everything is in the right place

Alright bighit listen up.

I wanted closure.

Although I appreciate the vague philosophical narration, which does make you question the simple fact that can turning back time really change anything; I needed closure.

There’s so many theories all over the place, I just need to know which one is right at this point.

Aside from that I’d like to thank the writers for really making me question my existence once more and making me ask myself how back should I turn back time make everything perfect because really, great job bighit.

BUT TELL ME WHAT TO BELIEVE.

anonymous asked:

my friend recently for some reason wanted to prove to me that people could easily lie or sth... similar... i think... & she was like, 'you know those one direction guys you like? in reality they're probably complete assholes' and it was SO HARD to restrain myself and not comment on it bc i mean, yeah, 1d is all lies, but if there's anything i believe in i believe that all five of them have their heart in the right place; like even now i still got that upset-y FIGHT ME in me when i think about it

I know, right! People think they’re so clever when they say, “Oh, but they’re probably just marketing to you and they’re assholes” or “How do you know the secret relationship thing isn’t actually a marketing ploy”. 

So they believe in these conspiracies, yet somehow the idea of there ACTUALLY being couples in the same band closeted in a homophobic music industry and society is impossible to believe?  The idea that contracts that are severely biased and leave artists under the thumb of corporate sharks in a world where greed and big business pretty much have a monopoly is unrealistic?

Here’s what’s clever: actually having some information on what you’re talking about. I’ve said it before, but if I was a math major in college and my job now was based on math, you’d trust my opinion on math before your own, but just because the topic I know more about is a boy band, for some reason I don’t know what I’m talking about and you, who have no information, do???

I’m definitely not saying people should believe the persona of any entertainer 100% and I wouldn’t even suggest that fans believe the way the boys present themselves 100% because they ARE still entertaining and building an image. But heck, even non-entertainers do that. Every social media account is pretty much a constructed persona.

The thing is, you’ve got to trust your instincts as long as you’ve got a decent amount of information to go off of, and with the boys, we do. We’ve got hours and hours of footage over years of their lives, we’ve got hundreds of fan reports on meeting them, we’ve got dozens of comments from other celebrities on their attitudes, and so on. That’s more than enough to get a decent impression.

They’re not perfect for sure. There’s some dude-bro unintentional sexism, there’s occasional non-aggressive uninformed racism, there’s some poor choices, some grumpy days, etc. But when taken as a whole and in context, it’s clear that they really are good, decent people who try and who care.

One Direction has always been special because of the relationship between the boys, but also because of how each and every one of them is a good person. I too will fight anyone who tries to belittle that.

The Truth (Patater Drabble)

For prompt #19 from @checkplease100: truth.

It doesn’t really affect the story, but takes place in an NHL!Kent/not-NHL!Tater AU scenario. Because I have to imagine backstory for everything I write.


Kent closes the bedroom door quietly, turns, and jumps a mile when Alexei is right there. “Shit! For a big dude, you’re fucking stealthy.”

He expects Alexei to chirp back, but he’s somber. “Something is wrong, kotic?”

Kent’s heart sinks. “It is?”

“That’s what I’m ask. You act strange. Not come home, say meetings with team. I’m worry something is wrong.”

Busted. “I — don’t know what to say.”

“The truth?”

Kent sighs, then retrieves the ring box and hands it over. “I was planning a big surprise at the arena, but that’s ruined,” he sulks. “You happy?”

Alexei beams. “Yes.”

3

Natalie : So, what is this super important news you wanted to tell me?

Tommy : Well, my parents payed someone, quite a while ago, to build a little place right next to our house, you know, in case the house became too small for all of us. They finished everything last week and it’s ready for someone to move in. So, I was thinking, since we’re looking for a place, maybe we could live there until we find something better, what do you think?

Natalie : Are you sure it’s okay with your parents?

Tommy : Absolutely!

Natalie : Well, in that case, let’s move in together!

anonymous asked:

I know a lot of people are pointing out the parallels between Touken with kuzen/unkina and arata/hikari but I keep thinking that Touken will break this cycle of being torn apart from their significant other and even though I know this is a tragedy, I hope that the series might end surprisingly happily (but not all sunshine and rainbows of course I expect there to be a little heartbreak)

I personally don’t think everything has to be a tragedy, it’s a very narrow-minded thought if you consider how Tokyo Ghoul focuses on overcoming the problems, understanding your flaws, facing your past and how this one will dictate your future… if everything has to be a tragedy then it turns into something very flat since nothing in life is just black or white — tragedy or happiness, it’s a mix of both. This war we’re facing right now in the plot will leave many consequences, but that doesn’t mean that the characters (the ones who survive) won’t be able to find their place in the world and live at peace with themselves, Kaneki is the living proof of that, after everything he went through he always manages to find the strength to move on and his right to be part of this world no matter what.  

You loved me in the dark

You know more than anybody
I am not one
to be at a loss for words,
But I truly don’t know
what to say right now

Somehow everything feels
like too much
and yet,
Nowhere
near enough

My heart still breaks for you
and for me
And I’m not sure
which one of us is more at fault
For this tragic mess
we’ve created

I guess it should be you
I hate that I can’t place that blame
and am just holding on
to hope
Wishing you forward
and believing that one day
you’ll be the man you want to be
the man you should be
The man that
I needed

When I fell for you,
I fell so hard and so far
with no end in sight
You were my favorite fuel
to a vastly sentimental mind

And you could never reel me back in
Because you were
plummeting 
as well

A plunge into 
a deep connection 
That felt more lovely and more freeing
than anything else
Ever before

I am Heaven and Hell
and all the stars in the sky
A whirlwind of a woman
I could be everything you ever
wanted
But you never let yourself
see All of me
scared of what it could mean

Was I always supposed to be
just a fantasy?

I want to wish you well
But my heart constantly aches
I spent far too many years
longing for our love to be set free
Held up by the idea of you
I had perfected
in my head

But my imagination
is no longer a safe place for us
Emotions so immeasurably intense
They make reality hit like a
freight train

Obsessed with your own imperfections,
you let the sadness take control
You were too good
too scared
To Live
Why settle for ordinary
What the hell made you think
you didn’t deserve
the extraordinary?

I hope you realize it wasn’t fair
it will never be fair
To me
You should have known 
you had me on a string
wrapped around
Your finger
all along

Maybe you needed
to love me less
Or maybe you needed
to love me
Harder

When you finally made the cut
and let go,
Did the regret overwhelm you?

Maybe I will never be able
to answer that question

Maybe I don’t want to know.

Now we are here
and I am drifting away
in front of you
Left without words and
without reasons 
to fall again

I hope someday you see me
in the sunlight
And realize all you threw away.

anonymous asked:

i had a qp in nepal where i saved my rez for the enemy zarya & hanzo combo that i knew was coming but i was caught in her graviton and died. A terrible and depressing miss of a 5 men rez :( any mercy tips?

well you were doing the right thing with recognizing potential rez situations and everything, but honestly unless you can psychically predict when and where the ults will be, then it’s pretty much dumb luck. I have a stupid highlight video where you can see me rez 4/5 of my teammates, and the only reason that happened was because we all got caught in zaryas thing, but dumb luck placed me behind a pillar and so i was safe. like man, i’m just kinda stumbling through life atm and my overwatch experiences are not excluded I have no fucking clue why this blog got popular enough to warrant daily advice asks, man. Literally anyone who knows me irl would be able to tell you how bad of an idea it is to ask me for advice I can’t even manage my own shit man. anyways… like just… ummm okay this is more than you needed or wanted. sorry.

Originally posted by nickelodeon

You ever feel like you aren’t good at anything? Like maybe you will never find your right place in this world? Like am I supposed to stick with a safe option or strive for my dream department? What makes me think I am even good enough to work there? Idk dude. Every single day I am critical of myself. Life gets me down sometimes. Everything that is happening in the world doesn’t help either. I work in a job that is dangerous alone but with some of the people in this world, it is even scarier. It is not about me. It is about we. All of us. I don’t get how you can look at a stranger because of their skin, race, sexual orientation etc and just have hate for someone. You don’t even know them. You don’t know anything about their life or what they have been through. Sometimes I just don’t know what to do. I’m not sure if I’m capable of making an actual difference. 

Comic pitch: Eight-year-old Dick Grayson, having just lost his parents, is understandably sad. It’s cool that Bruce knows what he’s going through, but Wayne Manor isn’t the most comforting place, and Dick is lonely. He explains to Alfred that it’s not only the loss of his parents that get to him– it’s also the loss of his community. All the Haly’s performers were super close, and they were his family too, until he had to leave them. Now it’s three people in an empty mansion, and that’s depressing.

Bruce hears this and develops a plan: he’ll take Dick to work with him tomorrow. Wayne Enterprises isn’t like Haly’s– Bruce doesn’t think of his employees as his family– but Dick doesn’t know that, and at the very least, he’ll get out of the house for awhile and see some other people. Dick agrees.

The next morning, Dick puts on his gala suit and follows Bruce to work. He doesn’t like it at first. It’s unfamiliar, and everything seems very formal, until they walk into the WE lobby and start to meet employees who seem thrilled to see Dick. He is, after all, small and adorable and wearing a tiny suit. He’s very cute, so they are very friendly. 

Bruce walks around the place introducing Dick to his people, and then he asks about their children and grandchildren and dogs and hobbies, because he does know all about them, for security purposes. It would be negligent of him not to research his employees, right? He has to keep track of everybody. 

Dick follows Bruce around for the entire day and meets tons of people, forcing Bruce to interact with all of them. Dick has a blast. They let him roll around in the big CEO chair yelling nonsense instructions about the budget. On the last page of the issue, the two of them walk out of the building and into the car where Alfred is waiting. Dick is clearly happy. When Bruce asks if he had fun, he grins and says, “Your family is huge!”

As Bruce thinks back on the day, he realizes that he does genuinely know and care for all of his individual employees, and it’s clear that they love him too. Maybe the kid is on to something. In the final panel, Bruce looks fondly down at Dick, who is falling asleep in the backseat of the car. 

“It’s… getting bigger.”

anonymous asked:

If you fancy it, maybe the house of Finwë for the clone-fucking meme. It seems like your cup of tea, in the nicest way possible :-)

I was gonna do this with art but I ran into the ‘which dark haired mopey-looking fucker is which?’ issue so….

  • I don’t want to fuck my clone because it would be gay sex and I’m not gay - Turgon
  • I’m not gay, but I would actually totally fuck my clone - Maglor
  • ‘I’m gay, but I still don’t want to fuck my clone, that’s gross and weird’ - Gil-Galad
  • ‘I don’t want to fuck my clone because my self-loathing is THAT strong’ - Maedhros 
  • ‘I’d totally fuck my clone because I want to know if I’m good in bed’ - Fingon
  • ‘I’d fuck my clone because who would know better how to fuck ME than ME?’ - Celegorm
  • ‘I’d totally do all sorts of weird things to my clone I’d be embarrassed to ask someone else to do’ - Caranthir
  • ‘To be honest, fucking my clone has always been my fantasy’ - Galadriel
  • ‘It’s basically the same as masturbating, right? So no big deal’ - Aredhel
  • ‘It’s not the same as masturbating; it’d be like having sex with your twin. Wrong and bad!’ - Elrond
  • ‘I would not have sex with my clone because what if my clone is evil’ - Celebrimbor
  • ‘Not only would I have sex with my clone, I’d probably make a bunch of clones and just get it on with all of them at once because that’s how pro-clone fucking I am’ - Finrod
Skyline {VII}

Originally posted by tom-cinnamonroll-holland

Warnings: Language, panic attack

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Word count: 3.1k

A/N: Guys!!!! This is the last part of Skyline.  Like, for real this time.  I’m so sad to see it end, but I’m also so happy that it’s had such success, and I can’t thank you guys enough for that.  You are all so so wonderful, and you have all my love.  As usual, I want to give a shout out to Zoe and Jen for reading my drafts and helping me edit and brainstorm, as well as encouraging me to write.  As for all of you, I hope you’ll forgive me for all the angst that I’ve hit you guys with (remember when Skyline was self-indulgent fluff lmao), and I really hope this makes up for it a bit.  In other news, tonight is the Spidereyhes Sleepover!!!!!!!!  All the info on the sleepover can be found here, as well as info about the livestream, which will start at 7pm PST.  I’ll post the link on here!! Zoe, Jen, and I will be discussing all kinds of things, answering questions, and talking about Skyline, so be sure to drop by!!! Also, if you have any questions about Skyline or anything else that you want answered, send it in!!!! It’s not too late yall.  Again, thank you so much, and I hope you’ve enjoyed Skyline as much as I’ve enjoyed writing it.

skyline: a mixtape

{part i} {part ii} {part iii} {part iv} {part v}

Sitting up in your bed, you stared at the window, not sure of how to react to seeing Spider-Man’s masked face through the glass.  Throwing back your covers, you quietly walked over to the window, grabbing a hoodie that Peter had lent you as you passed your desk.  Sliding the glass panel up, you climbed out onto the metal fire escape, slipping on and zipping up Peter’s hoodie to protect you from the cold.

The superhero stood where he had first stood, the night he saved your life and blew up Vizzini’s all those months ago.  And there, to his right, were the flower pots that he had tripped over the first time he came back for you.  Those stairs were where you would sit and draw while he watched your fingers fly across the page, amazed at the pictures you created.  Behind him was the railing that you would lean against as you looked at the Queens skyline together.  This fire escape was your entire relationship condensed, the one location where you were allowed to be with each other.  If you used your imagination, you could almost see every single night playing out in front of your eyes.  Spider-Man, with a bendy straw underneath his mask.  Spider-Man, attempting to draw you in the moonlight.  Spider-Man, his hand on your waist and the other in your hair. Spider-Man.

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[LYRICS] Do You by Rap Monster

Korean

난 세상에서 자기계발서가 제일 싫어
이렇게 저렇게 하란 개소리들
다 줏댄 없고 남말은 잘 믿어
그러니까 그 개소리들이 베스트셀러
걔네들이 너에 대해 무엇을 알지
너의 꿈 너의 취미, 이해를 하니?
눈치만 덜 봐도 바뀌는 건 참 많지
주인으로 태어나 왜 노예가 되려 하니
‘아프니까 청춘이다’
그딴 위험한 정의가 제일 문제야
삶에서 장르는 덫, 마치 음악처럼
거기 얽매이는 순간 바보 되니까
Fuck that. You the only one ever
완벽하진 않아도 한정판 레고
차피 누군간 널 탐내게 돼있어
그니까, 넌 그냥 너를 해줘

Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
What the fuck you want?

I’m not pop, I’m not rock, I’m not funk, I’m not R&B or hip hop
아직도 뭔지도 모르는 애들 전부 다 파라 귓밥
‘치마에 스키니진? 힙합이 아냐!’
그럼 A$AP은 힙합이 아냐?
니가 A$AP, Kanye보다 더 힙합이야?
꼰대 선비새끼들은 저 뒤로 가라
내가 말하길 fashion은 곧 passion
한국말로 쓰면 똑같아 패션
홍대 가면 괜히 바지 내리는 것들 대신
니가 입고 싶은 대로 입어 that’s swag. that’s it
(Whoa!) 유행 따라가도 good
(Whoa!) 졸라 남달라도 good
걍 니 자체가 hood, 원래 모두 처음부터
맞고 틀린 건 없었어 각자가 좀 다를 뿐
Haters gon hate and players gon play
Mufuckas keep mufuckin all day
Follow my shit, my friend and I’ll pay
내가 너 대신 침 뱉어줄게

Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
What the fuck you want?

하고싶은 대로 하랬더니 나이 서른 처먹고도
똥오줌조차 못 가리는 어른이 많지
지 입으로 리스펙을 외쳐대는 이들
지들도 사실 그 말의 참뜻을 모르진 않지
자유와 방종, 분명 다른 것
때와 장손 알아야 하는 법
똑같이 베껴 갖다 쓰고 아닌 척 포장하는 suckers
걔네 음악보단 내 게 낫단 것
누가 누구보다 랩을 잘 해
누가 누구보다 이게 낫네
Fuck that. I am just doin my thang
그러니까 너도 그냥 니 껄 해 bitch

I’m doin me just doin me
넌 여태 누구였니
그래 우린 친구였지
Nothin’s everything, everything’s nothin x4
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
What the fuck you want?

English

I hate self-improvement books more than anything in the world
Useless noise telling you to do this, to that
They’re all spineless and just believing what others tell you
That’s why that kind of nonsense is a best-seller
What do they actually know about you?
Your dreams, your hobbies, do they understand?
A lot of things change when you stop caring about what others think
You were born your own owner, why are you trying to become a slave
“Because it’s youth, it hurts”
That kind of definition is the biggest problem
In life, genre is a trap, kind of like music
The second you get tied up in it, you become stupid
Fuck that. You the only one ever
Even though you’re not perfect, you’re limited edition lego
There’s someone bound to be jealous of you anyway
So, please, just do you

Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
What the fuck you want?

I’m not pop, I’m not rock, I’m not funk, I’m not R&B or hip hop
All those who still don’t know, clear out your ear wax
“A dress with skinny jeans? That’s not hip hop!”
Then would A$AP not be hip hop?
Are you more hip hop than A$AP or Kanye?
All you lame scholar bastards please go to the back
I say fashion is passion
If you write it in Korean they’re both ‘pae-syun’
Instead of purposefully sagging your pants when you go to Hongdae
Just wear what you want, that’s swag. that’s it
(Whoa!) Even if you follow trends, good
(Whoa!) Even if you’re different from others, good
Just the way you are is hood, just the way everyone originally is
Is right and there’s nothing wrong, it’s just that everyone’s a little different
Haters gon hate and players gon play
Mufuckas keep mufucking all day
Follow my shit, my friend and I’ll pay
I’ll spit for you in your stead
Ptui

Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
What the fuck you want?

They told you to do what you want, but even after a whole 30 years
There are a lot of adults who can’t even hold in their shit
Those who yell “respect” with their own lips
Honestly, it’s not that they don’t know the real meaning of the word
Freedom and self-indulgence, they’re definitely different
You need to know the time and place (for each)
The suckers who copy and pretend as if they didn’t
I’m saying my music is better than theirs
Who’s better than who at rapping
Who’s better than who at this thing
Fuck that, I am just doing my thang
So you should just do your own thing bitch

I’m doing me just doin me
Who were you this entire time
Oh that’s right, we were friends
Nothin’s everything, everything’s nothin x4
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
(Do the fuck you want)
Do you do you do you do you
What the fuck you want?

Trans cr; Jessie / Spot checks by; Yein @ bts-trans
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The Legendary Silver Tongue

So, for context, my rogue has just been busted for trying to steal an amulet in the middle of a very busy bandit town, and gets hauled in front of the head, along with the entire town.

After several attempts at persuasion by me and my party, it looks like it’s the end.

Me : “Wait, I have deception, right?”

DM : “Yeah”

Me : “Can I roll to trick everyone into thinking the amulet was mine in the first place?”

DM : “Sure, but you’ll need-”

Me : Nat 20

DM : …

Me : …*Progressively losing my shit*

So I managed to convince everyone that it was my amulet, got his amulet as well as everything he was selling and his gold. A good day.

10

Deadly van attack in Barcelona claimed by ISIS

A white van plowed into a packed summer crowd Thursday in Barcelona’s historic Las Ramblas district, killing some people and sending dozens fleeing. Barcelona police called it a terror attack and local media reported up to 13 dead.

Catalan police tweeted “there are mortal victims and injured from the crash” without specifying any numbers. Spanish media, including Cadena SER radio station and TV3, reported up to 13 dead, while other media had varying death tolls.

Police cordoned off the broad street that is so popular with tourists, ordering stores and nearby Metro and train stations to close. They asked people to stay away from the area so as not to get in the way of emergency services. A helicopter hovered over the scene.

Quoting unnamed police sources, the El Pais newspapers said the two perpetrators of the crash were holed up in a bar in Tallers Street. Armed police ran down the streets and through a market, checking in stores and cafes, presumably in search of them.

In photographs and videos, at least five people could be seen lying on the ground in the streets of the northern Spanish city Thursday afternoon, being helped by police and others. Other video recorded people screaming as they fled the van.

Las Ramblas, a street of stalls and shops that cuts through the center of Barcelona, is one of the city’s top tourist destinations. People walk down a wide, pedestrian path in the center of the street but cars can travel on either side.

Keith Fleming, an American who lives in Barcelona, was watching TV in his building just off Las Ramblas when he heard a noise and went out to his balcony.

“I saw women and children just running and they looked terrified,” he said.

He said there was a bang — possibly from someone rolling down a store shutter — and more people ran by. Then police arrived and pushed everyone a full block away. Even people leaning out of doors were being told to go back inside, he said.

Fleming said regular police had their guns drawn and riot police were at the end of his block, which was now deserted.

“It’s just kind of a tense situation,” Fleming said. “Clearly people were scared.”

Carol Augustin, a manager at La Palau Moja, an 18th-century place on Las Ramblas that houses government offices and a tourism information center, said the van passed right in front of the building.

“We saw everything. People started screaming and running into the office. It was such a chaotic situation. There were families with children. The police made us close the doors and wait inside,” she said.

Cars, trucks and vans have been the weapon of choice in multiple extremist attacks in Europe in the last year.

The most deadly was the driver of a tractor-trailer who targeted Bastille Day revelers in the southern French city of Nice in July 2016, killing 86 people. In December 2016, 12 people died after a driver used a hijacked trick to drive into a Christmas market in Berlin.

There have been multiple attacks this year in London, where a man in a rented SUV plowed into pedestrians on Westminster Bridge, killing four people before he ran onto the grounds of Parliament and stabbed an unarmed police officer to death in March.

Four other men drove onto the sidewalk of London Bridge, unleashing a rampage with knives that killed eight people in June. Another man also drove into pedestrians leaving a London mosque later in June. (AP)

Photo credits: Josep Lago/AFP/Getty Images (2), Pau Barrena/AFP/Getty Images, Manu Fernandez/AP, Oriol Duran/AP (2), David Armengou/EPA/REX/Shutterstock, Pau Barrena/AFP/Getty Images, Josep Lago/AFP/Getty Images

See more photos from Barcelona and our other slideshows on Yahoo News.

When you start loving yourself, three things happen. The first is that you fill yourself with so much [self] love, that it overflows and emanates from you. You are content and satisfied with yourself and no one can change that.
The second is that you are happy with YOURSELF. The race to look for someone, something disappears. Because you are full, you don’t preoccupy or search for someone or something to fill an empty emotional void. When you truly work and heal yourself and your past traumas, and love yourself truly and genuinely. All the extra falls away. You don’t worry yourself about what others are thinking and doing and saying, because you are focused on Y-O-U and growing in the most beautiful, spiritual and intrinsic ways.
The third is that the right people (and eventual spouse) will gravitate toward you. When you love yourself, it is obvious when someone else isn’t loving you the way you deserve. You stop accepting situations, actions, and people that are hurtful, toxic and that’s drain you. You see the importance in yourself and the respect and beauty that you hold within yourself. You don’t tolerate anything that disrespects, devalues, or disregards your feelings, time, love, presence and effort. You let everything go, and everything *truly* falls into place.

At a crime scene
  • Molly: Judging by the swelling, she has been in the Thames for over a week or so.
  • Sherlock: *embraces her from behind* Oh, really?
  • Molly: The marks of her neck indicate she was previously strangled, probably by a man, if you look at the size of the hands.
  • Sherlock: *nuzzling her with his nose* hmmm... tell me more.
  • Molly: I will need to do the authopsy to know -oh- if the cause of death was strangling or drowning.
  • Sherlock: *sucking her neck* How interesting...
  • Greg: For the love of God, guys! we are in the middle of a crime scene!

anonymous asked:

Hey there Leo, if it's okay with you, I wanted to ask about your thoughts on that bedroom scene. I don't know why it just doesn't sit well with me- it's just that to me keith seems too reserved and... sad... not relieved or open until the very end when the "as many times as it takes line happens". Maybe it's just me because I guess I expected a more im-so-relieved-youre-alive-hug scenario? something just felt off about that entire exchange and I can't point my finger at what.

I think a good way to read shiro’s bedroom scene is to compare it with Lance’s scene in Keith’s room. Because the fact that we get one almost right after the other is definitely intentional, and on some subconscious level, I think you’re meant to compare the two. It’s even a case of two former paladins talking with their lion’s successor. And while Lance’s talk with Keith is kinda touching and it’s really nice to see the two of them opening up more, I still think it has a distinctly different vibe from Kuron and Keith’s. 

For one thing, we start off outside in the hall. This is different from Lance’s scene, where we begin in Keith’s room and see the new red paladin just walk in. In the case of the latter, we feel like we belong there. However, with the former, we feel more like an outsider looking in. We hear just snippets of their talk at first, like we’re listening in on a private conversation, a fact that accentuates just how intimate and personal this scene is. It’s like the viewer is uninvited and these words are just meant for Keith and “Shiro.”

When we finally do see someone, it’s this extreme closeup of Kuron. This really highlights how downcast and drained he looks, how his hair is all long and matted and unkempt, how exhausted and defeated he is. There’s no closeup like this with Keith and Lance’s scene, a fact that really makes this shot stand out. It’s a sign that Keith and Kuron are more intimately familiar with one another. 

Another thing–in the later scene, when Lance walks in, he has to kind of give a reason why. Keith even points out it’s a surprise to see him stop by–“Must really be bothering you if you’re coming to talk to me.” This is not something that happens usually. And yet, Keith’s talk with Kuron bypasses this part completely. There’s no equivalent to Lance awkwardly knocking and trying to start up a conversation with Keith, because these two are already on a level where having quiet talks with one another is the norm. Because honestly, seeing Keith in “Shiro’s” room during his recovery is just something you’d expect. It’s not something surprisingly uncharacteristic or a shift in dynamic, so there really doesn’t need to be any explicit reason for it. 

Now, I’m certain that Keith’s place in the first scene is equal to Lance’s in the second. And likewise, Kuron’s role in the conversation is taken by Keith later on. So, let’s compare them. Keith removes his jacket before Lance stops by, and that doesn’t seem like much. But visually, we can see he’s kind of being more casual and open. He’s also wearing black instead of red, which equates to Lance seeing him as the leader–and by extension, the black paladin. But, that being said, everyone’s seen Keith without his jacket before. In contrast, Kuron is dressed down in an undershirt that makes him seem a lot more bare and vulnerable, because no one else has seen him when he wasn’t completely put together. 

Similarly, Kuron still looks disheveled and haggard. He doesn’t feel the need to cut his hair or shave in front of Keith, has no reason to keep up appearances the way he does with the other paladins. Around each other, they can just be themselves. This is emphasized by the fact that Kuron is still lying in bed, and remains painfully honest with Keith about his condition. He says, “I’ll try,” instead of some comforting lie like, “I’ll be fine.” He’s in a position of weakness, And Keith is noticeably standing above him. This makes Kuron look especially down and defeated, and added to that that Keith is put in the role of his caretaker, his protector–clearly, the lines between successor and mentor are very blurred. 

Typically, Keith’s position could be seen as having power over someone, as being some kind of aggressor. And yet, he’s taken on the role of Kuron’s guardian, his knight in shining armor. We can glean from Keith mentioning that the others would love to see him that so far they have not, that only Keith has been allowed in Shiro’s bedroom during this delicate time. That he’s the one who not only rescued him but is taking care of him, is staying at his bedside. There’s an intimacy here that’s quite rare. Kuron has really had it rough, but he still doesn’t hold himself back in front of Keith, doesn’t try to maintain a facade. He can allow himself to be exposed and fragile and he knows Keith would never take that trust and shatter it. 

Now, let’s compare that to Lance’s scene. Right away, a different dynamic is established. They’re both standing on equal ground, but still noticeably closed off and distant at first. There’s an uncomfortableness, an unfamiliarity to their interactions that you don’t get in the previous scene. Kuron lying down in bed with Keith standing over him undoubtably puts him in a more vulnerable position. But he’s okay with that because this is Keith, and Kuron trusts him to see this side of him. In comparison to that, Lance and Keith both seem very guarded around each other. Their walls aren’t down the way Kuron and Keith’s are. 

The tone is also very different. Keith and Lance, while discussing Lance’s insecurities, manage to still inject humor into the scene. For instance, the little thing Lance does where he adds his right index finger and then instead of taking away that finger he just fucking??? removes the pinky from his left hand?? And lmao it just like looks so out of place and silly and it’s really endearing and cute and I love it?? Like, little visual cues like that help to put the viewer more at ease. Lance’s expression is also gold. They’re covering a meaningful topic here, but they do it in a way where it doesn’t feel too heavy. 

Now, real quick let’s talk lighting. Kuron’s room is darkly lit, and everything is bathed in this abysmal, dark green hue. It doesn’t feel normal or comforting, it’s like…nervous anticipation. Like something here is very wrong and both Keith and Kuron are just waiting for the other shoe to drop. But again, this is a quiet, completely serious, bleeding open heart to heart in a dark lit bedroom. That feels way more revealing and intimate than two friends talking in a brightly lit, more casual atmosphere. There’s no sense of intensity, heartbreakingly overwhelming emotion, or overhanging danger with Keith and Lance. It’s two friends just having an honest talk and trying to help each other out. 

Also, the point of Lance’s talk is very different from Keith’s. Lance goes to Keith to talk about himself, to express his inferiority and do what he thinks is best for the team. So yes, he does this because he cares about the team. But this doesn’t manifest as “Hey, I know things have been rough lately, and we just got Shiro back and he seems really hurt–are you guys doing okay?” it’s “So, maybe the best thing I can do for the team is step aside.” Lance is a good kid and his heart’s in the right place, but at the same time, I think he kind of assumes everything is his fault somehow. So he’s being very understanding and trying to do something selfless, but really, this is more so about his own problem than Keith’s. 

Now, compare that to Keith, who’s asking Kuron how he’s doing, how he’s feeling, what the hell happened? Lance talks to Keith because he’s worried about the rest of the team, and is so wrapped up in his own insecurities he tries to take the blame for everything and reflects it all back on him. Keith in contrast, never makes the conversation about himself, and focuses completely on Shiro’s wants and needs, on trying to reassure him–something that Keith also does for Lance instead of the other way around. Now, this doesn’t make either Lance or Keith better or more caring than the other. It just means that the focuses of these two talks are very different with very diverging outcomes. Likewise, you can tell that Kuron and Keith are a lot closer by their conversation. It’s easy for the two to open up and reach out to one another. Keith’s heart also goes out to “Shiro” in a way that you just don’t really get from his interactions with Lance. 

Now, let’s talk about the end of both scenes. Because even then, there’s another parallel. Right when Keith is about to leave, we know Kuron calls him back. Similarly, Keith does the same with Lance. And then? Both Kuron and Keith make a kind of joke that’s meant to put the other person at ease. In the case of Keith, this is especially interesting, because Kuron’s just done this for him. So, when he sees things might end on a bad note, what does he do? Take a page out of Kuron’s book and try to cheer Lance up with a little joke. Now, that being said–while we know it makes Lance smile, there’s nothing that really grabs you about “Leave the math to Pidge,” in the way that “How many times are you gonna save me before this is over?” does. Again, Kuron’s talk with Keith is heavy. Even the humor is somewhat dark and foreboding. 

Of course, it’s also very deep and heartfelt. Kuron might not be Shiro, but he has a lot of Shiro’s memories. He remembers Keith always being there for him, remembers Keith rushing in to save him, remembers the overwhelming relief when Keith promises that he’ll be alright, that everything will be okay–that he’ll make it, that nothing’s going to happen to him. It’s incredibly sweet and heart-wrenching. And again, rather than feeling like something you’d hear about someone’s bro, this brings to mind a fairytale romance. Shiro teasing Keith about being his brave knight and always running in to save him. And Keith’s promise that he’ll rescue Shiro “as many times as it takes,” while looking back at Shiro with a smile so warm and fond and completely confident in their happy ending? Yeah, there’s just an aching tenderness to this scene that you don’t usually see. And it certainly feels more in line with something you’d expect from Shiro’s love interest. Regardless of intent, this scene really does read as romantic. 

There’s also the fact that, when Keith makes his promise to Kuron, he’s stepping out of the darkness and into the light. Kuron might be left behind there in the “dark,” but Keith is still shown as the person that can bring him back out into the “light.”