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chapter one complete!

WE DID IT! After 3.5 months and 33 non-stop pages our first chapter is finally complete. Will Frisk make it back home, or will Chara succeed in taking their soul? And what the heck is Asriel doing there?

Now that chapter one is nicely buttoned up, we are taking a short  breather to get ahead on pages and sort out some blog business. However, we aren’t going dark! To accommodate our prep time while keeping the blog active, Caretaker-AU will undergo a temporary schedule change.


Ah! Wow! Woah! Here’s the next month:

Next week (Feb 20-26): One week of quiet. No major updates!

The following 3 weeks (Feb 27 - Mar 17): Weekly updates on Mondays. That’s one page per week for the 3-page Interlude.

After that we will resume the usual 2 pages per week schedule.


Why the schedule change?

Quite a few reasons actually! While the blog will be quieter, us mods will still be frantically working behind the scenes to prep the next section. We’ll be using this month to…

Get ahead! Despite tons of unforeseen obstacles, we’ve managed to never miss an update day… barely. These interruptions ate up our backlog and lately we’ve been working up until the last second every week. In order to spare ourselves, we’ll be using this time to work ahead so we don’t suffer deadline fatigue.

Fix the blog! We have a new theme in the works that should be easier to navigate and hopefully work around the mobile app issues.

Open commissions! We’ll draw what you want for the right price! Since we will be working around the main comic schedule, commission slots will be limited to just a few a month. Keep an eye out for the announcement!

Secret stuff! We’ve got some other blog stuff we need to finish up, but you’ll find out about that later… it’s a surprise!

Finally sleep? Nah, probably not.

And of course, we will continue to answer asks and post fanwork as usual! :D


“Interlude?” What’s that?

In our grand plan, we are using the space between main chapters to share mini-chapters we are calling “Interludes.” These short one-shots will provide insight and backstory related to Caretaker, and are a part of the overarching story.

Will you do this every time?

According to our script, Chapter 01 is the longest chapter in the story. Because of this, we may not need to change the schedule at every chapter break. It will all depend on our workload! Interlude segments will always be between main chapter breaks.


tl;dr:
Interlude starts on February 27
Chapter 02 starts on March 20

Have an awesome day!

Often I have heard people say, ‘How good God is! We prayed that it would not rain for our church picnic, and look at the lovely weather!’ Yes, God is good when He sends good weather. But God was also good when He allowed my sister, Betsie, to starve to death before my eyes in a German concentration camp. I remember one occasion when I was very discouraged there. Everything around us was dark, and there was darkness in my heart. I remember telling Betsie that I thought God had forgotten us. ‘No, Corrie,’ said Betsie, ‘He has not forgotten us. Remember His Word: “For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His steadfast love toward those who fear Him.” There is an ocean of God’s love available—there is plenty for everyone. May God grant you never to doubt that victorious love—whatever the circumstances.
—  Corrie Ten Boom

Listening to the voice of disabled people regarding disabled representation is crucial. Doing otherwise means that you’re just willing to instrumentalize us and that your piece of media is inherently bad. I’m saying it as someone who is autistic, as well as someone who actually was almost ableist a couple days ago.

I watched this movie, “Hush”, on Netflix. It’s about a deaf woman, a writer, who has to face a serial killer and is using everything around her and in her soul to survive. I was very moved by this movie because the woman protagonist was strong, willful, fierce. I thought to myself “That’s what i want to see in a movie with an autistic protagonist !”.

I was going to post a very positive review, but i’ve decided, at the last moment, to check out some reviews about the movie written by members of the Deaf community. I was shocked. What i thought was good representation was actually terrible.

The actress was not deaf herself, her use of the ASL was almost ridiculous, they weren’t accurate at all most of the time, and, apparently, the director of this movie was very dismissive towards members of the Deaf Community who tried to reach them.

I’m not deaf myself or hard-of-hearing. I discovered with this experience that i know nothing about deafness and the Deaf community and i feel a bit ashamed about the fact that i almost praised this movie as a very good representation. I was ignorant, but ignorance is not an excuse. I need to educate myself.

What i mean is that you definitely need disabled people’s input on your creation, if you want to include us as characters. No matter what disability you’re talking about.

Have you ever felt a sudden and unexplained surge of happiness? Like, for an instant, everything is okay. Everything is peaceful.
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I feel like we need to work on extending moments like this. Especially in today’s society when it’s all too easy to become rushed and too caught up in everything going on around us.

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During times when you are not fighting battles like the warrior you are, take a moment to be mindful. Reflect. Grow.

BPD stereotypes and the truths behind them.

1. (Manipulation). Most borderlines don’t actually purposefully manipulate people. Suicide attempts or threats, while toxic behaviors, are not a ploy for manipulation. They are genuine expressions of pain and sometimes even desperate calls for help. Self harm is not done for personal gain at the hands of others. It is a harmful coping mechanism that is dangerous and serious. Cries for help like this aren’t attempts at manipulation. Borderlines genuinely feel and live this pain.

2. (Exaggeration or “Drama Queen/King.”) One of the core symptoms of BPD is something called ‘black and white thinking.’ This stems from the fact that borderlines are naturally more sensitive than other people. Because of this sensitivity, the intensities of emotions are heightened. When your emotions take you so high or so low, your brain takes this information as what it feels to be - either extremely awful or amazingly perfect. Black and white thinking leads us to perceive everything around us at extremes. We are not exaggerating or “making a big deal” out of nothing. We are responding to our emotions and the way they naturally present situations to us.

3. (Borderlines just want attention). This isn’t true. What we want is validation. Attention is often sought-after because we feel invalidated. If we were understood and our feelings and experiences were validated by those around us, we wouldn’t be craving so much validation (disguised as a need for attention).

4. (Borderline means it’s almost a personality disorder, but not quite). This, too, isn’t true. The term 'Borderline’ signifies that people with BPD are borderline meeting criteria for many other diagnoses. This is due to the fact that the symptoms of BPD range from those associated with eating disorders to those associated with schizophrenia.

5. (Males can’t have BPD). While a good chunk of people diagnosed with BPD are women, men can still have BPD. There are less diagnoses in men as men in today’s society are groomed to hide their emotions and not express themselves fully. While many men may experience the symptoms of BPD, many are afraid, uncomfortable, or unable to seek help or professional input.

** this does not represent all people with BPD. this was written from my experience as a borderline and what i have learned from mental health professionals and those around me. feel free to add to this list or express your opinions/experiences.

** i want to stress that although BPD may not be “curable” there is hope to become more effective in relationships and more aware of yourself and how your disorder affects you. you may not be able to change yourself and the way you perceive the world, but you can work on limiting toxic and harmful behaviors.

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Get to Know Me Meme: Favorite Movie [3/5] → Stand By Me (1986) 

Vern didn’t just mean being off-limits inside the junkyard, or fudging on our folks, or going on a hike up the railroad to Harlow. He meant those things, but it seems to me now it was more and that we all knew it. Everything was there and around us. We knew exactly who we were and exactly where we were going. It was grand

Maybe it was because it was cold and his body was super close to mine. Maybe it was because he looked really nice in a leather jacket. Maybe it was because his eyes looked impossibly blue in a photo I took of him. It could’ve been because of the time he helped me undo my braids. Or maybe because of the times where I made him laugh. Oh, or maybe that one time, when he came off stage, and just came directly over to me with a smile no one gets to see very often on his face. Or the times when we lock eyes and everything around us just blurs into the background (those are my favorite.)
I don’t know what it is exactly that makes my body crave his eyes on me at all times. Or how long I’ve actually been into him long before every nerve ending in my body fires in rapid succession when his shoulder bumps into mine.
I don’t know how to explain my feelings for him…I don’t think I even want to.
—  WHAT CAN’T BE SENT THROUGH A TEXT // k.m.
A Christmas-to-New-Years-to-Valentine’s-Day-Gift: “Your Arms Around Me”

IT’S FINALLY DONE! AND IT ONLY TOOK ME THREE MONTHS! (nervous laughter) 


But here it is! “Your Arms Around Me”, a… romantic short comic starring @procerperficio and @alternatefiction, based on the song by Jens Lekman (about a man who is so distracted by his girlfriend’s entrancing beauty that he accidentally cuts off the tip of his finger). I changed a few words to fit the situation, and I pretty much had to invent an imaginary kitchen for the first few scenes. Also, I realize that setting this mid-August isn’t exactly the most seasonal gift. And that’s about it as far as disclaimers go. 


This is the first time I’ve really done a full project on my own time, all my work comprises of either rough sketches or small pen drawings, and the comics I’ve done are either very rough or very short. This was my very first time drawing storyboards first, then going in with pencil, then doing over in pen. It’s been quite the experience, and I feel that I’ve come out a stronger artist than before, if I should allow myself the praise. Now, I’ll shut myself up before this becomes an essay. I hope you enjoy this!


(Oh, pssst, Cim&Eva: I’ll be leaving the link to something like an author’s note in your inboxes, so click ‘em when you have a minute!)

  • a person with perfect vision: oh my god! it'd be so! cool! to like see through walls! x-ray vision! heat-sensory vision, too!
  • me, who has worn glasses since the age of six and is 97% legally blind: all i ask...is to be able to know if that's anastasia the lost princess of russia, an australian wombat, or a ceiling fan...

I have something to say.

When I was in elementary school, we had a holocaust survivor come to talk to us about her experiences. Before she left she said something to us that I never forgot. She said “No one person can fight for all causes at once. Putting concentrated effort in a few causes is better than putting the barest of effort while trying to cover them all” And she challenged us to pick 3-5 causes that we will spend our lives fighting for and learning about and commit to them as best we can.

Of course the context was such that it was clear that if there is a Major Event occurring which needs immediate attention, definitely hyperfocus on that. But the point that she made still stuck and I think that in this current environment its wise to think about your activism in this way.

As children of the information age, we pride ourselves on being able to know the most up to date information on everything around us. Its easy to get overwhelmed when you know that there are so many causes to fight for and so many people and things being desecrated or hurt. In most cases, being overwhelmed creates anxiety that leads to inaction. And inaction is something no one needs.

Let us look at ourselves and look at our values and each choose 3-5 things that we want to make sure we become knowledgeable about, and 1 thing we want to fight for, then focus our energy on them at Maximum Intensity. Now….of course all aspects of oppression are irrevocably linked. I talk about that on here all the time. But more potent activism on your few causes lets you have the focus you need to really make waves.

You care a lot about the environment? learn about fixing it. Invent something. You care about healthcare? Put your all into saving it. You care about politics? vaguely consider becoming a politician. Acknowledge that there are other issues at hand, and that they require work, but focus on your causes. Make these next 4 years count in regards to the issues you feel matter the most.

If you see one of your causes has a huge amount of people fighting for it and they seem to be making good headway, find another cause that seems to be flagging and needs a boost. Keep your causes down to 3 - 5. If you don’t have time or energy, lower that number to 1-2 but increase your vigilance on those 1-2 things.

If we work together and focus, we can make sure things get covered without succumbing to intellectual exhaustion or depression.

We are a huge generation. We are smart, we are creative, we are resilient. We come up with ever increasing solutions to many many problems that were once thought to be unsolvable. We are so empathetic and brave and strong.

We can do this.

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Some men are born to plow fields, some live to be great physicians, others to be great kings. Me? I was born to serve you, Arthur, and I’m proud of that, and I wouldn’t change a thing.