Holster Has Made Out With Everyone 13) Senior Year: Ransom
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“I think you two should make out,” says March.
This is clearly an intervention. April is here, and Bitty perched in a corner of the locker room clutching a tray of mini-pies and looking embarrassed for everybody. Lardo brought her fucking gavel. There is a laptop in the corner, and Holster’s pretty sure someone is going to suggest Skyping Shitty any minute. Chowder’s supportive smile is already looking strained.
The only people in the room that Holster isn’t mad at right now are Nursey and Dex who are ignoring the stupidest ever session of Samwell Men’s Hockey Court to grope each other behind the We Support You Both banner.
who was captured and forced to be a prisoner in a foreign place.
who had no idea what the hell he was doing, spent his days locked up trying to recreate a drug that he had never created in the first place.
a drug that his father, who he probably didn’t even get a chance to grieve, made for him.
do you think he ever felt guilty that the drug originated as a way to protect him and conceal his power?? bc i do. his father made a mistake and instead gave him a death sentence. kuwei knew no matter what he did it wouldn’t be a happy ending.
if he succeeded making the drug he would be expendable, but also people were dying bc of it and many more would if he replicated it. the amount of stress this knowledge must have caused him omg.
he stalled as long as he could and pretty much accepted that someone would eventually come to kill him.
he didn’t even flinch when nina looked like she was going to do it. and that’s heartbreaking. imagine him sitting there with his journals just waiting for death bc he didn’t know what else to do.
he delivered one of the saddest lines in CK when he was asked what he was good at and he replied “i never had a chance to find out.” bc think about it…this teenager probably had no idea who he was yet and thought he’d never live to see the day he’d find out. not even when those murder nerds swooped in and saved him.
they probably seemed so…different from him?? sure they were around his age but each of them had a strong sense of identity and they had each other, and that was way more than he had. imagine him trying to piece bits of himself together based on who they were
and he still didn’t know if he could trust them, but once again he had no choice but to??? his fate was in someone else’s hands again. bc they were just kids too so why couldn’t be tough like kaz, smart like wylan, etc etc.
also think about how he could hardly understand them and they weren’t even always on the same page as each other, yet he had to depend on them wow???
plus his crush on jesper might have been him discovering his sexuality. we don’t know?? imagine the whirlwind it must’ve been for him to finally feel safe to figure himself out and develop attachment to things
drawing, boys, pranks, whatever idk
he just wanted to be free and validated and get a ship to ravka.
and he knew something could go wrong and he could be handed over to someone else and forced to make parem, so when he saw that window of opportunity to finally kiss the cute sharpshooter, he took it!!
it was his one shot!!! and that was i c o n i c
nina’s perspective captured him perfectly. “a boy not much younger than she was, caught up in a war he hadn’t chosen for himself. a survivor.”
she and matthias determined kuwei was just a kid and one of them and y’all still leave him out………okay.
One day my sister and I were talking about cherry stem
knotting, specifically how impossible it is to do (for us, anyway) and how it’s
seen as an indicator of being a good kisser. Now, IDK about kissing, but I’m thinking
that cherry stem knotting would be a thing among Kunugigaoka students as well.
Naturally, Gakushuu would be absurdly good at it because he has to be #1 at
everything, and would outshine even his most flirty classmates like Ren, who is probably the only one of the three that actually cares about things like that. However, when it comes to being
absurdly good at random things, Gakuho still outshines Gakushuu by a longshot,
and he’s not going to let Gakushuu forget that. And so the cherry stem knotting escalates…
I tried out screentones with this. Maybe I’m just not doing
it right, but they’re hard to use ;A;
I haven’t seen anybody talking about the fact that Tae said that his most memorable moment this year was Hobi doing aegyo in the fan meeting. He even proceeded to ask Hoseok to act cute.
The question wasn’t even for him LOL
2 days until Luhan’s birthday and Lay finally mentions him. as a fan who appreciates and adores Layhan’s friendship, this means so much to me ㅠㅠ I’ve been waiting 5 months for one of them to confirm that they still keep in touch. I didn’t doubt it for a second but I just missed their friendship and needed to know. I’m just happy and emotional and hopefully one day we’ll be able to see them together again.
brothers forever ♡
more lams in conservatory au, please? if you wanna!
It’s evening and John is in bed, working on his paper for von Steuben’s class (rough draft due tomorrow at noon) when Alex stumbles into their dorm and collapses face-first on top of him, narrowly missing John’s laptop with his head. John moves it over a fraction of an inch, checks the time in the corner of the screen. 7:32 pm.
“I thought you were going to the concert tonight.”
Alex groans into John’s rib cage. “She dumped me.”
“Maggie. Said she and Andre were getting back together.”
“Didn’t you date Andre?”
Alex makes a gesture of dismissal. “We went to some art museums,” which isn’t an answer either way. “She told me during intermission. Can you believe that? Like I’m supposed to sit through Mahler’s Third next to my newly ex-girlfriend. We were making out in the parking lot an hour before! Anyway, I left because I am not going to associate the minor Frere Jacque theme with a break up, that would be pathetic.”
John bites his lip. If he’s being honest, it’s hard to feel sympathy for Alex, who this semester alone has dated five different people, not counting his vague courtship of that transfer, John Andre. His relationships have never lasted more than a week, despite his enthusiastic declarations of love and rumors that Washington’s favorite piano student is also a prodigy in bed. (“It’s the fingers,” Cora once told him in all seriousness, and John couldn’t watch him play for a week without thinking of that.)
Yet for all his mourning, Alex also rebounds faster than anyone John has ever seen. He complains about Maggie tonight, but in two days it will be Sarah or Adrienne or maybe Tallmadge, even though he’s a grad student and they’re in the same studio. And then he’ll be heart-eyed and full of poetic nonsense again, his past lovers forgotten outside of class.
And John… John is just here. The best friend, the confidant, even though he could swear the first time they met Alex was flirting, pulling out all stops to impress him despite the fact Alex’s approach to jazz is more instinct and luck than actual knowledge. John hates himself for clinging to that, thinks he’s reading into things, but then Alex nuzzles him in class or plays with his hair while they’re studying and he can’t help but feel maybe it’s something more.
Alex’s monologue winds down. John keeps his eyes fixed to his laptop screen - although who is he kidding, he’s not focused on Bernstein - but he feels Alex relax into him, his breathing gone languid, and John thinks maybe he’s fallen asleep.
Then, quiet: “Why do they all leave?”
Alex pushes up onto his elbows. His expression is one John has never seen before: on another person it might be resigned, but Alex doesn’t ever stop fighting.
“Why does everyone leave?” he repeats.
“… I don’t know.”
“You think I’d be used to it - I mean, Dad left when I was ten, that should’ve be a sign. But I don’t… is it me? Obviously, that’s the common denominator, but what about me, then? If I knew what it was, I might be able to fix it. Or maybe I just give off a vibe: This is a mistake! Get out while you can!”
“You’re not a mistake,” John says, feeling stupid.
Alex shrugs. “Whatever. Didn’t mean to get all maudlin. What are you working on?”
“Paper for von Steuben. It’s due tomorrow.”
“Yeah, I turned in a week ago.” Alex crawls forward to nestle against John’s side, head resting on his shoulder. “What’s your topic?”
John swallows. Prays Alex can’t feel his heart going a million miles an hour. “Influence of jazz in Age of Anxiety.”
Alex hums. “You should read it to me.”
He really shouldn’t. His pulse is in his throat, he still needs to write the conclusion and then go back and do some edits because yeah, it’s a rough draft but von Steuben grades those, too, and he can be harsh -
everyday lol.. just imagine talking to someone everyday and now, not even a message from them pops up on your phone from them.. like he was the only person I spoke to 24/7 but now I’m barely on my phone. nothing hurts more than losing your first true love and idk if anything beats this. two years of having a bestfriend that you could be yourself with. I mean the relationship was toxic was some months and we fucked up but we always tried to work it out but maybe it’s because i didn’t give up on us. he was my life basically and carries a piece of my heart with him forever. every time i was upset or happy, he would be the first person i would tell to say what happened. so every night when i have nothing to do but think, i pray to god for him to be happy and to forgive him for breaking my soul but i won’t break because i am strong and i am the best thing that could ever happen to someone and he didn’t realize im worth all the gold in the world… there’s so many memories that I can never erase and has changed my life but there’s memories he can never erase either and he will take with him ever. but ya i miss him but i also just miss being me and i will find someone that loves me and knows my worth but right now, i’ll just breathe and keep going on with my life and make so many new memories with beautiful and wonderful people
but do you ever think about hunk’s character development and how amazing it was? because he’s really anxious and afraid of what they’re facing but when he saw the balmerans, he knew that he has to change. he listened to shay, he talked to her about freedom and it seemed so surreal to him that she didn’t know the meaning of it, so he decided that it’s his duty to teach her, to teach all of them, to free them and protect them. hunk is truly a legendary defender of the universe and i’m so proud of him.
Beautiful art direction of course, with that transition and the wheel matching where McGucket ends up. Bill talked about help from a friend, and so it cuts to Ford being helped by his friend.
…His friend who isn’t Bill, who was already helping him. Bill knew exactly how to build the portal, he knew how to get every single measurement exactly right and EXACTLY what to do. Bill didn’t need any help besides a physical pair of hands.
But he still suggested inviting McGucket to help with the project, despite having everything under control.
Bill knew. Bill wanted the accident to happen. It’s the only thing that inviting McGucket out would really do.
That accident caused Ford to confront Bill and realize how horrifying the portal is. It lead to Ford’s increasing paranoia and Stan shoving him into another dimension for 30 years. It was a key element of what lead to the entire show’s plot.
It means Bill specifically wanted all this rift nonsense to happen. Maybe nightmare realm can’t actually be accessed by the portal, just because of its nature?
I don’t know. I have no idea why the rift is preferable to the portal, and I’m horribly worried about what’s going to happen with it.
People saying that Thorin didn’t react when Fíli died. People saying that Fíli just stood around and showed no opinion on anything. People saying that Kíli didn’t give a fuck about Fíli’s death and only cared for Tauriel
Come on people, the acting wasn’t even that subtle. Maybe you have trouble reading facial expressions, in that case I’m sorry but otherwise all this talk is kind of insulting to the actors I think? Because it’s so obvious what Fíli and Thorin think at most times, Dean and Richard are wonderful at silently emoting or playing shock and just…. stop
I’m pretty sure his hair’s naturally straight though, he talks about getting it permed specifically for Boardwalk in some interviews
I feel so betrayed?
But I swear I’ve seen pictures of him from not-during-filming and it was like, even moreso? Like Charlie’s hair is almost kinky curls (shut up, you know what I mean) that go in individual ringlets when they’re not gelled down, but his hair on its own always looked…poofy and wavy? Nowhere near that flat.