I will choose to let go.
I will choose to give you up.
And I am sure that it will hurt me more than it will hurt you. Yes, the hurt will remain and the memories I’ve had with you will linger for a bit. And though I’d still answer your phone calls even if I’m already asleep, I know I won’t be able to stay in the line longer than before. Because I know that before you even decide to dial my number, you called her first and it hurts that I’m no longer the first person that comes into your mind whenever you want to talk to someone. Everytime I’ll hear you say you miss me, everytime I’ll hear you say I am special, I know that in between those words, she will always be there. And I’ll remember how much it hurts. I’ll remember how painful it is to know that someone’s getting more of your attention you used to gave me. I’ll remember the days where it was just you and me, the days where she doesn’t exists in our lives, yet. Because now you already have her, now she gets to be first in everything you want to share. And even though it hurts to know that you will never be happy with me as you are with her, it’s okay. It will always be okay. Because I’ve always wanted you to be happy, and I only wanted what’s best for you. And if it’s her, clearly it’s her, it’s okay. Maybe someday I’ll find that person who would treat me the same way I treat you, someone who will always put me on top of his priorities because I have already accepted the fact that that person won’t be you. The hurt will remain but someday, I’ll forget that you were the only person I’ve always wanted to go home with.