everyone looks so happy with how much he bought it

Dear Charlie,

I just hope he’s happy now, Charlie. I’ve been having panic attacks since he left me. I saw his id yesterday and there’s a picture of the new girl in his life at the back pocket. I couldn’t breathe, Charlie. I left the classroom and cried so hard in the bathroom for 20 minutes. My hands were numb. My feet, too. I can’t move them. But I managed to walk outside the school. I bought a cheap blade. I can’t fucking look the vendor in the eye because my eyes were bloodshot red.

If only he knew how much it pains me seeing him with another girl. It pains me, Charlie. I don’t know if I’ll survive another year at the school. I wish I am dead. Soon. everyone will be more happy without me.

So much love
Ange

anonymous asked:

A miracle of christmas!! Maybe Spencer and the reader are destined to be together and the universe/ or christmas magic is trying to get them together. Just a look into each other eyes makes them realize that they are soul mates. Sorry that it's long.

All I Want for Christmas Is You

Contains: Fluff!

(OKAY SO IF WE’RE ALLOWED TO USE CHRISTMAS MAGIC, MY WRITING PLOTLINES ARE ENDLESS, SO DON’T JUDE ME FOR USING THE WHOLE SOULMATE/TiMER AU!)

Part 1/Part 2/Part 3/Part 4/ Part 5/ Part 6/ Part 7/ Part 8/ Part 9

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TiMERs. Spencer had a hard time understanding how they worked. Yes, for a ‘provable genius’ He did understand the mechanics and all that junk, but he didn’t really understand love.

These things were invented about a 10-8 years ago, and everyone wanted to get one. The TiMER prides itself on how now the were so popular, 200 people a day were meeting their soulmate.

Over the past few centuries, no one ever needed a TiMER to find their true love, but since the divorce rate became so high recently, people became frightened that true love didn’t exist.

Spencer sometimes likes to wonder why he had actually agreed to get the device. It was all Morgan’s idea- of course- but Morgan admitted, he was a little scared to get one all by himself. So Spencer had agreed, and was surprised to find out that he only had to wait a few months. Morgan would meet his soulmate in the next 2 years, so he was pretty happy.

Right now Spencer was at work, staring at the aforementioned device. Some people on the team decided not to have one, (Garcia, Rossi, and Blake.) JJ still wore hers as a reminder to Henry that the TiMER had brought her and Will together. Hotch had refused to get one, claiming Haley was his soulmate and he didn’t need any machine to tell him that. Even after her death, he still respected his wife.

But lately Spencer was acting nervous, hands clammy and stomach in knots. When he checked his TiMER that morning, he was surprised that he only had 3 days until he would meet his soulmate.

He had actually thought Meave was supposed to be his soulmate, but was surprised to learn that his TiMER was representing an actual living human. It couldn’t be her, he had watched her die.

Emotions did sometimes frighten the Doctor. If he felt so strongly for Meave that he thought she was his soulmate, how would he feel about his actual other half?

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When you woke up this morning, you almost screamed. Three days until you were to meet the person you would spend the rest of your life with. You couldn’t stopped smiling, even after everyone at work tried to calm you down, but in the end it was useless.  Most of them were with their soulmates, and if you asked them, they probably would tell you they were just as excited when it was within the Five-Day Range.

You could say you were a romantic.

For a long while your TiMER had been blank, you being one of those crazies who bought them within the first week they were sold. You were so excited as a teenager to get one, silly romantic thoughts filling your head. Oh how disappointed you were when you found out that it was blank.

Your father (who begrudgingly didn’t want to take you to get this- just forced by your mother) told you that since they were still relatively new that you shouldn’t be surprised that your soulmate didn’t have one.

That was 8 years ago.

So to say, you were so excited a few months ago when you were handing reports to your boss that your TiMER beeped, indicating that your countdown had finally begun. You had been so excited, you ran to hug your boss, squealing excitedly and almost making him spill his coffee. He was pretty sweet about it.

But told you to never do that again.

So for the next two days, you had tried to not continually freak out over the countdown, not wanting to go crazy, so you instead bury yourself into your work. Your boss was pretty happy about that.

When you woke up, your TiMER started counting down by hours. hours! You couldn’t believe it!

You had the day off today, and were wondering what you were going to be doing today. Continuing the recent tradition of burying yourself into your work, you decided to clean up your house a bit.

You had left out boxes from the Christmas decorations you put up, making your living room a cluttered mess. You huffed and returned them all to the basement, accepting the fact that you would have to do this again in a week when Christmas was over.

After that, you made yourself brunch, took a shower, put some make up on, and got dressed. Coming back downstairs, you realized there was one box you had left out. Picking it up, you were surprised to fins out that there was something inside.

It was a pair of skates! You had forgotten about those, a gift from your mom last year, knowing how much you loved to skate when you were a kid by the pond behind your parents house.

“I haven’t used these all year.’ You mumbled to yourself. “Maybe I should skate at the park today.” Maybe that was were you would meet him?

So it was a plan. You would come at six to your nearby park to skate. It just always seemed prettier that way, when the street lamps surrounding the pond would start to light up.

It would be perfect.

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Spencer seems to think that he should stop agreeing to things he doesn’t seem all that interested in. He was anxious all day, watching as every second that went by his TiMER was telling him that he was one second closer to meeting the love of his life.

So why did he agree with the team to all go ice skating?

He’s not bitter, just terrified out of his wits. For a man with an IQ of 187, he wasn’t prepared. No scientific fact could help him now.

He had bought a pair of skates today, never really having a pair due to the fact that he had never actually gone ice skating. Looking once more at his TiMER he felt his stomach sink. Only 30 minutes left.

He was the last one to arrive, the rest of the team waiting on him. When he approached, everyone crowded around to see how much time he had left. Everyone couldn’t be more happy for him.

Once everyone laced up, the whole team started out in groups so not to crowd one all altogether. Garcia wanted to try skating alone, so Spencer and Morgan grouped together and started slowly.

As Morgan drew him into conversation, he started to forget about the TiMER, although he was also focusing on not falling. The entire time the two men were skating, Morgan let Spencer take hold of his arm. That is until Morgan left him due to Garcia falling.

“Looks like Baby girl took a tumble. I’ll be right back.” And somehow Morgan slipped out of Spencer’s grasp, making Spencer fall in turn. Right on top of whoever was  behind him.

“I’m so sorry! This is my first time skating, and my friend just left, and I was using him as a support system so I ended up falling on you! And I- I’m rambling aren’t I? I’m sorry. Let me help you up.” Spencer turned to see you, your (h/c) hair sprawled out on the ice.

Beep Beep

Both of your TiMERs went off.

Your eyes, which had been closed due to the impact of your head hitting the ice, opened widely. Both of stared at each other for a moment with a million emotions crossing each others figures.

Spencer realized that what he felt for Meave compared to what he felt in that moment for you, were about the size of a crumb.

“H-hi.” You mumbled, accepting his hand which was frozen in place. He pulled you up, wrapping his arms around you once you were standing. “I finally found you.” You whispered, nuzzling your face into his chest.

Out of everything you asked for this Christmas, you never thought Santa would bring you your soulmate.

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(Wrote this just now, since my computer decided to be a douche. I think I’ll be able to get the second one out later tonight)

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okay so yesterday i saw troye sivan live for the first time ever and it was honestly one of the best concerts i’ve ever been to. i was already super exited for the concert since it was my birthday that day! me and my friends arrived at the venue around 10:30 and there were already about 20-30 people there waiting. so we got in line and a few hours later a girl we hung out with whilst waiting told us that troye would come outside in a few minutes to meet fans if there wasn’t that many - so we all got up and tried not to hurry and went to the tourbus and literally like one minute later troye appeared in a car and he got out and straight went to us and took the jacket me and my friends bought him and was like “you guys wanna take selfies????” and everyone was like DAMN YES and we made a line and there where literally only about 30 people there and i was so fucking nervous, my hands started shaking. then when it was my turn, troye hugged me and i hugged him haha, and i was like ‘its my brithday today!” (it was honestly so hard to speak because he looked so good was so nice and so real oh my god) and he was like ‘omg, happy birthday! how old are you?” and i was like ‘20′ and he said something like ‘thats so cool” and then i gave him the drawing i made him and he was so happy and thanked me and then my friend took three photos of us and i look like a freaking troll innit but he looks like a model i swear to god and then i thanked him and went to my friends and i was stil shaking so much andf so happy. then, about 7 p.m, we finally got inside the venue and it was honestly so pretty inside ahhh. about 15 minutes later the support act started and they were so frickin good, i absolutley loved them and the crowd was amazing because everyone cheered and screamed so much haha. then, finally around 8:15, troye and his band came on stage and everyone went absolutly nuts, he first played ‘bite’ and after that ‘for him’, which is probably my favourite song. when he finished the first 3 songs, he looked so happy and amazed by the crowd and said ‘i know artists and bands say this often but i really mean it; i’ve never had this much fun playing these three songs” (or something like that) and he just looked so happy all the time and talked about how he was vintage shopping that day and bought a turtle neck (which he was wearing) and he was sweating so much and then some fans threw a t-shirt on stage and he took off his jacket and turtle neck and put on the shirt!! another amazing moment was when he played ‘heaven’ (another favourite song of mine), everyone put up paper signs with rainbow hearts drawn on them (fans gave them other fans before the show) and the second he started playing the songs, literally everyone put up these hearts and he looked so godamn happy and my face hurt s much from smiling and i was so close to crying oh god. another thing that wa super cute was when troye asked if anyone in the crowd was on a date tonight or a couple and two guys in the crowd freaked out and screamed and troye noticed them and said something like ‘that’s so cute!!” and the crowd went nuts and then he started playing an acoustic version of ‘happy little pill’ and it was the most beautiful thing ever. he also played a cover of a amy winehouse and i swear to god his voice is so fucking beautiful, i can’t get over this. he also said we were his favourite show from this tour and that was so sweet. i also almost lost it when he played ‘lost boy’ because its such a good song and i felt like crying again. last but not least he played ‘youth’ and it was the best thing ever. i’m so happy that i got the chance to meet him & talk to him even though for only like five seconds - it was honestly the best birthday i’ve ever had. i can’t wait until i see him again, his music means so much to me and he’s such an talented artist and so fucking sweet and a wonderful human being. (i’m rambling hahaha). one of the best fucking days in my life

Dear Charlie,

I just hope he’s happy now, Charlie. I’ve been having panic attacks since he left me. I saw his id yesterday and there’s a picture of the new girl in his life at the back pocket. I couldn’t breathe, Charlie. I left the classroom and cried so hard in the bathroom for 20 minutes. My hands were numb. My feet, too. I can’t move them. But I managed to walk outside the school. I bought a cheap blade. I can’t fucking look the vendor in the eye because my eyes were bloodshot red.

If only he knew how much it pains me seeing him with another girl. It pains me, Charlie. I don’t know if I’ll survive another year at the school. I wish I am dead. Soon. everyone will be more happy without me.