I've been drifting away from the faith for six years, but I'm just now realizing how horribly abusive God sounds. Replace his name with "my husband": "I don't know what's best for me, my husband does." "I must empty myself and do whatever my husband wants me to do, be whoever he wants me to be." "My husband thinks I'm an irredeemable, awful human being, even though he can't give me a reason why, and will do horrendous things to me for eternity if I don't grovel. I'm so lucky he loves me."