My Favorite One (Jay Park x Reader)
Requested by anon. This came out super long, i’ve just being very creative these days so I hope you guys like it. Enjoy!
You and Jay met because of Kiseok, Kiseok wanted to collaborated with you when you just a rookie, he was the reason you got signed in brand new since your song became a hit and your name got around to the khiphop community. You became a regular visitor at the AOMG building, and Jay had taken a liking towards you.
You had a thing for Jay since you met him. To you he was extremely handsome and a funny,caring guy and there was nothing more you could have asked? But to Jay you seemed to appear like a little sister, you tried to be more sexy, try to flirt with him and maybe get more appealing to him. Nothing seemed to work, he just brushed it off like anything else, to be honest with yourself you were just about to give up, when something happened.
He asked Seonghwa. You never really went out with them, your excuse was that you didn’t drink or smoke and you didn’t stay up late, which was true but the real reason was that you didn’t want to see any girl getting close to Jay. Kiseok forced you to tag along, after he used the “you owe me” card after he took care of you when you were sick for a few days.
“I think she went to the ladies room or something”
Jay was getting nervous. It’s been 30 minutes since you left and that was not normal for you, normally you just stood put in the booth, scrolling through your phone or talking to someone. He decided to take it upon himself and go look for you, just to be safe that nothing bad was happening. He tried to convince himself that he felt that way because you were younger and inexperienced when it came to clubs, although deep down inside he knew that it was more than that.
He lost it when he saw the scene. You were by the bathroom doors, shaking and squirming around to get away from the man that had you pushed against the wall. He runned to you in the speed of light, pushing people and not even turning to see if he hurt someone, he just wanted to get to you as fast as possible.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?”
He said as he pushed the guy away, thanking himself for actually going to the gym on a daily bases. He stood in front of you- even though you were taller because of the heels-
“Who the hell are you?”
“Someone that knows when a girl looks like she is about to cry, you leave her alone”
“Jay, it’s okay. Let’s just go”
You said as you got in between them, your big eyes looking straight at him. For some reason, he felt much more calmer, his breathing got back to normal as he focused on your facial features.
“Let’s take some fresh air. Please leave us alone”
You reffered to the other man as you grabbed Jay’s hand to lead him outside the club. You felt a bit flattered for a second, he fought for your safety, that died down a second after when you thought that he might have done it our of friendly love.
“If I was a minute late”
“But you weren’t, everything is fine Jay”
“No it isn’t (y/n), he would have swallowed you up, why did you leave?”
“Look at me… calm down and take a deep breath in”
You instructed him as you placed your cold hands on his cheeks. He did as he was told, as the anger left another feeling took over, he didn’t know if it was love, lust or adoration, all he knew was that it was a sweet type of feeling that came from your eyes and your painted lips.
Your lips…. oh those soft lips that he had seen so many times. He started to slowly lean in, getting closer to you and you had no intentions of stopping him.
You felt his lips touch yours and it felt like satin went over your lips. So soft, so warm, so full, you didn’t want to pull away not even for a breath. His hands snaked over you, making your bodies touch and feel the fabrics rub against each other.
This was something he always wanted to do, but he was never brave enough to do. With alcohol in his system and a little dose of adrenaline it made him brave enough to calim your lips as his. The kiss was passionate yet soft, he treated you like a precious thing that he loved but was too scared to harm. Even though your naked arms felt like ice because of the cold wind, even though your lungs screamed for a breath and your feet ached like never before, this was the best feeling you’ve felt for a while.
He pulled away and looked at your eyes. Both of you were desperate for a breath, your chest going up and down trying to feel your lungs with air. You saw something different in his eyes, it was… guilt
“We have to go inside… they will look for us. You should go home”
He interrupted you. ‘He regrets it’ you though, and the best feeling became the worst. You bit your lip as you tried to control your feelings and power through this, you walked with your head hanging low and just reached for the booth to take your jacket and your clutch
Kiseok asked you. You didn’t say anything, you just took your stuff and left covered in shame, praying to never look at his face ever again
After this you avoided going to AOMG. You took work and new projects as an excuse and begged your manager to fill your schedule as much as possible. You tried to busy yourself away from him and from your thoughts.
You could run, but you cannot hide. You knew at some point that you had to face him, and that point was the collaboration you had promised Gray to do for your new album. So you put your best mask on and walked in with your brightest smile.
“Hello, where’s Seonghwa?”
“In the studio, you know his favorite one”
Hyuk woo informed you. You nodded and walked past the doors and in to the studio, but you were greeted with Jay and not Seonghwa
“Sorry, wrong studio”
You coldly said as your smile dissapeared. Just when you turned your back, Jay pulled you in and closed the door
“What the fuck Jay?”
“I should be asking that question. Why are you avoiding me?”
You scoffed. He had the nerve to ask you that, like he didn’t reject you after the kiss, you crossed your arms over your chest, frustration taking over you body.
“I think the reason is obvious, you’re not that fucking dumb are you?”
“Watch it (y/n)”
“Watch it? Why? what are you gonna do Jay? Ground me? You’re not my dad, you’re not my uncle, you’re not my brother, you are NOT my family, so stop acting like it”
You were now yelling. Jay knew you could be pretty aggressive, just like he can be and now it was time to show it to you.
“Clearly I am not, cause if I was you would know something about manners”
“Now you’re insulting me? Was I that bad of a kisser? Are the girls you run around with better than me? No, they just know how to ride a dick and you need nothing more. Why not me Jay? Am I too young for your liking? Do you see me like your sister? Cause I never fucking wanted that”
“At least they know how to do something, they don’t hide behind their tough attitude the weak little girl that cannot even protect herself”
An open palm met his cheek and the slapping sound was deafening. His head turned because of the force, the stinging pain runned through his body like an eletcric shock. Silence took over both of you, as he tried to process what he said and you tried to make the tears go away.
You sat down in the cahr with your head in your hands. You knew he didn’t mean it, he was defending himself, it still hurt you though.
“I fucking hate you for this”
You whispered. He hated himself so he could understand why you would say that, it was like a knife went through him when he heard you say that. He kneeled in front of you but kept his hands to himself, he didn;t want to touch you cause god knows how you would react.
“I deserved that. You shouldn’t cry over me”
“I’m not crying over you, i’m crying over the fact that I fell for the asshole that is you”
It was obvious to him that you liked him. He liked you too, but he was too scared to admit it, he was a strange man, that drank a lot and had a ormiscuous persona to keep up, he didn’t want to bring that to your life.
“I hurt you didn’t I? I hope that you don’t like me anymore after this”
“Unfortunately I do”
You sniffled. He grinned at your words, as he reached to youch your soft full of texture hair, that he always teased you about and called you a lion. Somehow, the thought of you still wanting him, made him a bit happy.
“You’re not a bad kisser, you are actually one of the best”
“Yeah since i’m at the top”
You giggled at his comment. You looked up to him and his hand glided down to your cheeks to wipe, he saw your soft facial expression and he felt serenity. He had seen every facial expression and they were all beautiful, but right now you felt perfect.
“I love you, not like a sister, I was just too much of a pussy to come clean about it”
“At least you finally did it”
He took you in a hand, placing your head on his chest and his chin on top of your head. You slowly placed yours around his waist and took a big breath of his cologne.
“Are we really going to do this?”
“Yes, if you still love me and my assholeness”
“That’s not a word”
“Is girlfriend a word?”
“My favorite one”