I don’t want to be angry anymore. I want to be calm. I want to stop hurting people and blowing up all the time. I hate myself for it. It’s straining my relationship. It’s made my mom cry. I just lose it and blow up on anyone that’s near me when I’m mad and I know it isn’t fair but I feel like I can’t control it, and every time I go off I just get more angry at myself and it makes it worse. My anger is out of control and I don’t know how to fix it. I feel like the worst piece of shit.
have you ever had one of those situations where you’re attracted to a person and they’re attracted to you and you both know it but you’re both so awkward that it still takes a bit of alcohol for stuff to happen
1) Another Shadowhunters snark? Fuck me UP!! 2) I don't have the words for it right now, it's been a long day, but I wanted to show my appreciation for how you dealt with that TERF. It was beautiful and you're fantastic. My own gender is weird and nebulous and I don't really know what to go with at the moment but I don't really have any dysphoria 98% percent of the time. I'd never heard of the idea of gender euphoria but it's amazing and I am so on board with that.
1) I’m trying (and currently still on schedule) to catch up with Season 2B by the time it airs in a couple weeks, so…yeah, another Shadowhunters snark. They’ll keep coming.
2) Thank you! I’ll admit it’s the first time I’ve had to engage one directly, so I wasn’t entirely sure what I’m doing, but I guess every voice counts, so I’m glad I could add mine to the pile.
Season 3 aka Pain aka Puberty aka The season they burnt everything they built to the fucking ground
Now we are on the home stretch, I think it is time that we admit that this was never going to be a season that we were going to like. This is the awkward transition period, hell, you might as well call this Arrow’s puberty. We getting a lot of things we don’t fucking want but in the future, we may look back and realized that we needed.
For me, this season will always be known as the season that they burnt everything they built to the ground. When they destroyed everything that we have come to love about Arrow because they wanted to give us something better. Whether they succeed, that can only be answered after the finale. But they want to give us something else, they want to give us a new dynamic, a better dynamic.
They had to take away the possibility of Oliver going back to being the Arrow, they had to take away his safety net. They had to force him to go forward, they had to give him no choice of going back. They had to burn his comfort zone to the fucking ground, with fire, brimstone and lava, to get him to step away from it. If there is anything we know about that boy is that he is stubborn as fuck and he doesn’t take risks unless he is forced to. He is not a coward because when he takes risks, it is not him that suffers, it is the people around him, the people he loves and cares about that suffer.
Being protective is how he loves, it makes it rather easily for you to strike out at him, that is why both Slade and Ra’s attacked those close to Oliver and never Oliver directly. There is a reason why his almost death really had no effect on him or his behaviour. In “Sara”, he already realized that he was going to die and he was going to die because he was the Arrow. Death was never a surprise for him, it was never something he feared, it was something he accepted. To do what he does, you got to come to terms with the fact that you may not come back alive.
Another thing we have to keep in mind is that they are writing a five year story (well, ten years, if you choose to acknowledge the flashbacks that are running concurrently) and the 3rd season is the mid point. We are basically at the point in the flashbacks where I believe that we are going to find out when Oliver started to shut down his humanity to become the machine we met in the pilot. We also need to understand that when Emily made Stephen break character and they started to rewrite the story, shit got put on hold, pushed back, shifted to the side and I would not surprised if some things got cancelled. They need to get back on track and this was the season they had to get shit done and get everything set for the last two seasons of their five season plan.
This season was painful, awkward and tested your patience. We have Felicity with another man for the majority of the season, despite the fact that they fucking pimped Olicity during the hiatus. As much as I hate to say this, it was necessary. Felicity (and the audience) needed to understand that she had other choices and even if she found a man who was practically made for her, in comparison to Oliver, he will still be lacking.
As for the team (Oliver, Diggle, Felicity), that needed to be broken down and broken up. Several of us have remarked on numerous occasions that they should stop letting Oliver make decisions. Unfortunately, in their present state, Oliver is the leader and they are junior partners in this thing. They need to be broken to the point that when they do reform the team it will be a true team, where everyone is on equal footing, where every voice counts, where Oliver can’t make unilateral decisions and Diggle and Felicity have to go along with it. Basically, they have to destroy it to give us something better. We are already getting it, they no longer defer to him even if they don’t agree.
So I am withholding my judgement of this season until the finale and my final say will come when I see what happens in Season 4 because some seasons are not appreciated until they are firmly in the past and the pain is not so fresh. Be it the deaths, broken relationships, broken trust and the secrets reveals, some things you just need distance from.
All I want to do this morning is reblog everything Ferguson related but you’ve all seen them and reblogged them and you know what’s going on. It’s kind of a helpless feeling to watch this from afar. The only thing we can do from here is make our voices heard, make sure the world knows what is happening, make sure the people of Ferguson know we are out here supporting them. Be outraged. Be angry. Maybe our voices will reach people who want to know they have our support, maybe our voices will be so loud that someone in charge will do something about it. And even when it’s over and everyone disperses and the guns and tanks are withdrawn, keep talking about it, because it won’t be the last time it happens. This is our problem. All of us. Systemic racism is our problem. A police state is our problem. This is our country, and it’s happening here and it’s not right. I want to do something and the only thing I feel I can do right now is raise my voice, even if that voice is just me shouting on twitter and tumblr. This is all unfolding on social media anyhow, it’s certainly not unfolding on the nightly news, where the story is but a sideline. Every voice counts. Someone will hear us.
I feel sort of the like the Whos in Horton Hears a Who. “We are here, we are here.” Someone will hear us. Keep shouting.