I saw Namjoon on the variety show Problematic Men and I just. I really fell for him. I was in a bad, bad mental place at the time since I had come out to my mom and was kicked out, and when I looked up his lyrics, I just. I found an angel to help guide me. And then I saw his support for LGBT+ and I was even more smitten. Even today, I look to him for inspiration and motivation and hope. I never really considered myself a weak man before, but his dimpled smile really melts me everytime.
Namjoon on Problematic Men was everything I ever wanted. (Especially when he was on it with Jackson. “Don’t diss me. Please. …..Please.”)
I’m just so… happy to know that someone could help you out of a bad place like that. To think that you were kicked out for coming out and being open about who you really are, when you’re at one of the most vulnerable times in your life, that’s just. That makes me so livid. And I know some people find the idea that a celebrity or idol (or comic, or show, or movie, or fandom…) can mean that much to you and help you through tough times a little silly but this isn’t exactly a crazy concept. Outsiders think you’re idolizing a simple person, when in reality you’re “idolizing” - and deeply connecting to - what that person stands for, what that person has helped you come to terms with about your own life and feelings.
We’d be here all day if you and I listed off the ways that Namjoon is an angel. He’s intelligent, witty, talented, exceptionally kind, a caring leader, I mean… I won’t let myself get carried away. So yes, let’s focus on his cute dimples instead and save some time.
I really hope that you’re doing well now, nonnie. I hope you are in a safe place surrounded by those who love and care for you. And I’m also here if you ever need to talk. But if you’re ever feeling like you’re at the end of your rope and there’s no where left to go, I leave you with these words from Namjoon himself: