every single one of those gifs made my heart skip a beat

DAYDREAM

Kai Parker x Reader
word count
: 2 630
summary :Reader has a crush on Kai , and Kai has some feelings for her but he doesn’t understand what they are and later on he finds out Reader is different than any other girl he has ever set eyes on.
*gif by  christopherwooddaily
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It was just another ordinary day in Mystic Falls. Almost. Lilly Salvatore’s heretics were out of the 1903 Prison World and Malachai Parker , the first guy Y/N ever had a crush on was now one of them - a vampire witch hybrid. Life had gotten a lot more complicated for her and her friends the past few years. Even though the people closest to her didn’t like Kai , she did. There was something about him - the way he walked , the way he talked. He was always a little nicer to her even before the merge with his brother Luke , which of course made her fall for him even more.
Y/N was one of the few humans left in the Mystic Falls gang along with Matt and sometimes that felt incredible - to be the only one who actually has the chance at a real future with kids and everything. A chance at a normal life. Others it was torture because as a human she always got caught in the crossfire.
Around lunch time she headed for the town square. It was sunny and warm , the bluer than usual with not a single cloud unless the thin clouds looking like a stroke of a brush on the sky. Y/N loved those clouds - it was as if someone was using the sky as a canvas to draw. She sat on one of the benches with her scketch pad , a pencil and a rubber. Her hands swiftly moving the graffit across the page drawing the monument a few meters away. Drawing always helped her clear her mind , to focus and put things in perspective.
At the wedding a few weeks ago , she had seen Kai die but also she had seen him come back to life and turn into what he was right now. The blast had sent her flying towards one of the walls , glass pieces puncturing her skin. There were no vampires around , only Kai and his family up until the point they had all died.

After Kai had fed and completed the transition , he headed towards the exit , a grin on his face looking at all the mayhem he had created. Y/N’s mind had been fuzzy from the blood loss and he throbbing headache in her head , but she remembered clearly Kai walking towards her , kneeling in front of her. His grin was still on his face , but his eyes betrayed him. There was hurt in them , tears filling them and fast.
“Ohh … ” he said mockingly. “Did your precious friends ditch you here to die ? I thought they cared more about you , seeing how every time I was around they always dragged you away from me and now … here we are. You and me. Alone … sort of.”
“P-please … just … l-let me die in p-peace.” she mummbled weakly. However nice he had been to her , she didn’t think he’d save her after what he had done. She hoped he would , she wanted him to and maybe that’s why she had said to let her die. Because he always tended to do the opposite.
Kai reached for the pieces of glass puncturing her stomach , the one in her leg and pulled them out only then noticing there was a piece in her shoulder too.
“You weren’t supposed to get in the crossfire Y/N.” he said biting his wrist and bringing it to her lips. “I am not going to let you die. You are the closest thing to a friend I’ve got. What kind of a friend would I be if I let you bleed out ?”
He caressed her cheek , pushing up her dress a little to make sure the wound on her hip had heeled. Kai looked into her eyes , his gaze so intense it sent butterflies in her stomach.
“Get out of here. Go home. I don’t want you near this place for what comes next.” he said softly , getting up and walking away.
Kai had healed her and tried to compell her not realising she was wearing her vervain bracelet. What he had said about not wanting her there only made her want to say and in the end it had been the right choice. He saved her life earlier in the evening only so she can save his later that same night.

“Do I really look like that ?” said a male voice from behind her.
Y/N turned around only now realising Kai was leaning over her starring at the page where there was a drawing of his face. She had been so lost in her thoughts , she had drawn his face in a haze. Quickly she closed her sketchpad as he sat next to her.
“I didn’t know you draw.” he said putting his arm across her shoulder. “Why would you draw me ?”
Y/N turned her head towards him , their faces closer than she had expected. Kai was smiling , his smoky blue eyes glowing for some reason. She felt her heart skip a beat for a second and then starting to beat so fast , as if trying to leap out of her chest and into his hands. Butterflies flapped their wings in her stomach and she felt her breath getting caught in her throat.
“It helps me clear my head.” she said clearing her throat. “What are you doing in the middle of town square? Damon is looking for you. He’ll kill you if he finds you.”
“Let him try. I am a heretic now , he is no match for me.” said Kai turning his gaze away from her for a moment. “I never said ‘thank you’ for saving me that night.”
“It’s only fair. You saved me first.” smiled Y/N.
“There is something that’s bothering me though… Why would you save me ? Why … would I save you ?” he wondered out loud. “All this emotion thing is … hard. I can’t figure it out and now it’s even more complicated.”
“How so ?” she asked curious.
“Because … ” he sighed. “… I don’t know what any of those emotions mean. Like there is this strange one I am feeling right now - my palms are sweaty and this fuzzy warm feeling in my stomach is … never mind. And I just want to …”
Kai turned towards her , his palm brushing against her cheek making her lean into it. Y/N closed her eyes for a moment enjoying his touch. He liked her. A smile spread across her face for a second before quickly disappearing. She got up picking up her things. Kai stared at her confused. All of the sudden she felt nervous being this close to him , like a wall was building up itself around her. Y/N wanted to kiss him , even more so now after what he had said , but she couldn’t. Not because of what he might think or what her friends might say. No. Because she had never kissed anyone before.
“Where are you going ?”
“Home.”
“Why ? Did I do something wrong ?” he asked studying her face. Y/N had smiled when he had touched her face. Why would she be in such a hurry all of the sudden?
“No.”
“What’s with the single word answers Y/N?” he asked listening to her heart beat which was now erratic , slowly figuring out things. “OH I get it.” he said grinning. “I make you nervous don’t I ?”
“No.” she lied again.
Kai smiled to himself , being able to tell she was being dishonest with him. That’s why she had saved him. Something about those emotions he felt towards her clicked for a moment. He had been laying awake at night these past few weeks , trying to push her out of his mind. Finding himself dreaming about her when he falls asleep and generally wanting to be with her all the time.
“You like me.“ Kai said amused.
“No.”
“Don’t deny it. I can see you blush just now.” he said leaning in. “Your heart is racing and … just now your breathing got so shallow its barely there.” he added in a hushed voice , his lips nearly touching hers. “You don’t have to hide your feelings. I may be a sociopath but doesn’t mean I don’t notice things … or that I don’t want to be with you.”
Y/N looked at him confused. Had he just admitted he wants to be with her as more than friends ? No. She shook her head slightly , turning away without giving him an answer but he blocked her way. Their eyes met and she felt the butterflies in her stomach all over again as she got lost in his eyes for the millionth time.
“I have literally no idea what you are talking about Kai.” she lied , pushing her way past him , her hand on his chest where his heart is for a second. Kai grabbed her wrist not letting her take her hand off. His gaze dropped for a second and then his lips smashed against hers , kissing passionatelly making her legs feel like jelly. About half a minute later he pulled away with a smile on his face.
“Are you going to deny it now too ?“
Y/N fought the urge to pull him into a another kiss , to feel his lips on hers again. She had never felt anything like what she felt in that moment. Like every fiber in her body just came to life , demanding to be with him. To have more. Y/N pulled her hand away , blinking fast a few times before meeting his eyes.
“Nothing to deny Kai , because there is nothing there.” she said walking away from him , her mind consumed by what had just happened.
Kai watched her walking away , listening to her breathing and a smile spread across his face. He knew now for sure - she had feelings for him and he wanted to find out if he has feelings for her too.

* * *

Kai sneaked into her house that night , carefully and quietly climbing up the stairs towards her bedroom. Y/N had curled up on the bed , a book semi open next to her. He smiled seeing the title of the book - Dr Jekyl and Mr. Hide. Kai crawled into bed with her , gently brushing hair from her cheek trying not to wake her up. She looked so pieceful , a small smile on her face for some reason. He had planned on waking her up , surprising her but now he didn’t have the heart to wake her up so instead he closed his eyes and entered her dream …

Y/N was laying on her side , holding a book in her hand when someone’s fingers trailed up and down her arm before snaking around her waist.
“Whatever you are reading , I promise you - it’s not even half as fun or interesting as me.“Kai whispered to her , his breath tickling her skin.
At first she didn’t react , enjoying his touch and then she jumped up sitting in her bed starring at Kai.
"What the hell ?! Get off my bed !”
Kai grinned at her.
“Awwh but why would I do that ? I want to be here .. with you … all alone.” he said crawling over her , his fingers brushing her cheek tracing down her neck onto her shoulder down her hand , intertwining them with her fingers. He could feel her tense at first and then slowly begin to melt under his touch. Y/N’s heart was racing faster than ever before , her breathing turning shallow again just like earlier today. Kai leaned in, brushing his nose against hers.
“I know you want to kiss me…” he whispered , his lips almost touching hers.
Y/N’s breath got caught in her throat. Of course she wanted to kiss him. Ever since he kissed her earlier that day , she hadn’t been able to stop thinking about him even more than usual. And now the desire to be with him had gotten magnified somehow.
“Y-you are wrong.” she whispered , not wanting her voice to betray her true feelings.
Kai pouted for a second. “Sure you do. I bet you haven’t stopped thinking about our little moment earlier today… I sure haven’t.” he trailed off.
Y/N was taken a back from his words. Why would he be thinking about their kiss?
“What are you d-doing in my bed , Kai ?”
Kai placed a gentle kiss on her cheek , then another on her jawline his lips moving onto her neck sucking a spot onto her collarbone. A small unvoluntary moan escaped her lips at the feeling and her hand covered her mouth.
“I told you - I want to be with you. I
want you.” he whispered in her ear , gently biting her earlobe. Kai’s finger traced her cheek onto her lips down her neck slowly. “I can hear your heartbeat sweetheart. ” he cooed , his hand squeezing her breast through her shirt before agonisingly slowly sliding down to her core. “Your breathing is so shallow , it’s barely existant…”
The more Kai’s hand closed in towards her heat , the more she felt a burning feeling building up. He pushed his fingers down her short shorts , teasing her folds through her panties , feeling she had gotten wet.
“Awh sweetheart… You definitely can’t deny that.” he said , his voice low.
Y/N closed her eyes enjoying the new feeling and then grabbed his hand pulling it out of her short shorts before pushing him off her. Thing was - it was her first time. Not that she didn’t want him this way , because she did but there were all these walls building up again.
“I have to hand it to you Y/N , your self control is incredible.” Kai said laying next to her , turning to the side whispering in her ear. “It’s driving me insane… you are driving me insane.”
Y/N turned her head towards him finding him closer than she had expected. Her eyes met his , the change in them more visible now - they were a darker shade of blue , filled with lust and desire. Her hand caressed his cheek for a moment , before she pulled away and got up from the bed.
Kai got up fast , vamp speed running towards her spinning her around and pinning her against the wall. He pressed his body against hers.
“Why do you keep denying your feelings for me ?” he asked , his lips hovering over hers. “Tell me.”
Y/N was very close to losing herself into Kai. His movements were only pushing her towards the limit , clouding her mind.
“Because … I … ” she said in low voice. “I haven’t …”
Kai’s eyes widened a little realising her words. Y/N had her eyes closed visibly trying to force the words out of her mouth.
“OH.” he said surprised. “Wait … w-was our kiss earlier your first kiss too?”
Silence. Kai took that as his answer. He was starting to have doubts , not because she was a virgin but because this wasn’t real - it was all in her head. Kai wanted it to be real. He put his hands on her waist , giving her a small smile and tossed her onto the bed , his lips smashing against hers.

Y/N woke up , her book in her hands sweat on her forehead. She laid back onto the bed taking a deep breath. That had been some dream and part of her wished it had been real the other was glad it hadn’t been and her secret is going to stay a secret.
Kai stood in the corner of her room , cloaked , looking at her smile at the dream she had awoken from. He was going to do things differently , no matter how much he wanted her right in that moment , he was going to take things slow and wait for her until she was ready and all the walls she had build around herself disappeared.

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Be my first

Word count: 1707

Warning: smut

Your first time with Kai

You were dating Kai for a long time before you even thought about your first time with him. More accurate, your first time in general. It didn’t took you long enough to realize that you’re in love with Kai, which also made you think about him being your first. When he found out that you were still a virgin, he was really supportive of you. Everytime you tried to do it, you got scared and weren’t sure if it was the right time to do so Kai promised he would wait for you to be ready and that’s how it’s been since that day. You wanted it to be special but you also wanted it to be spontaneous.

You were on the couch in Kai’s apartment watching TV, your head resting on his shoulder and your fingers intertwined with his. You lifted your head up and started staring at him, watching his every move. The way his eyes were strongly focused on the TV but his hand still firmly holding yours, helping in reminding him you were still by his side, the way his lips curled up into a smile, showing his pearly white teeth, how his jaw clenched a couple of times. Those were all the things you found extremely fascinating and mesmerizing about him. You loved every singl things about him. Even his flaws made him perfect.

‘Staring much? It’s kinda creepy.’ He muttered making you hit him playfully on the arm, making him laugh.

‘Shut up, Kai.’ You trailed off through your laugh, Kai’s eyes still focused on the TV. You pulled yourself a little closer to him, planting a soft kiss on his neck, making him snap out of his litrle world. Your kissing turned into sucking, making an obvious hickey on his neck. He smiled as you cupped his face and turned his head, making him face you, your lips crashing with his. You lifted yourself up and sat on his lap, your legs on the each side of his body. His hands were loosely resting on your waist, your hands gently pulling on his hair.

'Wait, stop.’ He said as he broke the kiss and looked at you in the eyes, his hand placing a small strand of hair behind you ear.

'Kai, I want this.’ You whispered, his thumb gently caressing your cheek.

'Are you sure? You know I don’t mind waiting. We don’t have to do this.’ Kai trailed off, waiting for your response. You just nodded and bit your lip as his arms picked you up swiftly, caring you to his room. He placed you gently on the bed as if you were made of glass, watching carefully not to make any mistakes. He got on top of you and kissed your forehead gently as he went lower, his nose resting against your nose as your lips were only an inch apart. You both let out a deep breath, Kai closing his eyes for a second.

'If we’re gonna do this, I wanna make it special. I want you to feel special.’ Kai said and it only made you smile because you knew this would indeed be very special. Probably the most special moment you had in your life and you knew you would never regret it.

'I trust you. More than anything.’ You whispered, your hand resting softly against his cheek. 'I love you Kai.’

Kai smiled and kissed you softly at first, deeping the kiss by every second. Moments later he broke the kiss and got up, kneeling in front of the bed. He untied one of your shoes as he slowly placed it on the floor and then did he same with the other one. He took your socks off and placed them in your shoes, your bare feet exposed to the warm air traveling through Kai’s room. He placed his hands on your still covered legs and trailed them up your body until he reached your face again. He kissed you again and then caught both of your hands and lifted you up, making you stand in front of the bed, stand in front of him. He kneeled and kissed your exposed skin just above your jeans. His fingers reached up and found a button on your jeans, unbotting it slowly as he pulled them down at an agonizingly slow pace, sending shivers down your spine. You placed your hands on Kai’s shoulders while his fingers found the edge of your panties. He pulled them down your legs as you stepped out of them, you bottom half completely exposed to him. He looked up at you, your gaze locked with his as he smiled and did what made your breath hitch and heart skip a beat. He burried his tongue between your folds, finding its way to your clit, circling around making your hands go to his hair, gripping on it a bit tighter. He hummed when he felt your grip, making you squirm, the feeling of the vibrations that came from his mouth making you let out a quiet moan.

'Shhh’

'Kai’ you whispered and closed your eyes, throwing your head back in pleasure. You felt yourself getting closer and only a dew more moves were needed for you to come to your release. He moved his tongue around for a few more times and your body started shaking, an orgasm tearing through your body. He wrapped his arms around you as he stood up, holding you close. He smiled at you and lifted you up again as he placed you gently down on the bed, his hands tugging on your shirt.

'We’ll leave this on for now.’ He muttered as he took his shirt off, allowing you to get a good look on his perfectly toned body, the right amount of chest hair visible on his body. You bit your lip at the sight of Kai shirtless. You saw him shirtless multiple times, but this time it was different. He placed his hands just under your breasts, trailing them down your body, resting them on your thighs. He spread your legs a little bit and then placed a kiss on your thigh. With every kiss he kept coming closer to where you needed him. He stopped at one spot and gave you a hickey on your thigh, making you moan out. You didn’t even completely recovered from your first orgasm, Kai’s mouth was resting against you once again, his tongue burried inside you. His fingers found their way to your entrance as he pushed only one finger in, making you moan out. He curled it around, your walls clenching with every move he made.

'Kai’ you moaned out and came once again around Kai’s fingers, a smirk on his face when he saw you falling apart like that and it was only because of him.

He got up and took his jeans off along with his boxers, his lenght jumping up, making your eyes go wider. You swallowed hard, remembering why you were so nervous every time you wanted to do it, but there was no turning back. You wanted to do this and this was the right time. He came closer and lifted you up as he took your shirt off slowly and unhooked your bra, placing it down on the floor next to his bed. You were completely exposed to him. You tried to cover yourself up, feeling a little self - concious, but Kai stopped you from doing so.

'You look beautiful.’ He muttered and leaned in as he kissed you deeply, his hand finding its way to your breast, squeezing it gently.

'You ready?’ He whispered and it took you a few moments to nod. Kai saw how nervous and kinda scared you were and he wanted to make sure that this was what you wanted.

'It will hurt a bit, but I promise you it will get better.’ You only smiled at him because you didn’t kno what to say. He caught his lenght with his hand and guided himself to your entrance, pushing only his tip inside you. You closed your eyes as he pushed himself in, making you cry out in pain, a tear rolling down your cheek.

'Hey, hey, look at me.’ He whispered, his hand placing on your cheek as he wiped your tear away with his thumb. You opened your eyes, still not used to the uncomfortable feeling.

'I’m sorry. It will get better, please don’t cry.’ He muttered and planted a bunch of soft kissed all over your face, making you laugh. After a few minutes, you felt the pain going away. You bucked your hips up a little bit, letting Kai know he could move. He pulled out and then went back in very slowly, his eyes never leaving yours, making sure he wasn’t hurting you. The pain was almost gone and it was replaced with pleasure only, making you moan out his name.

'I’m gonna go a little faster, ok?’ He trailed off as you nodded, Kai picking up his pace. You wrapped your legs around his waist and lifted yourself up a little bit. You clenched around him, making him moan out your name and close his eyes at the feeling. You dug your fingers into his back and threw your head back, you felt yourself coming closer to yet another orgasm.

'Kai, I, I don’t think I can do it.’

'Just let yourself go, baby.’ He whispered and picked up his pace a bit more, your clencing around him becoming more obvious with the each thrust he made.

'Fuck!’ Only a few more thrusts were needed and you came around him, sceaming out his name, you nails digging into his biceps and piercing through his skin. Not long after you, Kai reached his orgasm, his eyes closing.

He carefully pulled out, but you still winced in pain a little bit.

'You ok?’ He asked as he covered your naked body with a duvet, your eyes instantly closing.

'Yeah… just tired.’ You muttered, making him smiled. He kissed your forehead and laid down beside you, pulling you into his arms.

'I love you.’ He whispered and closed his eyes, drifting off to sleep with you in his arms.