everyone knows not to believe me

I really don’t take myself serious at all and it’s becoming a problem, I’m adult-passing and need to realize that the work I do and what I have to say might sometimes actually be valuable and not like complete utter nonsense/bullshit. I talk down on myself way too much and I’m really hard on myself.

But i also don’t know how to get rid of those thinking patterns.

I couldn’t take trying to take myself seriously seriously…….like what is she trying to do that little silly girl ???!!!

I also don’t seek approval by others by talking down on myself, approval by others never really helped me and I believe everyone is lying and or making secretly fun of me?!?!

Lmao like if you agree 😂

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCKING UTENA

I AM TURNING THIS CAR AROUND AND YOU DO NOT GET TO GO TO DISNEYLAND

God, Wakaba’s trying so hard to gloss over this, and be like, it’s nothing, but Utena just wants to dig into the wound a little further. Spoiler alert, Utena: Not everyone wants to give their obsessions complete control over their lives. Not everyone wants to follow every niggling idea or personal pain down to the root. Some people, when they say, ‘forget about it,’ mean it. 

I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU ARE DOING THIS TO YOUR BEST FRIEND. 

EVen assuming he does decide to do whatever with her, she’ll always know she was a second choice, what the fuck are you even doing

Please note I haven’t seen anything past this  and am watching spoiler free! Please don’t confirm, deny, or explain anything to me! Even if I should be able to figure it out based on past episodes! Even if it’s cultural! Even if there is no answer! It ruins it for everyone when I get spoiled!

To put it short, yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend because I wanted to help him get away from his abusive family, he started yelling at me, I got angry and slapped him (I know I’m an horrible person, I feel so ashamed of myself I want to kill myself since yesterday) and now his family is telling him it’s better this way because I’m violent and rude. 

I meant well but ended up doing a huge mess. Would it be better if I kill myself? How can I keep living while the one I love believes I’m a monster? 

Sorry to bother everyone, but I feel so bad.  

anonymous asked:

legit every time i read your posts i think 'wow i can't believe ki singlehandedly saved 2017' because i'm a memey brat and you're a goddamn angel so lovely and considerate how are you such a wonderful person. i've disliked almost everyone i know at one point or another but you. there is no way to not like you. teach me your secrets.

I don’t think meme and brat belong beside each other because memes get me through most days honestly and if you love memes, you are definitely not a brat! And, I struggle myself with being a positive person, but I’m working on it! So, I try to just be kind and positive because like you never know when someone just needs someone else to be kind to them, ya know? 

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I thank you for your messages. It is very nice to hear what you think about this blog and about my answers. However I feel uneasy discribing people on my blog as ‘fans’. I try my hardest to answer advice asks. I know how it is being young and in need of someone to listen to my problems. We all know that. We’ve been there. It’s always important to listen, to be there for each other. To reach out and try to help (even though it’s hard for me to see it as actual help, I wish there was more I could do). I am not seeing myself as a Psychiatrist. No one taught me anything. I act on my believes and perspectives. Wether this is good or not is up to everyone else to decide. I don’t ever think about it as something tiring or annoying. I choose to answer. I choose to be open about it. 

Again I thank you for sharing your thoughts. Have a great day and be safe. Blessed be

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These gifs are from yesterday- the last day I will have to see one of my closest friend’s baby for at least a year.

So if you wanted to know why i didn’t post yesterday this is it.
Today as I try to not to bawl,as i try to pretend there isn’t a hole in my heart, as i try to be positive, i know it will be a hard year. Not just for me, but his godmother (right) and especially his mother (middle).

It keeps getting harder and harder to run this blog alone. Every time i start to recover from one thing, another comes along. I dont believe i will ever be able to catch up, but I refuse to stop trying. I hope ya’ll can understand in this horrific time that I’m trying my best.

Sorry for being a downer, but this is so important to me. I appreciate everyone’s patience, and with time and help I hope to be able to take better care of this blog as well as myself.

Thank you.

anonymous asked:

I don't know if you have already answered, but what do you think of the indoctrination theory? Part of me wants to believe it since Shepard would survive the controversial endings, but I've heard it's been disapproved...

The indoctrination theory relies on the devs being clever and creating this second reading of ME3 on purpose. I don’t believe they’re capable of that.
No offense to them :D
But personally, I dislike it because it’s too tragic and in a way it makes me feel like it’s taking away something from Shepard or making their sacrifice seems all in vain. 

Now disapproved, I don’t know? A lot of people believe in it or find it intriguing. We rarely fight over it like we do with some topics, it’s just… You believe in it or you don’t, and that’s your prerogative. People who said it HAS to be true and it’s OBVIOUSLY a fact will probably have someone telling them that it’s not true for everyone. That’s about it. 

for insecure angels
  • your partner still loves you even when they are away.
  • your friends still loves you even when they are away.
  • they will sill love you even if they have other friends.
  • they weill still love you even if you are not okay.
  • they will still love you even if they don’t reply immediately.
  • they will still love you even if you don’t reply them immediately.
  • they will still love you even if they can’t talk in a exact moment.
  • they will still love you even they are not around you 24/7.
  • they will still love you even if you don’t love some things about yourself.

“they are not replying!”

MAYBE

  • they fell asleep.
  • they are busy.
  • they don’t feel okay to talk right now.
  • they had to immediately leave for some reason.
  • they are studying.
  • they are working.
  • they are practicing a hobby.
  • they forgot to reply by distraction.

THEY STILL LOVE YOU.

“they are distant!”

MAYBE

  • they are going through a hard time.
  • they are hurt by something you said or did (don’t get paranoid because of it, try to talk to them).
  • they are very busy with work or studies.
  • they are planning something good for you.

THEY STILL LOVE YOU.

“i made a mistake and hurt them.” you can always apologize! everyone makes mistakes.

“they made a mistake and hurt me.” tell your feelings to them.

“they will leave me, i know it.” check if it’s not your paranoid thoughts acting out and tell your feelings to them, we can’t be 100% sure if someone will abandon us.

“they have someone better in their lives.” i personally don’t believe in “someone better”, because we all have good and bad aspects, but it doesn’t even matter if they have someone better, because they are with you because they like you and not because of someone else or whatever.

“i’m not enough.” YOU ARE ENOUGH FOR THEM. THEY LOVE YOU.

“i’m ugly.” YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL FOR THEM. THEY LOVE YOU.

- Everything I said relates to healthy relationships only. I don’t support abusive relationships and please take care of yourself and look for help if you are being abused.

klance things that should happen esp after s3:

  • “I care about you a lot”
  • keith talking to some random stranger about lance and complimenting him like he did with him in beta traz while looking down fondly. “i have a…friend who always complains about my mullet. he’s a very good sharpshooter and also my right-hand man i don’t know what i would without him.” “you seem fond of him.” “I am.”
  • training session together where 50% of the stuff they do is flirting
  • another solo mission together where they fight back to back
  • they find an alternate reality where they’re together and this makes them think a lot about what they could be in theirs
  • lance starts wearing something red to match his new lion and keith tells him “you look good in my colors”
  • the team starts noticing lance flirts less than usual 
  • one of those clichè scenes where one character makes a decision that makes their loved one proud and has them looking softly at them
  • keith and lance offering to wingman for each other but ending up describing each other as their ideal partner while talking to someone “ofc you would like lance who wouldn’t he’s beautiful i mean what”
  • they’re facing off an enemy who’s making fun of them for not being strong enough and lance is lie “he’s strong!! he cradled me in his arms once!!” and keith deadass stops in the middle of the battle to shout “YOU REMEMBER”
  • holding! hands! in! battle! as! they’re! running! away! from! something!
  • “lance makes me happy”
  • a parallel of the shut your quiznak scene but this time lance is saying it fondly and keith laughs while saying “i still don’t think you’re using that correctly”
  • “he’s not my boyfriend!!” “but you want him to be”
  • lance making a cryptid joke for keith
  • lance leans in for an hug and keith blushes bc he thinks he was gonna kiss him
  • “well i do have a boyfriend!!!” *points at keith panicking*
  •  awkwardly asking each other out for a date in the pool but both make sure they don’t mention the word “date” at all
  • lance distracting keith during a plan exposition by putting his hand on his shoulder or on his own hand
  • keith sees that someone is trying to make lance feel bad and he’s furious and goes up to that person like “yo take that back immediately”
  • lance being slightly jealous of seeing someone talking to keith and masks it with an excuse like “i don’t want him to find someone before me cuz ya know…rivals” (no one believes that though) keith: lance i’m not with xx i just wanted to see if u were gonna confess
  • keith gets asked if he likes someone and he’s like “well there is someone…” *looks at lance while sighing*
  • they take a selfie with lance’s space phone. (bc duh, needs to happen)
  • keith looking fondly at lance while everyone else is looking at something else. “cute right?” keith, looking at lance: yeah “i’m not sure we’re talking about the same thing”
  • keith gifting lance with something and blushing while handing it to him. idc what it is it can be whatever and lance being almost speechless. “you got this…for me?”
  • keith: please be careful!! lance: always am!
  • keith to lance: man you are cuddly
  • lance: did i miss something pidge: oh just keith complaining about bonding moments lance: ok so nothing new then
  • keith telling lance “i’ve never met anyone like you” because i live for the clichè stuff dont judge
  • the classic “ we got stuck somewhere alone together and now we gotta talk about our feelings” kind of thing
  • lance showing off his bf once they’re dating “yep! i’m dating him!!!” 
  • more alone conversations where lance tells keith about his life as an uncle
  • hunk accidentally mentioning that lance had a crush on keith at the garrison.  “ like at the garrison you clearly like ke—” “KEN I LIKED KEN REMEMBER KEN?? AHHA GOOD OL’ GUY” “there was no one…named ken”
  • running after each other for something? because i’ve realized we’ve never seen that in canon and soft music is playing in the back
  • keith gifting lance with his bom blade once they’re together “i want you to have this”
  • an “i thought you were dead!” moment where keith kisses lance without hesitation and lance replies with “well i am know”
  • lance fingergunning at keith pls and thank u
  • the “fine” “fine” “fine” “FINE” thing when they get into arguments and they end up giving each other the silent treatment but it lasts like one minute and if it starts seriously, it ends jokingly
  • the pool scene becomes an inside joke like the bonding moment:  “we went to the pool together!!!!”  “keith you wanted to stay away from me??” “well you forgot our bonding moment!”“oh god not this again….”
  • a moment where they both turn at each other smirking and everybody is like “lol ur smiling at each other” and they’re like “no we’re not” but their mouths are still curved in a smile
  • they become very clingy with each other and don’t realize it until someone points it out
  • they swap clothes for one day and no one questions it. “they’re doing their thing as usual”
  • “are you hugging me?” “looks like i am” “thank you i needed that”
  • “when i said that I don’t hate you….i meant something else also”
  • can we uhhhh get mind-reading aliens that can sense their feelings for each other
  • “lets do this” and then they smile at each other
  • keith slipping that he likes lance in the middle of a very tough battle bc he doesnt know what will happen OR “if i dont make it…tell lance i love him”
  • keith at 2 am: hey pidge lance looked at me for more than one second today what do you think i should do
  • they try to make sure they always stand next to each other

I had someone ask me via message on where to start in regards to adopting an “unadoptable” dog, and we had a rather pleasant conversation, but I feel like something needs to be said in public on this blog due to my history of having owned such a creature.

Ethical shelters and rescues do not label dogs unadoptable for no reason, in nearly all cases. There is something about the dog that will determine it being an extremely poor fit for 99% of homes that would be interested, and typically that 1% would need to make tremendous amounts of sacrifice in order to successfully own them. As nice as it sounds- wanting to give a dog everyone else has given up on a home- ethical rescues and shelters have a responsibility to take care of ALL of the dogs in their care and to not endanger those they adopt to or the general public with their adoptions. Taking in unadoptable dogs and keeping them until that 1% person shows up takes vast amounts of money away from perfectly adoptable dogs and ends up killing the friendly, healthy, young dogs that are deemed “more likely to be adopted”. Don’t believe me?

Someone I know from dobermantalk stopped fostering for her rescue when they took in 2 heartworm positive senior beagles to foster from a high kill shelter and left the young healthy beagle that had been surrendered with the older pair. The “adoptable” dog never got a foster. He also never got adopted. When his time was up, he was euthanized. The older pair did not survive their heartworm treatment. Three dogs died because of a focus on unadoptable dogs. Who does that help?

About five years ago, a woman took in two seriously dog aggressive presa canarios to foster. What was left of her body was found several days after the fact- she had been torn to pieces. It was hard for the authorities to determine if the presas had done the deed or if her personal dogs, one “pit bull” bbm and one frenchie, had contributed, but they guessed that the presas, two intact males known for engaging in serious fights with other dogs, had begun to fight and redirected on her when she tried to break them up. Due to their size, they would have overwhelmed her quickly, especially if the other two dogs joined in the frenzy. From there it’s hard to tell what bites were inflicted post-mortum, when the dogs ran out of food and turned to the only available source of meat, and what bites caused her death. Reports from those who found her described the scene as a bloodbath. All four dogs were euthanized. Who does that help?

A small breed puppy mill rescue dog I personally knew, deemed unadoptable for her extreme fear issues, was taken in by a well meaning family member. In a very short amount of time, this family member had been bitten multiple times for offenses as minor as walking by the dog while she was sleeping. Eventually, the dog slipped her harness after spooking due to a loud noise, ran into the road, and was killed instantly by a car. Obliterated. In front of her owner. Who does that help?

Skoll was a dog that had been failed by everyone in his short life. He’d come from known abuse and had clear abandonment issues. He had terrible health and his fear of people and his learned behavior of biting to make the scary things go away were ingrained into him long before he came to me. I gave him a chance anyway, I couldn’t sit by and watch a young dog be killed for something that wasn’t his fault. He mauled me without provocation and I euthanized him two months into our time together. He should have been euthanized on take in- he had a long, long list of documented bites well before he ever came to me, though I didn’t know it at the time. Who does that help?

Instead of focusing on these unadoptable dogs, there is a better solution. If you want to feel like you’re making a difference, find an ethical rescue or shelter and foster! Transport! Volunteer your photography skills! Learn their temperament and health testing process and volunteer there too! Make goods to sell at fundraisers and auctions! Organize a community donation pool! There are so many things you can do for dogs in need that aren’t things that, more often than not, end up with the dog dying anyway. But wanting to adopt a dog labeled, for good reason, unadoptable? Especially if you are not experienced in intense or extreme issues, temperament or health wise, in dogs? You are asking for a lot of heartbreak.

Adopt the adoptable dogs. Accept that we cannot save every unwanted dog. Accept that not every unwanted dog SHOULD be saved. It’s not the dogs’ faults, but neither is it the public’s for not being able to deal with these sorts of issues.

An incomplete list of the different answers Andrew has given reporters when they have asked why he and his ex-teammate turned rival Neil wear matching armbands:

  • “Kevin’s marking his new exclusive court team with the armbands. So far we’re the only ones picked.”
  • “It only took a few months of knowing him to know he was going to be my mortal enemy, so I marked him with the armbands so everyone would know.”
  • “Neil Josten is a copycat piece of shit with no sense of personal style.”
  • “We’ve been together since university. We secretly live together. We own cats. It’s disgusting.”
  • “The armbands are how Wymack marked the worst troublemakers on his team. Neil was so awful no one managed to rank after him.”
  • “Neil lost a bet and has to wear those armbands for ten years.”
  • “They’re to hide our matching sleeve tattoos from a drunken night his freshman year.”
  • “I forgot about his birthday and had an extra pair lying around so I used them as a shitty present. He’s been wearing them for years. Pathetic.”
  • “What armbands? I have never seen him wear armbands.”
  • “Wymack marked his best players with them. What a shame his own son didn’t earn any. Kevin cried the day Neil got his.”
  • “Which one’s Neil again? Is he that really tall dealer? No? Then who am I thinking of?”
  • “Nicky gave us the same gifts every year because apparently ‘we are impossible to shop for’.”
  • “Wymack marked the players that smoke with armbands ‘as black as our lungs are going to turn’ to try to shame us into quitting.”
  • “They used to be friendship bracelets, but now they mark my burning hatred for him.”
  • “Neil Josten changes his appearance so suddenly and extremely, we had to mark him so we would recognize him when he showed up to practice. I guess he got used to wearing them.”
  • “Neil’s so pale if his arms see direct sunlight, he gets third degree burns. No one knows why. It’s just his arms. Doctors are stumped.”
  • “He stole them from me years ago and wears them at all times to taunt me. And so that I can’t steal them back.”
  • “He hides knives in them. He’s a real danger to himself and everyone around him. I can’t believe no one’s stopped him yet.”

No one fully believes any of the answers and they’re all taken as sarcastic.

anonymous asked:

Gabriel might be canonically alive, now. In the AU at least.

ALRIGHT

HA

I THINK

IN THE CURRENT SPN UNIVERSE

GABE IS JUST FINE. and this season’s finale put the final nail in the coffin for me

i was going to do a comic about it, but it could be too much to shove into a comic anyway. SO–in regards to this:

he was literally drilling into their heads “GUESS. WHAT. CAN. KILL. ME. THAT. I. TOTALLY. HAVE.”

i don’t think gabriel brought an actual “archangel blade” at all. we find out in hammer of the gods that there’s a specific blade that looks like an angel blade that can kill an archangel, and it was confirmed in s12′s finale that a regular angel blade doesn’t do much to an archangel. so whatever luci stabbed him with, wasn’t actually something that could hurt gabe

if you think gabriel can literally warp reality but couldn’t recreate an angel death, i need you to sit down and reread that

NOT ONLY THAT

but we also learned that lucifer apparently thinks, even without incredible showmanship, “if i stab it, it’s dead.” crowley, a DEMON, just a demon, was able to slip out of his body into a rat, with lucifer none the wiser. this wasn’t premeditated on crowley’s part. i firmly believe gabriel went in with a plan for the worst

so when sam and dean watched the porn gabe gave them:

i FIRMLY believe this was actually gabriel that they were watching. he was alive. right there. and he just wanted an easy out of the drama. he never had the plan to be caught, he just got heated in changing channels and realized he was going to back himself into a corner if he stayed in the game. which is ALSO why i think this stunt was pulled in meta fiction:

this is genuinely just something he can do. and metatron had, more or less, the power of god. he probably suspected the same thing i did when he read chuck’s work. so metatron literally made gabriel pitch to cas what gabe was afraid would happen to him. he didn’t want to lead armies or head rallies. he wanted to spend the rest of eternity fucking with humans

ALSO. FROM THE FINALE. dean says to luci something along the lines of, “…so you’re just going to go around smashing all of his toys?” which,

and at the beginning of the season, cas crashes into the Mystery Spot sign.

so while he is alive in other universes, sure, i think he’s still just fine in this one. if anything, he’s the one archangel that chuck actually respected, just by leaving him alone. but with the new devil baby i think something might snap

viruskit said:

I have no idea if this was already theorized but do you think the Scooby Doo episode will happen cause Gabriel came back to fuck shit up? Cause high and low key I’m hoping that happens

with rich being on set so much, it wouldn’t surprise me if this was the case! if this is what happens, they’ll think Oh They’re None The Wiser because of all of rich’s directing spots, both now and in the future. otherwise, it might just be a weird fever dream MOTW ep. FINGERS CROSSED, THO

Is it a boxer? Is it a runner? No! It’s Jung Jaehyun!

There is nothing you can say to make me think that this boy is evil, nothing. Being raised with certain ideals, believing in your parents, trusting in those that are supposedly older and wiser than you is what everyone’s been taught to do.
Draco Malfoy trusted his family, to him he was always on the right side of the war, until the end when he thought maybe these adults don’t actually know what they’re doing. He trusted the people around him, that’s exactly what he was supposed to do.
And don’t compare him to Sirius because Sirius was brought to the light because his family was cruel. They hurt him, they abused him, he had the positive influence of the potters so he had an escape.
Draco’s parents never hurt him they loved him so much that they spoiled him rotten. They loved him and tried to protect him, to Draco these people. The people who raised him were good people. They were kind to him, they valued him. How could people he loved so much be evil?
Then after all this he learns for himself that his parents are wrong. The people he thought were heroes have failed him, and he has to put his trust in a boy he’s hated for 7 years. And he does, ever so slightly he does, he tries to be better. He sees that his family is wrong and he saves Harry’s life. And as soon as he starts realizing this an evil mad man moves int his house, threatens that same family who’s only ever done right by him. He had no choice
Draco Malfoy was a spoiled brat don’t get me wrong, but he wasn’t evil. He was a child, a victim of circumstance, and a product of his society. But he was not evil.
DRACO MALFOY WAS NOT EVIL

SOMEONE TELL TAYLOR THAT EVEN THOUGH THEY BROUGHT THE OLD HER DOWN SHE’S STILL ALLOWED TO BELIEVE IN LOVE AND WANT TO BE HAPPY AND BELIEVE IN FAIRYTALES AND SHE’S STILL ALLOWED TO LOVE SPARKLY DRESSES AND SHE’S STILL ALLOWED TO DANCE LIKE NOBODYS WATCHING I KNOW THIS IS NAIVE BECAUSE EVERYONE HATED HER BUT I DIDNT HATE HER I LOVED HER I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER AND IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING MAD SEEING MY CUTE LITTLE BABIES IN THAT VIDEO BECAUSE THEY JUST WANTED TO SHARE THEIR STORIES AND WRITE SONGS THEY DIDNT KNOW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN TO THEM

my tablet was broken for like a week but! im back! and i drew nina as a princess because thats basically what she is already

also! i tried to record this as a speedpaint and i kinda messed up but you can watch it here if you’d like !

anonymous asked:

I've been drawing for nine years now and have gotten considerably better since I started, but I find myself still struggling to get things right like facial features, bodies, and, my biggest problem, hands. This coming Spring I'm going to college for animation and illustration, but I just struggle so much that it makes me wonder how I could ever be successful in that area. I really want to do this, but I lack in many resources (I have a box of old crayolas and all of digital art is done on (1)

Don‘t worry, everyone struggles at first, mostly if you’re self-taught. I’m sure at college they’ll teach you the basics of drawing again before starting with more specific stuff (at least that’s how it worked at the school of comics)
But if you want to know some basic exercises I was given for human bodies and facial features, here there are:

the first thing to do is simplify figures, instead of starting drawing the body with anatomy right away, think of it as geometrical shapes put together


For the head there are these structures that might help you

For the hands, believe me, even the most expert artist on the earth has difficulties in drawing them.
But as the other parts, it helps to make a geometrical structure before

I do this

I’m not really that good at drawing hands but that’s the principle of it.

As exercise for human bodies and gestures, photos of athletes are really useful,

study their gesture drawing mannequins over photos

You can do the same exercise for faces and hands.


KEEP IN MIND THAT THESE ARE EXCERCISE TO DRAW REALISTIC BODIES.
STYLE COMES AFTER.
You can take all these “shortcuts” and modify the proportions to have the type of figure you want.


As for the equipment, I think if you want to go for animation you need at least a computer and a drawing tablet… For traditional illustrations you can use anything really

I realize Lance is one of those “glue” friends

You know the ones that tie the whole group together and get everyone talking but when they’re not there it’s more or less awkward and no one talks because you don’t know each other well enough to actually initiate a conversation with that person so you all just sit there and just…stagnate until the glue friend comes back to bring back peace and familiarity.

Things I want from season 4:

- flashbacks to the first time lance saw keith fly a stimulator in garrison and how he was totally in awe
- keith commenting on something lance did in garrison and everyone including lance who is smirking know that he did infact remember lance
- the team plans to do something fun and keith is being a loner but lance notices him making him to join them
- shiro (the real shiro) spends some time with lance and hunk because my boys deserve some attention too!
- lance notices kuron is not shiro and he tries to tell the team but they don’t believe him specially keith. So he and keith break into a fight and lance says something like ‘so you only listen to me when shiro’s not around?! I’m only good as a replacement?!’ (because I live for the langst)
- lance and pidge teasing each other like siblings
- more interactions between lotor ( he is such an interesting character) and the team, extra points if he tries to get in their heads using their insecurities trying to break them (again langst!)
- more scenes with lotor’s generals because holy shit squad goals
- I’m just a boy from Cuba (seriously dream works give me all the langst)