everyone watch the video cause you gotta hear his voice ok

OK so there’s a lot of shit going around about what happened to twenty one pilots at Reading so as someone who watched the whole thing, this is what happened:

Ok so bit of background, here in England Reading Festival is pretty much where teenagers around 15-18 go after they’ve got their GCSE and A Level exam results, basically just to get high and drunk as fuck and just party and watch some music, so basically the crowd is always full of drunk teenagers. Now onto what happened to our poor boys.

Initially everything was fine, then it came to Holding Onto You and the band’s first interaction with the crowd. The cameras were on the crowd for most of the time throughout the other songs and you could see it was rather rowdy and moving around a lot as people were pushing each other around a lot. Tyler (if you don’t know) stands on the crowd and people hold him up whilst he sings the first verse of HOY, and he was swaying about a bit because the teenagers underneath him just couldn’t hold him up, Security were doing most of the work holding his legs and waist. So Tyler got down after he finished his bit and everything seemed to be OK again.

Then is came to Ride (which again if you don’t know) Josh has a mini drum kit on a platform that goes into the crowd and they support it. Again, security were doing most of the work holding the platform up and the kids up underneath it, but even then the platform was swaying A LOT from side to side with Josh on it, I was so terrified he was going to fall. So that ends and he gets down, luckily he’s fine and no injuries to him and (as far as I could tell) everyone in the crowd was OK.

Then the blackout at the end of Ride happens.

There’s a long pause, like I mean REALLY long. The crowd starts bubbling and yelling.

Tyler’s voice comes up: “Um for some reason the lights have gone off and they won’t come back on again so we’re just gonna play the rest of our set in the dark if that’s okay”. So that’s what they do. They play Stressed Out mostly in the dark but luckily the back screen is working so there is some light. Then Guns For Hands comes on and Tyler only sings about half of it, snippets of the verses and the chorus, as he’s clearly talking to backstage about the clearly still absent lights.

Then during Guns For Hands Tyler does his whole crowd surfing in the hamster ball thing. This actually goes surprisingly well and I mean he trips a couple of times but that’s kind of expected due to the slippery moving surface of the ball.

Lights still aren’t on.

Lights come back on about halfway through the next song, which is Car Radio. Everything is going well, the crowd is singing along, Tyler is singing, Josh is killing it on the drums. Then Tyler walks to the front of the stage, indicating a tower in the middle of the crowd which he is going to climb up, as he usually does in Car Radio. He points at it and says to the crowd “I need to get over there okay?” 

This is when everything went to shit.

Tyler gets in the crowd and immediately it collapses to the side with him on them, security goes to grab him but he waves them off, obviously intent on getting to the platform. The crowd is still swaying underneath him and he’s not making much progress. 

You can hear people yelling on his mic, things like “stop doing that” “help her” “get off”, that sorta thing. The point in the song where Tyler is meant to be at the tower comes. And goes. Camera points at Josh a couple of times, you can clearly see he’s mad and worried. Car Radio ends. Next song starts, Josh continues drumming bless him. Next song finishes, Tyler is still not at the platform but he’s nearly there. People are still yelling over his mic. Security at the platform are waving him over towards them.

Finally Tyler reaches the platform as the third song begins and he climbs it. He slips near the top but catches himself and doesn’t fall. But then he stands up and you can see his shirt has been completely ripped and is dangling off him. He’s sweaty and covered in beer and clearly mad and hot and stressed. The song ends and Tyler yells “Are you all still with me?”

Then “Josh we gotta be done, we’re done”. “Thank you, we’ve been twenty one pilots”. This wasn’t because they were upset or cut off, this was because of all the lights issue and Tyler getting to the platform ate into the concert time they just ran out of time and they had to get off the stage because there were other artists due to play after them.

That’s it.

It was so heartbreaking to watch. I’m sure the video will be up later when the BBC post it on iPlayer. There are photos of Tyler on Tumblr. 

As an English person I must emphasise that this is NOT what the majority of clique members in this country I like. Like I said, the crowd was full of drunk teenagers and people who either don’t know the artist or just have little to no respect for the artist as they’re just there to have a bit of a party and cause a bit of chaos for fun.

That being said, I apologise to Tyler and Josh so so so much on behalf of this country and the shitty people in the crowd. This never should have happened.

Stay alive |-/

@im-fairly-local @twenyonepilots @oneanddun can you reblog this so people know what happened.

Hands on experience with Natasha

Pairing: Natasha x reader

Request: do you take requests and if you do can i make a smut request, can you do a smut were the reader is a virgin and other than the basics she (the reader) doesn’t know anything about sex and natasha guides the reader through the experience and takes her virginity.

Oh my gosh this is so humiliating I really hope no one comes home and hears moans. That would be embarrassing. I can’t believe I’ve resorted to watching porn to learn about sex. I mean of course I knew the basics from what my friends have told me. Butthey painted an awkward picture of it and well that why I’m 24 year old virgin. Ive come close to doing it with previous boyfriends but they always ended up being assholes. Right now I’m trying to comprehend how a girl can have both her legs around her own neck as the guy is fucking her. It looks painful.

“Y/n are you here? I came back early from the mission. Are you here alone?” I heard Natasha’s voice from the other side of the door. I got so startled that I accidentally raised the volume of my laptop. A woman’s moan boomed from the speakers and I froze when I saw Natasha walking in. “Well well well, who would of thought little y/n watches porn” Natasha teased as she sat beside me on the bed and took the laptop from me. “Wow you’re into some interesting stuff, I can’t even do that” Natasha raised one eyebrow.

“I … I was just”

“You don’t have to explain yourself we all gotta get off sometimes.”

“I was just trying to learn about sex and I thought maybe if I watched a porn video I would learn something” I wanted to crawl in a hole and die of embarrassment.

“Learn? Wait are you”

“Yeah Nat I’m a virgin, you can officially laugh now” I tried to hide my face but Natasha stopped me.

“You don’t have to be embarrassed y/n it’s actually sweet. You know cap’s still a virgin right, I’m sure he wouldn’t mind.” I gave her a puzzling look. “Don’t give me that look everyone can tell he has a massive crush on you” my eyes went wide “oh shit you really didn’t know ! ! ! ! Hahahaha surprise he does”

“Really ? Great this makes things even more complicated for me because if we do end up dating and he wants to have sex” “you will” Natasha interrupted “ok we I do I want to be able to please him without looking like a dumbass”

“You won’t, uh do you want me to show you what you could do? We can keep it between so cap won’t get jealous” Natasha offered with a little smirk.

“Uhh ok but how are you going to show me?”

“Hold on” Natasha rushed out of the room and came back a few minutes later with a sex toy. “This is a strap-on we’ll use this. But first let’s set the mood, you don’t want to have sex with someone if the mood is off.” Natasha set the strap-on and laptop on a chair by the bed before sitting in front of me. “Ok to set the mood you have to start off by kissing. You have kissed before right?” I nodded my head Natasha inched closer to me “ok let me see if you need improvement in that department” Natasha leaned in and kissed me. Her lips felt so soft against mine, that caused me grab the back of her neck and deepened the kiss. I felt her smiling as she slipped her tongue in my mouth and began to slide her hand up my shirt. “You my dear have no problem in the kissing department that’s for sure. Steve’s going to go nuts. Now let me put this on” Natasha got up and started to take her pants and underwear on so she should could put on the strap-on. I moved myself so I was sitting on the edge of the bed and Natasha stood in front of me.

“What should I do ?”

“You start off my peppering kisses all over the cock. Go on” I held the fake penis in my hand and started to leave kisses all over it. “Now take the tip in your mouth and suck on it, Steve will lose his shit trust me”

“Like this” I then took it in my mouth and started sucking cautiously.

“Suck a little harder. Don’t be afraid to get a little rough, his cock isn’t made of glass. Just don’t bite it, guys don’t like that” I chuckled before I started sucking harder. “Now take more of him in your mouth and pump what you can’t fit in your mouth. Don’t feel bad if you can’t fit all of him in your mouth, you shouldn’t push yourself.” I took more in my mouth and stopped when I couldn’t fit anymore in my mouth. I pulled back and took it back in, soon I started bobbing my head. Natasha tangled her fingers in my hair, I looked up at her and saw her smiling.

“Like that y/n oh Steve is going to be at your mercy every time you go down on him. Ok I have a question, do you want to be a virgin when you have sex with Steve?” I shook my head no. “Ok because I think you might scare him when he enters you for the first time.”

“What do you mean” I started to get nervous. Natasha kneeled down and looked me in the eyes.

“Oh sweetie it’s ok, it only hurts the first time and only for a few minutes. Please relax, do you still what to do it?” I nodded my head

“I would rather be in pain in front of you instead of him.” She nodded and pecked my lips.

“I need to get you ready for it ok? Make sure you are nice and wet before he enters you, it’s painful when you’re not wet. Take off your pants and underwear and lay back on the bed.”

“Should I take off my shirt and bra?”

“If you want to” once I was laying completely naked on the bed I noticed Natasha staring at me. “Wow your gorgeous” she started to kiss her way up my legs, biting my hip bone before making her way up my stomach. She began tracing my nipple with her tongue before taking it in her mouth. Closing my eyes I started to enjoy her lips on my nipple and feeling her hand running up and down my pussy. Natasha switched nipples as she inserted a finger inside me. “Mmm I actually don’t think you need prep, you’re already soaked. I’m just going to have a quick taste” Natasha slid down so she was in front of my pussy and gave one long lick before she started sucking on my clit.

“Nat ahh that feels good ” I began playing with my nipple.

“Make sure Steve does this, he might die when realizes how good you taste. I’m going to add a second finger in you to stretch you out ok” I just nodded. I felt a little uncomfortable but eased up as time went on. “Ok well I feel like you are ready. Are you ready?” Natasha sat up


“Ok well I think the best position is you on top. That way you can go at your pace, so come over here and hover the dildo” she patted her lap and I did what she said . “Ok now slowly sink down. If you go too fast you will hurt yourself” I slowly sank down but stopped when I felt a sharp pain. I looked at Natasha scared. “It’s ok y/n look at me” I looked up “it’s ok the pain is only temporary just go all the way down and we can wait till you’re ok to continue.” I nodded and continued to sink down as tears were streaming down my face. Natasha being a sweetheart kissed my lips trying to distract me until I was all the way down. We stayed still for what felt like hours until I felt more at ease and started rocking my hips. Natasha pulled away and smiled as she raised my hips before letting me sink back down.

“Oh Nat” i copied what she did as I started removing her shirt and bra in the process. My lips attached themselves to her nipple as she was holding onto my ass, encouraging me to move faster. “This feel so good Nat fuck”

“I told you sweetie, you look so hot, now cum for me” Natasha started playing with my clit until I felt a knot in the pit of my stomach.

“Nat I think-”

“You’re about to cum y/n, cum for me” she started moving my hips faster until I let out an inhuman noise.

“Ahhh Nat ! ! ! !” I let my orgasm wash over me.

“Oh sweetie you look so hot when you cum” gradually I slowed down until I was no longer moving. I carefully got off Natasha and laid down on my bed.

“That was amazing Nat, you’re a great teacher” earning a smile from her.

“Well you’re an amazing student. Is it ok if I leave.” I nodded yes and Natasha bent down and kissed me before she started putting her close back on “see you tomorrow”

“Bye Nat”

*the next day*

Walking into the kitchen I spot Steve wearing a suit and holding flowers.


“Y/n I wanted to ask you something. You can say no but I just wanted to ask you out on date. I’ve liked you for so long and Sam told me I should man up and ask you. So will you go on a date” Steve sounded nervous.

“Yes” I got on my tippy toes and kissed his cheek. Just then Natasha walked in.

“Well well well you finally did it Rogers ? I’m proud of you y/n is a very special girl, you better not break her heart. I’m might just have to kick your ass” Natasha threaten before walking away.

*three months later*

“Wow y/n you were amazing. The things you did with your tongue was just wow.” Steve beamed with happiness. “Are you sure I didn’t hurt you ? Sorry if I did it was my first time and I guess I don’t know my own strength” Steve asked the morning after we had our first time together.

“You were perfect Steve, you didn’t hurt me at all but I am hungry let’s go eat breakfast .”

“Do we have to ? I want to stay in bed with you all day” Steve started teasing my clit.

“Yes, I’m hungry but after we eat we can come back and continue” I got up and pulled him with me. Making our way into the kitchen Tony, Clint, Sam and Bucky started whistling causing me to hide my face against Steve’s chest.

“Woohoo y/n finally deflowered our little capsical. Did you taste his cum? What did it taste like? Oh I bet it tasted like freedom ! ! !” Tony laughed while saying it, causing everyone to laugh as well.

“That’s enough Tony, it’s none of your business, lets go get your food so we can go back to the room.” Before I made my way to the kitchen Natasha pulled me aside. I nodded to steve to go ahead.

“Did you do what I taught you”



“Mind blowing, I had to drag him out of the bedroom. Thanks again” she gave me a wicked grin

“You’re oh so very welcome”

“Y/n come on I got us food” Steve showed up with scrambled eggs and toast.

“Damn Steve pace yourself you might be a super soldier but y/n isn’t” Bucky laughed at his friends as he eagerly made his way towards his room.

I’ve been in roadrat hell for so long and I finally decided to try writing something small with them. Inspired and building off this amazingly cute but heart breaking comic by the amazing browsdraws! Hopefully if I keep doing small practice things like this I can start writing bigger stories for the junkers~

                                                   Pepe is online

:Junkrat: wat did you do hana?

:D.va: I think it’s more fitting c:< don’t you?

:Junkrat: you right

:Pepe: I trust you with my account password, and this is the thanks I get? After all I’ve done for you?

:D.va: It was meant to be, Lucio!

                                Pepe changed his name to Frogger

:D.va: Lame

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Request where the reader watches cartoons on breaks and days off (Bee and Puppycat, baman piderman) to get rid of nightmares and triggers of her job, soon she recruits everyone to watch, Spencer first ( even JJ and Henry, Hotch and Jack.) Big cuddles

This is a cute idea!  I will be using different cartoons, mostly ones that I’m familiar with, but I hope you enjoy your story nonetheless, because here it is, comin’ ‘atcha!

Throwing the door open to your apartment, you drop your go-bag at your feet as you jump, shaking your coat off as your breathing begins to pick up.  You felt your temperature rising and your legs were already beginning to shake.

It had been a long case.  13 days from home was enough to drive anyone insane, but when you were exactly what the unsub was looking for, looking over your shoulder became exhausting and paranoia-inducing.

And that’s not always the greatest combination for someone struggling with anxiety.

Dashing over to your television set-up, you throw open a drawer as you dig through, finding the self-made disk with hours of cartoon videos on it.  Mashing buttons on your DVD player as it finally springs to life, your trembling fingers shove the DVD into the slot as you lay back onto the floor, the whirring of the disk spinning in its cage settling your nerves as the TV begins to glare into the dark room, the sound of the Tom and Jerry theme song striking up as a relieved smile begins to creep across your cheeks.


Your favorite childhood memories.

The things you set alarms for on Saturday mornings before scrambling to make yourself a bowl of cereal.


That was a good idea.

Rising to your feet as you head into your kitchen, you throw open your cabinet dedicated to your sugary addiction as your fingers drift over the boxes before settling on the oh-so-delicious Reese’s Pieces.

You were feeling a barrel tumbler.

Grasping your gigantic to-go cup, you pour the cereal into it as it clinks on the sides, the smell of the peanut-butter and chocolate-y mix causing your mouth to water as you place the box down before heading to the fridge and throwing it open for the milk.

And much to your dismay, there was absolutely no milk.

“Fuck!” you exclaim, slamming the door as you feel the tears brewing behind your eyes.

Charging into the TV room as you pick up the remote and jam the pause button, you grab your keys as tears spring to your eyes, your breathing picking back up as your hands begin to shake.

You just…needed…milk.


Throwing your sunglasses on at 8 o’clock at night, you barge into the grocery store as you make a beeline for the milk in the back, making a mental note to grab two gallons instead of only one.

Wrenching the door open as you thrust your hands into the refrigerated enclosure, you hear a rough, familiar voice emanate from behind you.


Whipping around as your eyes widen behind your sunglasses, you hold two gallons of milk at your sides as your boss and his son stare at you, confusion wafting across both of their faces.

“You alright?” Hotch asks.

Nodding slowly, you lift the gallons of milk as you say, “Needed more milk for my cereal.”

Your voice cracked at the tail end, much to your disappointment.

And you could tell by your boss’s face that he caught it.

“Cereal for dinner?” he asks, his eyebrows stitching closer together.

“Mhm,” you murmur, lowering them to your sides, “cereal and cartoons.”

“Cartoons!” Jack exclaims, “Daddy, can we go watch cartoons at her house?”

The sentiment made your cheek twitch lightly with a grin.

“No son, I’m sure that Miss Y/L/N doesn’t want to be bothered right now…” he meanders off, his eyes side-glancing you as you take in a sharp breath through your nose.

“If it’s alright with your father, then it’s alright with me.  But rest assured, the only thing I have to eat right now is cereal,” you say, your sunglasses slipping down the bridge of your nose just long enough for Hotch to catch your reddened, puffy eyes.

Damn it.

“Cereal for dinner sounds awesome!” Henry interjects, running around the corner as the two boys embrace each other, with J.J. and Spencer close on his heels.

“Oh, hey guys!” Spencer breathes as you whip your head to him.

“Needed milk, I see?” he says, throwing you a little smirk as your face hardens again.

You felt your breathing slowly begin to pick up again.

“Y/N?” J.J. asks.

You felt your head begin to buzz.

You needed to get home.

You needed to decompress.

You needed to be able to breathe again.

“Miss Y/N?” Jack asks as you clench your jaw and swallow deep.

“Whoever wants cereal and cartoons is more than welcome at my apartment, but please you guys…I gotta get out of here.”

And with that, you pushed through the overwhelming crowd growing as you scurry to the counter, your tears slipping underneath your sunglasses as you throw a $10 dollar bill at the cashier and grab your milk, jogging quickly out of the grocery store as you leave your team and their kids in the dust, confusion and worry spread across their faces.


Leaving your door wide open as you run into your kitchen, you throw open your fridge as you toss one gallon into the door and sling the other up onto the counter.

Your anxiety was running high, and you could barely get the top off of the milk.

Feeling your glasses slip the rest of the way off of your nose, they clatter to your feet as the tears continue to pour down your face, your hand slipping as the cap to the gallon of milk goes crashing to the ground, rolling away as your eyes dart for it frantically.

You hadn’t even realized that everyone from the grocery store had pulled up, parked, and come through your front door.

“Hey kids,” Spencer coos as he dips down in front of Jack and Henry, “why don’t you guys go press play on the cartoons?  We will bring you guys your cereal.”

“Ok,” Henry says, going in search of the remote as Jack follows suit.

Picking it up in your trembling fingers as your vision begins to tunnel, your hand outstretches to grasp the wall as you try to pull in big, long breaths.

Until you heard the sound of Tom and Jerry rolling in the background.

Slowly rolling your eyes over towards the sound, you see Hotch, Spencer, and J.J. taking close stock of you, your swollen face and your red-rimmed eyes giving away your anxiety as you slowly rise up, rolling your shoulders back a you clear your throat.

“Um…bowls are, are up here,” you say as you point beside you, “and that cabinet right there,” you continue as you move your finger in front of you, “is filled with the cereals.”

Walking towards your huge tumbler of cereal as you reach for the gallon of milk, your unsteady hand begins to drop it as Hotch comes rushing to your side, grasping it before it can hit the floor as tears begin to pour from your eyes once more.

“We’ve got this,” J.J. coos, grasping your shoulders as she pushes you slowly towards Spencer, “we can bring in everyone’s cereal as we get it ready.”

Feeling Spencer take your hands, his worried eyes running over your body, he slowly leads you into the room as the sounds of the Rugrats theme song wafts through your ears, along with the belly-laughter of two beautifully naive little boys.

You wanted them to stay that way forever.

Feeling Spencer sit you down on the couch, you feel him sit beside you, his leg propping up and pressing into the back of the couch as he puts his arms up under yours, pulling you to him as he holds you close.

“Just breathe…” he murmurs lowly, his hands stroking your arms as the trembling in your body slowly dissipates.

“Who wants cereal!?” J.J. taunts, coming into the room with bowls for the boys as they squeal with delight.

“Best dinner ever!” Henry says as he takes the bowl from his mom.

“Thanks, kid,” she mocks, rolling her eyes as a grin spreads across your cheeks.

“Here, Reid,” Hotch says, handing him a bowl as you sit up slightly.

“And for the big kid…” Hotch says, his eyes dancing across you softly as he hands you your tumblr.

“Wow!  That’s a really big bowl,” Jack says.

“Well, I have a really big tummy,” you say, winking at the boy as he giggles.

“Oo!  Oo!  Oo!” Henry exclaims as he points at the TV, “Bugs Bunny!”

“Yeah!” Jack exclaims.

“You’re the coolest, Miss Y/N!” Henry yelps as he begins to munch on his cereal.

You felt your smile broaden as you watch J.J. take up residence with the boys on the opposite couch.

“Mind if I sit?” Hotch asks, motioning to the cushion that your legs were covering as you raise your eyes to him.

Raising your legs, you curl them towards you as he sits, balancing his bowl of cereal in his hand as he drops down before ushering to your legs.

“Come on,” he says, patting his lap as you tentatively lower your legs back onto him.

Turning your perplexed gaze back to the screen, you laugh along with the boys as you feel Spencer chuckle behind you, a smile gracing both J.J. and Hotch’s faces as everyone munches on their cereal, their eyes glued to the television screen.

Drinking your milk from your tumbler as J.J. begins to gather the boys’ empty bowls, you try to wave her off as she locks her eyes with you.

“I’ve got it,” she enunciates.

“Is this how you unwind from cases?” Spencer asks as you cock your head back to look at him.

“Just the rough ones,” you say, slowly turning your head to the forefront as you feel Hotch’s stare permeate your face.

“Are you alright?” he asks, his hand mindlessly caressing your legs on his lap as you try desperately to blink back tears.

“A few more cartoons and I’ll be ready for bed,” you snicker, swallowing hard as you clench your jaw.

“Doggy pile!” you hear the boys scream, jumping up and flopping down onto you as you laugh, your hands flying everywhere as you tickle the boys.

“Biiiiiiiiig mistake!” you roar, a smile encompassing your face as J.J. gets in on the tickle action.

“We’ve got you pinned now!” she yelps.

“I surrender!  I surrender!” Jack exclaims breathlessly, his face red as he holds his hands to his stomach.

“We give up!” Henry pants.

“Can we watch a few more, Miss Y/N?” Jack asks, his eyes pleading as you cup his sweaty face in your hands.

“You guys like Power Rangers?” you ask, a smile spreading across your face.

“Yeah!” the both exclaim.

“Do you like Power Rangers?” Hotch asks, his eyebrow cocked in the air as you giggle lightly.

“Yep,” you say, popping the “p” as you reach for the remote.

And as the boys sit on the floor in front of the couch, with J.J. in the middle as she wraps her arms around them both, the group of you watch through three episodes before the boys’ eyes start to droop.

“Looks like you guys nee a bed,” J.J. coos, her hands rubbing their backs as they shake their heads lazily.

“We’re not tired…” Henry trails off.

“Speak for yourself…” Jack lulls.

You felt Spencer’s stomach jump behind you as he chuckled at the boys.

“We better get these guys home,” Hotch says, patting your legs as you slowly rear them up.

“Thank you so much for having us,” J.J. says, smiling kindly at you as she picks Henry up in her arms.

“You gonna be alright?” Hotch asks, picking up Jack as his eyes connect with yours.

“I’m always alright,” you muse, throwing him a tired smile as he scolds you silently.

“I know, I know…” you trail off, feeling your own eyes begin to lazily drop closed as Spencer pulls you ever so closer to him.

“You comin’, Reid?” J.J. asks as they open your front door.

“I’m gonna catch a couple more, just to make sure she’s alright,” he says, his hand coming up to smooth down your hair as his other arm holds your stomach tight.

“Alright,” Hotch says, smiling lightly as he ushers everyone out the door, closing the door behind him as Spencer hears it click.

“Wanna turn it back to Bugs Bunny?” Spencer asks, turning his attention back to you as he reaches for the remote in your lap.

But your chest was rising and falling, and your eyes were screwed tightly shut.

And as Spencer smiles lightly, his body wiggling as he slowly shifts himself down onto the couch, he scrolls through and begins playing the Bugs Bunny cartoons as he grabs the blanket off of the back of the couch, spreading it over the two of you as he holds you close to him in his arm.

“Bugs Bunny it is,” he whispers.

A Complicated Love Part8 (Nash Grier)

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“Nash… Please just tell me what you had to say.” I said stepping a little closer to him. I could read the nervousness in his eyes. Everything about his presence just screamed nervous. “I don’t think that you deserve to know anymore.” He said turning away from me. “Why? You were making such a big deal out of it, now I’m here and you’re just not going to say anything?” I said raising my voice a little. “Oh I’m sorry well maybe you should have thought about that before you said anything about me.” He said turning back to me and raising his voice a little as well. All I could do was stare at him in shock. “Ya… I heard what you said in the hall. Now I’m just so done.” He said and walked past me. Done? What did that mean? “Done with what?” I said back to him. “Done with you!” He said raising his voice even more. “Nash you’ve bullied me basically our whole lives, what do you have to be done with? It’s not like I caused you any real pain like you’ve done to me. What can you not take things being said about you? Hurts doesn’t it!” I said letting every little thought in my head burst out. He stared at me with his jaw clenched angered by my words. “It’s easy to say things about people but when you hear things about yourself it’s a lot harder isn’t it? Now you feel my pain.” I said with no emotion in my voice. I watched as he rolled his eyes and walked away back into the boys locker room slamming the door behind him. He was being different. Maybe Lilly really was right. Maybe Nash Grier is changing. But what is it that’s changing him was the one question on my mind.


For the rest of the week Nash didn’t show up at school. I didn’t think anything of it. I just savored it. My week basically consisted of practicing my music with the boys and walking around school with a smile and the feeling of relief. “Hey Ally you wanna come to a party tonight?” Cam asked me as I shut my locker door. “Oh ya sure. Who’s going?” I asked. “Me, the guys, and a few other people from school. Mom won’t be home this weekend so I thought why not have a little party?” He said with his hands in his pockets. “And before you go asking yes there will be drinks.” Sam said walking up behind me. “Now how did you know I’d ask that Wilkinson?” I asked with a smile. “Oh trust me, knowing you, you’ll be asking about drinks.” He said. I just rolled my eyes and looked down the hallway to see a group of girls all jumping around. I laughed once I saw my brother and the three other boys emerge from the group. “Looks like 5 Seconds Of Summer is becoming pretty popular.” Matt said. “Ya. They deserve it. They’re really good.” Gilinsky said. I glanced at him quickly before I was face to face with Luke. “So sis… do you think we should give all the fans a new song?” He said. “Luke you know I’m working on putting together the video.” I said crossing my arms. “Video?” Cameron asked looking confused. “The boys made their first music video and we’re putting it up on YouTube Sunday.” I said. “And it’s all thanks to little Hemmings right here.” Calum said poking me. “She wrote the song, directed, and filmed the video.” Michael said. “Ya and it turned out great!” Ashton said. I just rolled my eyes at them and looked up to Luke. “So what are you up to today?” He asked me. “Going over Cameron’s house for a party with these losers.” I said. “Hey!” They all yelled behind me. “Oh ok, well make sure to be safe. Don’t get into any trouble.” Luke said smiling. “Sure cause when do I ever get in trouble.” I said sarcastically. Everyone just laughed, even me. But it was true. I was the good girl of this school who never got in trouble. Sometimes it was a good thing. But I felt like it had it’s downfalls. I said goodbye to the boys and all that was on my mind right now was, it was party time!

Hours passed and the sun went down as we were all at Cams house already having a good time. There weren’t a lot more people who came into the house. Only like 4 others. Not a big party but it would still be fun. I’ve already had a lot of drinks, but yet I was still somewhat sober. I looked over at the door and saw Lilly walk in. “Lilly? What are you doing here?” I asked walking to her and giving her a hug. “Oh Sam invited me.” She said trying to hide a smile. “No way! You like Sam!” I yelled a little too loud. She shot me a death look and instantly I calmed down. “Sorry.” I said. “Ok yes, I do like Sam. But I don’t think he likes me back anyway.” She said. “I don’t know Lils don’t be so negative. Have some hope.” I said nudging her arm. We laughed together and then the front door opened again. My eyes widened at who it was. I stood there frozen all movement in my body had shut down. “Nash!” Both Jacks yelled coming into the room and bringing me out of my frozen state of mind. “What’s he doing here?” Lilly asked pulling me aside. “I don’t know. Cameron didn’t tell me he’d be here.” I said. “Why hello beautiful.” I heard Sam’s voice say behind me. I looked to see him standing next to Lilly and her cheeks flush red. I laughed to myself and then left the room. “Thanks for telling me Nash would be here you ass.” I said walking up behind Cameron. “Ally did you really think he wouldn’t be at one of my parties?” He laughed. I stayed silent realizing it was stupid of me to think Nash wouldn’t show up. “Oh look it’s little Hemmings.” His voice was ice cold and sent chills down my spine. I turned to meet his crystal blue eyes that were full of hate at the sight of me. “Oh look it’s the school player.” I said crossing my arms. “At least I have people who like me.” He said making me even more angry. The alcohol in my system didn’t help with that anger. I just tried to stay silent and ignored his comment “What is the little band girl speechless now? Can Ally not handle the truth?” He said again mocking me. I jumped forward to punch him but I was just pulled back by Cameron. Both Jacks stood in between me and Nash. “Ally chill. Come on lets go.” Cam said holding me back. I shook him off of me and then walked into the kitchen with him close behind. That was new. I’ve never tried to hit Nash before. I’ve never tried to hit anyone. Maybe Nash bullying me so much has finally gotten to me. Maybe he was changing my good girl image. I’m not sure that was a good thing.

A/N—Yikes Yikes Yikes Yikes Yikes! That’s all I gotta say. Hope you all liked this part. I decided to post another part today cause I felt like Part 7 was to short and boring. But this one’s got some more drama. What do you think gonna happen next between Nash and Ally? ;) The stories going to only get better from here on out!

Sway Recap – Part 2 (the show)

Here we go, part 2.   Part 1 is here: http://trocoloca.tumblr.com/post/92970526887/sway-recap-part-1-before-the-show

Before the show starts

My seats were so good.  Even the usher was like “oh, you have good seats!” and I did a Meryl Davis “yes” like after Maks said she could get away with petting her anytime.   I should point out that my shadow (now known as Teddy Volynets) is now in the theater and is walking all over the place.  Jeez, Teddy, you don’t have to beg!  I’m pretty easy when it comes to the Family C (Treddy, Traks, Tral, Trex, Trerge [whoops, can’t go with Serge due to emmerge]).  I didn’t see any celebrities (i.e. Jlo, Leah, Sherry S, Davis family, etc).   I saw Zendaya’s dad though.  He’s a BIG guy.   And walked around a bit and looked kind of serious.  

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I Hear You Now

Had to get this shit out of my system after 4x11. Valkubus one-shot. Not sure where this follows, I guess it’s something throughout S4


Bo had never thought that one day Tamsin would leave her, because the blonde had always been there. She was there when Kenzi was kidnapped. She was there for her Dawning invitation. She was in her bathtub, fully clothed.

Then, after Tamsin’s rebirth, she was like everywhere. Every time Bo walked down stairs in the middle of a sleepless night, Tamsin was there, passing out on the couch, leaving the TV on playing some lame action movie. Every time Bo came home, Tamsin was there, in the kitchen with Kenzi, cooking something, or rather, burning something. Every time when Bo wanted to lie down on the couch, Tamsin was there, combing hair and painting nails with Kenzi.

God I know I found you on the street and took you home, Kenz. I never signed up for raising a kid together. That was Bo’s thought, when she saw Kenzi yelling at Tamsin when she did something wrong, and the blonde just had her head lowered, looking guilty.

Sometimes Bo wasn’t sure why Tamsin could be such a hard ass in her previous life, yet so docile under Mama Kenzi’s wings. Sometimes she thought Tamsin might never grow back to that woman who twisted her arm behind her back and pushed her to the wall in the police station while she claimed that she was going to kick her ass that day.

The enmity between them were gone, after the Yule party, but not for long. When Bo heard that she told Lauren about their kiss in Brazenwood, right before the doctor broke up with her, she was shocked, pissed, and hurt. Then, she found out about Tamsin and Dyson, and that really hurt. It hurt so much, that she couldn’t even figure out how to deal with it.

One night, Bo exploded, when she saw Dyson drop her off at the shack, with her hair all messed up, her clothes carelessly unbuttoned, and she smelled like she had just robbed a liquor store. She couldn’t remember what she said that night, but whatever she had said, Tamsin didn’t even give a fuck. She just smirked at her, and told her to mind her own Rainer business. You don’t love him, you don’t get to have him, fair game, right? Me and him? Maybe we’ll get so drunk one day and pop out some wolf pups together, but why is that your business, Succubus? If you want to fuck him, take a number…well, I guess you can join us for a threesome. Surely he wouldn’t mind. That was what Tamsin said to her that night.

Bo found it strange, that she couldn’t even remember her own words that night, but she remembered every single word of Tamsin’s. She even remembered the Valkyrie’s shimmering, blue eyes, with tears welling up inside.

That night they argued. She slapped Tamsin, and Tamsin fought back. They got so loud, that they eventually woke drunk Kenzi up. Kenzi yelled at them, telling them to stop or she would just leave them forever. Then the Russian girl burst into tears in the middle of the living room, crying over her loss, Hale.

That exact moment, Bo felt everything in her life was falling apart, and she could never get them back, ever again. Feeling hurt and angry, she never spoke to Tamsin again.

And then, the big battle with her father came.


Waking up in her own bed, Bo found everyone standing there, looking at her. They seemed worried, and relieved, when she woke up.

Everyone was there, even Evony, Vex and Stella, but no Tamsin.

“Where’s emmm….where’s Tamsin?” Bo asked.

Everyone in the room sighed. Kenzi sat down on her bed, taking her hands in hers, and said, “Bo-bo, Tamsin’s…gone.”

“Oh.” Bo huffed out a light laugh, “She finally disappeared for good? God that’s great. I’m so tired of her shit…”

Kenzi took a deep breath, but even that didn’t stop her tears from falling. “No, Bo-bo.” She said, her voice shaking so hard that Bo could hardly understand her, “She’s gone. She died, during the…battle with…with your father and Rainer…” Then the Russian girl couldn’t help but cried out loud and fell onto Bo.

“Oh.” Bo said numbly. She watched Dyson turn around to hide his tears, and so did Trick. “Oh.” She repeated again. After a long pause, she said, “So when is she going to be reborn again? In a week? A month? Can’t be a whole year long, right? I mean-”

“Bo.” Trick interrupted her, “She won’t be reborn again. She was at her last life. Valkyries only get their wings in their last life. So…”

Trick didn’t finish his sentence, and Bo certainly didn’t need him to do so, because the rest of the conversation didn’t matter to her anymore. She just sat in her bed, watching Kenzi cry without saying another word.


Things went back to normal after everyone recovered from the battle. The dead were buried, and the living kept living. Bo went back to her old life, hunting for criminals in the day, and preys at night.

Bo thought things would just flow like that, until one day, she found the flash drive under Tamsin’s pillow, when she and Kenzi were cleaning the shack. Kenzi insisted that they should keep Tamsin’s room as is, like one day the blonde was just gonna walk through the door to claim that she was back. Bo thought it was stupid, and childish, because Tamsin would never come back, but after saying that in front of Kenzi for a couple of time before, she decided to keep it to herself, because every time she had said that, Kenzi became extremely upset.

That night, Bo put the flash drive on her laptop, after Kenzi went to bed. There was a video file on it, and Bo opened it.

After the first few seconds of shaking, fuzzy image, Bo realized that it was probably some video Tamsin took before she went on her finding-myself trip. Kids. Bo shook her head, but somehow, she couldn’t turn her eyes away, when she saw her face on screen, because it looked so vivid, and alive, like she had never left her.

At first it was some random stuff, self pep talk, things she was going to do during her trip, places she wanted to visit, her to-do list. Bo stared at her face, fascinated by how it looked exactly like the bad ass Tamsin, yet in a teenager spirit.

After talking and mumbling for a while, Tamsin stopped. She paced in her room in front of the camera nervously, like she was hesitantly about whether she should say something or not.

Eventually, the blonde turned back to face the camera again, taking deep breaths. “Ok. Here we go.” She said to herself in the video, “This shit gotta be on your to-do list girl. When you come back from the trip, you gotta tell Bo that you love her.”

Bo froze, when she heard those words coming out from those low quality speakers on her laptop. At first she thought she heard it wrong, so she replayed the last few seconds of the video.

“…gotta tell Bo that you love her.” Tamsin said. Then she circled around in the room anxiously while mumbling, “Oh no no no, that’s such a bad idea. It’s not like she’ll…she’ll love you back or something…‘cause she’s like perfect…and she has like Dyson, Lauren and…”

Bo covered her mouth with her hand and swallowed hard. She felt this lump in her throat, and she could hardly breathe. She didn’t hear the rest of it, because it was all nervous mumbling. Then suddenly Tamsin stood in front of the camera with a smile on her face, and said, “Be brave and be strong. Be a great Valkyrie. YOLO, right?”

Bo took a deep breath, and watch it again, then again, in the middle of the night, in  her bed, with that dim light coming from the laptop screen. Then she stopped replaying the video, and she just sat there, staring at the last image of it, where Tamsin looked so determined and happy, as if she was about to have a great life, with all the good things, and love, waiting for her in the future.

Love. That word suddenly squeezed Bo’s heart so hard, that she grabbed her laptop and threw it to the wall. The screen shattered, but Tamsin’s smile was still there, broken. Bo kicked it, smashed it on the floor, and broke it into pieces, but that smile was still there, in her mind.

Fuck! Fuck! Bo cursed, when she started to shake and her tears started to fall down. She ran to the bathroom to spray some cold water on her face, but the only thing she did was smashing her fist on the mirror over and over again when she saw her own face, till she stopped feeling the pain on her hand. She choked in tears, trying to hold them back, trying to hold her sobs back, trying to hold back that agonizing pain, and endless sorrow that was about to devour her, but she just couldn’t. She bit her bottom lip, weeping. She pressed her forehead against the broken mirror and closed her eyes in despair.

Trembling in anguish and devastation, Bo whispered,“I hear you Tamsin…I hear you now…I hear you now…I hear you now…”

She repeated the same thing, over and over again, in the bathroom, alone. Her voiced echoed in the room, reminding her how fucked up her life was.

Now she finally heard her, but she knew she heard her a long time ago. She heard her when Tamsin kissed her. She heard her when Tamsin took that bullet for her. She heard her every time Tamsin looked at her. She heard her that night when she invited her for threesome with Dyson with that smirk on her face and tears in her eyes.

But she just never listened, because she didn’t know how to deal with her. She had no idea how to deal with it. She never thought it would be a problem, because things would just play out on their own, as their future unfolded. So she stayed in silence, because she thought the Valkyrie would never leave her.

Until she lost her, until now.