Can someone help?
I have extremely bad allergies, wich make it almost impossible for me to sleep at all. I feel like I have a bad cold 24/7. I need to wash my sheets very often, so that I can somehow sleep, but washing them takes all day, because the washing maschine and drier take forever. I’m 19 and live with my mother. She let a friend of hers stay for a few nights. The friend stayed in a bedroom, which is in front of my room. So when I want to exit or enter my room, I have to go through the room that she was sleeping in as well. Since I couldn’t wash all of my sheets together, I had to of course walk to the washing maschine and back a few times to check/switch the sheets. I was extremely tired by 11 pm already and just wanted to sleep but couldn’t because I didn’t have any sheets (I can only use those sheets, because they are special sheets for allergies.) And also because my allergies made me feel horrible. I was being as considerate and quiet as possible when walking and opening/closing doors, so that she wouldn’t wake up. But she still did. I was so exhausted and sick (which is actually almost always the case) and just wanted to sleep, which in turn made me very aggrevated. My mom came home towards 3 o clock am from drinking and we were in the kitchen (quite a bit away from the bedroom where her friend was sleeping) and when I went to the washing maschine to get my pillow out and put it in the drier the pillow was still soaking wet, because our washing maschine apparently didn’t work right. So I put it in another half hour (on spin) so that the water would come out of the pillow the drying it wouldn’t take so long afterwards. When I checked again it was still soaking wet and I was so aggrevated and disappointed and tired that I started yelling. It couldn’t have been that loudfor that friend though, since she was all the way in the back room with the door closed and we have relatively thick walls. Anyway, after that she came out and started complaining to my mom, saying things like “your daughter is so incosiderate and selfish. She will never amount to anything in life. She will have such a hard time in life when she is alone. She is such a child and such a selfish spoiled brat. She kept waking me up and I can’t sleep because of that inconsiderate brat!). This made me extremely frustrated, since I was being as considerate as possible and felt just horrible and was sick and extremely tired. She couldn’t sleep so well for one night, well I can never sleep EVER. Because my allergies are THAT BAD. I tried to explain myself but she wouldn’t listen und just kept yelling and calling me a liar. my mom was eventually on her side and they both called my a selfish spoiled incosiderate 5 year old. Since They didn’t want to listen to my explanation anyway, I just went to my room and locked the door. I also just took my wet pillow and slept with that, because I was so exhausted. The next morning I went outside and my mother said I should apologize to her friend. But I didn’t think that was right, since I was being as considerate as possible, even though I was the one feeling terrible and not being able to sleep. Since they wouldn’t even listen to me and I felt so wronged and they were yelling at me I sayed that I wouldn’t apologize and called her friend a bitch. I went back to my room. An hour laterI came out to try to explain the situation again, but again they wouldn’t listen. Her friend just started yelling at me and not listening at all. I had no chance to say a thing. So I yelled back while trying to explain and endeed up insulting her as a “bitch”, whereas she was insulting me as “a spoiled little child brat that won’t amount to anything that will always be by herself and has no friends”. She came extremely close to me and she is like ten times bigger than me and yelled in my face, super close. To get her to back away I kind of hit the air in front of her, so that she would move back and my nails scratched her while doing so (because they are pretty long), so she tackled me and pushed me against the wall so that I couldn’t move. And held me there while boxing me. All the while my mother was telling her to hit me because I deserved it. So I went back to my room and locked the door. I called the police because I wanted her to leave and didn’t feel safe in my own home anymore. And I can’t go anywhere else ( I have no money and can only sleep on my own bed, because of my allergies). Her friend can easily stay somewhere else or in a hotel, since she has a lot of money. When they came we all explained but they weren’t on my side at all and said if I don’t want to see her, that I should just leave and sleep on the street. And they called me childish. That friend was saying I was a liar and that she didn’t attack me at all and my mom aggreed. Even though obviously she did? But nobody wanted to believe me and I was treated like a stupid 5 year old brat. Now I am confused. Am I really that wrong? Am I imagining things? Do I have mental problems or something? Can someone please tell me if I really am in the wrong here? Becaue I don’t understand at all. I’m doubting mysef.