the day after he left i felt empty. no emotion. i sat in my bed wondering why i didn’t leave before he left me. i always knew i was never enough. i knew he could do better than me. i knew he deserved better than me. but i stayed. because i was selfish, i stayed and let myself fall in love with him even more. i fell in love with every little thing about him. i thought he had been in love with me too. i thought he’d stay, i thought i was most important, i thought i was the only one. after him becoming distant, he tells me he’s leaving. he’s leaving for another girl. after he promised, he promised he’d never leave, he promised he’d never leave especially for another girl. so i let him. i knew it would happen and i let it. i knew i’d end up crying all night, not eating, bursting into tears when someone asked if i was okay. but i love him still. he broke my heart. and i’d let him do it a thousand times more.
- l.z. @lowonsociety