I just had a really weird moment and it’s really important to my transition. I was in my bathroom washing my hands and I looked in the mirror and was hit with this feeling of euphoria rather than dysphoria. I don’t know, it was like something about the way my hair moved as I looked up, my face, my figure… I thought to myself “woah… okay, I think I might be sexy or something”. I promise I’m really not full of myself, because this is the first time I genuinely had that thought with no feelings of dysphoria whatsoever and it really hit me out of nowhere.
Basically, I looked in the mirror and instantly saw a girl (for I am not yet a woman and look like a tall 16-year-old lol). No staring or imagination required this time. I feel so euphoric that I don’t even care about my adam’s apple right now; I don’t care about my weird voice, or my funny walk. I feel really content with myself transition-wise, which is actually perfect because I have more important things to worry about these days with planning my future, finding what career I truly want, and figuring out what the hell is wrong with my car.
I hope with all of my heart that as many people as possible get to experience what I just felt looking in the mirror, even if it’s as simple as feeling comfort in what you see.