even if he'd like to pretend he does

mistress92  asked:

ALRIGHT I GOT AN IDEA AFTER I READ YOUR GHOST S/O POST. Like since the s/o is a ghost she doesn't have to sleep. But Fell does. Even though it's not a lot he still needs rest. BUT what if Fell finally crashed (because that boy works too hard oml) and someone out to kill him (because i feel like he'd have at least ONE hit out on him lol) managed to dodge his traps and get into the house. The s/o KNOWS when someone is in her house. So she uses her ghost powers to silently follow them. (1/?)

Dude omg Fell would probably pretend that never happened and recalibrate his traps. His traps are impenetrable, how could an enemy get past them?! His pride is pretty wounded lol. He thanks his S/O though and wonders how to take them out of the house so he could bring them along to battles. 

anonymous asked:

I'm of the opinion that Loki does not hate Thor and does not blame him half so much as he likes to pretend he does (certainly not nearly as much as he blames Odin, and maybe even Frigga). But he lashes out at Thor because he didn't know what Loki was, either, and Loki still sees Thor as the little boy who said he'd hunt down the monsters and slay them all. It's so much easier for him to let Thor hate him for what he's done (which he can control) than for Thor to hate him for what he is.

The MCU definitely set this up in an interesting and sort of tangled way! When I watched the first movie, my initial reaction was, “Wow, Loki is way more twisted up in his daddy issues than anything to do with Thor.”

While I think that’s true for the first movie, Loki’s issues definitely expand out a lot, the more we get into this series of movies.  Add in the deleted scenes, add in the interaction between Thor and Loki in The Avengers and The Dark World, and you start to see that it’s this big, complicated, tangly situation that’s not just one thing or another.  Loki’s daddy issues are super important, but that’s not all his issues with Thor are, his feelings re: Thor are not just all about what Odin thinks.

I think Loki lashes out at Thor for a lot of reasons, which tend to come down to:  Loki loves Thor just so much that it drives him around the bend. He wants to hate all of his family, he’s so angry at them, but he can’t hate Thor, who didn’t know, who still loves him.  Loki desperately wants that love, which is why he’s so angry at himself for wanting it and so he’s twice as cruel to Thor to try to push him away.

But it’s also that Loki loves Thor so much and sees him as everything good and perfect.  There are issues of Asgardian ideals tangled up in this, but it’s also just that Loki looks at Thor and it’s entirely, wholly Loki who thinks, “He’s perfect.”  And Loki hates Thor for being perfect, hates him for how much Loki thinks he’s perfect, hates him because Loki can’t stop thinking of him as perfect even as he thinks Thor’s a witless oaf.

Except, it’s not really hate.  It’s envy and despair and love and affection and all these intense emotions tangled into one, giant ball that he can’t unknot.

This is why, after thinking about it for awhile, Loki’s actions make sense to me in The Avengers, because he was saying WELL FINE THEN IF THOR’S SO GREAT I’LL JUST ACT LIKE THOR THEN (except he’s terrible at acting like Thor and so everything falls apart for him), because Thor becomes tangled up in the center of Loki’s issues, given all these external factors and Loki’s own love for him.

Personally, I don’t think Loki thinks that Thor will kill him for being Jotunn, that Loki is constantly being smacked in the face with how Thor has changed.  I think, more than death, he feared rejection, which was partly about how the Jotnar seemed to be seen as monsters (that’s definitely a thing Loki feels about them) and also about Loki’s own fundamental fear of rejection.  When you don’t have a strong sense of self, when you’re insecure, so many times you’ll turn to rejecting others first before they can reject you, you’ll constantly guard yourself against that crippling fear of being rejected.

And I agree completely with you that it’s just so much easier for Loki to be the monster, to fling himself into that role because it’s his choice and it was deliberate, rather than for Loki to actually try and be rejected as he fears.  It’s easier to be hated when you’re building this layer around yourself, when you’re wrapping yourself in a role that you think you should wear, rather than to be yourself and fail at everything you try.  And that is something I relate with really, really a lot, so I see it a lot in Loki.  ):