hello all! theres no easy way to make a post like this, but i want you all to be aware of whats kept me away for a bit. a lot has happened within the past few days and things are finally calming down but im still very emotional.
basically, my cat casper (heres his tag on my main blog) had to be put to sleep yesterday at about 10 in the morning. fleas have been extremely bad this season, and i never expected that to be the thing that would get him, but he was unfortunately afflicted with a disease that only some fleas carry. its a disease that works quick and doesnt give many warning signs.
my sister and her boyfriend went to my moms house this past weekend and when they saw him they could tell something was wrong; he lost a ton of weight and he was very weak. they, and my mom, decided it would be best for him to come back here with me. at that time, we had no idea how bad it was. the assumption was just that he would be living with me from now on. (he hadn’t been living with me for a large number of reasons, all relating to his comfort and the fact that hes always been used to my moms house, i never wanted to be selfish)
they came home that night, brought casper with them, and i was elated! but then i pulled him out of the kennel and my heart sank bc i knew. i knew in that very moment that something was Very Wrong. he made it through that night, he ate some food and drank water, i thought maybe he could make it, so i was very hopeful.
he was with me here for about two days before i knew i HAD to take him to the vet. they took extremely good care of him and i feel very lucky that he was in the hands of such sweet people, but unfortunately his red blood cell count was already very bad (the vet said she was amazed he was still here when i brought him in, but i guess he’s always been a fighter)
my final memory of him will be the fact that he would not leave my side the night before i took him to the vet. he usually lays between my legs, but even that wasnt good enough for him. he wanted to be right on my chest, right in front of my face, and i talked sweetly to him the entire night because i wanted him to know how much i love him and how important he was to me.
Casper did so much for me, hes been my light in the darkness and my motivation for making a life for myself, and for him as well. i never got to spoil him like i really wanted to (if i’d had my way, casper would have had his own room in my future home) but i hope he knew that I really truly loved him with my entire being, he was the best cat i’ve ever had, ever known, and I’m glad he’s not in pain anymore. I really really really miss him though, and the world seems a little darker without him.