shacks for the other lost boys?” he questioned lightly. Sweetly. Far too sweet. “I know how terribly…run down the houses have gotten lately.”

it wasn’t normal for hades to wish to speak to him, and call for him from where the teen was in other parts of the underworld either scouting, with the lost boys, or occasionally helping the man with his work. this time he had been summoned, however, an entirely graver aspect to everything, and the teen was swift to enter the basement of the underworld where he and the god resided.

no longer the main owner of the shop he’d lost the tux and more elegant attire for the preferred dark jeans and jackets; currently he also wore his pied cloak, having taken to wearing it out of old habit after less than… pleasant, sleepless nights. the hood was preferred for what he spent his nights and days doing now, haunted by a ghost that simply refused to die, trying to deal with it all without the watchful notice of hades. it was difficult but the youth had been rather successful in keeping the god out of the loop — until now. he didn’t know that though, as he stepped int the main chamber, sliding the hood from his head, looking at hades expectantly. expecting a report of someone causing trouble, or perhaps new threats to the kingdom.

he wasn’t expecting the cheery tone; the tone he’d heard many times. thing was… he’d only ever heard hades use it on his victims.


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Maponus sighed, rubbing his temple. “We might head up north, where the magic is stronger. Hopefully, I could cast the spell there.” He said. 

“I don’t think we could leave yet,” Luke said suddenly, his expression tight and wary. “I can feel the entrances are blocked and surrounded.”