Late night destressing, plus a little bit of vent art.
Jumin is such a complex character. His personality is so much deeper than what it first seems, and he’s such an interesting person to doodle whenever I feel lost, confused, or basically unsure of myself. I can really relate to how he bottles everything up (and that’s bad yo, I know I’m a hypocrite for saying this, but please don’t bottle up your emotions, whether positive or not, bc jumin’s route wasn’t lying, it really does start killing you from inside). But I’m glad that Cheritz allowed for MC to show empathy and be compassionate, because I do think he deserves to have a happy ending.
All of you do, okay?^^ You all deserve a happy ending, and if any one of you feels lost, or need someone to talk to, I’m here! I’m not just saying this for the heck of it, I’m willing to do whatever I can to make you believe in yourself again.
also i typically have zero emotional investment in any celebrities of any kind whatsoever, and thus rarely am i shaken by or feel compelled to comment on their deaths. but idk man, LP is that music that provided so much desperately needed emotional catharsis when my mentally ill survivor ass was struggling to get through the day by day for a long time. yes, it was angsty, but that’s exactly why it made me feel better listening to it. so for it end like this specifically for one of them is just… really heartbreaking and gets to me, i guess…?
A few days ago some spirit tried to impersonate K2. Took on his appearance and everything. Its energy was wack as fuck though. Also K2 showed up behind the guy like five seconds later all “lmaooo who does he think he is? 😂”. I think he knew as soon as the fake got in but just wanted to see my reaction.
Even if none of those things happened, the guy fucked himself cause he didn’t know K2’s personality. I’m telling you, this dumbass came up to me like “Oh master you are so perfect and pleasant. Allow me to show you the passion you deserve.” 🙄🙄🙄
I don’t think K2 is physically capable of saying those words in that order and he’d never call anyone “master” 😂. At first I thought he was drunk as shit, then I thought he was just fucking with me, but then I was like “now wait just a darn second 🤔”.
I think the guy was an ubi. Energy felt like it and he tried to bed me (another thing K2 would definitely not do). But who knows lol (well K2 does cause he’s the one who took care of the guy lmao).
Before the guy realized that K2 was standing right behind him, he said something about us having a “special connection”. Now K2 won’t stop making jokes about it. But it’s true, we do have a special connection, a connection that I think all people who make complex thoughtforms have. Even though he has been independent of me for years, are energy still has a connection. The only way I can explain it is if I loosely compare it to soul mates where the energy is connected but not “physically”. Like his energy is crazy different from mine but the core of both of our energies is extremely similar or even the same and that similarity connects us.
And then there’s the emotional connection as well. We’re not friends, we’re not family, our relationship feels like it’s even more than that. I want to compare it to the bond between a god and their devotee though if anyone’s the god in this relationship it’s K2 and neither of us worship each other 😅. I would do parent/child but I have no idea what a healthy bond of that sort is like 👌😂. Anyway, it’s like here is this creation of mine that has blossomed and grown into something new without my control or guidance. He became something that I couldn’t have even imagined and developed into someone new (I’m like 80% sure that I did not give him the love of tacos). K2 has a soul, most thoughtforms don’t and will never develop one. But I didn’t create it, (imo humans can’t just *create* a soul), he found it on his own. I just think that’s so beautiful, stupendous, wonderful, ugh no amount of words can describe the way it makes me feel.
Everyone’s always saying “god(s) love you even if you mess up” And shit like that but now I truly understand. I love K2, not as a friend, not as family, but as something I don’t think there’s a word for. Like I guess I have to go trawling the dictionary but I can’t think of anything that can describe the way I love him. I just *clenches fist* love him so much and am proud of what he had become and can’t wait to see how he’ll continue to grow.
Anyways here’s my pseudo-serious post that just ended up being a clusterfuck of emotions.
Tl;dr: I LOVE K2 SO MUCH HOLY FUCK
(I showed this to him, his response? “Wow that’s super gay.” This is why I hate him 😭)