everyone just ignore me now

Living with anger issues I can’t work on
  • I get angry at technology A LOT
  • When people tell me how to feel the only thing i feel is ANGER
  • I’m not gonna calm down because your voice is whispered and kind
  • i’m still angry
  • there are some days where i don’t want to here a single person’s voice.
  • if you try to tell me something you found on the internet i will get extremely impatient
  • i fucking hate when i’m being so unfair but i don’t know how to not be unfair
  • I GET REALLY CONTROLLING 
  • TELLING ME TO STOP BEING SUCH A BABY MAGNIFIES MY ANGER
  • there are sometimes i really want to cry but i can’t because I’M ANGRY. 
  • I am a total ass to everyone and everything 
  • i’m a pacifist but even i wanna throw a bag of bricks at your face when you tell me how i’m supposed to react

anonymous asked:

stop trying to play this off as a joke or "take my feelings into consideration" if I were to private message you, you wouldn't even answer. You say you're so positive and you welcome anyone to talk to you but you'd rather talk to more popular blogs than anyone else. You're just like all the other "elite" blogs. You're not special.

Woah woah woah, okay.
If anyone has ever sent me a private message here on Tumblr, I have answered it in some way shape or form. I have never ignored any “hi"s or "hey, I hope I’m not bothering you!"s. Yes, I’m not good at making conversation so easily on here, but i have never purposely ignored ANYONE, let alone because of their type of blog or -god forbid-, their popularity. Many of the "more popular” blogs I haven’t even talked to privately before anyways(I’m just shy about talking to anybody, really). If anyone has ever sent me a private message and I have not answered, then I never recieved it. I have no problems talking to anyone, and if anything, id encourage sending messages. As well as that, I am not an “elite”. To me, elites don’t exist. We’re all on here -at least dnp blog wise- because we like Dan and Phil. Some blogs may have been here longer, or just have more followers because they’re funny or nice. There is nothing wrong with that, and I have never once thought that u shouldn’t talk to someone because of their follower count or what kind of blog they run. You can run whatever blog you want, because this is a democratized platform.
I’m sorry I made what you sent as a joke at first, but I seriously thought it was. I asked what was wrong because I am a human being and I am compassionate and I don’t want you to feel upset. If you don’t like my blog, unfollow me. The thing about these social media websites is that you can unfollow someone if you don’t want to see their content. You can even block me if you want, but you don’t need to send me hateful things.
Please, have a nice drink and listen to some of your favorite music, or watch a video you really like. I hope you have a better day.

sebbucky  asked:

the latest gif of chris chECKING OUT SEB you know he's thinking imma break me off a piece of that after these press interviews tonight oh ho ho ho yes i am. omg boy does not know the meaning of subtlety.

Chris both wants this press tour to never end, and needs to be done with it already.

He wants it to go on forever because spending so much time with one of his best friends, and also with the guy he’s totally not had a crush on for years now, is pretty awesome.

He needs it to be over because he’s absolutely sure Sebastian’s going to find out about his not-crush soon if they keep this up.

He’s trying not to be too obvious. He is.

It’s not his fault that the interviewers and the fans keep asking all these questions, that Mackie keeps making so many not-quite-subtle remarks… That Sebastian’s gotten over his adorably shy and overly-deferential phase and has turned into such an asshole.

A gorgeous, funny, incredibly sweet asshole that’s also both the biggest dork in existence and the most stunning guy Chris has ever met. It should be illegal to be so… so everything.

He is trying not to be too obvious, and failing spectacularly. Chris doesn’t even need Mackie’s confirmation to be sure of this, he can see it himself whenever he rewatches that day’s interviews or listens to his own answers.

Sebby. ‘There he is! Right here, I got you!’. The way he’d involuntarily wrapped his arm tighter around Seb’s neck the moment he’d ended the hug, his body acting on instinc, chasing his warmth. The thing with the goddamn spider, honestly Chris? Why not just tell everyone exactly what you’d been fantasizing about while ogling Seb’s thighs?. And he knows that whenever he looks at Seb his eyes speak volumes.

So yes, he really needs this to be over asap.

But, because life apparently is a bitch like that, the interviewer just had to ask Sebastian that question about their quirks and mannerisms, and fucking hell

Yes, Chris has noticed. Boy, has he noticed.

It’s pretty much impossible not to notice Sebastian’s mouth.

The way lips part slightly and he tips his head back a bit as he gathers his thoughts. The way he smirks, driving Chris completely nuts. The way he worries at his bottom lip. The way he pushes his tongue into his cheek. The way the tip of his tongue comes out to wet them, seemingly without him even realizing, and God does Chris want to suck that tongue into his own mouth and claim Seb’s bottom lip for himself until it’s shiny with spit and red and swollen, to drag his teeth across that glorious jaw, to watch those lips stretched wide around his–

“Chris?” Sebastian’s question and worried tone brings him back down to Earth.

Oh.

They’re in some dressing room, waiting for Mackie and Joe’s part of the interview to be over. And Chris could’ve sworn there were more people here with them a moment ago but now they’re alone somehow and Sebastian’s sitting right next to him on the couch and he’s been staring unabashedly at his mouth for the past 5 minutes.

Oh fuck. He looks away and clears his throat.

“Y-Yes?” perfect, Chris. Sebastian’s brow furrows.

“Everything ok?” he asks, raising a hand to his shoulder. Touches, reassurance. Because of course he knows that those things help when Chris’ brain gets too loud. Because he’s perfect.

And Chris wants to answer, to tell him he is, indeed, ok, but then Sebastian’s doing the thing, and his brain just short-circuits.

“You’re doing it again,” he blurts before he can stop himself.

Sebastian stares confusedly at him for a few seconds, and then there’s realization in his eyes and a blush creeping up his neck. “Oh…” he says, and stops.

His blush is nothing compared to the shade of red Chris has got going on right now. “Fuck, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean–It’s ok you know? You can do it, it’s cute.”

And that right there? That’s exactly the reason why he needed this press tour to end.

Because Sebastian might’ve not realized–or minded–until now, but that? That was definitely crossing a line, and Sebastian’s not an idiot, and Chris can just feel the world crumbling beneath his feet, the panic creeping in and clutching at his heart. He needs to say something, do something, but it’s like the air has left his lungs, and as much as he wants to get up and run he can’t. fucking. move.

And then he freezes all over again, but for an entirely different reason.

Because Sebastian, wonderful and perfect and incredible, smirks, says: “Guess I like to keep my mouth busy,” and gives him a jab in the ribs.

Chris sits there speechless and gaping at him for 2 minutes. And then cracks up. And then grabs Sebastian’s left boob because that’s a thing he does and he’s not really thinking, doesn’t even realize he’s doing it until Sebastian is resting his own hand on top of his.

“You’re doing it again, too” he tells him, smiling fondly. Chris smiles back.

“Yeah well… I like to keep my hands busy,” he says, and winks at him. 

And Sebastian laughs. And Chris, who’s greedy and still not thinking and who absolutely doesn’t deserve this man but still keeps asking for more, leans in. 

Sebastian does too.

Trying to stop himself from staring at or even just thinking about Seb’s mouth after having tasted him proves itself to be impossible. But it’s ok, because Chris no longer needs this press tour to be over soon.

Okay but can we talk about how just overwhelmingly sweet and nice and giving shay is like first she is just this great supportive shoulder for cosima then she like completely let’s cosima just like hang out at her place with no question then being the little sweetie pie she is leaves her own room to give delphine and coisma alone time in her own apartment then let’s cosima borrow her own car to see Alison…not to mention she let’s coisma just casually take a bath in her living room…then when she finds out cosima’s sick just listens quietly while gently pouring water on her and then when that thing happens at the end doesn’t freak out but holds her and supports her no question asked like she is literally an angelic ray of holistic sunshine. Just how can one person be so giving and perfect like how even what the doodle! Holy holistic hearteyes!

Headcanon that Sam actually plays the cello and that’s why she has such excellent upper body strength and listens to Bach’s cello suite no. 1 while taking a friggin 3 hour bath (Because her muscles are really sore from practicing).