tbh i actually forgot that it was aug 5 when we first got our fandom name, and im really touched that baekhyun and the rest of the members actually took the liberty to remind us of it. thank you, exo! happy anniversary, exo l!
Ah, I just can’t handle this. My heart hurts writing this. I
hope you guys enjoy this reaction <3
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Baekhyun: The moment he got the call, he could feel his
heart shatter. All joy that once filled his heart disappeared and he was left
feeling empty. For the first time in his life, he was at a loss for words. He never
thought he would lose you. You were supposed to be the one stable thing in his
life, but now you were gone. For almost a year, nothing could cheer him up. He
walked around like an empty shell of himself. You will always be my light. He thought to himself every time he looked
at the picture of you that rested beside his bed.
Chanyeol: No one had ever seen him so angry. He had gotten
the call after their closing concert and all excitement that he had felt was
gone. He may have been the happy virus, but without you, he could not bring
himself to truly smile. Day in and day out, he tried his hardest remain
cheerful for the others, for your spirit, but deep down, he could do nothing
but hate himself for not being there for you.
Chen: “No, no, no. That isn’t funny. Whoever the hell this
is, I will find you and make you pay for a sick joke like this.” He told the
person on the phone during dance practice. The other boys listened as he
continued to deny the claims of your passing. “What do you mean car accident?
She would never get in a car accident. She is always careful, even when she isn’t
driving.” He said, more to himself than to anyone. His tried his hardest to
hold it together, repeating that it must all be a joke and that he would see
you when he comes home.
D.O.:I should have
been there. I should have felt this coming. I should have protected her. I
should have done something… He continuously told himself as he sat at the
kitchen table. None of the boys knew what to say to him, but they noticed that
he hadn’t eaten since he heard the news a few days ago and hadn’t bothered to
even leave the house. All he ever did was sing My Turn To Cry and stare at your
picture on the background of his phone.
Kai: His feet felt as though they would bleed and his legs
were begging him to stop, but he couldn’t. All he wanted to do was dance. All
he wanted to do was keep his body moving so he wouldn’t collapse. All he wanted
to do was his consume himself with the beat of the music so his mind wouldn’t
be able to focus on the thought of you. He didn’t want to think about it. He
danced to his solo stage for Baby Don’t Cry, and he could feel his tears
rolling down his cheeks, but he never stopped moving.
Lay: “And then the boys told me that if I didn’t return from
China with food, they would send me right back. They are so funny. Especially
Baekhyun. He wanted me to say hello by the way.” He said as he stared up at the
sky. It was a sunny day but he couldn’t bring himself to actual smile as he
slowly turned his head to look at your grave. For a brief second, he had
actually hoped that he would turn and see your smiling face looking back at him
instead of the cold cobblestone that had your name carved into it.
Sehun: He sat in your room, staring down at your clothes
that laid on the floor. They had asked him to pick out a dress for you… your burial dress… The thought made
his heart tighten. How could he honestly pick something like that? He looked
down at one of the black dresses. The dress you had worn on your first
anniversary. He remembered how you had paired them with your red heels;
claiming you could never go without adding a bit of color. He turned to the
other dress. It was a simple white dress that you wore during one of the random
dates he took you on, but when he looked at it, all he could think about what
how precious you looked. If anything, you
should look like the angel you are.
Suho: “No, I don’t care what they said. There must be
something that can be done. Money is not a concern in this matter. Just save
her!” He yelled into the phone as the doctor told him that you were in the
hospital from a car crash. He knew the moment he heard the doctor’s voice that
it was too late, but he could not take that as an answer. He would not lose
you. He would do anything to keep you. He would not give up. He felt everything
falling apart. The next year, no one could get him out of his room. He had
locked himself away; ignoring everyone and anyone who called on him. I am so sorry I couldn’t save you.
Xiumin: “Hello, this is (Y/N). Sorry I couldn’t come to the
phone. I’m probably doing something stupid with nine goofy boys. Please leave
your name and number and I will try to get back to you.” Xiumin listened as the
beep sounded before hanging up and redialing. He had been calling your number
for the past week straight. He knew you wouldn’t answer, but it was also the
only way he could hear your voice again. “Hello, this is (Y/N)…” He felt the
teas slowly rolling down his cheek. He turned up the volume on his blue-tooth headphones as he listened to the rest of your answering
Suho attempted to break the silence that fell upon everyone, ready to ask for
an explanation. All of the boys turned towards him on instinct, and he shied
away from the attention, he hadn’t really given much thought to what he would
say. What was there to say?
all your fault.” Chanyeol spoke, staring at the older boy with tears forming in
his eyes. Chen would have rejoiced in his suffering, but at that moment, he
felt just as hurt, and deep down he knew Chanyeol was right. To an extent,
“How is it
my fault you idiot?” He argued back regardless, because he wasn’t going to go
down without a fight, but he didn’t have it in him to throw a punch, he was way
too defeated for that. The remaining boys shifted uncomfortably, no one knew
what to say, or how to solve the situation. It was awkward, and impossible, and
the worst case scenario.
her about the phone! And you lied about me bragging! I never bragged about
anything!” Chanyeol shouted, his voice raspy from the tears he was trying so
hard to hold back, he couldn’t cry, not in front of Jongdae. Chen flinched at
the tone, this really had caused a divide in the band, and it had ruined his
friendship with the younger boy, and it hurt him, everything hurt him.
you shouldn’t have touched her phone then! You only did that out of spite
because it was me calling! And you had to come back, and rub it in my face how
you had slept with her, and spent the night with her, and you knew that would
hurt me!” Chen spat out, anger beginning to bubble inside him at the memories.
He was right after all, Chanyeol had done all of that out of spite, to hurt him
directly, so why should he feel bad about anything?
you trying to say?” Chanyeol yelled at him, getting up from his spot on the
couch, his hands balled into tight fists, his arms shaking, Baekhyun
immediately grabbed him, in an attempt to avoid another physical confrontation.
He wanted Chanyeol to hit Chen, hell, he wanted to hit him himself, but he knew
a fight would get them anywhere. Right now, the problem was you, and not in the
bad sense, not completely, you were somewhere out there, hurting, believing
something that wasn’t necessarily true, feeling used and betrayed by two boys
who you quite clearly had feelings for.
that none of this would have happened if it wasn’t for you! She was fine with
me, we were happy, what we had was good and it was evolving! And then you come
around, and mess it all up! You ruined it all!” Chen yelled back, the anger
that was slowly growing to a boiling point was reaching a dangerous point. He
resented Chanyeol. He knew he was in the wrong, he should have let you go the
moment he found out about the taller boy’s true feelings towards you, but he
was in too deep to just let you go. Somewhere in between the heated kisses, and
the passionate touches, he began falling for the girl that was behind all that.
Chanyeol had to go cause a drama scene and make everyone pity him, asking you
out on a date and making you fall for him. Maybe you already liked him from
before, maybe you didn’t. He didn’t care, Chanyeol deserved your anger.
“You are an
asshole! None of this would have happened if you hadn’t fucked Y/N in the first
place!!” Baekhyun exploded, standing up next to Chanyeol, and glaring at
Jongdae. Suho, Xiumin and Lay exchanged looks, and as quickly as they could,
Sehun and Kai were on either side of the boys, ready to act as bouncers if they
“What I did
with Y/N was none of your business! It’s not my fault Chanyeol took forever to
ask her out! He didn’t even say he liked her, how was I supposed to know? I was
drunk, she was drunk, and we all know she is beautiful, what is a man to do?”
Chen yelled back, his fists clenched, his jaw squared, and his body trembling
as red began tinting his skin. From the corner of his eye he noticed the
younger boys nodding, and he knew then everyone had thought about you that way
at least once. He wanted to punch them all.
KEPT DOING IT AFTER YOU FOUND OUT! WE ALL HEARD HIS CRIES AT NIGHT, WE ALL SAW
WHAT HE WAS GOING THROUGH, AND YOU KEPT DOING IT! YOU CHOSE TO HURT YOUR
FRIEND. WHY? I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHY?!” Baekhyun roared, standing in front of
Chanyeol, and waving his arms around, the veins in his neck popping out, his
eyes becoming narrow, and his breathing ragged.
FELL IN LOVE WITH HER!” Chen replied, his voice echoing in the room, as
everyone else fell silent. Chanyeol’s eyes connected with Chen’s teary ones,
and for the first time since that night at the club, he asked himself if it was
actually possible that Chen’s feelings towards you resembled his own in any
way. Everyone remained quiet, as they looked at Chen with wide eyes, even
Baekhyun was too shocked to speak back. No one had ever expected him to have
any sort of feelings towards you. Neither did he. The moment those words came
out of his mouth, he covered it with his hands, utterly shocked. He felt tears
prickle his eyes, before savagely rolling down his face. He wiped them away
quickly, before walking off towards his room, leaving a group of stunned men
You’re her best friend… Do you-Do you think she’ll come back? Please make her
come back… I can’t lose her again… please…” Chanyeol begged, slumping down onto
the sofa. Xiumin looked at him with pain and pity.
know Chan… I… I-… I have never seen her like this before. I think we should
give her some time before we take action. Give her space, I’ll talk to her
okay? I promise I will try my best…” Xiumin stuttered weakly, because
although he was dying to give some sort of comfort to his friend, he wasn’t
even sure you would even listen to him the moment he tried to talk you into
coming back. He knew you, he knew the way you locked yourself away, and kept
everyone out when you were hurt, and the rivalry between the two idiots had
most definitely hurt you.
guilty, after all, this had been his fault. His fault for ever introducing you
to the boys, his fault for encouraging Chanyeol so many times to ask you out,
his fault for insisting you go out with them to the club that fateful night,
his fault for handing you the first drink, even though you refused. It was his
fault because he could be losing his best friend, his everything, because of
two stupid boys, and he felt responsible for it all.
back into your room, and threw yourself onto your bed, holding your pillow
tightly and letting all of your emotions out onto it. You felt the tears leave
your eyes, one after the other, almost as if it was a race. You felt the
saltiness reach your lips, but you ignored it, because everything inside you
hurt, everything inside you felt dead and rotting. You were broken, because you
had trusted two men, and both had betrayed you.
until you thought you had no more tears in you, until your face was red and
puffy, and your eyes burned, and you had somehow managed to bite your lip too
hard and make it bleed a little. You had managed to give yourself a headache
from crying to hard. You were probably dehydrated. Your heart felt like it was being squeezed by
someone tightly, your chest was constricted, and your stomach upturned. It was
a horrible feeling. You couldn’t breathe, no matter how deep your breaths were,
or how many you took, air just didn’t seem to be filling your lungs.
your phone vibrate in your pocket, but you ignored it. You weren’t ready to
face the world yet. The vibration stopped after a while, but soon enough it started
again, and again, and again. You thought your phone was going to explode from
all the spam it was receiving.
it out of your pocket, and unlocked it. You had 4 missed calls from Chanyeol,
one from Xiumin, and a text, and a text from Chen, asking if you were okay. You
sighed at them, and decided to turn your phone off for the night, you just
couldn’t deal with it anymore. You needed to sleep, all you wanted was to
sleep, to fall unconscious for a few hours, and forget about your troubles, about
your pain, you didn’t want to feel anything anymore.
And so you
managed to cry yourself to sleep, with your phone in your hand, and your face
stuck to the pillow, your body curled up into a ball, weak and numb.
Back at the
dorm, Jongdae was in his room, staring at the phone in his hands, knowing he
wasn’t going to receive a reply any time soon, because his question had been
stupid, you weren’t okay, and you wouldn’t be for some time. Chanyeol kept
calling you, even though he got directed to voicemail every time, because he
had hopes that you would let him talk to you, and explain everything. So he
ended up falling asleep, on his bed, with his phone stuck to his ear, as he
tried calling you one last time. And Xiumin paced the living room, clutching
his phone tightly in his hand, knowing you were out there, crying and hurt, and
you needed him, and he couldn’t do anything about it, because he too had messed
up, and you wouldn’t want to talk to him even if you needed him more than you
needed air right now.
night, everyone was a little broken inside.
looked around at the dorm, and sighed deeply. Everyone was so dispirited ever
since the last time you “visited”. It had been the first time any of them had
seen you since that time Baekhyun rudely insulted you when you came to see
Chen, and he really couldn’t imagine anything worse happening. He had to admit
to himself that they had all missed you, including himself.
Minseok had brought you back to the dorm, you had made their days a little
brighter, you’d often help Kyungsoo cook, and you’d crack jokes with the now no
longer existent beagle line, and you’d just cheered everyone up whenever you
were around. It was as if your smile lit up the entire room, your laughter was
contagious, and in all honesty, he sometimes felt you were almost like a sister
to him. He especially enjoyed the change they had all seen you go through, from
the shy quiet girl, to the confident woman that had the world in her hands, he
Sehun and Kai playing videogames on the couch, but they didn’t bicker or argue
like they usually did, they seemed to just be passing time. Kyungsoo cooked a
meal silently in the kitchen, while Suho read the news on his phone. He watched
Lay come out of his room, looking straight at the floor, as he dried his hair
with the towel. He sighed again.
walking towards Chanyeol’s room, passing in front of Xiumin’s and Chen’s doors,
and he cringed at the eerie silence, they had hardly left their rooms since the
incident, they went out to practice, and to eat, but they refused to speak to
anyone. How did things end up like this? How had all these grown men let the
situation get out of control like it had done? Where was their friendship?
He stood in
front of Chanyeol’s room, with his fist raised, ready to knock, when he heard
the muffled sobs breaking through the tranquility, and he felt his heart break,
he couldn’t stand the idea of his friend being in pain again. He leaned against
the door, his hand clutching his shirt at the area where his heart should be.
He knew things had gotten out of control, and right now, he was probably the
only one that could do anything about it, and also, he owed you an apology.
It had been
almost two months since you last saw anyone, you had spent every free moment
that you weren’t working, locked away in your apartment, either crying in bed,
or watching bad horror movies that you would later on freak out over at night.
decided to turn your phone on again about a week ago, and there wasn’t a day
that passed that you didn’t receive at least one missed call from Chanyeol, and
a text message telling you he was sorry and he missed you. Chen hadn’t called
yet, and you knew he was giving you the space you had asked for, but he still
texted every few days to make sure you were okay; you never replied, but he
knew you had read them, and that was enough for him.
bad for ignoring Minseok, he wasn’t at fault, but you just didn’t feel strong
enough to face him yet, you felt like you had abandoned him ever since you got
involved in the whole ordeal with the two boys, and that hurt you. Minseok had
been your friend for so long, you no longer remembered what life was like
before you met him.
you felt your phone vibrate beside you, as you sat down on bed, eating a bowl
of cereal, and you quickly glanced at it, expecting the usual call from
Chanyeol, but you almost choked with your food the moment you saw the caller
swallowed, and with shaky hands, picked up your phone, you answered the call,
and brought it to your ear.
asked, not sure how to respond. You almost cringed at the sound of your own
voice; you weren’t sure if the crying had made it more hoarse, or if it was the
fact that you were no longer used to the sound of your own voice, since you
hadn’t talked to anyone since that night.
Eh… It’s Baekhyun” He replied awkwardly, and you had to hold back a giggle, it
was nice hearing him get all awkward while talking to you, it made you wonder
how long he had spent trying to convince himself to make the call.
Your name popped up on the screen with that silly selca you took.” You told
him, with an amused yet sassy tone. You heard him gasp, then chuckle.
“Oh… I didn’t
think you’d still have my number.” He replied sincerely, and you could almost
see him scratching the back of his head as he replied.
never delete you Baek.” You whispered back, and judging by your tone, both you
and the puppy boy could tell that you had long forgiven him for what he did. He
relaxed, but he still felt incredibly guilty. You understood him though, at
least now you did, he was hurting too, and when one is angry, sometimes they
lash out at the wrong person.
You are too good Y/N. I don’t deserve it… Listen, I know you probably don’t
want to see any of our faces right now, but I was wondering if you would like
to meet me for coffee today? I promise I won’t say a word about it to anyone
else. Just us two, I feel there is something I should tell you.” He spoke
hurriedly, and you knew by the noise in the background, the other boys were
coming towards him, and he meant to keep his promise of not telling anyone
about your secret encounter. You weren’t completely comfortable with the idea
of meeting him in secret, but you agreed nonetheless.
text me the place and time and I’ll be there.” You replied, a small smile
playing on your lips. It would do you some good to get out and breathe fresh
you soon Y/N” He told you, and you nodded, before realizing he couldn’t see
you, and saying goodbye verbally this time.
Less than a
minute later, your phone buzzed with an incoming text from Baekhyun, and you
quickly jumped in the shower, ready to clean yourself. You didn’t really mean
to impress Baek, but you wanted to look at least half-decent, and someone with
terrible bed hair, and sticky skin, and tense muscles, was surely nowhere near
You got out
of the shower quickly, rubbing your body with the towel to dry yourself off.
You rummaged through your closet, trying to find something cute but comfortable
to wear, Baekhyun could be a bit of a diva sometimes, and you weren’t really in
the mood for any of his jokes about being embarrassed to be seen in public with
you with the way you were dressed.
styled your hair, and did your make up, and after you were done brushing your
teeth and spraying perfume on, you rushed out of your apartment, a little late
to your friends date with Byun Baekhyun.
he noticed you at the door of the café, looking around a little lost, and a
little flustered, since you had ran all the way there, he stood up and waved at
you with a wide grin on his face. You noticed him instantly, he wasn’t exactly
easy to miss, so you rushed towards him, trying to avoid people’s curious
glances, and sat down in front of him, your cheeks still flushed. You looked
down at your hands.
look so cute when you blush” He told you, pinching one of your cheeks like he
would with a 5 year old child. You huffed, and puffed your cheeks out, pouting.
treating me like a child! I am a grown woman you know?” You told him with a
grumpy tone, and he let out a soft laugh.
the things you have done with my band members show that, naughty girl…” He
replied cheekily, shaking his head as he pretended to scold you. You glared at
you always trying to embarrass me?!” You whined, and he looked at you and
you are like my little sister, and as an older brother, it is my job to
embarrass you.” He confessed softly, his smile becoming warmer, as his eyes
bore into yours. You blushed.
really sorry for what I said that day… I didn’t mean it… Well I did, then, but
I really don’t think of you that way. I was just angry, and upset, and I lashed
out at the wrong person. And I know there really is no excuse for what I said,
and I was a total dick, and an ass, and stupid, and horrible, and mean. I know,
but I just wanted to call you here today, to apologize sincerely, from the
bottom of my heart. You mean a lot to me Y/N, you really do, and I’d hate to
lose you for saying something stupid…” He told you, grabbing onto your hand
tightly, as his eyes connected with yours, warm and sparkly, and full of
honesty. Looking into his puppy eyes, you had no doubt, he really did mean
everything he had said, so you rested your free hand on top of his, and smiled.
you Baek.” You replied simply, smiling at him. His eyes widened in surprise.
He asked, completely shocked by how easily you had let go of everything he
said. He didn’t deserve to be forgiven. You nodded at him, and tightened your
hold on his hands.
“You are my
friend Baek. You are important to me. So I forgive you, as long as you promise
to never hate me for no reason again.” You told him, and he smiled at you,
completely in awe with how big and precious your heart was, but something
shifted inside him.
hated you… Listen… Ah… How do I tell you this? Okay, there is something you
need to know. I know you won’t want to hear it, but you need to. Chanyeol never
bragged about sleeping with you, he just mentioned it to Chen out of spite,
when Chen made a joke about how you probably just cuddled him to sleep. Okay,
no, sit down, don’t leave. You have to hear this.” He told you, pulling you
back down, as you tried to get up at the mention of the guy you had given your
Chanyeol was wrong in messing with your phone, but you have to understand him,
he is stupid, and in love, and that’s the worst combination you can get. Y/N
don’t you understand? Chanyeol has been in love with you practically from the
moment you met. He was always too scared to ask you out, always too scared of
being rejected. And then you slept with Chen that night. It tore him apart. Not
only that, but you became Chen’s friend with benefits, and Chanyeol had to hear
you two every time you came round. You weren’t there to hear him cry, and yell,
and howl in pain, you weren’t there to see the scars on his arms multiply every
time. I’m not saying this is your fault, but you have to understand why he
would act like this. He loves you Y/N. He really does. I think they both do,
but Chanyeol has loved you from the start, and you can’t keep pushing them both
away, because you know you have feelings for them.” He told you, his voice soft
and soothing, as he held onto your hands tightly, too afraid you would get up
and run for the door.
lip quivered. You felt tears begin to sting your eyes, and you knew he was
right. You did have feelings for them, but what feelings were those? You were
shocked to find out that they both loved you.
hell is this?” You heard a deep, booming voice speak from above you, and
Baekhyun immediately froze in place. You quickly yanked your hand away from
his, and put them on your lap, before turning to look at Chanyeol with your
eyes wide open.
A/N: drama, such drama… I am currently writing part 15 ;) And I honestly hope you will love all the parts that will come ^^ Things become serious after this, just saying
EXO REACTION: You (Best friend+Crush) falling asleep on them~
Sure can! here you go anon <3
Xiumin: She’s so precious… *tries to contain himself frompinching your cheeks*
Luhan: *Laughs at the way you’re sleeping uncontrollably since you look so adorable*
Kris: *Will hold you close and kiss you softly on your cheek, and when you wake up he will smile innocently and deny it*
Suho: *He will feel like his heart skipped a beat when he see how cute you look snuggling closer to him. His eyes will tell a lot but he will remain silent stroking your hair humming softly for you to sleep~*
Lay: *He will feel flustered when a small smile appear on your face as you nuzzle your face in his chest and will start giggling crazily*
Baekhyun: “How dare you sleep on me!” He will say playfully attacking and tickling you like the little shit he is.
Chen: *He will poke your cheek and tease you until you wake up and glare at him. He will apologise then startle you with a quick peck getting you both flustered and laughing awkwardly*
Chanyeol: *He will cover your tiny figure with his huge jacket and stare at your sleeping face, and when you wakeup he will smile warmly making you blush and hide your face in his chest only then, he will realise that he can’t keep his feelings to himself anymore*
Kyungsoo: *He was in the middle of telling you something then be startled when you hug his arm and breath against his neck, sleeping like a baby. He will feel flustered and will try his hardest not to freak out. When you wake up he will laugh at the way you’re rubbing your eyes cutely. He will not resist the urge to pull you in for a tight hug*
Tao: *Will whine and will never let you sleep*ignore Sehun and chanyeol
Kai: *will snuggle closer to you and sleep*
Sehun: *Will smile genuinely when he see your innocent sleeping face, and will hold you firmly and closer to him until you wakeup. Most likely to kiss you the minute you open your eyes.*