express oneself

i don’t use any other “social media” besides tumblr so maybe this is a realization many people have already had and i’m just understanding this now, but someone just showed me the vast number of emoticons / emojis one can use on facebook and we were talking about how those emojis can be used on their own to communicate so many things…which is really cool but also makes me so fucking angry because like do people realize that that’s basically a form of AAC? 

like, it’s not that different than a communication board or whatever with pre-set images one can select to communicate various emotions or thoughts - the difference here being that because emojis aren’t seen as AAC and aren’t only used by disabled people, they are treated really differently and people think emojis are fun and cool and use them as a convenient way to communicate things without having to necessarily attach words to it…whereas PECS boards or other similar AAC things - including apps that work on iPhones or iPads or whatever  - are mostly treated as “special” and often pitiable or whatever and that’s just like?? 

to be clear, I’m super glad that it has become so much more possible to express oneself using little pictures of pizza and cats and rainclouds, but if you’re gonna use emojis / pictures to tell other people stuff, maybe also consider that doing so is a fucking valid form of communication 

The Truth About Learning Japanese

(I’m going to start with a random side note: If I ever get a book deal to write Japanese primer, I’m going to call it I Eat Cake Everyday: A Complete Guide to Japanese with Stupid Sentences.)

It’s been a while since we’ve just talked, so I wanted to just take a moment to do that.

I think every Japanese platform at one point write an article about “the deep truth” of learning Japanese, claiming to give you the golden key that you need to become fluent in only 6 months or 1 year or whatever. 

The argument for those kinds of posts isn’t hard to understand: People are fundamentally similar. If people are fundamentally similar, it is very likely that works for me will will work for you. Thus, if this works for me, it will work for you. This does work for me. Therefore, it will work for you (most likely.)

This is why all articles start with something like, “I guarantee you that I’m no genius. [Insert daily task that the writer struggles with on a daily basis.] I’m just a regular person that tried out a few things until I found a winning formula.”

I, personally, want to do my own take on this kind of article. I won’t offer a golden key, but I’ll talk about learning Japanese.

1. Japanese is Coded in the Most Inefficient Writing System in the World

Kanji, the logographs that are the bane of all Japanese-learner’s existence, comes from China. Kanji itself, 漢字, means “Chinese characters.” Kanji were invented to suit the needs of the Chinese language (from way back when, before Mandarin/Standard Chinese was a thing.) Japanese, on the other hand, is a language isolate, and it is not related to Chinese. So the use of these Chinese characters has over time been used in different ways for different words and with different readings- for Kanji tend to have multiple readings, sometimes being just 2 and at other times 8. 

In Eastern Asia, the use of Chinese characters was widespread. It was used in Korea, in Vietnam, in Japan, to some varying extent in Malaysia, and the territories these nations conquered.

Korea developed an ingenious writing system called Hangeul, which now has all but totally substituted Chinese characters. Vietnam adopted the Roman alphabet with many diacritics. Japanese, well, Japanese developed two writing systems based on morae. These two writing systems could be used to write out the entirety of Japanese. Kanji is not really necessary. Further, there is no evidence to suggest that there are so many homophones such that even with context one could not make head or tails out of what was being said. 

So, Japanese does have a potential unique writing system that is easy to learn (it’s easier than Hangeul in my opinion), but it does not use it exclusively because of cultural reasons. Kanji is just hardwired into the culture.

But here’s where my personal opinion and advice come in: If you have to choose between loving Kanji and hating it, hate it. Don’t romanticize it. Don’t go “above and beyond” what you have to know because of your love for Kanji. Just learn what you have to learn, and leave it at that.

“How many Kanji must someone learn?” The official common use Kanji list (the Jōyō Kanji) lists 2,136 Kanji. How many readings are among these Kanji? Somewhere around 3,869. There are also some variations on Kanji that one should keep in mind and some Kanji that one sees only in names, so add around 400 Kanji to the official list and about 400 new readings.

“How many Kanji must I learn for my first year of Japanese?” All of them. That’s my honest advice. Don’t aim to learn only a few Kanji. If you’re going to learn Kanji, learn them all. Think in that mindset. As soon as you decide you want to learn Japanese, work on Kanji. Before you enter a classroom and learn your first few greetings and whatnot, make sure you know all the common use Kanji, or at least that you’re well on your way to knowing all the Kanji.

2. Language Learning is an Intensive Process

Learning a language is a process that scientists haven’t quite been able to describe accurately. We do know, nevertheless, that it’s a heck of a lot different from learning chemistry or carpentry or bicycling. 

In the Western world, there is this idea that one can learn a language in a classroom, normally as a subject period, with periods lasting somewhere from 50 to 70 minutes. Here’s the truth: it doesn’t work very well. (There are historic reasons for this way of learning a language, but we can talk about that some other time.) The success rates of language acquisition in classrooms is ridiculously low. This does not mean that language classes are bad: but it means that it just isn’t enough.

There are many reasons why learning a language in and of itself may be hard. It’d take forever to talk about all of them. 

But let’s talk a bit about lexicons. A lexicon, here, refers to the dictionary in your brain where you store the words you know. If you’re monolingual- you have a standard dictionary in your brain with a word and definitions. If you were raised bilingual, then you have one lexicon with two words and definitions. That is to say, if you’re an English-Spanish speaker, then you have “cat” and “gato” in the same space in your brain and you know that what applies to one applies to the other. Then, depending on your fluency and use, you may have two supplementary dictionaries where you store all the information about words that don’t exist in the other language and idioms and expressions and things like that. 

Now, if you’re an English speaker and, say, you want to learn German, part of what you’ll learn to do is to process your English lexicon entries into German. What that means is that you learn to engineer English words into German. “Father” turns into “Vater,” “to drink” turns into “trinken,” “Love” turns into “Liebe,” etc. So the words that have no relation with English (the non-cognates), turn into a supplementary lexicon and everything else is put through a mental processor. 

Because the brain can do this is the reason why many people in Europe can speak many languages. The fact that someone can speak Spanish, Portuguese, Catalan, Italian, and French is not terribly impressive. The overlap in words (and in grammar) is so immense that what you’re doing is processing one language into another and you’re guaranteed an astonishing success rate.

Japanese, however, is different because it’s a language isolate. You can’t process one language into another. You have to learn words one by one. That takes time. It takes repetition. Memorization is as much an active process as it is a subconscious process. When people talk about the benefits of “immersion,” what they’re talking about most of the time is putting your brain into survival mode, i.e. either you learn all these words (and grammar stuff) or else you will not be able to survive and thus you will die. That is one way of doing it, and if you do not choose this path you have to commit some serious time to this. I believe that if one knows around 5,000 of the most frequently used words in any given language, one is guaranteed to know at least 95% of all the words one will hear/read in a day (given that one doesn’t go read a super technical manual on how to calibrate a nuclear reactor or something like that.) So, the question becomes how will you memorize 5,000 words? How long will that take? If one learns 10 a day, then it’s 500 days, and if one learns 50 a day, it’s 100 days. 

The tradeoff when it comes to speed is that the faster you learn something, the faster you forget. (When you relearn something, it should be faster nevertheless.) So how much time will you commit to learning a language? How will you follow that up? These are important questions.

3. Japanese Media is Considerably Insular

Japan isn’t like the United States. The United States wants every nation to know what music it likes, what fashion it wears, what it believes ideologically and socially, etc. The U.S. is everywhere.

South Korea, recently, is everywhere. K-Pop, K-Dramas, K-SNL, K-Beauty. If you want to know what Korea is up to, it’s pretty easy to find out. They want you know! 

Japan… eh. Japan is pretty good at making anime available globally. People know about Dragon Ball and Sailor Moon and the Mighty Atom and all that. When it comes to dramas and movies and tv shows, they’re not quite interested in that. Ages ago I wrote a post on the misconception of “Whacky Japanese Game Shows,” where I basically explained that most of those shows aren’t game shows but segments on variety shows, the only person in my mind having totally insane game shows being Beat Takeshi.

Okay, fine, what does this mean? This means two important things. First, one’s expose to the language outside of going to Japan or talking to Japanese people will be based highly on anime, which is fine but there are other styles of expressing oneself. One needs a bit of variety. If one goes the information/news route, then one is exposing oneself to something very formal and literary, but dull. Second, it means that when people teach Japanese, they’re going to assume that one wants to speak Japanese for business purposes. This sounds strange to say, but let me put it like this: Japanese is an important part of the world economy and STEM and anime, on the other hand, is not a sufficiently large part of Japanese culture so that the Japanese can figure you want to learn Japanese for that sole purpose. If you want to speak Japanese, then it must be for business purposes (and we’ll consider academics to be within business.) So you learn Japanese through the perspective of honorific and respectful language. This isn’t a bad thing either, but the desire to make you sound nice will often lead to lies about how Japanese actually works at a grammatical level.

(On the other hand, in South Korea the K-Pop/K-Drama boom is such a big deal that people around the world start learning Korean in hopes of auditioning for the big production companies in hopes of becoming actors, singers, dancers, and hosts.)

So here’s my advice: Once you have your feet wet with Japanese, once you know your Kanji and you know how to analyze a sentence (even if the lexicon isn’t all there yet), look at something that isn’t anime. I recommend movies, a lot of which are quite nice. Okuribito (Departures) was a great movie. An (Red Bean Paste) is a more recent film that was wonderful. Look up some movies. Sit down, and watch them. Watch it with subtitles, so you know what the movie’s about. But watch it a second time and a third time without subtitles. Try to see if you can make out a few sentences, read a few signs that appear in the background, take note of expressions or words you keep hearing. No, you won’t be able to understand the whole film all of a sudden, but it’s something new and something good and the more Japanese you learn, the more you will be able to return to the film and make out. Eventually, you will be able to listen to a sentence, pause the film, and look up the words you don’t know.

4. Learning Japanese Doesn’t Happen with One Method Alone

This is rather obvious, but it’s worth finishing this off with. There is an abundance of book series, CDs, cassettes, and even online resources (our own included.)

A language is greater than any method, than any curriculum, than any teacher. No one source has all the answers. One has to be encouraged from day one to look at many resources.

A library is a language learner’s best friend. Why? Because books can be expensive, and you will probably not need all the resources you dabble into for a long time. So, when you begin learning Japanese, look at the entire Japanese section, order a few famous books through InterLibrary Loan, if you have access to that, and sit down and just read the books, as if they were novels. Don’t memorize a thing. Don’t do the exercises. Just figure out their style, their aims, their perspective. Do read the footnotes! The more footnotes a book has, the more useful it tends to be in the long run. Information that isn’t relevant in Lesson 1 may be absolutely vital in Lesson 10. 

Check out some old books if you can. The way people learn a language today is not the same way they learned it 50 or 100 years ago. The most useful Italian grammar book I ever read was written in the 1800′s. Japanese books published before World War II may have some slightly outdated things, such as the /we/ and /wi/ morae, but they will be good for most of everything else. I’m personally dying to get library privileges again somewhere to be able to look into these, so if I find some good book titles I’ll let you know.

Because a lot of language instruction was, until recently, modeled after the way Greek and Latin was taught, reading some of our own material gets you familiar with the lingo, should you heed my advice. So people like to talk about cases and declensions and conjugations and moods and all that. The works of William George Aston are some of the most important books on Japanese historically. So, if you can find originals of those, please do read them.

So yeah, food for thought

Dreams 🌙 💫 🌟 ✨

Earth dreams are practical. Dreams of what the day brings, of routine. Nightmares of losing important & valuable things. Nightmares concerning realistic and troubling situations that can occur in the wakeful life.
Water dreams are magical or fantasy-like dreams, lucid. Nightmares about frightening dark figures or a daunting presence in the distance. Emotional turmoil nightmares.
Air dreams have a dash of idealism, brightness and futuristic glimpses. Nightmares of being trapped or chased. Mental eruptions.
Fire dreams are quick and explosive. Nightmares of falling then waking up suddenly. Nightmares of war with the self and being unable to express themselves.

Sun/Leo: bright and colorful dreams, pleasantly warm dreams, eternal and divine youthfulness / nightmares of losing the self, of being worthless and unimportant, being unable to express oneself
Moon/Cancer: lucid dreams, mysterious and nostalgic dreams. Forgotten memories. Dreams with bodies of water, reflecting inner emotions / nightmares of being abandoned or lost. Withdrawing into the womb and drowning, never again surfacing
Mercury/Gemini/Virgo: dreams may manifest in quick, breathless dreams, child-like curiosity dreams, dreams that can’t be remembered because they’re fleeting / nightmares of running away, of feeling desperate and not knowing what to do, nervousness that becomes chaotic anxiety. Virgo is ruled by Mercury but heavily affiliated with Chiron, their dreams may be bittersweet; the innocent child-like dreams of Mercury but tinged with the pain of Chiron
Venus/Libra/Taurus: dreams of love and connection, relaxation and luxury, beautiful things, rose petal dreams, serenity of the soul, being surrounded by pleasant people / nightmares of ugliness, losing oneself in chaos, of loneliness and hollowness, of feeling worthless or unloved, of destroyed comfort and security.
Mars/Aries/Scorpio: dreams of playful roughness, of passion, undomesticated but peacful wild animals, of intense attraction / nightmares of violence and being attacked, falling, people they care about getting hurt physically, physical pain, uncomfrotable heat
Jupiter/Sagittarius/Pisces: dreams of happiness, joyfulness, adventures, losing themselves to romanticism, nature, of rising mentally or physically, of the cosmos / nightmares of being contained and restricted, of being held back physically, of trying to escape
Saturn/Capricorn/Aquarius: dreams of enlightenment, of lead turned into gold, feeling in control, of feeling limitless and self-assured / nightmares of insecurities, no direction, of discomfort, of public embarrassment, not being good enough and rejection
Uranus/Aquarius: dreams of all things new, of discovering, of sudden but pleasant change, of friends, weird dreams, quirky encounters with strangers, of purpose / nightmares of fighting against something & losing, rejection/not belonging, of freedom being ripped away, changes that feel like inner earthquakes
Neptune/Pisces: dreams of water, of fantasy-like dreams, of dreams within dreams, hoping for the best, romance, spirituality / nightmares of feeling confused and delusional, losing themselves, inner turmoil, dissolving into nothing
Pluto/Scorpio: predictive dreams, comfort from darkness and seclusion, of growth and rising powerfully from inner disturbances / nightmares of spiteful feelings, death of themselves or loved ones, changes that cannot be handled, emotional upheavals

Each types least favorite things

ISTJ: Under-performing, letting others down, being nagged, a lack of honor.

ESTJ: Being disrespected, whining, having to be emotionally open, new-age silliness.

INTJ: Ignorance, flippant behavior, feeling stupid, subjectivity. 

ENTJ: Being wrong, having to handle something with kid gloves, failure, Immaturity, crying. 

ISFJ: Inconsiderate people, having to make tough decisions that effect others, not fitting in, not sharing.

ESFJ: being disliked, putting oneself before others, know-it-alls, selfishness. 

INFJ: Feeling forced, Misunderstandings, being surrounded by conflict, when people intentionally lack perspective. 

ENFJ: Unsolved conflict, closed off-ed-ness, unfairness, societal marginalization

ISFP: being told to live in a certain way, lack of freedom, meanness, being artistically stifled

ESFP: boundaries, judgement, not being able to express oneself, plainness.

INFP: feeling invalidated, having to be strictly logical and objective, a lack of imagination, conflict.

ENFP: Their ideas being stolen, someone questioning their sincerity, subjective logic, unchallenged beliefs. 

ISTP: Being told what to do, stupidity, rigid structure, people who won’t get their hands dirty.

ESTP: Limits, “stupid people”, authority, having to tone it down

INTP: A lack of intelligence, emotional perspectives, scientific stagnation, invalidating ideas. 

ENTPs: Rules, hiding their power level, objective morality, being written off for being unorthodox


Tongue Tied

Prompt: Damian has a crush on the reader, but every time he tried to tell her how he feels he gets embarrassed and messes up. Sooo I got a little carried away with this one. I intended it to be short, I swear. >> Damian is probably around 17/18 in this. Hope you like it! ^^ __________________________________________

It was turning out to be a relatively uneventfully day all around. Not that anyone was complaining, patrol had taken a turn south last night and they’d all come home a little roughed up and dead tired, three hours later than planned. None of them were strangers to sleep deprivation, but as nothing was going on anyway the boys had decided to retreat to the den to watch movies for the day. It was Tim’s choice today, which meant that they were making their way through the original star wars movies when you popped your head around the door.
Damian was relieved, quite frankly. Tim’s taste in movies very rarely agreed with him, and he’d been struggling to pay attention for awhile now. The only reason he was still awake was that Tim kept nudging him and attempting to explain parts of the movie to him, and even though he was whispering, Tim Drake would not be ignored when he was on one of his ‘geek rants’.
“Pssssssst,” you whispered, waving at Damian, even though his attention had been on you since you’d appeared. Jason grunted. “You can talk out loud youknow. Nobody’s actually watching this,” “Hey!” Tim shot him a wounded glance, to which Jason just shrugged. Damian raised an eyebrow, motioning for you to continue. “Okay, so. I was down in the batcave, and you know how Bruce wants us all to be well rounded fighters or whatever?” Damian nodded. “Yeah, so I decided I was gonna practice my swordsmanship, and Bruce was down there working on a case or whatever, and well, he says I suck.” You made a face, and Damian snorted in amusement. Trust Bruce to be blunt about these things. Dick chuckled from his position in the armchair, clearly listening in, and you threw him a wounded look.
Thing is, you’d been with Bruce for longer than Damian had, arriving only a little after Tim. And you were still terrible with most weapons. Also, Damian was completely head over heels for you, but that was irrelevant. It just meant that his stomach did an embarrassing little flip at your next words. “Bruce said I should ask you to help me Dami. So um, if you’re free this evening…?” You threw him a pleading look from under your lashes.
Damian, in fact, wasn’t free this evening. He had landed wrong on his ankle last night and twisted it, Alfred had warned him to stay off his feet for the day if he intended on going on patrol tonight. One look at your face though, and that suddenly became completely inconsequential. He nodded. “Of course. Father’s right, a weakness like that could prove fatal on the battlefield.” He was trying for nonchalance, but his voice was gruff. You beamed at him, bouncing over to press a quick kiss against his cheek. “Thanks Dami! I’ll go tell Bruce,” You cheered, already halfway out the door.
Damian’s expression was stoic, except for the uncontrollable blush spreading across his cheekbones. Damn it. Jason gave a low whistle. “Maaaan, you are whipped,” Dick nodded knowingly, and Tim hummed in agreement. Damian gave him a nudge with his foot. It was Tim’s own fault for sitting at his feet. He chose not to acknowledge Jason. It was an old argument, one that always lead to the youngest being incredibly embarrassed. The best defense against this particular topic was to stay silent. His brothers were having none of it, however. “Just tell her,” Dick urged, leaning forward in his seat to look Damian in the eye. “She obviously likes you too. Even Bruce can see it, he’s clearly trying to win you some alone time,“ Damian shrugged. “You cannot be sure of that,” But despite himself he felt something leap in his chest at the prospect. He struggled to push the hope back down. He was the son of the world’s greatest detective, he would have noticed if you liked him in that way. Maybe it was true that you were closer to him than you were the others, but that was just coincidence, he was sure. You simply understood each other, nothing more. Dick saw the momentary flicker of uncertainty on Damian’s face. At last he was getting through that thick skull of his. His next words to his baby brother were casual as he turned back to the movie. “You’ll never know for sure unless you tell her how you feel little wing,” Damian huffed, not dignifying that with a reply. He tried to ignore the sense of truth to what Dick had just said.

To his credit, over the next few days Damian did try. He made the decision that evening during their training session. He had to admit that Bruce was right about your sword skills. If it came to you needing to use one in the field you would effectively be useless. He kind of hated himself for finding that fact almost endearing. But standing behind you, adjusting your grip and stance with careful touches that sent little jolts of electricity through his veins, he realised that this had gone too far for him to be able to ignore it any longer. And when you grinned up at him, he knew it would be worth it. 

 His first attempt was during patrol. Bruce had cleared him to go out despite his ankle, partially because it had healed somewhat since the night before but mostly because arguing with Damian was unnecessarily exhausting, and Bruce was tired enough as it was. It was a thankfully quiet night, and you were seated on the edge of an apartment building rooftop when Damian came over to sit beside you. “Sup Robin?” You greeted easily, swinging your legs over the ledge. “Songbird,” He seemed somewhat uncomfortable, you noted with surprise. “I -” He paused, cleared his throat. “Would you like to see a movie with me?” His face was flushed, and you frowned. Was he not feeling well? You often cuddled up and watched movies together when one of you was under the weather. Well, you cuddled, Damian allowed you to. “Sure, how about in the morning? We can do the whole blankets and popcorn thing. You should probably get some sleep tonight though, you don’t look so great,” You studied him, concerned. He simply nodded at your words, and you swore his face got a little redder. Next thing you knew he was gone, jumping between the buildings with a dexterity you could only admire.

 As it turned out, Damian was not good at this. Which was surprising, to say the least. Words had always been his strong suit, not to mention his father was the billionaire playboy Bruce Wayne. Regardless of this, whenever he tried to ask you out he turned into a fumbling idiot, mixing up his words and turning tomato red from the neck up. It was absolutely humiliating. He tried to tell you how he felt several times during the next few days. Each time was even more of a disaster than the last. For your part, you found Damian’s sudden inarticulacy around you to be undeniably adorable, but confusing as hell. His newfound tendency to freeze up around you and honest-to-god blush didn’t go unnoticed by the rest of the family either. You felt you were being left out of some inside joke when Jason or Tim would snigger at something Damian had said or done. It was perplexing, to say the least. Especially when one morning you walked into the kitchen for breakfast to find Damian seated at the table, pen in hand and frowning down at a piece of writing paper. He didn’t seem to notice your entrance, and curiously you came up behind him and hooked your chin over his shoulder. “Whatcha doing?” “Nothing!” His head jerked up and he snatched up the piece of paper, scrunching it into a ball in his fist. You raised an eyebrow, backing off. “Ohhkay then,”

 As soon as you had left, Damian slammed his head down onto the tabletop. Earlier that morning Alfred had taken pity on his sorry state and suggested that Damian write you a letter instead, seeing as telling you in person wasn’t working out. Damian had scoffed at the idea initially; letters were a cowards way out. Damian was going to be a man about this. Alfred had brought him around to the idea eventually though, hedging that perhaps such means of expressing oneself were for a more refined class only. It had been going well until you had caught him. He was starting to think he was doomed. 

 You had taken to practicing your swordsmanship every day now, and with Damian’s help you were slowly but surely improving. The more competent you became the less of a chore training felt, and to your surprise that night you found you were actually having fun. Damian was his usual confident self with a sword in hand, and now that he was satisfied that your drills were somewhat passable you had taken to sparring. Damian of course always won, but you couldn’t bring yourself to mind, not when he seemed to enjoy it so much. You made what you thought was a decent pass with your sword, confident that this time you would disarm him. Instead, Damian easily sidestepped, dodging your blow and lunging forward, knocking your sword from your grasp. The force of the blow unsteadied you and you overbalanced, huffing out a surprised gasp as you hurtled for the floor. At the last second Damian reached out and grabbed your arm, halting your fall. He grinned down at you smugly, and you were suddenly acutely aware of what a mess you were.

 Your hair was coming loose from your ponytail and sticking to your face, as was your shirt. You were out of breath and flushed, while Damian stood there in all his perfection, completely unaffected as he smirked at you. That, you decided, was not okay. Quick, too fast for him to stop you, you kicked out a leg, aiming for his knees. The strike connected and you savoured your partner’s shout of surprise as his legs went out from under him and you both tumbled to the floor. A second later you were both laughing, your limbs tangled awkwardly together. You weren’t quite sure how it happened, but suddenly you became acutely aware of Damian’s closeness, strong arms braced on either side of your head to keep himself from crushing you. His face was mere inches from yours, and when your eyes connected you felt a blush spread across your cheeks that had nothing to do with exertion.

 The next thing you knew, Damian was leaning in, and your lips were pressed together and he was kissing you. Time seemed to stand still for an instant, and then you were kissing him back forcefully, freeing your hands from beneath his body to tangle them in his hair. When you eventually parted, you were both out of breath, and the way Damian was looking at you made your heart stutter. And then he was grinning at you, and you were grinning back, and he leaned in again to steal a chaste kiss. “Would you like to go out with me?” His words were whispered against your lips, and your response was to pull his mouth to yours again heatedly. When you parted this time, there was no hesitation. “I would like that very much,” “Good,” He smirked.


Here’s a pretty cool interview where Keanu talks a little about his Hawaiian family, imperialism, and the desire to express oneself freely. It’s really short, but given his reticence to talk about personal stuff, it’s still very interesting and very Keanu.

The World of Adam Young Scores - Original art by James Eads, mashed up by yours truly 

I am beyond happy that Adam Young has finally fulfilled his dream project. I can really hear him in his music, this is him: his heart and soul poured out in music sheets. There is passion in it, a dedication in telling stories through notes. I dream that someday Adam Young would make new film scores, maybe even actually make a film score for a film he himself has made (Imagine Flames Pond, with full production and a dramatic, action-packed soundtrack)

It feels like falling in love again, right, Adam? This refreshing feeling when you have this upsurge of energy to create, to express oneself artistically, to paint outside borders, and to experiment with a fresh palette of ideas and skills that one has discovered? 

Well, I look forward to your new music, in whichever project it may be, as long as your heart and soul is in it. Congratulations and stay owlsome. Your hoot owl family will always be here to support you.

anonymous asked:

Hello! I really wanted to thank you on talking about your asexuality and how you "found out" later in life. It took me a really long time to come around to it myself (I'm in my mid 20s now) and honestly the worst part is that I have lost friends because they were in willing to accept Asexuality as a real thing. If it's not too probing a question, did you get any negative reactions from friends/family coming out as ace? If so how did you deal with it?

I’m so sorry you’ve lost friends! I honestly haven’t “come out” anywhere other than in my internet life. My family has never been one to discuss our personal/romantic/sexual lives with each other, so it’s not something that would ever even come up in that arena for me. If they googled me, I’m sure they would find out, and I’m fine with that, but I have the feeling most of them assume I’m just an ally, rather than actually part of the queer community. 

The thing about asexuality, you see, is it’s hard to define yourself by something you’re NOT. It feels different on tumblr and twitter, because these forms of social media have a language and understanding that make it easy to express oneself that doesn’t exactly translate to “the real world.” 

For me, because of the fact that I ended up in a monogamous hetero relationship, I think most people assume I’m just straight (even though I’ve been in serious relationships with women in the past). I wouldn’t ever say “I’m fine with that” and if it ever came up, I’d be sure to set the record straight (haha pun). But it’s not something I’ve gone around preemptively “well, actually”ing. More power to you, though, if you’re being that vocal in your own life. It sounds like it comes with a cost for you, but your bravery is admirable!

I think my main concern with uninvitedly broadcasting my asexuality is that I worry people who aren’t regularly part of discussions of sexuality (which tumblr is) will take it as some kind of sex shaming. And I would never want to make anyone feel bad for their own sexualities, especially if it’s something that they’ve had a difficult time embracing. Sex positivity is such a tenuous thing in so many circles, that I worry about damaging that, and I want to be extra careful. 

It’s a sad thing that your friends weren’t able to support you, but I also wonder what their own damage is? Did they somehow take your asexuality personally because they were in unhealthy emotional situations? Like assume you were judging them for being sexual people because they were ashamed of their own sexual natures because society will do that to a person? Obviously this is not your fault in any way whatsoever. I hope working toward a sex-positive culture will benefit everyone, especially asexuals in situations like this! 

I’m extremely sad to leave Tokyo today.
Even for the worlds biggest metropolis you could easily practice spirituality/witchcraft like so fucking easily. I hate being trapped in New Jersey and feeling so isolated. Incense here costs cents and comes in literally every scent. The accessories and fashion here is crazy fucking magical on another level and it’s not just cute colorful cartoony clothes you might see in typical Harajuku guides it’s very ethereal and colorful fairy like and expressive. Zen and spirituality is so fucking engrained in everything here. The people are also having a mini cultural revolution but I don’t want to talk about it too much it’s kind of a secret but there are like magical mini neighborhoods of mini universes dedicated to expressing oneself, art and magic cause there’s a collective of youth that believe in living life as a fulfilling experience and believing that the poor(like lower income cause like poor here is no where near the same reality as poor in the us) deserve to live an affordable life filled with art instead of slaving away as an office salaryman that literally die from overwork.
It’s magical without aiming to be magical it just is. Magical. If I lived there I would study their magic. It’s so fucking easy and FUCKING CHEAP to find tools there. Stores sell large tumbled crystals FOR CENTS and mini tapered and tea light candles in every sent and color and you know Japan would have them in crazy shapes. It’s so easy to find magical accessories and charms. It’s so easy to practice here. It’s just so sadly easy. You don’t have to be so closeted here. People understand spirits and magic. You just have to be mega careful who you speak to cause people will take you 20000000% seriously and in some cases that can be dangerous. Shit is real out here. Magic feels so much more tactile. Like it’s exhilarating but at the same time you have to be careful.
It’s nothing like Salem where it feels like a town that’s trying to be magical cause it’s a designation you know? Like since some places in the US feel void of magic cause of intolerance or this white western extreme scientific atheist culture (I can probably write more on this later to explain myself. I don’t have much time now), it’s like some towns have to DESIGNATE themselves like hubs or havens and some people try to take advantage of that and market to you something that’s not real cause they don’t believe in it themselves they just want to sell a gimmick. It just feels more sad and stifled in the US and I already feel that post Tokyo/Japan depression and I’m not even back yet. If I lived here having a hog warts witchy life would be easy, cheap as FUCK and like easily embedded into my life. Witchcraft books are everywhere, spiritual shops are everywhere, their florists are LIKE ACTUAL fair gardens AND sell potted herbs like almost all of them in the residential area. And of course it’s Asia so their tea/herbal shops are amazing and inexpensive. Dude I’m just fucking sad to leave. I’ve never been in a place where it’s just so easy and ingrained in everything.

Also to add with all this I can’t even fathom how Kyoto/Osaka will be lol.

jholden76  asked:

hi Danielle, I swear I could listen to Jen talk about Emma all day long! She probably knows Emma better than herself at this stage so she knows exactly what kind of wedding dress Emma would wear. Also I know next to nothing about how tv shows are made but I do think it's unusual that Jen is given so much say in what Emma wears and I think it's pretty amazing that A&E value her input so much. From Jen's interviews she seems to really enjoy being part of the design process.

I. Could. Too.

I think it’s quite clear that she adores this character, fully understands this character, and wants all the happiness for her. I also think Jen takes in interest in expressing oneself through fashion and clothing choices, anyway, so I’m glad Eddy and Adam and Eduardo have given her the freedom of having a say in Emma’s wardrobe choices.

(I’m not that well-versed in how much choice and input the actor is typically given in wardrobe, either, but I’m betting that it, like other elements of translation from page to screen, probably varies from creator to creator. For example, some writers or showrunners are fine with the actors rewording some lines if they flow off the tongue better or ad-libbing here and there; others don’t allow that kind of adaptation and want the actors to deliver the lines as written with no changes or rewording. So it kind of all depends. I personally like that Adam and Eddy, with this and other things I’ve heard over the years, seem to want to allow the process to be at least somewhat collaborative; it shows that they value their actors’ opinions as to the story they’re spending their time acting out, you know?)

So yes, being as Adam and Eddy have developed Emma’s story over the past six years, Jen has played out that story over the last six years, and that Eduardo has been dressing Emma for the past six years, I enjoyed Jen explaining how they came to settle on the design for Emma’s wedding dress. No one is obligated to love it or even agree with them, but I do think that some respect for the work they’ve put in and the clear thought process that went into choosing the design elements they chose is warranted.

And while you’ve provided me the opportunity to step on my soapbox a little:

I can’t believe this is even a drama, you guys. I cannot believe Dressgate 2017 is even a thing. Instead of nitpicking the dress or the veil or the flowers in the bouquet, I prefer to focus on the fact that Emma Swan and Killian Jones are, y’know, actually getting married. I prefer to focus on the fact that Emma even has a dress to get married in because the marriage is happening in the first place.

I once reblogged something with semi-joking addition that Emma and Killian could have the most romantic, fairy-tale-iest wedding of all time and there would still be fans finding problems with the dress or the bouquet or the venue. And now that the dress has been revealed, what I am actually seeing with my own two eyes? Nitpicks about the dress and the veil and the bouquet.

Face, meet palm and head, meet desk.

I honestly think the show is at the point for some people where it just cannot do anything good enough. Nothing is going to make some fans happy. Here we have the marriage of two characters we’ve watched fall in love from the moment they first met (all four times!) and some fans are unhappy because the dress isn’t what they envisioned.

I fully understand that you can’t please all of the people all of the time but I also think sometimes other fans need to remember that, too. No single show can do everything right by everyone so maybe some things just need to be let go so they can enjoy what’s in front of them.

I just … don’t get it. I think Emma looks beautiful and I think the dress is gorgeous and I think Jen is excited and proud of how it came out.

And I think it’s important to remember that the people who designed the dress are professionals who have been living intimately with the character (well, as intimately as they can with a fictional character … you know what I mean ;)) for six whole years. Again, no one is obligated to like it and people are entitled to their own opinions. But just as I find it unnecessarily dismissive to pick apart the writing on the show and pick on the writers, I find it just as unnecessarily dismissive to pick apart the design of a wedding dress because someone may not personally find it suitable to their own tastes or because they would have done it differently.

Whew, that got long!! Sorry for the vent but thank you for providing me the opportunity to rant! I apparently have lots of feelings about this. ;)

Consider this a micro headcanon, but it’s been rattling around in my head and it’s been a while since I’ve posted one on this blog anyway, but: Giovanni isn’t one to casually use coarse language. He doesn’t swear unless properly motivated as in – you really have to push him to the limit for him to start dropping bombs and when he’s at that point, you’d better run

It’s a holdover from his upbringing. Like with all aspects of Giovanni’s life, Madame Boss was quite the disciplinarian when it came to her son’s manner of speech. But also it’s a part of his image. Giovanni’s spent decades cultivating this reputation of being a refined gentleman and in his eyes, resorting to profanity when there are a number of other ways express oneself is simply a sign of low intelligence. 

What people around him say hardly matters, he gives his subordinates that liberty and he’s not going to be offended in any way since he more than understands that there’s a certain amount of catharsis in just being able to curse. Certainly during his younger years he used to swear like a sailor, but he’s a successful businessman and the leader of one of the most powerful organisations in the world and that means he’s above that sort of nonsense.

The Eight Fold Path

Right Understanding is about applying the four noble truths in your life, taking them from an idea to a practiced reality. The enlightened person sees the truth of the world, recognising the flawed and temporary nature of objects and ideas. They see the cause and effect relationships that connect the events of the world. Because all ideas and concepts are ultimately impermanent, the enlightened person doesn’t rely on ideologies and other external explanations of the world in order to practice Right Understanding. Instead they cultivate their intuition and use it to build a deeper, more complete, understanding of the world beyond the level of appearances.

Right Thought/Intention is the commitment to become a more conscious person with a self-improvement mind-set. Upon this foundation of conscious self-improvement, the enlightened person creates an inner environment in which they consciously choose, moment by moment, the course of action that will help them become a better person. There are three aspects to Right Intention; renunciation where you resolve to resist the pull of various desires, good will where you resolve to avoid indulging in anger, and harmlessness where you resolve to do no harm and to be compassionate.

Right Speech is the practice of always expressing oneself in a way that enhances the quality of people’s lives, and does no harm. It means to refrain from lies and deceit, malicious language, angry or offensive language, and idle chit-chat (ie. gossip). The enlightened person therefore tells the truth, speaks with warm gentleness when they do speak, and refrains from speaking when they have nothing important to say.

Right Action can be defined in open-ended terms as that which a person should not do. That potentially leaves all else open. In broad terms, right action means refraining from harming any sentient creature, stealing, and sexual misconduct. Doing no harm to others covers a very broad range of behaviours. The worst a person can do is to take the life of sentient creatures, hence many Buddhists are vegetarians (though this is not strictly required). Not stealing includes all forms of robbery, theft, deceit and fraud; essentially taking what you have not earned the right to have. The enlightened person is therefore a kind, compassionate person in their dealings with the world. They respect other people’s property, and do not engage in sexual behaviour that harms others either physical or emotionally.

Right Livelihood is about earning one’s living in ways that do no harm to others. Of all the possible ways a person might earn money, they should avoid those that exploit people’s weaknesses. Right livelihood means one should refrain from any employment that is contrary to the principles of right action and right speech, including but not limited to trading in weapons, trading in living beings, including slavery, prostitution and raising animals for slaughter, butchery and meat processing, and trading in drugs and poisons, including alcohol and recreational drugs.

Right Effort is being prepared to put in as much effort as is needed to live the noble truths and eight-fold path. Some people are inclined to ration how much effort they will exert, which effectively excludes them from many worthy endeavours that do not appear to have a high enough return on their effort. Right effort is an attitude of “I don’t care how much effort it takes, I’m going to do it!” The mental energy that is consumed by right effort is directed into self-discipline, truthfulness, and compassion. The same energy might otherwise be channelled through a person’s base nature to produce desire, aggression, and violence. Right effort ensures that this mental energy is expressed in wholesome ways. The enlightened person therefore practices right effort by preventing unwholesome states of mind from arising in them, releasing unwholesome states that have already arisen, arousing wholesome states that have not already arisen, and preserving wholesome states that have already arisen.

Right Mindfulness is a state of heightened consciousness in which a person has cultivated the ability to see the world around them clearly, without delusion. Seeing the world clearly requires a person to allow sense perceptions to be received but not be thought about too much. For many, receiving a sense perception triggers a train of thought in which the sensed object is categorised and thought about until a conclusion is reached. This conclusion is the product of complex processing and ends up bearing little resemblance to external reality that produced it, having been filtered through one’s preconceived ideas. It is a process that occurs automatically and unconsciously for most of the time.
Right mindfulness is therefore about becoming conscious of your mind’s tendency to interpret and distort meaning from our experience of the world and to limit this tendency by simply allowing the world to be what it is without judging it or wishing it were otherwise. If you do this, you will experience the world more fully and gain greater intuitive insight into the nature of reality.
The enlightened person has learned to observe their mind and control where it goes. They have cultivated consciousness about consciousness. Exercising these higher brain functions does not happen automatically in most people, it must be cultivated through right mindfulness. The enlightened person therefore cultivates right mindfulness through contemplating the four foundations; the body, one’s feelings (ie. repulsion, neutrality, attraction), one’s state of mind, and observed phenomena.

Right Concentration is about developing the capability to focus all of one’s attention on a single object and maintain that focus over an extended period. All of the aspects of the mind are unified and working towards this one activity. Conflicting and distracting mental processes have been eliminated or sublimated into the unified effort. The object of this concentration is on some aspect of the noble truths and eight-fold path. These are considered wholesome objects for right concentration. The enlightened person cultivates right concentration through regular meditation practice (more on this later).

Traits of an Empath

Traits of an Empath-the highly Empathetic Person or HSP- Highly Sensitive Person

No, you are not Crazy! Posting this in the hopes that others will find some sense of relief in reading this. You are not alone <3

30 traits of an Empath

1. Knowing: Empaths just know stuff, without being told. It’s a knowing that
goes way beyond intuition or gut feelings, even though that is how many
would describe the knowing. The more attuned they are the stronger this gift

2. Being in public places can be overwhelming: Places like shopping malls,
supermarkets or stadiums where there are lots of people around can fill the
empath with turbulently vexed emotions that are coming from others.

3. Feeling others emotions and taking them on as your own: This is a huge
one for empaths. To some they will feel emotions off those near by and with
others they will feel emotions from those a vast distance away, or both. The
more adept empath will know if someone is having bad thoughts about them,
even from great distance.

4. Watching violence, cruelty or tragedy on the TV is unbearable: The more
attuned an empath becomes the worse it is and may make it so they eventually
have to stop watching TV and reading newspapers altogether.

5. You know when someone is not being honest: If a friend or a loved one is
telling you lies you know it (although many empaths try not to focus on this
because knowing a loved one is lying can be painful). Or if someone is
saying one thing but feeling/thinking another, you know.

6. Picking up physical symptoms off another: An empath will almost always
develop the ailments off another (colds, eye infections, body aches and
pains) especially those they’re closest to, somewhat like sympathy pains.

7. Digestive disorders and lower back problems: The solar plexus chakra is
based in the centre of the abdomen and it’s known as the seat of emotions.
This is where empaths feel the incoming emotion of another, which can weaken
the area and eventually lead to anything from stomach ulcers to IBS (too
many other conditions to list here). Lower back problems can develop from
being ungrounded (amongst other things) and one, who has no knowledge of
them being an empath, will almost always be ungrounded.

8. Always looking out for the underdog: Anyone whose suffering, in emotional
pain or being bullied draws an empath’s attention and compassion.

9. Others will want to offload their problems on you, even strangers: An
empath can become a dumping ground for everyone else’s issues and problems,
which, if they’re not careful can end up as their own.

10. Constant fatigue: Empaths often get drained of energy, either from
energy vampires or just taking on too much from others, which even sleep
will not cure. Many get diagnosed with ME.

11. Addictive personality: Alcohol, drugs, sex, are to name but a few
addictions that empaths turn to, to block out the emotions of others. It is
a form of self protection in order to hide from someone or something.

12. Drawn to healing, holistic therapies and all things metaphysical:
Although many empaths would love to heal others they can end up turning away
from being healers (even though they have a natural ability for it), after
they’ve studied and qualified, because they take on too much from the one
they are trying to heal. Especially if they are unaware of their empathy.
Anything of a supernatural nature is of interest to empaths and they don’t
surprise or get shocked easily. Even at the revelation of what many others
would consider unthinkable, for example, empaths would have known the world
was round when others believed it was flat.

13. Creative: From singing, dancing, acting, drawing or writing an empath
will have a strong creative streak and a vivid imagination.

14. Love of nature and animals: Being outdoors in nature is a must for
empaths and pets are an essential part of their life.

15. Need for solitude: An empath will go stir-crazy if they don’t get quiet
time. This is even obvious in empathic children.

16. Gets bored or distracted easily if not stimulated: Work, school and home
life has to be kept interesting for an empath or they switch off from it and
end up daydreaming or doodling.

17. Finds it impossible to do things they don’t enjoy: As above. Feels like
they are living a lie by doing so. To force an empath to do something they
dislike through guilt or labeling them as idle will only serve in making
them unhappy. It’s for this reason many empaths get labeled as being lazy.

18. Strives for the truth: This becomes more prevalent when an empath
discovers his/her gifts and birthright. Anything untruthful feels plain

19. Always looking for the answers and knowledge: To have unanswered
questions can be frustrating for an empath and they will endeavor to find an
explanation. If they have a knowing about something they will look for
confirmation. The downside to this is an information overload.

20. Likes adventure, freedom and travel: Empaths are free spirits.

21. Abhors clutter: It makes an empath feel weighed down and blocks the flow
of energy.

22. Loves to daydream: An empath can stare into space for hours, in a world
of their own and blissfully happy.

23. Finds routine, rules or control, imprisoning: Anything that takes away
their freedom is debilitating to an empath even poisoning.

24. Prone to carry weight without necessarily overeating: The excess weight
is a form of protection to stop the negative incoming energies having as
much impact.

25. Excellent listener: An empath won’t talk about themselves much unless it’s
to someone they really trust. They love to learn and know about others and
genuinely care.

26. Intolerance to narcissism: Although kind and often very tolerant of
others, empaths do not like to be around overly egotistical people, who put
themselves first and refuse to consider another’s feelings or points of view
other than their own.

27. The ability to feel the days of the week: An empath will get the ‘Friday
Feeling’ if they work Fridays or not. They pick up on how the collective are
feeling. The first couple of days of a long, bank holiday weekend (Easter
for example) can feel, to them, like the world is smiling, calm and relaxed.
Sunday evenings, Mondays and Tuesdays, of a working week, have a very heavy

28. Will not choose to buy antiques, vintage or second-hand: Anything that’s
been pre-owned carries the energy of the previous owner. An empath will even
prefer to have a brand new car or house (if they are in the financial
situation to do so) with no residual energy.

29. Sense the energy of food: Many empaths don’t like to eat meat or poultry
because they can feel the vibrations of the animal (especially if the animal
suffered), even if they like the taste.

30. Can appear moody, shy, aloof, disconnected: Depending on how an empath
is feeling will depend on what face they show to the world. They can be
prone to mood swings and if they’ve taken on too much negative will appear
quiet and unsociable, even miserable. An empath detests having to pretend to
be happy when they’re sad, this only adds to their load (makes working in
the service industry, when it’s service with a smile, very challenging) and
can make them feel like scuttling under a stone.

If you can say yes to most or all of the above then you are most definitely
an empath

Empaths are having a particularly difficult time at the present time,
picking up on all the negative emotions that are being emanated into the
world from the populace.

TRAITS OF AN EMPATH by Christel Broederlow

Empaths are often quiet achievers. They can take a while to handle a
compliment for they’re more inclined to point out another’s positive
attributes. They are highly expressive in all areas of emotional connection,
and talk openly, and, at times quite frankly. They may have few problems
talking about their feelings if another cares to listen (regardless of how
much they listen to others).

However, they can be the exact opposite: reclusive and apparently
unresponsive at the best of times. They may even appear ignorant. Some are
very good at “blocking out” others and that’s not always a bad thing, at
least for the learning empath struggling with a barrage of emotions from
others, as well as their own feelings.

Empaths have a tendency to openly feel what is outside of them more so than
what is inside of them. This can cause empaths to ignore their own needs. In
general an empath is non-violent, non-aggressive and leans more towards
being the peacemaker. Any area filled with disharmony creates an
uncomfortable feeling in an empath. If they find themselves in the middle of
a confrontation, they will endeavor to settle the situation as quickly as
possible, if not avoid it all together. If any harsh words are expressed in
defending themselves, they will likely resent their lack of self-control,
and have a preference to peacefully resolve the problem quickly.

Empaths are more inclined to pick up another’s feelings and project it back
without realizing its origin in the first place. Talking things out is a
major factor in releasing emotions in the learning empath. Empaths can
develop an even stronger degree of understanding so that they can find peace
in most situations. The downside is that empaths may bottle up emotions and
build barriers sky-high so as to not let others know of their innermost
thoughts and/or feelings. This withholding of emotional expression can be a
direct result of a traumatic experience, an expressionless upbringing, or
simply being told as a child, “Children are meant to be seen and not heard!”

Without a doubt, this emotional withholding can be detrimental to one’s
health, for the longer one’s thoughts and/or emotions aren’t released, the
more power they build. The thoughts and/or emotions can eventually becoming
explosive, if not crippling. The need to express oneself honestly is a form
of healing and a choice open to all. To not do so can result in a breakdown
of the person and result in mental/emotional instability or the creation of
a physical ailment, illness or disease.

Empaths are sensitive to TV, videos, movies, news and broadcasts. Violence
or emotional dramas depicting shocking scenes of physical or emotional pain
inflicted on adults, children or animals can bring an empath easily to
tears. At times, they may feel physically ill or choke back the tears. Some
empaths will struggle to comprehend any such cruelty, and may have grave
difficulty in expressing themselves in the face of another’s ignorance,
closed-mindedness and obvious lack of compassion. They simply cannot justify
the suffering they feel and see.

You will find empaths working with people, animals or nature with a true
passion and dedication to help them. They are often tireless teachers and/or
caretakers for our environment and all within it. Many volunteers are
empathic and give up personal time to help others without pay and/or

Empaths may be excellent storytellers due to an endless imagination,
inquisitive minds and ever-expanding knowledge. They can be old romantics at
heart and very gentle. They may also be the “keepers” of ancestral knowledge
and family history. If not the obvious family historians, they may be the
ones who listen to the stories passed down and possess the majority of the
family history. Not surprisingly, they may have started or possess a family

They have a broad interest in music to suit their many expressive
temperaments, and others can query how empaths can listen to one style of
music, and within minutes, change to something entirely different. Lyrics
within a song can have adverse, powerful effects on empaths, especially if
it is relevant to a recent experience. In these moments, it is advisable for
empaths to listen to music without lyrics, to avoid playing havoc with their

They are just as expressive with body language as with words, thoughts, and
feelings. Their creativity is often expressed through dance, acting, and
bodily movements. Empaths can project an incredible amount of energy
portraying and/or releasing emotion. Empaths can become lost in the music,
to the point of being in a trance-like state; they become one with the music
through the expression of their physical bodies. They describe this feeling
as a time when all else around them is almost non-existent.

People of all walks of life and animals are attracted to the warmth and
genuine compassion of empaths. Regardless of whether others are aware of one
being empathic, people are drawn to them as a metal object is to a magnet!

Even complete strangers find it easy to talk to empaths about the most
personal things, and before they know it, they have poured out their hearts
and souls without intending to do so consciously. It is as though on a
sub-conscious level that person knows instinctively that empaths would
listen with compassionate understanding. Then again, for empaths, it is
always nice to actually be heard themselves!

Here are the listeners of life. They can be outgoing, bubbly, enthusiastic
and a joy to be in the presence of, as well as highly humorous at the most
unusual moments! On the flip side, empaths can be weighted with mood swings
that will have others around them want to jump overboard and abandon ship!
The thoughts and feelings empaths receive from any and all in their life can
be so overwhelming (if not understood) that their moods can fluctuate with
lightning speed. One moment they may be delightfully happy and with a flick
of the switch, miserable.

Abandoning an empath in the throes of alternating moods can create
detrimental effects. A simple return of empathic love–listening and caring
compassionately without bias, judgment and/or condemnation–can go an
incredibly long way to an empath’s instant recovery. Many empaths don’t
understand what is occurring within them. They literally have no idea that
another person’s emotions are now felt, as one’s own and reflected
outwardly. They are confused as to how one moment all was well, and then the
next, they feel so depressed, alone, etc. The need to understand the
possibilities of empath connection is a vital part of the empaths journey
for themselves and for those around them.

Empaths are often problem solvers, thinkers, and studiers of many things. As
far as empaths are concerned, where a problem is, so too is the answer. They
often will search until they find one – if only for peace of mind. This can
certainly prove beneficial for others in their relationships, in the
workplace, or on the home front. Where there is a will, there is a way and
the empath will find it. The empath can literally (likely without the
knowledge of what’s actually occurring) tap into Universal Knowledge and be
receptive to guidance in solving anything they put their head and hearts

Empaths often are vivid and/or lucid dreamers. They can dream in detail and
are inquisitive of dream content. Often they feel as though the dreams are
linked to their physical life somehow, and not just a mumble of nonsensical,
irrelevant, meaningless images. This curiosity will lead many empathic
dreamers to unravel some of the “mysterious” dream contents from an early
age and connect the interpretation to its relevance in their physical life.
If not, they may be led to dream interpretations through other means.

Empaths are daydreamers with difficulty keeping focused on the mundane. If
life isn’t stimulating, off an empath will go into a detached state of mind.
They will go somewhere, anywhere, in a thought that appears detached from
the physical reality, yet is alive and active for they really are off and
away. If a tutor is lecturing with little to no emotional input, empaths
will not be receptive to such teaching and can (unintentionally) drift into
a state of daydreaming.

Give the empath student the tutor who speaks with stimuli and emotion
(through actual experience of any given subject) and the empath is
receptively …

Seven Sisters For Brittany Howard

The first time I saw Jimi Hendrix on a magazine cover, I was 14 years old. I had never seen anyone who looked the way I felt. Like a passionate freak, part alien, part monster, part lover, part messiah. But black. I didn’t know such a thing was possible, much less in the public eye. I promptly shoplifted the issue from a 7-Eleven in Van Nuys and read for three days about how many white people not only accepted this mercurial weirdness but praised Hendrix for it. It was the opposite of what I learned growing up, which always came down to: If you want white people to treat you decently, don’t challenge them. Don’t make them uncomfortable, don’t have too many feelings, don’t be too weird. If you want to survive, you have to keep white people feeling safe.

It is an immensely frustrating proposition: that your ability to successfully navigate oppression depends entirely on your ability to meet the completely arbitrary definition the oppressor sets for your worth. It is, in fact, a no-win proposition, which is the reason why the most revolutionary cultural acts black people have undertaken in 2016 have involved the unapologetic expression of oneself and one’s blackness. From Beyoncé’s white-terror-inducing announcement that she has hot sauce in her bag to Kanye’s Dalí-esque live gospel performance on SNL, it’s become clear that the only way to survive the obsessive and overbearing demand of white oppression is to stop worrying about it altogether. The only way to win is not to play. This kind of spiritual freedom is by no means a new idea, but it is a state of being that requires daily maintenance. And black folks today are collectively engaged, perhaps more than at any time since the early 1970s, in this daily maintenance.

Alabama Shakes frontwoman Brittany Howard represents this spiritual freedom in that she does what’s true and what has been considered to be, up until fairly recently, unusual. She is a black woman playing blues rock. And she does so with the kind of force and fearlessness of vulnerability that makes people uncomfortable. But when I showed videos of her to my 10-year-old daughter, who shares Howard’s skin color and hair texture, and whose pantheon of black female artists consists only of Beyoncé and Rihanna, she was mesmerized; trying to understand, it seemed, the decidedly real image of a big-bodied woman of color singing, trembling, quaking, and shivering her truth. This is not the perfect pop star from central casting surrounded by a dozen meticulously urban backup dancers.

As a parent, all you want for your kids is that they feel free to be themselves and be loved. But the problem, especially raising a girl and most especially raising a girl of color, is that you can say you love and accept them until you are unable to speak anymore, but this will eventually be drowned out by a world that tells them in thundering and certain terms: “There are a lot of parts of you — honest, beautiful, and vulnerable parts — that we don’t have any place for.” The limits placed on a person’s humanity are already great by the time that person is a 10-year-old girl.

Brittany Howard playing guitar, making those ugly, honest faces, and belting out such unapologetic power does the kind of parenting for my daughter that I can’t do alone. I can tell my daughter it’s OK to be something that no one else has given her permission to be. But Brittany Howard can show her.

No matter what anyone says, blues and rock are our music as much as they are anyone else’s, and Brittany Howard is only the latest in a long line of black women who have owned them. She is not out there alone. 

And because seven is the lucky number of the blues, here are seven other sisters who have come along before, or in some cases alongside, her. [Read More]

What does Magic sound like on Tumblr?

There’s been some people that has made music inspired in Magic: the Gathering.

What I’d like to try now is see what the Tumblr Magic community listens to. I think music is one of the best ways to express oneself and sharing it can be a beautiful thing.

So, anyone who is interested in this can reblog and add a youtube link to their favourite(s) group(s) and we’ll see what we get. Mine is Skálmöld, they’re from Iceland and they play Viking Metal. Here’s a link to my favourite song of their latest album.

All their lyrics have something to do with nordic mythology and they use ancient forms of songwriting (specially for the lyrics).

Anyone interested is welcome to join.

@actualborossoldier @unrepentantauthor @the-foxwolf @askkrenko @chelsea-beleren-vess I don’t remember anyone else i have interacted with in the last few days. If you could boost this I would be very happy.

161007 Yixing weibo update - birthday essay

Today is my birthday haha October 7th. I must be busy with something at this moment but i still want to show you these words i’ve written down.

Long and established brand

Grateful and thankful to my Xingmi-s. This year is the 12th year since the name Xingmi was born. It wasn’t easy, it really wasn’t easy on all of you. Thank you. Thank you for the birthday support you did for me, thank you for every piece of LED that you’ve rented for me, thank you for doing charity in my name (though i wished you would do it in your own name and in the future tell people that you are my Xingmi), thank you for liking me, thank you for supporting me, thank you for writing me letters, thank you for allowing me to see you wherever i am, thank you for protecting me…. (let me insert this: the leaders that help lead to sing birthday song to me during Hangzhou concert, you’ve all worked hard. don’t have to be wary of what people think, if you want to sing it, just sing. you shine the brightest)

Aihh this is endless. There are too many things i want to say, it can’t be concluded in a few words, so i’m not going to list them all down otherwise i would never finish writing this.


My birth 20 over years ago has made my mom gone through a lot. It’s wasn’t easy, really. And recently i’ve come to realize that moms are an amazing existence. When she’s with you, she’ll keep talking to you, not caring whether you are listening. The moment she opens her mouth, there’ll be no end. Then you would find her noisy, then you would think ‘what does she even know’, and then later you would think that she’s always trying to tell you what to do.

Aihh actually the reason she’s bothering you is because she’s worried that you did not hear her. We are all always looking down (at our phones) with very minimal eye contact with people while having this and that type of earphones in our ear. She just hopes that by using a loud and clear voice, her opinions will accidentally go into your ears and be transmitted to your brain. She just wants the best for you. She is right. Sometimes it’s true that she doesn’t really understand, but she’s trying to protect you from her own perspective, not hoping to see any harm get to you, because her heart aches for you. She is right again. She keeps telling you what to do is because she couldn’t see you, and all those things are talks of her own experiences. She sees your insecurity when you’re away from home, she’s worried that you would go astray. She is still right. (This is my conclusion based on my own situation ha)

She is also our angel. Our harbor to shelter us from the rain/storm when we are feeling truly helpless (here i’m talking about mothers who are responsible). Something my mom always say: there’s no internship period for mothers, mothers are not perfect, being a mother is a lifetime thing. She hopes i can be happy and healthy.

Aihh what can we do. As sons and daughters, let’s be more considerate towards them.


One of my mentor is a very easygoing person. He studied arts and would always give me small gifts and introduce me to antiques. I think of him as an artist. He once told me something that made a huge impression on me. He said among all the quotes our great ancestors left for us, there is one quote that was being spread and used by the public incompletely. “No words to express a great help/kindness received”. My mentor told me that actually the complete quote should be “If no words were expressed for a great help/kindness received, it will turn into hate”. This topic can be serious, can be trivial. But we shouldn’t blindly express gratitude. Thankfulness, if being done blindly, it’ll easy be misused by other people or be looked down on by people. When we have reached success, have a grateful heart, thank everything, but you must also thank yourself.


When i wake up in the morning, i’m used to hearing the sounds of screen being switched on and used to the low bass hum of the black cylinder (computer CPU) when it’s switched on. I don’t find it noisy, in fact i find it rhythmic. When the red signal lights up when i pressed the button, i would lightly hit the black and white keys, following the tips of my finger. Recalling the tune i was humming last night, it lingered in my mind for a moment but soon forgotten, to start afresh a new experiment. In this not so big space, i seem to be the owner of it. I control every emotion. Sometimes, I seem like an artist. Drawing one beautiful and captivating pictures after another. I guess this is the space that belongs to me. This is the world that belongs to me.

“She” (his working space) allows me to discover my own radar, telling me how to fly and where to fly. This is the comfortable life that belongs to me. Using “her”, starting a brand new day, I’ve always been preparing….


The past 2 years gone by really quickly, i too grew up very quickly. In a short amount of time i’ve done a lot of different things, i can’t say i did it excellently but i’ve given it my all and it’s true that that was still not enough. But some of my results and growth has left me speechless. Too many things came at me too fast, how am i supposed to take it in. Opportunities came, but am i still able to take in more. I kept asking myself “Why?”. Because i was afraid that i’d lose myself. I kept telling myself, your dreams and your goals are mixed in with other people’s expectation of you. I’m not willing to stop, even if it’s just for a moment. I was so stressed that i would either feel suffocated or couldn’t sleep. I believe that everybody in different occupations would experience the same worries and dilemma. Let’s work hard together ha.

Seeking for a method

What is the most important thing between man and man? (In this moment the word “trust” that have been mentioned countless time before starts resonating)

That is 2015′s version. For 2016, the most important thing between man and man is communication. And the most important aspect of communication is deliverance / expression. Because of the different way of expressing oneself, it may directly affect the good or bad of an outcome.  

I’m seeking for a method. “She” (method) may help me to express more and further. “She” cannot be conventional, cannot be perfunctory, cannot be uninterested…  “She” is a method to express myself. “She” is colourless and odourless. Cannot be seen, cannot be touched and yet so important that it’s deeply embedded in my life. “She” does not have a right answer. How am i supposed to find the answer, what can i do? I am lost in deep thought.

I’m about to release my new album, everybody probably already knows about this. The song that i wrote the lyrics, composed and arranged is finally going to meet everybody. I’ve put in a lot of time, a lot of heart and blood, participated in the overall concept of the album, choosing tracks, arranging tracks, choreograph, up till the production, the MV shoot, the overall story, the design of clothes, the album cover, the album concept and design. I would also want to thank all those people who has been by my side helping me. I hope everybody likes it.

When you suddenly think of this song someday, listen to it once. When you suddenly remember this song some years later, listen to it once again. If you really don’t like the song it’s okay, don’t have to force yourself to listen to it a few hundred times, there’s really no need for that.

This new song is just the tip of an iceberg. All this is for the sake of quality. You can look forward to the rest of the album. Since it’s something that i’ve been working very hard for, i don’t think it’d be receding for the next few years………i think? I don’t know either, we’ll see.

I am a singer. I will treat every challenge my job brings me, every switch in character seriously.

I want to have a grateful heart.

Using the best work, to let you proudly proclaim that the person you like is Zhang Yixing

Using the best work, to say thank you to everyone who like me, love me, support me, help me

Using the best work, to tell all this people: i love you

I guess this is my way of expressing.

Tell me, what on earth did i write in this birthday essay, oh goodness. I’m going to go continue watching the MV.

Thank you.

(his original chinese post will be under the cut)

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