She flinched when he reached out to push her hair back from her forehead, feeling shame creep up her neck the second her body reacted this instinctively, caving in like a house of cards. She hadn’t meant to pull away, not consciously, not so violently that he noticed. Pain flashed in his eyes. It was something that kept happening and was completely out of her hands, like every part of her body knew to withdraw at his touch, even though her brain, her rationality, told her not to. And she shouldn’t have, because her brain also told her that he was where she felt safe, that he was home.
“What is it?” He was careful, afraid that she wouldn’t want to talk about it, that she would grab her coat and walk out the door without explanation like she so often did when she got upset. Her mind was pure chaos, her head was throbbing painfully. The urge to leave, to run from the situation, made her legs itch and her heart pound faster.
“I-” The words wouldn’t come. She’d never voiced them, never said what fear had been buried inside her for so long. The right to know was his, as was the attempt to finally understand her. So she spoke.
“I feel so incredibly selfish.” It wasn’t what he’d expected at all, she could see that. His brown eyes were wide, his gaze questoning. “I need time. I always need a lot of fucking time to let someone in.”
“I know that.”
“I’ve been hurt in the past.”
“I know-”
“But I know it doesn’t give me an excuse to act like I do. To run from you when things get hard or when you get too close and to be so goddamn unapproachable. Everyone’s been hurt before, everyone’s heart’s been broken at least once and I feel so egoistic to wrap myself in my sadness and use it as an excuse when it’s not.” He waited for her to nod when he reached out again and when she allowed his touch, his fingers entwined with hers. She exhaled with a deep sigh.
“I just don’t think it’s fair of me to always say I’ve been hurt when others have it worse. I don’t think you should be the one that has to endure my moods.”
“But I love you. You’re scared and that’s okay. We have all the time in the world if you want to take things slow. Besides, what does it matter that other people have it worse, as you said? You have the right to remember and to cry and to complain. You have the right to take your time to heal. There is no shame in admitting that you don’t feel ready to open up again.” She glanced up at him with teary eyes and squeezed his hand.
“The pain we feel doesn’t get better or worse if we compare it to other people’s pain, remember that.”
—  excerpt
Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don’t blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being in love, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
—  Louis de Bernières, Captain Corelli’s Mandolin
Tiny psa

Since I’m spamming y'all right now anyway

Some of you might have noticed already - I am not going by yvie anymore.

I haven’t felt comfortable with the name for a while now - for personal reasons.
It’s closely connected to a friend I’ve lost and it’s been time for me to move on for a while now.

After some back and forth and trying a few different things I’ve decided to go by Lucian.
I’d appreciate it greatly if you use that name while addressing me in the future, even though I know it may be a bit strange that I decided to change after so many years of being Yvie.
It would make me a whole lot more comfortable to let that name go, forever.

Thank you. 💙

Losing your virginity to Merle Dixon would include :

(Wooowooo more virginity prompts!! YASSS MERLE XD Hope it is as requested and you all like it :D Gif not mine/found it on google/credit to the original owner.)

-Him calling you “Baby girl” to relax you and assuring you that he loves you

-Him groping every part of your body he knows that it would make you weak

-Him being eager and undressing you quite quickly telling you he can’t wait to see that beautiful body of yours

-Him kissing you roughly and slowly only to start trailing down your neck and collarbone

-Him talking dirty to you and looking into your eyes while going down on you

-Him knowing how to tease your clit right and making you moan loudly and breathless

-You holding onto his back and shoulders tightly from the pleasure he’s giving you

-Him holding himself back from just going wild at you the instant he enters you

-Him whispering to you apologies for hurting you in that moment but still acting cocky about it

-You leaving scratches on his back and him being all proud about it 

anonymous asked:

Is it me or are you just a master at obtaining my heart and stabbing it? XD its ok tho it's always worth it

And end you love it =)

Every body love to see someone (video game movie tv show anime…atc) get hurt XD

He didn’t love her, but rather every single thing that she was made of. There wasn’t a single cell in her body he wasn’t infatuated with. Her crooked teeth, her dark brown -almost black- hair that she hated, even the light freckles that dusted every inch of her body. He memorized every little detail about her. She was the sun, the sky, and the moon to him. She was everything.
—  Kiannah Joylinn

anonymous asked:

Just imagine that Kara does keep the red and she becomes more of an anti hero. She promises Lena she won't kill anyone, tho she rolled her eyes and whispered about unless they're really annoying. But she gives them all a hell of a beating. Kinda takes batman's motto: I won't kill them, but I will break every bone in their body if I have to.

Oh totally. Red Kara would grudgingly promise not to kill anyone, eye rolls included (her sister makes her swear to it twice). But one time she’s this close to snapping a guy’s neck because he tried going after Lena and it’s only the look on Lena’s face that makes her release her grip on his throat and step back.

My gf and I give each other like 30 min back massages p much every night and my body feels so much better than it used to. My back hurts less and I’ve literally gotten kind of ripped just by doing so many massages


The undersized Nov found himself way off from his hiding spot, panting as he rubbed up against every tree and rock. His heat was driving him crazy, his scent was all he could smell. Sweet and tasty, his heat marks were so bright and solid. Every inch of his body ached for touch, his core was boiling with need.

He hardly had any fight left to get those males and females made horny by his scent to back off. Just to try to keep others from touching him, fighting with what little thought he had left against his need.

Aster gave a whine as he kept with his panting, he’d very much ruined what clothes he’d managed to wear. That being only a sweater. A very tattered and ratty sweater, hanging from his curvy frame seeming to cling to him in places.

Gripping to his only thought, don’t get touched just claw at the others. Though that thought was practically drowning to his heat.  

hufflepuffheadmistress  asked:

if you ever want to procrastinate on netflix like i do, i would suggest binge watching how i met your mother, the office, haters back off, or friends! they're all super funny and usually i can even have it on in the background while i'm doing homework. or if you like a really good drama show to get invested in, i love grey's anatomy, white collar, orange is the new black, once upon a time, and switched at birth! good luck on your finals and i hope i maybe helped you discover a new show!

Aw thank you! Lol you named most of my favorite shows :P

I watched all of HIMYM last year, Friends over the summer and now I’m binging The Office! And I’m all up to date with OITNB and OUAT! :D I used to watch Grey’s Anatomy all the time but had to stop after they pretty much killed every body… I’m going to check out White Collar! If you haven’t seen any of the Black Mirror episodes, I recommended that. Some of them are a little fucked up and mess with your head, but I’m into that hahaha. I’ve only seen the 3rd season and I think episode 1 was the best. Thanks again!

I’m just craving slow, intimate sex. I want to discover and rediscover every part of your body over and over and over again. I want to kiss you so that I can feel every part of your lips interacting with mine and I can feel your breath stop mid kiss and I can feel your hands pulling and tugging and feeling as much of me as you can. I want to slowly kiss every single part of you that I possibly can and feel your heart beat speed up and slow down. I want to see that look in your eyes of want and love so intensely piercing into mine that I can feel my heart slipping into yours with every inch of our bodies touching. Please.

if you see this post try to do any of these right now
  • drink a glass of water
  • put on chapstick/lip balm
  • clip/file/paint your nails
  • take three deep breaths
  • put on fuzzy/comfortable pants
  • say something outloud that you’ve been thinking
  • look up pictures of dogs or cats (or any animal you like basically)
  • walk around your house
  • go outside (if you can) and look for plants/flowers
  • take pictures of said plants/flowers
  • stretch your arms
  • if you’re sad try to smile as big as you can and take a picture of it
  • cheer up
  • it will be okay