what sign placements need to work on


Aries moon: You need to stop rushing into things because you feel like it. You’ve likely been told this a million times but you’re not completely convinced anything’s worth being patient for. As an Aries moon, you have a deep need to get things done, move on with life, as fast as possible, it’s always “on to the next one” … losing an opportunity because you didn’t act on your impulse fast enough would be a nightmare to you. When Mars’ ruling sign is in the moon, impulse is a key word especially when it comes to emotions. You need to learn that feeling strongly about something does NOT always mean you have to act on it. You choose to ignore that sometimes it is possible to act too early for example, coming on too strong with potential partners and scaring them off, or expecting someone to get over upsetting events quicker than they can and dismissing them when they can’t. Use your head for once. You need to be aware that what you feel and what you do, don’t always have to be aligned. It may be better not to start something rashly that would be a waste of productive time so… do learn to weigh the pros and cons (something your sister sign Libra excels at). Normally what happens is you start something on an impulse but you grow bored of it quickly and divert your attention elsewhere. You excel at initiation, but you lack endurance and perseverance. This emotional need for excitement and new projects can hold you back in your life, especially in most careers where skill like patience and perseverance are highly sought after or required. Also, just because you move on from things quickly doesn’t mean everyone else does. Learn to be respectful of others’ pacing and approaches even if it doesn’t feel “right” to you - not everything is about you and you are not the world authority on the right way to feel no matter how much it feels like you are, ESPECIALLY when you’re so painfully oblivious to any depth or causes behind your emotions.

Taurus moon: You need to learn to get your mind out of the gutter. If you don’t, you will never grow emotionally. With a fixed earth moon, you genuinely believe holding on to things is the ‘right’ approach, even if these things are currently of no use or value, out of fear that you’ll need them later. This applies to both possessions and principles. You’re so stubborn with your beliefs and you’re well aware of this… The reason most of you choose to do nothing about this is because you’d rather stick to what you know and be wrong than to risk adopting a new belief or approach that proves to be ineffective and a waste of your time. This leads to stagnancy and a feeling of being stuck… And you know why! STOP letting your deep seated fear of change and ‘losing’ valuable things/people hold you back from taking risks and leaps out of your comfort zone. STOP letting your emotional need to be absolutely sure of details/pros and cons hold you back from iniating or making a move in relationships or careers. Time isn’t forever, you know this better than most. What you need to do with all this fixedness is ACTIVELY challenge your schemas and thoughts. Learn to prioritise rationality over comfort and it will become gradually easier to step out of your comfort zone. Unlike Aries, you excel at persevering but lack initiative. Wouldn’t it be better to start something without being completely sure of all the details and pros and cons and slowly become more certain over time than to lose an opportunity because you were too busy meticulously assessing if it was worth the time and effort? And if you end up at a disadvantage then at least you know for certain whether it is worth your time or not. Let. Things. Go. Your way is NOT always the ‘right’ way of approaching things just because it feels comfortable or practical to you. You need to learn to be more tolerant of others’ approaches to things. You’d think you’d have learned that by now with all your apparent love for peace…

Gemini moon: You need to find stability in every aspect of life, especially emotionally. All that chaotic Mercury energy might seem fun and great at first, but gemini moon natives can find themselves feeling lost, confused and annoyed with their scattered mind. It is therefore extremely important to find some grounding influence if you want to achieve personal growth and, for this particular moon, a way to calm the restless mercurial energy or risk imploding in on yourself with your propensity to rationalise and analyse your emotions instead of simply feeling them. One way you can express this is through communicating/teaching others or stimulating your nearly insatiable intellectual abilities through being the student and learning new things. Your strength lies in your resourcefulness and ability to bounce back from most difficult situations. This changeable nature also means your moods are like the wind.. fleeting and unpredictable, the Gemini moon combines the mutable signs’ adaptability and the air signs’ abstracted and detached logic. You need to learn to develop empathy for others or at least be supportive of their emotions rather than dismissive. You need to stop avoiding working through your emotions and get over with the painful process sooner rather than later. Being ruled by the planet of communication is no excuse for being insensitive to the emotional needs of others and/or your own. Most importantly, you need to find a core. Stick to your plans, see what happens.

Cancer moon: Stop giving into your emotions. While you do feel emotions more strongly than most, you let them control you too much and they guide all of your actions. In order for this moon to reach true self-actualisation you must develop objectivity. You have to develop your rational skills and actively attempt to distance yourself emotionally from situations; this will be extremely difficult but it is vital for your growth and it will help you feel more in control of your emotions. Moreover, you need to stop being so stuck in the past - your sentimentality means your past or childhood memories had profound effects on you that you tenaciously cling to, but you must let go and live in the present, look towards the future. The possibility are endless which is why looking to the past to guide the present and future is so detrimental and counterproductive. Learn that clinging onto things that are already slipping away wont keep them in place, it will only elongate the healing period. You know this. You have a tendency to wallow in self pity though… Stop being self-involved and divert your enormous emotional capacity to others, that’s when you are at your best. You also need to learn to take risks in relationships and become less guarded - not everyone will hurt you.

Leo moon: You need to stop being so dependent on attention or praise from others to feel emotionally secure. Moreover, having an enormous emotional need to be recognised is not an excuse to demand attention from everyone you love. Stop assuming you are everyone’s top priority cause really you’ll just end up hurting yourself with this assumption. It’s childish and arrogant to expect everyone to pay undivided attention to you all the time and you know this and yet… You still continue to do it? Just because others give you a free pass to be as demanding and bossy and self-absorbed as you wish to be doesn’t mean it’s ok for you to grow complicit with this, no matter how much you want to be. Your optimism is contagious and your will so strong it’s infectious, thus therein lies the problem: pride. You are always under the deluded assumption that you are right and everyone else’s opinions are inferior, wrong or irrelevant but you must work on being more open to criticism and correction from others, otherwise you’ll drive people away with your prideful insistence and stubborn refusal to admit you are wrong. You must also work on adopting more reasonable expectations of the people you love as you often demand a lot.

Virgo moon: You need to adopt a more forgiving, positive lens for the faults you find in others and yourself. While your high standards and nitpicky nature allow you to achieve great accomplishment and have competent capabilities, they can ultimately be your downfall. Stop being so critical of yourself and others out of a mistaken assumption that it’s helpful and necessary. Sometimes focusing on your strengths and positive traits is what’s needed in a situation. Your perfectionist and obsessive tendencies can make you go over the same thing several times which actually conflicts with the productiveness and efficiency you so desperately need in order to feel emotionally secure. In order to achieve self growth, you must accept that you cannot achieve perfection or you’ll spend your entire life chasing it. The best thing you can do is give things your best. Tell yourself there was nothing more you could’ve done, which is normally true. Burn out your restless mercurial energy through analysis or other forms of detailed communication, but do not rely on this. To reach full potential you must be able to remain calm in moments of chaos which you despise. Skip or change routines.

Libra moon: You need to stop depending on others’ companionship to develop your own personality and/or feel emotionally secure. In order to self-actualise you must learn to be comfortable and confident on your own. Realise your own worth by going out alone, eating alone, staying in alone etc until you’re comfortable with being left alone. Stop letting others decide things for you. You need to develop your decisiveness and not let people take advantage of your easygoing personality. While you do require equality in a relationship, you can be a bit of a pushover with others in fear of being left alone if you assert yourself. That’s not healthy. Work on standing up for yourself and making your own decisions - ignore your superficial desires to have companionship and realise that this is vital to your personal growth. Also there is a tendency to be somewhat detached and rational with emotions, so you need to make a conscious effort to be more empathetic to others’ emotions.

Scorpio moon: You MUST stop trying to control everything and everyone. Manipulating others and controlling them will not ensure their loyalty to you. What sense does it make to control what can’t be controlled? And yet you never stop trying. Closing yourself off from people to avoid betrayal is unproductive and unwise. You may be eliminating any chances of betrayal, but you’re also effectively denying yourself any meaningful relationships and emotional intimacy with others - an integral need of the Scorpio moon. You need to put more trust and faith in people. Not everyone is out to get you. Isolating yourself does not make you invincible, it will only make you miserable.

Sagittarius moon: You need to let yourself form meaningful relationships with people without getting flighty. Your biggest issue is emotional commitment. Even all the traveling in the world won’t necessarily make you feel whole, as enlightened as you pretend to be. You want constant excitement and stimulation but you need to learn to make do with what you have and enjoy the simple things in life… The world won’t be accommodating to your need for variety and change, so you feel smothered by routines and any stagnancy. You need to learn that committing to things is not a punishment, but actually reap many benefits - especially with Jupiter watching over you. You also must learn to develop a sense of empathy and respect towards others’ emotions as your bluntness comes off as insensitive and irreverent (and it is). Not everyone moves on as quickly as you.

Capricorn moon: You have an innate sense of self-control and resilience which are both your greatest strength and weaknesses. Your need to have things in order and in control hinders your potential to grow, explore and learn because you’re so terrified of making mistakes in the first place. You think sticking to what you know/the comfort zone will stop you from making mistakes because it’s already ‘tried and tested’. However, you must experiment and develop some versatility to truly learn. Making no errors doesn’t teach you anything. With the moon in detriment, you are uncomfortable openly expressing emotions and affection and prefer to keep it under wraps. The main challenge with Capricorn moon is to overcome the saturnian ‘block’ and express their feelings and emotional needs without shame. Capricorn moon is terrified of emotional intimacy however and preoccupies themselves with work and career. There is a deep need to be productive and useful which they often focus on fulfilling when their need for firm yet gentle guidance/love is unfulfilled. You must learn to open up to those who care about you and thrive on a little disorder to achieve self-actualisation. Learn to enjoy rewards without feeling guilty.

Aquarius moon: You need to stop searching for your identity through global causes. You disguise your detached insensitivity behind a faux-altruistic worldly veneer, as a transparent attempt to hide the fact that you don’t really know yourself. You stubbornly refuse to interact with your emotions outside of analysing them and you must learn to acknowledge them sooner or later! It’s just over quicker when you make the right decision and address this weakness early on. What happens often is Aquarius Moons often neglect figuring out who they are deep down and instead preoccupy themselves with global issues that they find more “noble” and “important”. However there is no way of achieving personal growth without knowing yourself on an inner level. Don’t be complicit in this cycle of obliviousness.. you’d think you’d have learned to break this routine by now when your moon is ruled by Uranus.

Pisces moon: You need to learn to stop yourself from getting lost and drifting off in foggy daydreams. When Neptune meets the moon, the imagination is rich and vibrant. There is a tendency to maladaptive daydreaming and escapist tendencies which can turn dangerous if this leads to addiction/substance abuse. Work on being more in touch with reality and the menial world. It’ll keep you in check. Face your emotions and fears head on, stop running away! Avoid your flight tendencies and stick to a plan, make lists, all sorts of menial tasks that engage you with the “real world”. Do anything to keep yourself from losing your grip and giving into unhealthy temptations.


Aries mercury: Learn to just… pause for a second and read in between the lines. Actually think about things… The surface level won’t always be honest to you. Learn to rationalise thoughts and weigh the pros and cons.

Taurus mercury: Learn how to open your damn mind. It’s a cliche phrase only because few actually invest mental energy in developing tolerance to other viewpoints and very few actively challenge their fixed schemas. Regardless, that is what you need to do to achieve a ‘growth mindset’. You want practical advice? Actually listen to what others are saying, not what you can prove wrong. Prioritise logic and rationality over your comfort in sticking to mental routines. It will be uncomfortable but it’s vital for your growth.

Gemini mercury: Learn to look at the details. Stop skimming over everything, that will inevitably bite you in the ass if you keep looking for the ‘gist’ of things. Also learn to develop mental endurance. You excel at absorbing a variety of information and mental versatility but you get distracted too easily. Some things are worth paying attention more than 2 seconds for… Every time you catch yourself diverting your attention, be proactive. Force yourself to go back and see if you missed anything worthy/important.

Cancer mercury: Stooooop linking every mental stimulus to your past and stop confusing your sentimental insistence on using the same emotion-based approach for practicality. You might have a rich imagination and great memory, but you need to learn to be more rational. Try to memorise things in different ways. Pay more attention to reality and the present.

Leo mercury: Ok 1) stop yelling and 2) stop blowing everything out of proportion. Constantly exaggerating details will eventually get in the way of your not-so-subtle goal to be credible/recognised and respected.

Virgo mercury: You need to learn to look at the big picture. Nitpicking over tiny and often irrelevant details may have bode well in high school but it can cause you to miss the point or answer that is in plain sight. Perfectionist tendencies make you go over things a million times paying utmost attention to all the little things and… this reductionist and obsessive way of thinking ironically gets in the way of the efficiency you claim to prioritise.

Libra mercury: You need to learn to be more decisive, and more importantly learn that extremes are not necessarily inferior. If you act as a mediator in an argument, actually try and reach a practical solution and/or conclusion instead of just endlessly weighing abstract pros and cons. Learn to think on your feet. Some decisions are better made with less deliberation. Prioritise productiveness over logical assessment. As for indecisiveness, if you’re stuck between two decisions flip a coin or use an online decision maker for more than two decisions and in the moment it takes to generate a choice, you’ll know what decision YOU want to make as you’ll find yourself secretly wishing for it. If you genuinely are unsure, go with the decision the generator made. This will help you become more confident in making decisions.

Scorpio mercury: You need to learn to accept that sometimes there’s no depth to things. Learn when to stop probing and go … probe somewhere else instead of wasting your time. Some people really are that shallow. Some jokes really are that inexplicably bad. Some information really is that cryptic and you can’t figure it out simply because you don’t know all the information. Stop over thinking every single thing. Some things are a lot simpler than you think they are. Save your time. Distract yourself with something intense or complicated enough to override your overly analytical​ mind.

Sagittarius mercury: Stop preaching oh my god.. giving a generic ass answer to faux-deep questions does not make you a philosopher. Learn to look at the details. Also stop being oblivious to how blunt you are, it can be detrimental to your growth. Learn to exercise self awareness in the way you communicate.

Capricorn mercury: You need to learn to pay attention to what you can’t see. Like the other earth mercuries and Aries, what you see is what you believe. Only looking at things at face value holds you back from mental self-actualisation, along with that God complex. You think ignoring whatever’s between the lines in favour of logic is practical and yet ironically insist your line of thinking is right to the point of bias. Focus less on what’s ‘efficient and productive’ and more on detached logic as well as paying attention to the unobservable.

Aquarius mercury: Stop thinking you have all the answers holy fucking God complex… You claim to be tolerant and open minded but go off at or shun anyone who doesn’t share your opinions, even when evidence is presented. Work on being less rigid with your opinions and accept that others might know more than you/be more ~globally aware~ than you.

Pisces mercury: Learn to like…. be present. Stop daydreaming your life away. Stop giving in to your indulgent fantasies. It’s not productive, but that’s foreign language to you anyway. Basically actively remind yourself to pay attention to the real world, and in detail. Set external reminders. Do you really wanna look back on your life realising you wasted most of it daydreaming? You’re a deep thinker in a way the other signs aren’t, but on the downside there’s a reason Mercury is in detriment when it’s in Pisces. Your path to mental actualisation may be more difficult for you than others, but that’s why it’s so VITAL that you start now if you haven’t already. A developed Pisces Mercury has all the answers to the questions no one knows. Don’t let yourself slip away. Even if it’s tempting.


Aries venus: You know relationships can like… have a few moments of quiet right? Like it’s possible to have a fun and exciting relationship without going to a different rollercoaster or nearly dying every day. You need to learn to pause every now and then and actually think about what your partner would enjoy, because half the time you just seem like a chaotic bumbling mess incapable of just chilling for a while. Learn to COMPROMISE in relationships like your sister sign Libra. Venus is in detriment in Aries so it’s hard for sentimentality or romance to be expressed. The relationship doesn’t have to be fun 24/7 or about doing things. If it is then the relationship isn’t about being in love with the person let’s be real it’s just about doing things you feel like doing, just with a companion. Learn that it’s ok to just stay in sometimes. It doesn’t necessarily mean the relationship is stagnating or the spark is dying or that you’re ‘settling’ - you may simply be growing through the relationship by feeling secure enough in the union to do stuff you wouldn’t normally do. Also liking someone doesn’t mean you have to immediately jump into a relationship, try extending the chase for a while and you might be pleasantly surprised how fun that stage is. Outside of the area of relationships, you can be impulsive with regards to finances and you indulge in immediate gratification. Learn to CONSERVE, hold back and appreciate the beauty in things. And the next time you try to show a friend or someone you care about an appreciative gesture, consider lending them an ear without judgement instead of suggesting a fun night out for faux-selfless reasons..

Taurus venus: You need to learn to be more spontaneous in relationships. You are very loyal and stable and therein lies your weakness. Learn to take risks in relationships whether you’re attempting to start one or in a deeply committed one. Stop using the fact that you’re ‘settled down’ as an excuse to be lazy and complicit. You can have fun outside your comfort zone… You just take a while to assess whether a relationship is worth investing in or not. Keep in mind that they won’t wait forever though, better to take a chance in a relationship and realise it’s not going to work than to miss the opportunity to start one because you kept wondering if you should take the risk… At least then you’ll know for sure. Aside from relationships, Taurus Venus can be very indulgent so they must be careful not to over indulge and become lazy and too preoccupied with worldly pleasures. You need to stop focusing on your own comfort. Take chances. Change up the routine. Don’t let life become stagnant. Just because something feels comfortable doesn’t mean it’s healthy.

Gemini venus: As a mercurial Venus, you need to talk less and do more in relationships. You’re not fooling anyone by just being verbally expressive, your actions have to back up your words. Stop freaking out when someone says the words settling down. You can have a healthy, exciting relationship even when you commit to someone. Outside of relationships, you really just need to listen to people, like actually listen to what they’re trying to say between the lines instead of listening to wait for your turn to speak. You give up on pleasures easily, the type to give up on a show two episodes in because it’s not mentally stimulating enough or too boring. Stop that. Learn to be patient.

Cancer venus: You need to stop being a creature of comforts and stop being so reliant on reassurance. Work up the courage to be affectionate with people even if they aren’t reassuring you 24/7 and actively challenge any insecure thoughts when the people you love aren’t around you. Learn to be more independent, not everyone appreciates clinginess - not to mention this placement is more likely to have dependency issues. Get out of the house, have fun by yourself. Learn that a relationship is strongest when you don’t need reassurance because the security between the people in the relationship is that unbreakable. Outside of relationships, there is a tendency for comfort eating or comfort spending if the wallet allows it. You need to develop confidence and security from within rather than from these external factors. Learn to let go of past hurts.

Leo venus: You need to learn to be more reasonable with your expectations. You have a larger-than-life, almost childlike view of love and these demanding expectations can be exhausting and even crippling to the people in your life who can’t give you the flamboyant over-the-top grandiose displays of affection you dream about. This is disappointing to you, but not everything can be grand all the time - a lesson that must be learned when the Sun’s shining hot rays meet Venus. That doesn’t mean your partner/friends/family love you any less, they may simply have a more toned-down way of expressing love. Loving you can be… expensive. Leo expects grandiose luxury 24/7 and this can lead to over indulgence and laziness in relationships. Leo Venuses may also be impulsive with their spending and always treat themselves if the wallet allows it. Keep an eye on this and control your appetite for luxury in order to grow. Be considerate of your partner’s needs/other people’s needs rather than endlessly thinking about how they don’t measure up to YOUR ideals.

Virgo venus: Venus falls in Virgo so the planet’s desire for calmness, beauty and social grace conflicts with Virgo’s critical, nitpicking, finnicky nature. Stop being so quick to judge others’ appearance and point out their flaws just because they don’t match up to your extremely high standards. These standards can be unreasonable. You constantly criticise those you love because you think it helps improve them, yet you are extremely sensitive to any criticism thrown at you. In order to reach personal growth you need to develop confidence in your appearance and self worth to the point where you are unaffected by outside criticisms. You also need to express your appreciation for those you love in more positive ways, like compliments. Constant criticism will make no one think kindly of you, despite your seemingly good intentions… Insecure virgo venuses can be critical out of a dissatisfaction with their own appearance. Work on being more reasonable and less judgemental.

Libra venus: You need to work on your sincerity. You’re friendly and peace-loving so people enjoy your company but you have a tendency to treat all people the same, regardless of how close or distant you are, bringing your sincerity into question. You yourself often wonder if you like people or if you only like the idea of them but you rarely probe beneath the surface to avoid awkwardness. Your interactions can therefore be quite superficial. You value respect and peace above all so you may be reluctant to bring up issues in relationships. Learn to stop avoiding conflict and address important​ issues even if it disrupts the peace. Stop thinking of people as abstract concepts and really decide whether or not you like certain people. This will help eliminate miscommunication and any resentment from the other party.

Scorpio venus: Love doesn’t have to be painful and dramatic in order to be transformative. Your need for over the top drama in relationships can be tiring and exhausting to others. Stop relying on intense drama to work out your trust issues. Instead, you need to work on challenging your paranoia of being betrayed, letting go of control in relationships and avoid guilt-tripping/manipulating people into staying in the relationships. When Pluto is expressed through Venus, there is a tendency to destroy relationships before they even start (and then some more destruction if it does take off). Just because you find love painful and messy doesn’t mean you have to make it that way for the people who care about you. Stop treating them as toys that need to be tested. Address YOUR trust issues directly to achieve personal growth and form/maintain healthy, strong relationships. With this venus there is a strong attraction to the taboo so be careful, don’t get carried away by your desires.

Sagittarius venus: Stop looking at people as “experiences” to be tried. In order to achieve growth and fulfilment you need to surround yourself with loyal and caring people who don’t disregard your need for freedom and independence. But for full self-actualisation, you need to realise that commitment and freedom are not simultaneously exclusive; instead of leaving relationships the second you’re not stimulated, try waiting it out. Learn to develop patience with your friends and people you love. Not everyone can be intellectually stimulating 24/7. Avoid buying too many souvenirs when traveling.

Capricorn venus: Learn to enjoy pleasure without feeling guilty and learn to loosen up and quit treating relationships like a business contract. If you keep assessing the costs and benefits of relationships you may miss out on an opportunity, not to mention this cold and calculated approach to relationships makes it lose its sentiment. Sometimes it’s better to just jump in even if you don’t know how much you have to lose. This is not to say you are cold and calculated, but you hide your warmness behind a cool veneer. The problem is, most people won’t/forget to look beyond the surface level. Therefore, you must put in an effort in being more socially trusting, warm and at ease until you actually feel less tense and stiff. Not that it matters. You’ll likely distract yourself with work anyways….

Aquarius venus: Learn that don’t have to prove your uniqueness to the world through your partners. Aquarius venuses often enjoy being in progressive relationships and challenging traditions. This stems from your fear of being tied own down and discomfort with traditions that make no rational sense. This is fine, but do not toy with others’ affection for you out of a need to prove something. You can be in a stable and committed relationship while still being progressive - you need to understand they aren’t mutually exclusive. Moreover, you can be careless with or oblivious to the needs of other people in relationships. Most people have no idea how you feel about them. Take initiative and explicitly let them know. Work on being more attuned to the other person’s needs, even if they feel “lesser” than your own “global humanitarian” ones. Ironic that this needs to be mentioned to a sign that seemingly values equality..

Pisces venus: Learn to set boundaries in your relationships. Don’t let people manipulate you, walk all over you or completely disregard your basic needs and get away with it just because you think you love them/care about them. Setting boundaries will not get in the way of forming relationships/finding Tru Love (if you believe in that). In fact it channels and filters the purest and most transformative forms of love towards you. You also need to stop projecting your idealistic standards onto the people you love - you will start to associate love with disappointment inevitably because most people wont live up to your unrealistic standards. You may not realise how unrealistic they are, but wherever Neptune goes, there is danger of illusion and deception. You also need to put more action into showing people you care because your displays of affection can be too abstract. Just BE there. Finally, stop giving in to escapist tendencies. Don’t fall into temptations. When neptune meets Venus, there is danger of addiction/substance abuse or at best maladaptive daydreaming. You are not doomed. Simply learn to control your temptations. Pisces also co-rules Jupiter so there are overindulgent tendencies. Be proactive. Actively try and catch yourself indulging in escapism and force yourself to snap out of it if you can. Jupiter will keep an eye out for you.


Aries mars: Stop being so rash in your decision making! You’ve heard this before and you probably got into trouble many times but you always seem to bounce right back. But if you don’t exercise self restraint and control you will land yourself in irreversible trouble one day. Immediate gratification will never give you the high achievements you so ambitiously seek. You HAVE to learn endurance and patience.

Taurus mars: You HAVE to learn adaptability. Your fixedness and stubbornness work well in persevering and career accomplishment but it also means a lack of malleability, difficulty in bouncing back. You may be tough to break, but once you’re broken it’ll be difficult to put you back together unless you learn to be versatile. Don’t have your mind set on one thing, always have back ups in case things don’t work out. You are not always right and you will end up pushing people away with your rigidity. Learn to compromise. Control your temper when you finally do blow up - this placement has a tendency to push down anger in moments where they can be righteously angry and then build this up until it turns to rage and comes out at completely inappropriate moments. Curb this. Learn to speak up when something angers you right then and there instead of holding on to your anger… Little to no good comes out of this.

Gemini mars: Watch your tongue! With Mercury meeting Mars, you have a propensity for saying hurtful things in arguments. You need to learn to control your crass indifference to others’ emotions when you feel threatened. You need to realise that it’s not acceptable to discard emotional values and principles in order to assert your intellectual superiority e.g. spilling secrets/insulting things the other person is insecure about/using manipulation, etc. There is a tendency to be deceitful and flighty in arguments and life in general here, so you must develop perseverance instead of taking the easier way out. Once you do this, you will be a worthy opponent.

Cancer mars: You MUST learn to stop resorting to, or more often relying on, manipulative tendencies. Mars is in fall when it enters Cancer so it can be more difficult to develop the placement’s strengths and thus there is a tendency to rely on the weaknesses instead. There has to be a way for you to get your point across or win the argument without victimising yourself and demonising the other person/people. You need to learn to assert yourself in the moment express your anger the instant it comes up, instead of holding on to your anger like Taurus Mars. When you do this, your outbursts will seem more reasonable and less confusing and deluded to other people… Make an active effort to be as DIRECT as possible. Say things plainly and explicitly. Soon you will develop more confidence in your assertions and you will feel less defensive about everything. Being rational is very, very hard for this placement when mad which is why you have to start working on this from an early age whether it’s through simple common sense mantras that engage your intellectual mind or taking anger management classes. When you’re angry, the whole world revolves around you. It doesn’t matter to you how the other person feels, you’re blind to this when you blow up despite, or perhaps because of, how empathetic you are generally. All that matters in that moment is that YOU feel hurt. You have to work on being less self-absorbed when irritated, or dangerous things can happen as a result of your blind rage. Learning to prioritise rationality over your own feelings is a must for this placement. Also stop fronting and acting like you’re tougher than you really are… it could land you in deep shit one day if you go looking for trouble to prove your worth. Regardless of how powerless or insecure you feel, your manipulation is maladaptive and must be actively curbed. If and only if you take a proactive stance against this will you start developing confidence from WITHIN, and succeed in all aspects of life regardless of oppositions.

Leo mars: You must learn how to be objective and less self-involved. Simply yelling that you’re the best doesn’t make it true - it in fact conveys self-esteem issues. While you do have a natural confidence, this confidence is highly dependent on the reassurance and praise of others which you manage to constantly receive, so is it really confidence? Your journey to self-actualisation has to begin with developing confidence in your own worth regardless of the attention you get. Also stop being so prideful and rigid, it’s not productive and it’s a waste of time. You’re not always right, that’s a fact - the only way to know if you ARE right in a particular issue is to step back and shove your ego aside and look at the situation from a distance, from different perspectives, etc… THAT is how you know for sure. Learn that letting go and/or considering alternate viewpoints is to your advantage too. Learn to listen to others, accept that they may have better ideas than you. How can you expect any one to believe the whole confidence act if you’re so easily provoked by the tiniest perceived slight?

Virgo mars: Another Mercury-ruled Mars like Gemini, you need to watch your tongue. Stop using the fact that your sharp-tongued criticisms are factually observable as an excuse to berate others, especially if you attack weaknesses they let you see/ told you they’re insecure about. You’re not as mature you think you are when you’re angry, in fact you can be quite relentlessly petty from all the built up restless frustration that comes with being a co-ruler of Mercury. This gives you an immense drive to intellectualise why you’re right… which is also borderline childish. You need to work on your hypocrisy if you expect anyone to take your criticisms seriously/be affected by them, especially when you’re the type to constantly dish out criticism but unable to take any. You also need to work on being more accepting of other people’s approaches - like Leo and Aquarius, you have a hard time believing others know better/more than you or have better ideas and approaches. You have to accept that you’re not the authority on how to do things ‘right’ if you want to achieve personal growth. Zooming in on and obsessing over details isn’t always as efficient as you think it is, this finnicky nitpicking can actually be your worst enemy and a waste of productive time - learn to look at the big picture. The whole is not the sum of its parts.

Libra mars: You MUST learn to be more decisive and straightforward​. Endlessly weighing the pros and cons in tense situations is rarely productive - sometimes a quick, swift decision needs to be made. In order for you to grow as a person, you need to be able to think on your feet. You have a tendency to insert yourself into arguments to act as the “mediator” but fail to reach a concrete solution or conclusion out of fear of ruffling any feathers/escalating the tension or due to getting lost in weighing the situation. Don’t do that, don’t appoint yourself as the mature mediator if you won’t take mature actions. Learn to directly tell someone if you think they’re wrong instead of beating around the bush - chances are, their reactions will be the same. Learn to explicitly express and assert your needs to others instead of dropping hints… The worst that could happen is they ignore it, but that’s almost a given with your passive aggressive approach.

Scorpio mars: You MUST let go of control and stop being so defensive. Like Cancer Mars, you can be easily provoked but not out of feeling hurt, but rather out of paranoia that your privacy is being invaded or the implication that you don’t have as much control over things as you think you do. Guess what, you don’t. The sooner you accept this, the quicker the path to self-actualisation will be. You’re sensitive and hyperaware of power struggles as a result of a deepseated fear of losing the upper hand and being on the lower end of the scale. This may have been spurred by potential feelings of powerlessness early in life. Regardless, you need to let go of your need for control. You need to stop resorting to manipulation or downright ruthlessness to get what you want. Control your emotional impulses that urge you to display dominance… A developed Scorpio Mars won’t need to display it. Thrive on the loss of power rather than fearing it; Scorpio is ruled by Pluto after all, the planet of transformations and shifts in power. Once you start to loosen your grip and become less defensive as a result, you are actually at your best as you are fulfilling your Plutonian purpose of destruction of the self and completely rebuilding a new self from the ashes.

Sagittarius mars: You need to work on your crass indifference to others’ emotions like your sister sign except here this is more impulsive and self-serving. Your bluntness means people can rely on you for your honest opinion, but you use it like a dagger when provoked. You get over it fairly quickly, but you can’t expect others to do so too. You have to be respectful of others’ approach to things - you’re not as accepting as you think you are - and the time it takes for them to heal, don’t expect forgiveness for your (often insincere) apologies, it only makes you look more entitled. You must learn to commit to your projects and not move on to the next interesting thing that catches your eye. You might have an unrivalled enthusiasm for worldly experiences and education, but you lack the perseverance and steadiness required for this. You need to learn to persist even when you feel that your interest is starting to fade. Like Aquarius, you need to practice what you preach if you expect anyone to adopt your views.

Capricorn mars: You must learn when to let go and be inflexible. You pride yourself on self-control, but you hold back from indulging in the merits you get as a reward for your ambition and work ethic. So what’s the point? Do you only do it for pride? Is that the only way you feel important? You must learn to let go and live a little. Stop being so rigid about everything; your need for control and order can be stifling to others. You call yourself a long term planner but where do you see yourself going if you constantly overwork yourself without allowing yourself to enjoy the rewards? You also need to humble yourself down. You may be practical and down to earth, but a confident certainty in your own abilities and knowledge can sometimes manifest as arrogance. You have a God complex that needs to be addressed in your journey to personal growth… You’re so sure that you’re right that you rarely stop and think and consider the other person’s viewpoint without pressure. You’re so concerned with what’s efficient and practical that you always stick to what you know, losing the very objective and logical nature you like to pride yourself on… You must learn to adapt to occasions where things don’t bend your way, where you turn out to be wrong or where you have to experiment with new methods - you have to learn to do all this without resorting to the very level of pettiness you consider yourself above. Rise above this tendency to do whatever to win the argument/ have the last word, it’s childish no matter how you masquerade it. Also be wary of a tendency to step on others to reach the places you want out of a hunger for power… If you want it bad enough you can get there through your own work ethic.

Aquarius mars: You must learn to stop being so inflexible in your views and opinions. You rarely resort to emotional manipulation or rage when angry, not out of respect for others but out of a HUGE superiority complex. You think you’re ‘above’ that like Capricorn Mars but instead of being hypocritical by ending up resorting to the very pettiness you think you’re above, you simply cut the person off and disappear from their life if your values were incompatible and you couldn’t convert them to your side. Ironic considering the tolerance and open-mindedness you constantly preach to others. Learn to humble yourself down and stop thinking your opinions are always right or that you know more than others. Like your sister sign leo, you need to learn to accept that others may know more than you/may be right. Just because you disagree with someone on something doesn’t mean they can’t be in your life.

Pisces mars: Toughen the fuck up and grow a backbone. You need to stop letting people walk all over you and pretend it’s for ~selfless~ reasons when really you do it because you loooove wallowing in self pity. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and relying on escapism. Snap out of it. You MUST be proactive and combat the disillusion that comes with a neptunian Mars. Stop relying on external sources to deal with difficult situations. Face it head on for once. You’ll be relieved. You’ll get through it sooner if you do. Do everything you can to stay in touch with reality. Distract yourself with lists or mentally/physically demanding activities. Don’t let yourself slip away. Stick to plans for once. Focus inward on your emotions to find the root/cause behind certain emotions. You MUST learn to set boundaries. Once you start focusing on yourself and set hard limits instead of excusing others’ actions, asserting yourself will be much easier.

*This is based on the archetypes and basic traits of the zodiac signs. Maintain an objective approach when reading these.. if a description seems off, remember to look holistically at your whole chart. Obviously I don’t know you personally, but astrology is inherently neutral even if my interpretation isn’t and just because YOU don’t express a certain trait does not mean it is not a trait of said sign. So don’t bother with the “not all ___” rants lmao save your energy.

**Astrology is not deterministic, nothing is set in stone just because you have a certain placement - don’t try to justify detrimental behaviours using this excuse e.g. ‘i have a Scorpio Mars and Moon so I can’t help but rely on manipulative tendencies :/’ which is laughable because 1) it’s a shitty excuse 2) it just reinforces underdeveloped traits that discourage any personal growth. You have some degree of control over your behaviours, use that to your advantage.

***I excluded Sun & the outer planet sign placements from this particular post as the description would be too generic and generalised due to the nature of the post. They will be added on the Aspects version of this post as aspects are more personalised and relevant when it comes to the Sun and outer planets.

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The signs as excellent horror films

Aries: Alien (1979)

Taurus: The Silence of the Lambs (1991)

Gemini: The Shining (1980)

Cancer: It Follows (2015)

Leo: Rosemary’s Baby (1968)

Virgo: The Exorcist (1974)

Libra: Goodnight Mommy (Ich seh, Ich seh) (2014)

Scorpio: The Babadook (2014)

Sagittarius: Black Swan (2010)

Capricorn: Les Diaboliques (1955)

Aquarius: The Blair Witch Project (1999)

Pisces: Misery (1990)

That Awkward Moment When

John Laurens x Female Reader

Requested by @cupcakequeen1999 who was kind enough to compromise, this one goes out to you girl, you’re super rad

In which the reader and Laurens are roommates and very good friends. Jealousy and smut ensues.

Words: 4,573

Warnings: NSFW! SMUT SMUT SMUT and LOTS OF SWEARING (don’t read if this will make you uncomfortable)

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important facts about the scavengers

  • misfire thinks megatron is better looking than fulcrum
  • flywheels thinks fulcrum’s chin is very handsome
  • krok thinks the top half of crankcase’s face is very handsome
  • flywheels’ spark was in his pelvis
  • krok knows where to hit crankcase to make his guns fire
  • misfire has excellent handwriting
  • spinister signed a note to a guy who just tried to arrest him with kisses xx
  • spinister is so large and/or misfire is so small that spinister can fit misfire’s entire wingspan in a hug
  • crankcase is afraid of getting trolled online
  • the rest of the scavengers troll people online for fun
Meaning of the Modes in Astrology
  • Cardinal (Aries/Cancer/Libra/Capricorn): The cardinal signs signify spirit, action, initiative, power, and strength. People with fewer than four planets in cardinal signs are not self-starters and will need someone to prod them on, while those with more than four will go on their way with little interference. Cardinal people are bossy and competitive and like to stay busy even into old age. The problem is that they don't know when to stop, they'd rather burn out than take it easy. They have enough energy to carve out their own destinies, here to create karma rather than be subject to it. Aries is personal or individual action, Cancer is family or group action, Libra is partnership action, and Capricorn is organized or business action. Aries and Libra are outwardly active while Cancer and Capricorn like to pull the strings.
  • Fixed (Taurus/Leo/Scorpio/Aquarius): The fixed signs signify matter, stability, fixity, and perseverance. People with fewer than four planets in fixed signs lack purpose or follow-through, while those with more than four are solid, determined, and unchanging. Fixed signs can make excellent executives and can be relied upon to get things done. Fixed signs believe that they were meant to achieve something since birth. Taurus is financial or material stability, Leo is spiritual stability, Scorpio is emotional stability, and Aquarius is mental stability and fixity. Taurus and Scorpio are determined in a quiet manner while Leo and Aquarius display their determination outwardly.
  • Mutable (Gemini/Virgo/Sagittarius/Pisces): The mutable signs signify versatility, adaptability, and communication. People with fewer than four planets in mutable signs are not very flexible or adaptable and have trouble seeing things from others point of view, while those with more than four are very changeable, restless, and unstable, but the best communicators. Mutable signs make excellent subordinates or employees, they were born to serve and follow. They also make great writers, newscasters, secretaries, or artists and other jobs with a need for communication skills. Mutable signs' way of life is to be prepared for whatever is coming and let it come. Gemini is mental versatility, Virgo is organizational versatility, Sagittarius is arrangement versatility, Pisces is emotional versatility.Gemini and Sagittarius are more vocal with their ideas and beliefs while Virgo and Pisces like to express themselves more quietly and through deeds and sacrifice.
Two signs of the same coin

Aries and Scorpio: the flamethrower and the match

Both are powerful, strong-willed, and passionate.  Where Aries is upfront and straightforward, Scorpio is plotting and reserved.  Both signs make excellent leaders, and their Mars influence gives them a fiery edge.  Aries is a bit more overt compared to the private and mysterious Scorpio, but they are equally capable of accomplishing their goals, and will go after them with intense diligence.  They are also both quick to anger and jealousy, although their rage is expressed very differently.

Taurus and Libra: the bloom and the bud

Both are romantic, charming, and easygoing.  Where Taurus is calm and steady, Libra is excitable and fluid.  Taurus and Libra both know what they want, but Libra is more concerned with pleasing others than Taurus, and is therefore much less likely to express what they want if they think it could be seen as taboo.  However, Libra and Taurus share the Venusian fondness for beauty and peace, and prefer to live with contentment rather than large moments of joy and of despair.

Gemini and Virgo: the novel and the encyclopedia

Both are intellectual, analytical, and enchanting.  Where Gemini is chatty and all over the place, Virgo is silent and concentrated.  Virgo is essentially a more centered and focused version of Gemini.  Their Mercurial influence leaves them both with a strong desire to understand everything that goes on around them. Gemini is undoubtedly more skilled in abstract thought, but this can leave them quite a bit “up in the air,” compared to the grounded Virgo.

Cancer and Leo: the moon and the sun

Both are loving, faithful, and cautious.  Where Cancer is soft and introspective, Leo is loud and out in the world.  Even when their roles are reversed, and Cancer is the outgoing one and Leo the shy one, Cancer remains more inwardly focused and concerned with their close family and friends, and Leo is still concerned with what everyone thinks of them, regardless of how important they are in Leo’s life.  Easily two of the most self-centered signs on the wheel, they also prefer to be on the safe side of things, and are unbelievably loyal.

Sagittarius and Pisces: the genie and the wishing well

Both are generous, joyful, and hot-headed.  Where Sagittarius is adventurous and interested in the outside world, Pisces is imaginative and interested in the inner world.  They are both unfailingly giving thanks to Jupiter, but they differ in that Sagittarius gives their all and expects it in return, in contrast to Pisces, who will give everything they own without believing they’re owed anything else.  Neither is skilled with balance, as Sagittarius spreads themselves too thin in numerous subjects, and Pisces devotes themselves to one thing, therefore neglecting others.

Capricorn and Aquarius: the sage and the priest

Both are wise, private, and detached.  Where Capricorn is experienced and clever, Aquarius is enlightened and philosophical.  One goes to Capricorn when they need help with a problem that comes from outside, and to Aquarius when they need help with a problem that comes from inside.  Both signs are prone to becoming dogmatic, and their Saturnian influence can make them feel separated from the rest of the world, but they share a profound concern for the wellbeing of others, and only ever do what they feel they can justify.

The Pros And Cons Of Dating Each Zodiac Sign

Aries (March 21 - April 19)

Pros: Aries are up for any adventure and are very fun. Their energy is contagious, and the chemistry between you is AMAZING.

Cons: They can be way too hard on themselves and will shut you out during those times. They’re notorious for not returning emails, calls, and texts.

Taurus (April 20 - May 20)

Pros: Taureans are very lovable and will make you feel safe and protected. There’s a good chance they can cook like nobody’s business, but even if they can’t, they know how to make mac and cheese like a boss.

Cons: They can get stuck sometimes and not want to do anything. If you’re someone who doesn’t do well with stubborn people, you may want to stay away from a Taurus; their stubbornness is legendary.

Gemini (May 21 - June 20)

Pros: You’ll never get bored dating a Gemini. They’re super-smart, are great talkers, and they’ll always put your needs and feelings first.

Cons: Because Geminis are so intelligent, they can be know-it-alls and unintentionally make you feel intellectually inferior. They also have a habit of overthinking things and getting upset for the wrong reasons.

Cancer (June 21 - July 22)

Pros: Cancers will treat you right and you can trust them with anything. Tell them all your secrets, it’s OK. Cancers are always the sign that excels at commitment.

Cons: Can you say mood swings? One minute they couldn’t be happier, and the next, they’re in a dark place. And forget about trying to get them to tell you what’s wrong. Defensiveness, thy name is Cancer.

Leo (July 23 - August 22)

Pros: There are so many fantastic things about Leos: their humor, their ability to make things exciting and fun, and how they’re super-hot. You’ll make the best memories with a Leo.

Cons: Leos aren’t known for their sensitivity regarding other people’s feelings, and without meaning to, they can be kind of a jerk. When they hurt you, it’s hard to get them to take responsibility for it.

Virgo (August 23 - September 22)

Pros: Virgos can be the sweetest people ever and will always consider your feelings. They’re adorable in the way they can be so serious and grown up. They’re reliable and will never stand you up or make you find your own way home.

Cons: They can tend to be overly sensitive and doubt your sincerity when you try to help them to feel better about themselves.

Libra (September 23 - October 22)

Pros: Libras are the best kissers in the zodiac. They’re also excellent flirts and will make you feel attractive and vibrant.

Cons: They hate conflict, so rather than break up with you face-to-face, they’ll just ghost you and you’ll never know what set them off. Libras will also sometimes tease you well past the time it gets annoying.

Scorpio (October 23 - November 21)

Pros: When you connect with a Scorpio it’s usually at a very deep, intense level—that includes sexually and emotionally. Like everything with a Scorpio, dating is done with passion.

Cons: That intensity is both a good and bad thing. Scorpios can get so serious that it can be overwhelming and a little scary. Not everything needs to be a huge, melodramatic deal.

Sagittarius (November 22 - December 21)

Pros: Sagittarians are really fun, funny, and upbeat. They’re a good time in the form of a star sign. They’re totally up for new experiences and they love connecting with new people mentally.

Cons: They’re stimulated by new things, so it can be challenging to get them to settle down and commit. They give off a lot of mixed signals, so good luck knowing where you stand.

Capricorn (December 22 - January 19)

Pros: You don’t have to worry about a Capricorn being faithful to you; they’re completely trustworthy and loyal. They won’t wait for holidays or your birthday to make you feel special, and they will forever be giving you flowers and gifts for no occasion.

Cons: They can be really controlling, and you may feel stifled. Capricorns can be manipulative without even being aware of it.

Aquarius (January 20 - February 18)

Pros: An Aquarius will surprise you with their constant stream of unique thoughts. They’re always up for trying new things, whether it’s a restaurant or club. When you’re seeing an Aquarius, you’ll always feel comfortable and at ease. You can be your true self with an Aquarius.

Cons: Sometimes Aquarians are too much in their head and very little in their heart; emotions can be a little troublesome for them. They can also get weirdly aggressive if they’re not the person in charge in a situation.

Pisces (February 19 - March 20)

Pros: Pisces will completely understand you and your sensitivity. They’ll make you laugh until you pee, and will not only be your bae but your best friend as well.

Cons: They can be ultra sensitive, becoming closed off without explaining what you did or said to make them so hurt and angry. There could be major miscommunication issues.

Namjoon Scenario: Be My Love.

Request: Love your works ^^ a lil request of a very oblivious reader and namjoon dropping hints with every coffee that he brings to her untill he finally snaps and kisses her and then decides to stick a sticky note to her face with “I like u a lot” written on it ^^ dont know if this’ll suit your tastes but I decided to give I a go :D

Flatmates AU.

Genre: Fluff. 

The cup was placed on the table making a sound but you didn’t even lift your head from the book. Namjoon frowned just a little and sighed, you were usually absentminded, but as you were studying for a very important test you were even more immersed on it than normal. 

It was ok, he thought, because the way you were so centered in your studies, how you were so smart, how you were so determinate, those were some of the things Namjoon liked about you. But of course you had other characteristics, for example how evident was his crush for you. Everybody in the department had noticed it, everyone knew Namjoon liked you since a lot time ago, since you moved in he could say, but not you. You treated him as a friend, perhaps sometimes like a bit more than that, but Namjoon hadn’t had the courage to confess although he really wanted to.

You lived together with other three people, three girls and two guys in total, you’ve coincided there since the department was really close to the university,  but Namjoon being the romantic he was and adding more since he had a crush, thought it was because of destiny. 

He cleared his throat making you lift your gaze to him making you gasp a bit startled. 

-Namjoon! I didn’t see you there, sorry-

He smiled inevitably, you were really cute while surprised. -It’s ok, I brought you a cup- he said sliding the beverage closer to you.

You smiled taking it in your hands. -Thank you so much- you sipped from it and then realized the cup had something stuck on. -Oh, what is this?- 

Namjoon stood up quickly. -Well I leave you to it then-

You watched him go and then saw it was yet again another sticky note, Namjoon was very kind, he always brought you coffee when he saw you were studying, and more often than not he’d stick a note on the cup, sometimes with inspiring quotes, others with simple words, like “hope” or “fighting”, or silly phrases to make you laugh like “Better read this” and then he’d write his own name, it was a really thoughtful detail to do such a thing. You really liked him, in a lot of ways, but you weren’t sure if he felt the same. Sure he was attentive towards you, but you couldn’t judge everything on that, you just weren’t sure of what he felt.

You read the quote he wrote today, “Put your heart, mind and soul into even your smallest acts. This is the secret to success, Swami Sivananda”. You liked it, you agreed with what it said, perhaps that was one of the reasons you got so focused when you were doing something, concentrating to the point of forgetting the world. 

But then there were people like Namjoon to bring you back to it, with a cup of coffee and that gorgeous smile, you really liked his smile, and dimples, you sighed getting back to your reading, if only he liked you back.

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anonymous asked:

I am dead inside, i have lost hidaya i think, i have angered Allah and earned His wrath. I lost, and my nafs won. I am going to die on disobedience, lost and cursed. I lost..

You lost the battle, not the war. As long as you are alive, you have a chance. Don’t give up on Allah. By Allah, If you sincerely ask Allah for guidance, Allah will guide you.

It was narrated from Abū Hurayrah – Allāh be pleased with him – that the Messenger of Allāh (ﷺ) said, Allāh (ﷻ) said:

“I am as My servant’s opinion of Me.”

— Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī (7505)

the Prophet (ﷺ) taught us:

“All the children of ʾĀdam‎ constantly err, but the best of those who constantly err are those who constantly repent.”

— Sunan Ibn Mājah (4251)

The Prophet (ﷺ) said:

“One of the signs of excellence of one’s worship is thinking well of Allāh (ﷻ).”

— Aḥmad

Shaykh Muḥammad al-Mukhtār as-Shanqītī said:

“No one assumes a bad opinion about Allah, except that he is doomed.”

Allāh (ﷻ) tells us in the Qurʾān:

وَاللَّهُ يُرِيدُ أَن يَتُوبَ عَلَيْكُمْ وَيُرِيدُ الَّذِينَ يَتَّبِعُونَ الشَّهَوَاتِ أَن تَمِيلُوا مَيْلًا عَظِيمًا

Translation: “Allāh wants to accept your repentance, but those who follow [their] passions want you to digress [into] a great deviation.” — Sūrat an-Nisāʼ (4:27)

As Allah says:

“Verily, this (Verses of the Quran) is an admonition, so whosoever wills, let him take a Path to his Lord (Allah).” - (76:29)

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Gems As Zodiac Signs: EXPLAINED

So, like many people, I’m kinda sick of those “Zodiac Sign” posts that simply say what the signs are without explaining or connecting together.

Why is Sardonyx Virgo? Because you said so? I NEED REASONS MAN

*breathes deeply*

Anyway, I do admit I like those kinds of posts when done right, so I’d like to take a crack at it myself if you don’t mind. Also, like most Zodiac stuff, whether you believe in it or not doesn’t really matter. It’s just for fun.

Aries (The Ram)- Ruby

The sign of Aries is incredibly hot-headed, almost to a fault (it’s not called The Ram for nothing, people). Aries is the sign of attachment and determination. People under the sign of Aries are extremely attached to their family and close friends, and have an almost insatiable need to protect and cherish them (even if they can become overbearing in the process). Aries will do what they want, when they want, and they won’t take no for an answer. Passion is the name of the game to Aries, and they make excellent partners that can be trusted to always pull through for you.

Ruby is so like that oh my gosh. As seen in “Keystone Motel”, Ruby literally finds reasons to stay mad at Pearl, and is extremely attached to Sapphire. She becomes emotional when she accidentally hurts Steven’s feelings, and in “Jail Break” she ignores Lapis’ plight in order to track down Sapphire, matching Aries’ traits of blind determination in regards to people close to them.

Taurus (The Bull)- Rose Quartz

The sign of deeper meaning, Taurean people always have backup plans or secrets nobody knows about. They think in a different perspective, so talking to them is almost like talking to a different species. Taureans are nature lovers and tend to be very down-to-Earth people. Taurus also the sign of Earthly pleasure (it is actually the first Earth sign in the Zodiac cycle), and is connected to love and the process of working relationship problems out. Despite all of this, Taureans are great socializers and gain a following of close friends throughout their life.

Rose Quartz fits this because she is taking pleasure in the Earth. As well as this, when Greg tries to talk to her in “We Need To Talk”, she’s very difficult to communicate with due to how different their backgrounds are. Rose, fitting with Taurus, is definitely an Earth and nature lover (she has control over plants for crying out loud), and her sign is known to help smooth over relationship kinks (hi again, “We Need To Talk).

Gemini (The Twins)- Sardonyx

Gemini are the performers of the world. They talk a lot, love to be the center of attention, and have a flair for the dramatic. Stage performing is their bread and better, and Gemini are known to be incredibly good at acting. However, there is a dark side to this sign. Gemini are two-faced and will often use people to achieve their goals (whether or not it’s on purpose), and can even come across as snobbish or hurt people without meaning to. Gemini love words and making them, so expect a Gemini to be well-read and articulated (haha).

Sardonyx fits all of this to a T. Being formed out of deceit (even though Pearl didn’t mean to hurt Garnet) is a staple of this sign. Sardonyx’s loud, flamboyant, and fun personality is also a staple of Gemini, and she even hurt Amethyst’s feelings without meaning to in “A Cry For Help”. She’s incredibly well-versed and it almost seems like she’s rehearsed for her appearance for years (something a Gemini would definitely do), and like a Gemini, the dark side (the Pearl side) of her is very apparent later on.

Cancer (The Crab)- Garnet

Just like its namesake, Cancers are hard on the outside but squishy on the inside. They crave stability, and love to be surrounded by their loved ones/ However, Cancers have problems opening up and can be interpreted as incredibly rude or uncaring to people who don’t understand them. Cancer is the sign of mystery, since you can never really tell what a Cancer is thinking about or feeling. But rest assured, they’re not emotionless (in fact, they’re one of the most emotional signs out there). Cancer is also the sign of motherhood and maternal instincts.

Garnet is made of stability. She’s also incredibly stoic and blunt, which Cancers are. But underneath her hard rock exterior is the super fluffy lovey dovey center of Ruby and Sapphire’s love. In fact, her attitude towards Steven even labels her as a head mom (along with Pearl) in his eyes. People don’t understand Garnet, but that’s okay. She has herself, Steven, Pearl, and Amethyst. And that’s all she really needs. Home is where the heart is, right? Well, like a crab, Garnet carries her home with her. Both inside her (Ruby and Sapphire) and outside her (Steven, Pearl, and Amethyst).

Leo (The Lion)- Lion

Leos are incredibly loyal and helpful, as well as prideful. They are driven by the need to have people to love and protect, and doing so is their utmost duty. Leo is ruled by the Sun, and are difficult to resist (they can be very persuasive). Creative and mysterious, Leos are as strange as they are alluring.

Aside from the fact that Leo literally means “Lion” in Latin, Lion matches up with Leo perfectly. He’s always protecting Steven and was probably left behind by Rose just to protect him. His persuasive abilities are amplified by him being a cute cat, and Steven can’t resist letting him back in the house after almost suffocating under his mane in “Lion 3: Direct to Video”.

Virgo (The Maiden)- Pearl

Neurotic and fastidously clean, Virgo is the sign of consensual servitude. Virgos are the most intellectual of the signs, Virgos are masters of critical thinking. However, they need to feel needed and wanted in a relationship, but have difficulty actually saying the words “I Love You”. Because of this, Virgos often have multiple stable platonic relationships rather than one core relationship. Virgos love to serve and do things for their friends and family, as it enhances both their critical thinking and the feeling of being wanted and appreciated. Virgos are excellent advisers, but are weak when it comes to base pleasures such as food or sex.

Pearl, Pearl, Pearl. If there was ever a Virgo in this show, it’s you. Desperate to feel wanted by Rose, Pearl consistently shot down Greg. But Pearl could never really tell Rose “I Love You”. She even has multiple stable relationships (all of her fusions are on the humanoid end of the spectrum, like Opal and Rainbow Quartz), and advises the Crystal Gems on multiple courses of action. As shown in “A Cry For Help”, Pearl is definitely weak to base pleasures, deceiving Garnet in order to keep forming Sardonyx. However, she remains the intellectual core of the group and strives to maintain order in both her family and the house.

Libra (The Scales)- Opal

Made of balance and compromise, Libra is the sign of partnership. Mutual agreement is key for this sign, and injustice is not tolerated. Working in teams is where this sign excels at, and they can become fascinated by the concept of equilibrium. Cooperation and negotiation come to this sign naturally, and they are often enthralled by serene grace and natural beauty. However, Libra’s two main flaws are that they have difficulty making snap decisions or remembering important details.

No, Opal isn’t Sagittarius (I know, I was disappointing too), but rather a symbol of Amethyst and Pearl’s cooperation. As a creature formed of compromise, Opal hits almost all of the Libra nails on the head. Even her inability to remember the Heaven Beetle at the end of “Giant Woman” fits with the sign, and Pearl and Amethyst’s arguing over what to do split her up (just like her sign, she’s unable to make snap decision’s without de-fusing). And I think we can all agree that Opal is definitely full of serene grace and natural beauty.

Scorpio (The Scorpion)- Amethyst

Scorpio’s modus operandi is their inability to keep any of their feelings a secret. They will literally broadcast what they’re feeling if it means someone will listen to them and affirm their emotions. A sign of hidden depths, this emotional facade hides an even deeper sense of not belonging. Scorpio’s excel at keeping any secrets they are told (but are not so good at keeping their own), and when pushed to the edge they can explode spectacularly. Scorpio is ruled by Pluto, the planet of death and reformation.

Amethyst’s main facet of personality is her emotional spontaneity. She is very loud and vocal, but on the inside this is all to make people adulate her and love her. She even has Scorpio’s secret keeping ability: In “A Cry For Help”, she holds back telling Garnet exactly what Pearl’s been doing in the hopes Pearl will say it herself. And she along with Pluto are indicative of reforming: She’s been poofed and reformed the most of any Gems seen so far. And do I even need to note her emotional breakdown in “On The Run” at the Kindergarten? Amethyst matches Scorpio pretty well in that department, too.

Sagittarius (The Archer)- Lapis Lazuli 

The sign of freedom and journeys, the Archer wants nothing more than to make their  own choices and go where they want. Sagittarius can be socially thoughtless and aggressive sometimes in order to simply get people out of their way so they can enjoy what they want to do. They love to laugh and make jokes, but being held in a prison or restraint is their biggest nightmare. Sagittarius is often considered the happiest sign in the Zodiac.

My blue baby is definitely a Sagittarius. Lapis just wants to be free, and do what she wants. When Steven interacts with her in the mirror, she’s shown to be very humorous and fun-loving. But years of torture and the changing of her Homeworld has left the originally happy and optimistic Lapis broken and saddened. Lapis is tactless in combat, simply throwing everything at the Gems in “Ocean Gem” because she wanted them to go away.  Ironically, Lapis has spent most of the show trapped in a personal hell (both in the mirror and in Malachite), making her perceived personality a sick joke in juxtaposition to what’s happening to her.

Capricorn (The Sea Goat)- Sapphire

Cool and collected, Capricorn is the sign of calm and patience. The most serious sign of the Zodiac, Capricorn pride themselves on being cool and collected at all times. This can make them seem emotionally distant, but be assured that they feel just as much as everyone else does. They’re just very good at controlling their emotions and not telegraphing their thoughts. A flaw with Capricorns is that they think they have all the answers, when really there is no answer. Capricorns are very serious love partners, and will stay committed always. Outburst of emotion are rare but not unprecedented: Capricorns can bottle their emotions for so long that the pressure can really get to them.

Sapphire is literally cool-headed, first of all, and is emotional distant even to her lover Ruby. Sapphire continually uses her Future Vision in “Keystone Motel” to reassure herself that things were going to be okay, but that turned out to be inadequate for the situation. She finally begins to show emotion when she realizes that she hurt Steven, and then it all came tumbling out. Sapphire is the poster child for Capricorn: Emotionally distant but prone to let it all out when it all gets to her.

Aquarius (The Water Bearer)- Peridot

The thinkers and scientists are born under this sign. Aquarius strive to make new things, better things, bigger things! Fusion things! But really, Aquarius can be a serious threat to anyone not ready to match their mental output. They can be cold and unfeeling to anyone they deem below them, but in reality they are afraid of intimacy since they view that as weakness. Bored with the mundane, Aquarius will always think out of the box to shock, befuddle, dazzle, and horrify their friends and enemies. 

Peridot, being a Gem scientist, is pretty much an Aquarius on the most base level or reality. She always speaks in a bored tone and has no qualms with crushing those beneath her (sometimes literally. R.I.P plug robonoid from “Warp Tour”). She has no issues with forgoing ethics and reason if it means furthering her cause (hi, Cluster. Didn’t see you there). But Peridot might have a soft side that will be show eventually, since Aquarius tend to have one thing they pride above all others: Family.

Pisces (The Fishes)- Steven Universe

The sign of hopeful optimism, Pisces will give everything up if it means making just one person happy. Hopeless romantics is what they are, and they will always seek to shield everyone from harm, not just their friends and family.Constantly dreaming and happy, and generally a blast to be around, Pisces the Fishes are literally tied together by the tail so they don’t float away in their own dreams.

Steven is the most optimistic, sweet, and helpful character in the show. His naivety is not his weakness, though: It’s his strength. Much like real Pisces, he surrounds himself with friends and allies simply by how nice he is. He can mend any problems with his social group and serves as the moral center of the Crystal Gem. His weapon is even a shield, just to drive the point home. 

Pisces Universe. 

Hmmm… I like it. 

13x13 on a Nutshell

- No matter how much cutting edge technology, skill or talent you have, without experience, you can’t really teach (learn if from Webber, Minnick)

- No matter how good of a resident/doctor/surgeon you are, you don’t have superpowers. Sometimes things just don’t work out. Bad outcomes are part of the job and a really important part of the education of a resident

- Arizona is actively being a peds surgeon again?

- What was the point of having Leah Murphy back again? As if the show wasn’t already overcrowded 🙄

- Perhaps GSMH should prioritise getting the right people to do the job before thinking about teaching. An ortho performing abdominal surgery on a 9 year old and a trauma surgeon being chief of General Surgery aren’t really promising signs of excellence and good qualifications

- Catherine changes her mind about April like she changes cities

- Has Alex got his job back or not? Haven’t the court papers been back yet?

- Has Maggie been spending so much time with Meredith that she’s learned how to be bitter and rude?

- Have Maggie and Meredith completely ignored that Amelia is “missing”? No one gets to bang their heads this week guys, sorry, we are closed for neuro

- GSMH trains trauma surgeons to perform elective surgery on cancer patients? Impressive Chuck Norris style surgeons. How many hours of training do they get a week to be skilled in so many different specialties?

- Nobody cares about Ben and Bailey’s marriage

- This season has had one of the worst continuity, writing and storytelling I ever remember seeing

Pt. 4 How To Achieve Tranquility Of The Heart?

Thinking well of Allāh (ﷻ):

It was narrated from Abū Hurayrah – Allāh be pleased with him – that the Messenger of Allāh (ﷺ) said, Allāh (ﷻ) said:

“I am as My servant’s opinion of Me.”

— Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī (7505)

“Allāh (ﷻ) probably hates me. I am so bad; I always mess up. I don’t deserve any good from Allāh (ﷻ), and as punishment, I probably will not be given success in my other endeavors.”

How many people have felt this way at some point? Sometimes, our sins weigh heavily on us. We recognize our mistakes but instead of turning back to Allāh (ﷻ), we turn away. We feel that we must be so bad that even the All-Merciful will reject us. Other times, we do not see the fruits of our perseverance and believe that we will not be given what we have worked so hard for. Perhaps we do not even begin an endeavor, thinking there is no use.

Unfortunately, when we do this, we attribute human qualities to Allāh (ﷻ). We act as if Allāh (ﷻ) has some grudge against us that will heal as soon as He punishes us or rejects one of our requests. We act as though Allāh (ﷻ) is just waiting for us to slip up and say “Ha! Caught you!” We assume that we have to “deserve” the mercy of Allāh (ﷻ) by being almost perfect. This sounds absurd when articulated, but our actions unfortunately indicate that we believe otherwise.

What does this thought process actually tell us about ourselves? It tells us that we did not really have hope in Him (ﷻ) to begin with. Rather, our hope was in what we believed to be our own good deeds or abilities. Once we slip up or feel that we do not have the strength to continue, we do not think well enough of Allāh (ﷻ) to believe that He will guide us through. We must understand that when we think well of Allāh (ﷻ), that is what we will find.

Think well of Allāh (ﷻ) when embarking on something difficult, even if you fail

When the most beloved person to Allāh (ﷻ), the Prophet (ﷺ), was thinking of migrating to Madīnah, he started talking to all of the different tribes that came for Hajj in the hopes that one of them would accept Islām or at least offer the believers protection. He spoke to different tribes and was rejected by all of them. Some of the tribes even cursed and mocked him. Can you imagine the feeling of being rejected by five? What would happen after ten rejected you? How low would your morale be? When would you have given up?

Finally, he (ﷺ) met a few youth from Madīnah who believed in his message. He did not despair because he had a good opinion of Allāh (ﷻ), which motivated him; he knew Allāh (ﷻ) would not leave him.

Many people give up in the face of something seemingly impossible. Sometimes, we give up on an individual level: getting married, getting that job we want; sometimes it is on a global level, such as injustice in the Muslim world. The point of the struggle is to realize who is in charge. It is Allāh (ﷻ). Allāh (ﷻ) has told us that He is as His servant’s think of Him. If we think well, then that is what we will find. If we do not, then that is what we will find. Your opinion should be that Allāh (ﷻ) is so Merciful that He will come to your aid.

What happens when we are faced with failure? When one does not get something, even if their intention was for the sake of Allāh (ﷻ), they should not feel disheartened. You have a good opinion of Allāh (ﷻ); “failure” is just a minor setback. You need to be tested to strengthen your resolve. If you do not get that amazing job you want, know that Allāh (ﷻ) has saved something better for you. Only He knows what is best for you.

Think well of Allāh (ﷻ) when you sin

What about when we constantly slip-up and cannot leave a certain sin? For some of us, this makes us give up on ourselves; we believe we don’t deserve any good from Allāh (ﷻ). We have to remember that Allāh (ﷻ) is al-Wadūd (the Most Loving). It is not about deserving. If you thank Allāh (ﷻ), He gives you more. It is not because we deserve more, it is because Allāh (ﷻ) is that Great. He is that Generous. Shayṭtān (the devil) makes us focus on how bad we are in order that we despair of Allāh’s mercy, when the Prophet (ﷺ) taught us:

“All the children of ʾĀdam‎ constantly err, but the best of those who constantly err are those who constantly repent.”

— Sunan Ibn Mājah (4251)

The Prophet (ﷺ) said:

“One of the signs of excellence of one’s worship is thinking well of Allāh (ﷻ).”

— Aḥmad

This does not mean that we should not reflect on our state.

Al-Ḥasan al-Baṣrī – Allāh have mercy upon him – said:

“A true believer is one who thinks well of Allāh (ﷻ) and therefore does good, whereas the disobedient one thinks bad of Allāh (ﷻ) and therefore does bad.”

If we think well of Allāh (ﷻ), no matter how bad we are, we also have hope that we can be better and thus we strive to do good deeds. If we think badly of Allāh (ﷻ), we assume that He will never forgive us nor can He make us better; so we continue to sin. However, we should not make a mockery of this concept and deliberately sin, thinking Allāh (ﷻ) will forgive us anyway. One of the key principles of repentance is regret. If we do not truly regret the sin, and simply ask for forgiveness to have that sin erased, we are paying lip service.

When we do wrong, let us feel guilty, but let us also flee to Allāh (ﷻ). Have a good opinion of Allāh (ﷻ). If you are sincere, He will forgive you. He is that forgiving. He is that Great. He is that Magnanimous. Even when we commit the same sin again and again and again, our good opinion of Allāh (ﷻ) should let us know that as long as we constantly strive against our nafs (lower self) and against that part of us that wants to indulge in that sin, we have already been forgiven. At the end of the day, it is Shayṭtān who wants us to go to hell, not Allāh (ﷻ). Allāh (ﷻ) tells us in the Qurʾān:

وَاللَّهُ يُرِيدُ أَن يَتُوبَ عَلَيْكُمْ وَيُرِيدُ الَّذِينَ يَتَّبِعُونَ الشَّهَوَاتِ أَن تَمِيلُوا مَيْلًا عَظِيمًا

Translation: “Allāh wants to accept your repentance, but those who follow [their] passions want you to digress [into] a great deviation.” — Sūrat an-Nisāʼ (4:27)

Shayṭtān does not just want you to go to hell, but also wants to ensure you live in hell in this world. Just like he despaired, he wants you to despair. Our good opinion of Allāh (ﷻ) should never allow us to do that. Allāh (ﷻ) wants to accept your repentance, because your repenting is recognition of His Name al-Ghaffar (the One who constantly forgives).

Just as the Prophet (ﷺ) told us that Allāh (ﷻ) is too gracious to turn away the hand that asks Him, He is also too Merciful to disappoint you and your good opinion of Him.

Think well of Allāh (ﷻ)  when you are tested

Tests come to us in a myriad of ways. We have already discussed why tests happen in a previous post (x), so I will not discuss it too much here. We should just know that thinking well of Allāh (ﷻ) should make us look beyond the test. This test is something from Allāh (ﷻ), and He wants to teach us, to purify us from sin, to strengthen us, and to bring us closer to Him. We do not have a cruel God; our God is the Most Merciful of those who show Mercy. When we approach our tests with that frame of mind, we cannot but gain from our experience, ʾin shāʾallāh.

So what does it mean to think well of Allāh (ﷻ)?

It means to take that step. When we mess up, even if we messed up in a major way, we return to Him. We return to Him recognizing that what we did was truly horrible, but we ask for His forgiveness because we know He is that forgiving, and that His Mercy encompasses everything. When we mess up again and again, and feel sick of ourselves, we return to Him with a sincere duʿāʾ (supplication) to help us stop, knowing that He will respond. It means having grand hopes and aspirations, and working towards them knowing that Allāh (ﷻ) said:

إِنَّا لَا نُضِيعُ أَجْرَ مَنْ أَحْسَنَ عَمَلًا

Translation: “We will not allow to be lost the reward of any who did well in deeds.” — Sūrat al-Kahf (18:30) 

some thoughts on the sensates:

  • will: the human equivalent of a BEAR HUG. he wants to protect everyone so much and he is the literal embodiment of protect and serve, but in a good way, not in a douchey cop way. also his cheekbones are *very* important to me.
  • sun: “do you miss your family””no, i miss my dog”. deserves better always. KICKASS WARRIOR EMPRESS. you can feel her mom vibes whenever any of the others get into shit. “really? again?”
  • lito: precious trash prince. the only one of the sensates who really seems to embody the leo star sign. has excellent taste in men. also like friendship goals honestly??? my idiotic, good-hearted son.
  • riley: I WANT TO WRAP YOU UP AND KEEP YOU FROM HARM. why do bad things happen to good rileys. the MOST heartbreaking. living proof that the capacity to love is endless. i hope your last name is because of your hair and not vice versa.
  • caphaeus: human sunshine. like, a radiant ball of good vibes and love and devotion. i really cannot get over how good of a person he is without being boring as a character. capheus for next captain america honestly.
  • nomi: how she hasn’t punched everyone in the face is unbelievable. brilliant hacker genius queen. the only person in the world who deserves amanita as a girlfriend. SHE WENT THROUGH SO MUCH and i am so proud of her.
  • wolfgang: why do i love you so much? your attractiveness is honestly confusing to me. if you had a catchphrase it would prolly be “cool motive, still murder”. the ultimate in problematic faves.
  • kala: indian scientist who is also religous??? doesn’t have enough screentime but when she does MY GOD is it worth it??? built a fucking BOMB in ten seconds flat??? sign me the FUCK up

other feelings on other characters:

  • jonas: USELESS CONFUSING GARBAGE BAG MAN. naveen andrews i expected better from u.
  • amanita: threw a  ‘USED’ TAMPON at a COP. your faves could never.
  • hernando & daniela: honestly the most precious cinnamon rolls.
  • felix: the words ‘idiot’ and ‘child’ come to mind.
  • there are so many more but honestly i cannot go on

anonymous asked:

What's something that's similar/can be said for all the signs of each element?

Good question! I like to think of the elements as “mediums” of life the signs excel in.

  • Water signs excel in dealing with the emotional plane.
  • Air signs excel in dealing with the logical plane.
  • Earth signs excel in dealing with the physical plane.
  • Fire signs excel in dealing with the energetic plane.

The signs themselves would then specifically show how they specialize in that medium.

anonymous asked:

Hi! I know it is sad... but with a happy end could be somehow sweet. Amy is pregnant but she remembers that a year ago she lose their baby. Thanks if you write it!

Hi Anon. Thank you for this prompt! Sorry for the wait.

Sheldon and Amy anxiously watched the image on the monitor, as the ultrasound technician moved the wand over Amy’s belly.

“Congratulations, you two!” She exclaimed.

“We’re really pregnant?” Amy asked in a shaky voice.

“Yes, it’s official. Those home pregnancy tests are quite accurate, but it’s always good to get confirmation.”

Sheldon squinted at the screen. Amy knew he was too proud to admit he couldn’t tell where their baby was, so she silently asked the tech to point it out by subtly motioning her head at the image.

“This little one,” she began by tapping at the screen with a pen, “is only as long as a grain of rice. At this time, the organs are still forming…”

“I have read up on the fetal development timeline, so I am well aware,” Sheldon huffed.

“Sheldon,” Amy warned.

The tech waved her hand dismissively. “It’s alright.” She tapped a few keys to update Amy’s information then turned back to the couple. “As long as you’re feeling well, we’ll see you back in three months to ensure normal development and to determine the sex.”

“We want to be surprised,” Amy told her.

Sheldon nodded in agreement. “Boy or girl, it doesn’t matter. Just as long as he or she is healthy and intelligent.”

Amy rolled her eyes. “We will love our child no matter what.”

The tech removed her gloves, snapped the cap on the gel, and set the wand in its holder on the ultrasound machine. “Do you have any questions?”

The couple looked at each other. “I don’t have any questions,” Amy replied. “Sheldon?”

“I don’t believe so.”

“If you think of anything, don’t hesitate to call the office or leave a message on the online portal.” She handed Amy a few paper towels to wipe off the excess gel. “I’ll let you get dressed. Please take all the time you need. When you’re ready, there’s a bin to place your gown on the way out. Just follow the signs back to the waiting room.” The tech shook their hands. “Congratulations again.”

The moment the door clicked shut, Sheldon took the paper towels from his wife’s hand and methodically removed all traces of the gel from her belly. “I saw the cutest onsie…”

But Amy wasn’t listening. She stared at the top of the screen where her information glowed against the black background: G2 P0 - gravida 2, para 0, or in layman’s terms two pregnancies, zero live births. She swallowed hard as memories from one year earlier rushed back to her. A tear trickled down her cheek.

“Amy, are you okay? Is it your morning sickness?”

“No, I was just thinking about… last time. Remember how excited we were until…” She took a deep breath. “I… I can’t go through that again.” She hung her head as her tears flowed freely.

Sheldon set the paper towel on the bed and gripped her hand tightly. “We can’t think about that. It will be different this time.”

“Will it? How do we know it won’t happen again? Maybe my body will reject this baby too,” she sobbed.

He helped her into a seated position and climbed onto the bed next to her. She clung to him, her tears soaking his shirt while he rubbed her back soothingly. “It was an extremely unfortunate situation.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You have nothing to be sorry about. I don’t blame you. You did nothing wrong. It just wasn’t a viable fetus.” He choked on the last word.

“Fetus,” she snorted. “That makes it sound so cold and clinical. That was our child!”

“Amy, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. It’s hard for me too,” he confessed softly. “I’ve tried not to think about it, but not a day goes by that I don’t mourn what should have been.”

“I’m so scared. I want to be excited for this baby, but I can’t let myself feel that until we know everything will be okay.” She rested her hand on her flat belly. “If this little one can make it another two months, we should be in the clear.”

“Let’s keep the news to ourselves until then, maybe even until after your next ultrasound.”

“Yes. It will be a little easier if we don’t disappoint our friends and families.” She sniffled and dried her eyes on his sleeve.


Seventy-one days into her first pregnancy was a day Amy never wanted to repeat. She breathed a sigh of relief when that milestone passed with the second one, but she couldn’t let herself get excited yet.

Sheldon was even more attentive this time, making sure she was getting the right amount and right types of food and exercise. He held her hair as she vomited, even though it made him queasy. He didn’t pressure her to watch superhero movies, opting for cuddling with her on the couch to watch her favorite shows.

He was careful not to compare the pregnancies aloud, but she could see the calculations in his eyes. They avoided the subject until one fateful night. Amy awoke to find his hand on her belly with tears in his eyes, praying to a deity he didn’t believe in to allow this baby to make it to term. He looked up to find her staring at him. Instead of denying his actions, he sat up and wrapped his arms around her as strangled sobs wracked his body. She smoothed back his hair as her own tears fell.

The couple was quiet on the drive to the clinic for the second ultrasound. At four months pregnant, Amy was barely showing. Her bulky sweaters easily hid the evidence. She tried not to stare at the other mothers-to-be in the waiting room, some in their third trimester. Unlike some women who complained of getting fat, she longed to resemble these women. She rested one hand on her small bump, as she gripped her husband’s hand with the other while they waited their turn.

“Dr. Fowler-Cooper, we’re ready for you,” the rooming assistant called out.

Amy’s legs felt like rubber. She clung to Sheldon for support as they were led down a familiar hall. The assistant flicked on the light switch, presented her with a gown, and informed them the tech would be in shortly. 

Amy slipped into the gown, but instead of making herself comfortable on the bed, she paced the small room. “What’s taking so long?” She grumbled as five minutes became ten.

“I’m anxious too. Perhaps we can play a game to create the illusion of time passing more quickly.”

“My mind isn’t focused for games right now. I just need to know that everything is okay.”

He watched helplessly from the couch as she continued to pace. Five minutes later a knock sounded on the door, and the tech from the initial ultrasound three months earlier poked her head inside. 

“I’m terribly sorry for the wait. Let’s get you up on the bed and get started.”

With Sheldon’s help, Amy climbed up and lay back as the tech turned on the machine and prepared for the procedure. The couple gripped each other’s hands tightly as the wand circled the bump. They startled when a ‘whoosh whoosh’ reverberated through the tiny room.

“That’s your baby’s heartbeat,” the tech clarified. “It’s really strong - an excellent sign that he or she is progressing nicely.”

All the tension that had built up dissipated in that moment. For the first time since learning of her pregnancy, Amy felt at peace. She squeezed her husband’s hand, as tears of happiness and relief clouded her vision. 

“That’s the most beautiful sound I’ve ever heard.”

Sheldon leaned over and kissed her forehead. “It definitely is.”