even in the darkest of times

Reached out last night twice to two friends in my city that both like to claim they’re my best/good friend. Spent months telling me when I need it, they have my back. Well, I needed it last night. I was panicking and losing my shit and I was in tears (I never cry). I called both my friends. One never answered her phone. And her only text response to me was…believe in yourself. The other did answer and admittedly had a problem on her hand she was dealing with so I do understand. But when the next wave of panic hit me later that evening, again no response. Not even a text which honestly was all I would hope to get.

Guess who knocked me out of it? My brother (and his hopefully future wife). For all the general shitty crap I deal with from my family, they are honestly the only people there for me. Like in my darkest times they’re the best gift from God and I hope and I pray I never forget that.

While going through my drafts looking for things to add to my queue, I found this, which I’d apparently written but never posted.  I feels like now is the appropriate time to do so.


I had a thought, and I am probably not the first person to notice this so please pardon me if someone else has mentioned this first BUT I am excited and want to talk about this.

So Umbreon’s markings look like a solar eclipse, right?  And this makes sense, because the “umbra” is the darkest part of a shadow, and specifically during a solar eclipse, it’s the darkest part of the moon’s shadow, where the total eclipse is visible from.

What I didn’t realize until just now is that Espeon has this connection too!  During a lunar eclipse, the moon doesn’t disappear.  Instead, due to interference from the Earth’s atmosphere, it turns red, like the gem on Espeon’s forehead!

I can see people’s auras… and it’s a curse.

by A10A10A10

Yes, I can see people’s auras.

And I hate saying it so bluntly. It makes me sound like some hack psychic who fakes the ability as a means of exploitation and a paycheck. I’ve never made money from my ability. I’ve never taken advantage of it. And, until now, I’ve never spoken of it to anybody.

But I really do see them, and I’m starting to view it as more of a curse. I have a reason for typing this out and I assure you, there isn’t a happy ending.

Keep reading

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Hey! Mark! I just wanted to show you a little something out of all this negative you’ve been seeing. Maybe, hopefully, you’ll see this, and know how INSPIRING just the smallest amounts of positivity can be. Even in the darkest moments….

In 2014 I was very heavy depressed, anxious, and without much hope for my future. I had just gotten out of highschool and had no idea what I wanted to do. I was very down in the dumps, fresh out of an unhealthy long term relationship, living by myself, and my weight was getting to the point where it was endangering my health.

But then my friend showed me some of your videos. I found myself laughing for a long while for the first time in a long time. Because human laughter is contagious. Whether it be through a computer screen or anything else. You and a few other youtubers filled my house with positivity, and your messages of hope, happiness, BETTERING YOURSELF, and being a force for good in this world inspired me to change.

So I got up and did something about it.

It’s now 2017. I am over 100 pounds lighter and STILL working! I am following my dreams and trying my best to push those around me to keep going, Keep fighting. Even though I’m still a work in progress,but everyday I get a little better. I just wanted to (hopefully) show you what being a beacon of hope can do for those around you (or 5,000 miles away.) Thanks for continuing to be an inspiration for those of us who needed a little extra push to fight for ourselves.
@markiplier

Inspirational Quotes

Everyone needs extra inspiration/motivation every once in a while. Therefore, I have compiled a list of some of my favourite inspirational Harry Potter quotes (quotes are from the books and films).

  • “Working hard is important. But there is something that matters even more, believing in yourself”
  • “Books! And cleverness! There are more important things! - Friendship! And Bravery!”
  • “When in doubt, go to the library”
  • “It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities”
  • “It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live”
  • “It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends”
  • “Ah, music,” he said wiping his eyes. “A magic beyond all we do here”
  • “Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on Earth should that mean that it is not real?”
  • “Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic”
  • “Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the the light”
  • “In dreams, we enter a world that’s entirely our own”
  • “It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be”
  • “We’ve all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That’s who we really are”
  • “Well, [bad] times like that bring out the best in some people and the worst in others’
  • “The ones who love us never really leave us, you can always find them in here”
  • “What’s life without a little risk?”
  • “We’re all human, aren’t we? Every human life is worth the same, and worth saving”
  • “You sort of start thinking anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve”
  • “Things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end, if not always in the way we expect”
  • “No good sitting worrying about it. What’s coming will come, and we’ll meet it when it does”

I hope these quotes inspire you too!

when we came to earth the heavens designed us a special gift, an invisible energy source that would offer us secret assistance 

aries received a finely crafted and exquisite sword. it glows a ruby scarlet and its honourable to her only. it is not sharp nor deadly, but it gives her the inner courage and assertion to fight her battles despite feeling like a child being constantly berated by the world

taurus received an invisible set of headphones. they are rose pink and soft and silky, and she can put these on whenever the chaos on the world reaches its peak, when it begins to disturb her inner world, when her raw senses become too overloaded, she can go into a place of silence inside, she can turn on autopilot 

gemini received a tiny, flittering pixie crafted from the mind of hermes, she flies beside the gemini mind with a notebook quickly ascribing the gemini’s thoughts before they disappear into outer space. the notebook is then given to one of gemini’s personalities who wasn’t busy at the time so it can be remembered in future

cancer received a luminescent, delicate sea shell to wear around her neck and caress her heart, the water within this shell contains the spiritual dwelling of her supportive ancestors and guides, each who whisper her words of guidance through the sea shell, each message instantly reaching the heart its touching 

leo received a crown that never breaks or crumbles, even when she feels like she will. the crown glows a butterscotch caramel, crafted with divine royalty in mind, so that even in her darkest moments she can wear her crown and be reminded of her magnificence

virgo received a microscope that adapts into a kaleidoscope, perfect for their mutable nature, a microscope with divine contacts that conceive the spiritual harmony in all things, the microscope that envisages the solution before the problem 

libra received a sweet bottle of perfume that smells of venus cake batter, but it’s not for her, its her air freshener, a cosmic spritzer that harmonises her environment and dispels social disharmony, an aroma of peace 

scorpio received a piece of their own soul wrapped in golden parchment. this was to be accessed and acknowledged in moments of crisis. for the reminder of her immortality even when she is screaming out that she wants to die 

sagittarius received a compass pointing in the direction of their personal truth. it spins and turns, sends her on crusades then spins back around again, it keeps everything interesting, its her secret atlas 

capricorn received an intricate bracelet that is made of the same substance as saturn’s rings, so when she goes to feel her heart with her pulse, she is reminded of her golden blood, the bracelet moves like clockwork, so she always ‘knows’ the time 

aquarius received a telescope that can teleport the mind. when she is staring up at the stars at night, as she so often does, her mind can transit into the cosmos so she can hear their voices up close 

pisces received the greatest gift of all, her very own vessel adorned in glittering fairy lights, a vessel that she can board at any moment to sail freely into the spiritual seas, leaving the material world completely behind 

-C.

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                                                       Happiness can be found

                                                   even in the darkest of times

                                        if only one remembers to turn on the light

Be the one to love even during the darkest of times. Be the one to respect those who even may not deserve it. Smile when the world seems to be dragging you back. Stay strong when everyone else expects you to crumble. Be that one, and ‘that one’ is the very best version of yourself.
—  Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

To love me means also loving to hear all the raging thoughts in my head at one in the morning when all of my frustrations suddenly burst; it also means embracing all the quirkiness wrapped around my entirety like adoring how beautiful the stars up above midnight or how the clouds move in a slow motion to form warriors and knights; it may as well mean coming with me at Mcdonald’s when I crave for some fries and sundae at two in the morning; it’s also defined as listening to my senseless and repetitious stories about my dreams, fantasies and everyday life. To love me means swearing that you would listen to the songs I would tell to you in the middle of the day because I assure you, you’d be hearing from me talking about them from time to time.

Loving someone like me isn’t easy for I am someone scarred badly in the past. My whole system is composed of heartaches, pains, sorrows and miseries—I am imperfectly flawed but that made me who I am. To love me is to embrace those imperfections stitched through my veins. To love me means allowing me to have solitude once in a while since I have these moments that I want to shut my world down from everybody else; I have those dark times that I never wanted to talk to anybody at all and just want to lock myself in my own world. Just give me some time to think, at the end of the day I will come back to you. To love me is to tell me how much you care for me even in the slightest way—I will surely appreciate that even my form of appreciation and gratitude is to tell how corny or annoying you are, but deep down, your words mean a lot and warmed my heart. To love me means staying with me no matter how messy and difficult I could be. All I ever want is someone who will stand right behind me during my darkest and worst moments of my life.

To love me is to tell me your thoughts and opinions about the things I keep on telling you about even they mean nothing to you. To love me is to allow me to grow with you as a being physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

I am a complicated and difficult person. I am crazy, wild, freak, easily hurt and gullible. So tell me you love me when you only mean it. I don’t have time for some franks or what. I have had enough of heartbreaks in my past. I am aging and all I ever want for now is a stable and long-lasting relationship that would make me choose to stay no matter how many rocks were thrown at us or no matter how turbulent and bumpy the roads may get.

To love me means a little bit of sacrifice. But I can guarantee you that I could make you feel you’re the best person in the world and you didn’t make the wrong choice by choosing me over them. With me, I can make you feel disconnected from the rest of the galaxy. I will surely make tons of efforts for our relationship to keep going and last. It will be a tough ride for the both of us but I can assure you that it will be worth it and filled with so much fun. To love me means needing and wanting me like the way I do to you.

—  redserpent42, To Love Someone Like me

Have you ever had a crush on someone even when you know it would never happen but you’re constantly drawn to them? Everything from their smile to the sound of their laughter that brings light to the darkest places, or the way words roll of their tongue as if it’s a spoken lullaby. Yet, it’s more than that, it’s the similarities that keep you thinking that maybe in another time or world, just maybe there would be a chance. Just maybe.

in 24 hours, we’ll be plugging our earphones in, with adrenaline coursing through our veins. we’ll all be deeply immersed in lyrics penned by taylor swift that we don’t already know. it will make our darkest of times as golden as sunlit honey, and we’ll feel grateful to be alive as the wind kisses our cheeks on long car rides, with the song blasting on loop unapologetically. this single will mark the moment we’ll finally be able to embrace and fall in love with a new era, the reputation era, after three years, and that will truly be the most magical, exhilarating feeling.

I tell you so many things in my head-
I practice telling you the things I only know how to say in dreams. I practice as if I could build up the courage as if I could put it out there in the atmosphere and then I drop it like throwing a stone back into the ocean like losing all my liquid courage like I don’t know where it belongs or if it even fits into your heart at this point in time

Maybe I should just keep it mine

It’s all a little too much to think that you got scared cause you knew we could’ve fallen in love but god we could’ve fallen in love we could’ve- we could’ve had blood orange we could’ve had that sun on Sunday mornings we could’ve had that outside on the sidewalk to eat strawberries and talk till we feel more in love or till the sky turns its darkest color

I want the real red love, you know? I want to catch the pink painted streaks across your cheeks I want your Tuesday night thunderstorms and your Thursday nights where you watch your shitty TV and I’ll thank god we fell in love somewhere before sunscreen

—  You can’t end something that never started