what's your biggest fear? p.s. i love u
I have quite a few. My most terrifying thought though, is that my mental illness will never just, go away. I’ve seen too many people say, “mental illness doesn’t get cured, you learn to cope with it.” And to be honest, as much as I know that may be true, I can’t let myself accept that. I don’t want to be 30, waking up next to the love of my life, with my kid(s) in the room down the hall, on a Sunday morning, and get a sudden dark cloud around me. I don’t want to finally have everything I’ve ever wanted in life, and STILL be sad and suicidal. I don’t want my husband to see me that way, I don’t want my children too either. I mean, I don’t see how I could handle it for that long. For the rest of my life. It’s terrifying.