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Living With The Murderer Pt 2

Originally posted by fluffyzelo

Title: Living With The Murderer.

Genre: Angst, gangau!, slight trigger warning but it doesn’t go in that direction.

Member: Zelo.

Word Count: 2593.

Description: He didn’t even have to do much, you were sure this wasn’t the angriest he could get but he scared you. Because now you knew he wasn’t as friendly as he appeared to be.

You hadn’t even begun to unpack your things, your suitcase sat by the wall, opened and only touched enough to get the things you needed out of it. Zelo had asked you if you wanted him to give you a hand, to do the deed of helping you settle in. that was over a week ago that happened now and you had declined, the same as you do every time someone makes a comment about your barely moving things.

And Jesus Christ why did they have to come into your room so much? It gave you headaches just knowing you were living with the killers of your own family, your only family. And when they barged into your room like it wasn’t your private area you considered pulling out the gun from under your pillow.

One that you hadn’t stolen, as a matter of fact, it even sent a shiver down your spine knowing there was one in your presence, and god knows how many more there was in this house. You were starting to think Zelo must be some sort of mind reader, he was always arrived with whatever you were thinking about in his hand not long after you had the thought.

“Um these areas can get pretty dangerous, and I know you want absolutely nothing to do with us or our lifestyle, but I want you to be safe, especially with us”

Zelo was kind, maybe a little too kind and maybe trying a little too hard to warm up to you, because who jokes that they’re going to give you a weapon and allow you to try and use it against them if you ever wanted so desperately to do so?

So now you had a gun under your pillow and every time one of them entered without knocking, got too close to you or commented on your things, Zelo’s words echoed in the back of your mind.

“You might just wanna use it on us, trade an eye for an eye. Probably better to say a life for a life this time around though isn’t it?”

You considered using it on the giant splinter then and there, you knew for a fact that it was loaded with as many bullets there could be shoved in the device. And you knew for a fact that he had no audacity to talk about your parent’s murder in such ways because it hurt, and he was the asshole that pulled the trigger in the first place. So you took to ignoring them, it seemed that this was Zelo’s house, but the others didn’t really like to leave and go to the land of their own homes, they spent most of their days lazing around here or going out to do things you didn’t care about.

You never ate with them, you were sure they probably kept getting confused if you were still here, it’s not like you hadn’t tried to leave, you had just been caught every time. Everyone but Zelo seemed to see how badly you wanted to leave and it was as if they laid in waiting for you to try and make a grand escape. They weren’t afraid to drag you back into the house, but it did seem they were afraid to tell the tall man about your continuous attempts to leave, and you really wanted to know why such a seemingly harmless giant was being kept out of such information.

Dinner would be getting served any moment now, not that you were keeping track of time as you made sure all of your things were tightly crammed into your suitcase and your bag was filled with your things. You didn’t pay any attention to the sound of footsteps making their way down the hall and coming to a stop in front of your room. Your body naturally jolted in shock as the door opened and Daehyun gave a scoff.

“Are you really trying to do this again?” He asked as your heard flicked in his direction, thinking he would throw your things out of reach or tie you to something so you couldn’t leave.

“I’m always going to try” You responded and Daehyun sighed as he shut the door behind him.

“And what’s the plan this time? Strap your things to your body and jump roof to roof? Or will you tie the sheets together and climb down through the window?” He asked and you glared at him.

“What, not gonna grab me or my things and hide them again? Or will you lock me in here once you hear my plans? Or would you rather hear my plans and let me get my hopes up so you can drag me back inside by the scruff of my jacket again?” You snarled and Daehyun shook his head as he sighed.

“To be honest, I’m rather sick of having to drag you back just because that kid wants you here, I’m not gonna stop you this time. But I can’t guarantee the others, especially Zelo” You stared at Daehyun, not having anything more to say and he stared back, smiling and reaching for the door once he believed his words had an impact on you. He left the room and you sat staring at your things you zipped your suitcase up and crawled over to your bed, throwing your body onto it and sighing as you drifted into your thoughts.

“Y/N, are you coming out to eat tonight?” It was useless to ask but Zelo still made the journey to your room to ask you the same question every night.

“Will you ever knock?” You asked as he came over and sat at the side of your bed, causing you to wriggle away from his body.

“Touché” He nodded as he leant onto his hand, his eyes travelled over to your packed things as you rolled to face away from him.

“You know, you should really come downstairs and give those guys a chance, you don’t even have to acknowledge my presence, just I think it would be the best for everyone if you did. Come and at least have a small conversation with one of them, maybe then you would figure out not everyone is as horrible as you think they are”

“Oh no, we are horrible, we’ve killed the ones she loved the most in life after all” Zelo looked over to the door and you even sat up to see who it was making such a dick move to say something like that in front of you.

“You see that little bag in the suitcase? My razor is in there and I’m not afraid to end your life with it asshole” You snarled, almost hissed at the one you believed said such a thing and he shook his head as he, then four more men walked into the room with plates of cooked food in their hands. One of them walked towards you, holding out one of the plates they held to you and you blinked at them expressionlessly as they gave you an apologetic smile.

“Don’t listen to Himchan, he doesn’t know the difference between the right and wrong thing to say. I’m Jongup, I believe I didn’t get to tell you that yet Y/N” Jongup’s eyes gestured to the plate he was still holding out to you and you watched as Zelo gratefully took the food that he was given and took to making himself comfortable on your bed.

“What are you all doing in here?” You asked, slowly taking the plate and sitting it on the mattress as you stared at them all.

“You wouldn’t come down to eat with us, so we’re coming to eat with you” One of the younger looking ones shrugged and you looked down at your food as they all began eating and talking amongst themselves.

“You might want to start eating, otherwise you’re going to offend Youngjae” Zelo leant over, having noticed the said males heated stare on you and the plate you were just staring at. You looked up as he whispered to you and finally realised you were being watched.

“What a dumb thing to be offended about” You muttered back before stabbing your fork into the meat and shoving it in your mouth, effectively taking Youngjae’s eyes off of you.

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It was one in the morning when you heard the last noise made in the house, and it was half past one when you crawled out of the bed, still in your clothes from that day. You slipped into your shoes and put on a warm jacket before shutting your suitcase. You hoisted your bag over your shoulder and looked around the room to make sure you didn’t forget anything.

You contemplated as if you were choosing life or death as you stared at your pillow. Under it, the gun still awaited some sort of use. After biting down on your lip hard enough you brought yourself to the decision of shoving it down the side of your pants, letting the waistband of your jeans hold it and the length of your jacket hide it. You opened the door, you didn’t care about making noise, because Zelo just had to be his apparent so kind self and take everyone’s plates downstairs after you all ate, and Daehyun spilt the beans on you wanting to leave again. And everyone held no hesitation in agreeing that they had enough of you disturbing their sleep.

They weren’t going to stop you anymore, and you were going to run for it before Zelo could figure out you were leaving.

You forced yourself to walk quickly down the hall and you ignored the creak in the stairs as you dragged your things down to the first floor of the house. You sighed and tightened your grip on the handle of your suitcase.

“Where do you think you’re going?” You heard his voice, it was so curious but you only paused in opening the door for the shortest moment it wasn’t even noticeable.

“I’m out, bye” You muttered, not looking back as you rushed through the door and shut it behind you. You could actually sense the way something snapped within Zelo, and he didn’t even have to swing the door open for you to know he was going to march after you in a fit of rage.

“Y/N!” He snapped and you forced your legs to work faster as you ran away from him. Zelo had never felt such rage as he watched you pull your things down his driveway, the way you were so determined to leave his sight fuelled something within him that made him sprint that distance to be in front of you.

“What makes you think you can leave?!” He exclaimed, snatching the suitcase from your grip, he threw it behind you, back up his driveway and his hands clamped down on your shoulders as you tried to go back for it and continue making your escape.

“I’m not staying with the people that murdered my parents!” You screamed in his face as he bent down to seethe at you.

“In case you forgot Y/N, you don’t have a choice anymore, you were brought here by the government, the one you keep claiming won’t allow such things to exist!” He snapped back at you and you fought his grip, waving your arms and slapping your hand down with a clap coming from your hand whacking against his naked chest. Zelo growled as you continued to fight him and his hand reached under you jumper as you screamed.

“Let go!”

“Where the hell did you think you were gonna go with this Y/N?!” Zelo waved the gun in your face and you flinched away from it, letting out an animalistic growl as you continued to fight against him.

“Unbelievable” He hissed. You screamed once again as he took you in his grip, roughly forcing you off the ground as he carried you and your things back to the house. Zelo kicked the door open as you continued to writhe in his arms.

“Put me down, you insolent gangster!” You screeched and Zelo laughed bitterly as he dropped your things to the floor and marched up the stairs with you in a tight grip.

“That’s a new one. Now be quiet, we can’t have you waking the others up” He deadpanned as you continued to fight against his grip, hot tears rolling down your cheeks as you grunted angrily.

“Where are you taking me? Put me down you asshole!” You slapped him again but it was as if Zelo didn’t even feel it as he opened the door to a room you had never been in before and used his foot to slam it shut behind him.

“You can’t be trusted, can you Y/N?” You gasped as he dropped you on the bed and his own body followed suit. You stared at him with widened eyes as your breathing came to a crashing stop and you watched the way he stared down at you. His hands were on either side of your shoulders, stopping him from putting all of his weight on you as one of them travelled down your body. You shook nervously, your voice had made a run for itself and you were unable to speak, to tell him not to touch you again.

Zelo pulled at something and you let out a squeal as the sheets you had been laying on were pulled out from underneath you. Zelo collapsed next to you, covering the both of you in the blankets and putting your body in a vice-like grip with his arms.

You shook in his arms and blinked owlishly as Zelo pulled you closer and stared down at you. His warm breath fanned over your own shaky breaths of air and there was still a dark look in his eyes.

“If you can’t be trusted to stay with me Y/N, I’ll just have to watch over you” He muttered, you could hear the anger in his voice and you could only look away from his eyes, forcing your own shut and mentally scolding yourself for feeling such fear against him. It felt like he was still staring at you, even as his breathing became even and his arms just weighed down on you now. But there was still something within you that caused your shaking to continue as you forced your eyes to remain shut so you didn’t have to see the situation you had been put in.

Instead, you pulled the blankets closer to you and hoped you would be able to sleep through this.

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You didn’t know how you had managed to fall asleep but when you woke up with a start, you looked around at the room you were in and forced the dead weight holding you down off of your body. You got out of the room as quickly as you could and found your way back to what was could your room. When the door was shut behind you, a sigh fell from your lips and you found yourself momentarily relaxing as you walked towards the growingly familiar bed.

You hid under the covers and closed your eyes as you breathed out a breath of comfort. You may have been caught and ridden into fear, but this was just another night where you got caught trying to leave. Which meant one day you would successfully escape and fly away to make your own life again.

anonymous asked:

I`m getting sick of Youngjae`s arrogant and rude attitude towards Daehyun. Did you see his convo with Peniel? Poor Daehyun. Youngjae thinks he`s that good, it pisses me off that he gets his own room when Himchan or Daehyun should be the one getting their own room. Because of Youngjae I`m starting to hate being a baby, I love bap but I cant stand that pretentious bitch. he should be gone

Honestly, I didn’t even know how to properly reply to this shit so I got my bb to do it for me.

iwillkeepitlow:

Okay, first of all, “poor Daehyun.”  Really? Poor Daehyun? Just because Youngjae has other friends you feel the need to pity Daehyun? I don’t know what it is with people and this need to feel sorry for others who really have no reason to be pitied to begin with. “Thinks he’s that good” omg yeah, because he’s, um, what? FLAUNTING HIS FRIENDSHIP!!11 WITH SOMEONE ELSE!! like seriously is he only allowed to have one friend And yeah, okay I don’t even give a shit about the boys’ living arrangements but why would Youngjae be any less DESERVING OF HIS OWN ROOM OVER ANY OF THE OTHER MEMBERS. They should be looked at as equals anyway and you clearly think less of him to begin with so why am I even bothering with replying to this ugh ANYWAY you make it sound like he DEMANDED HE HAVE HIS OWN SPACE AND THEN FORCED THE OTHERS TO LIVE IN THE BASEMENT OR SOME SHIT and I feel so stupid even typing this out because the bottom line to all of this is, TO EVERYTHING ABOUT THESE GUYS IS YOU DO NOT KNOW SHIT. You can sit there and pretend to know things with the little bit of information you get, but at the end of the day… YOU DO NOT KNOW  SHIT I’m just sick of this negativity towards Youngjae, towards him and his relationship with Daehyun. Well, let me rephrase that, I’m sick of THIS SUDDEN INFLUX OF NEGATIVITY TOWARDS YOUNGJAE, THIS RECENT NEGATIVITY TOWARDS HIM because it’s always been like that and I have no idea why  Okay, so DAEJAE You guys don’t know a damn thing about what really goes on with them. Yes, they are best friends, we do know that. But because Youngjae makes a few jokes here and there about Daehyun not being his best friend and then omg him being friends with other people!11, that suddenly changes that fact? It just seems very convenient for all of you /overly Daehyun biased people to completely forget about how Youngjae used to talk about him when they first debuted. 

Because my blood type is AB, my emotions are really inconsistent so the bunny character would be full of playfulness, no? When it’s sad, it would be slouched and when it’s happy, it would hop up because it’s so excited~ I think a bunny character like that is most fitting with me. However, the most important thing is! Beside that bunny is a bunny friend like Daehyun who is good at taking jokes to be with it. Daehyun is the type of guy who’s really laid back in that he even takes all of my severe jokes when I’m feeling really happy.  x     Daehyun, the member I’m closet with: of course, I get along well and am close with all members but am closest with Daehyun. We are the only ones who are of the same age in our team, and since we share similar taste we share a lot with each other. I dream of starring in YouHeeYeol Sketchbook. Daehyun answered the same thing? We really do connect. x          He would bring Daehyun up, UNPROMPTED, ALL THE TIME in interviews and praise him, but no, now that he jokes in a certain way with his BEST FRIEND, YOU KNOW BECAUSE HE COULD ONLY BE LIKE THAT WITH SOMEONE HE WAS VERY, VERY CLOSE TO, no, now he’s a bitch and really doesn’t like Daehyun and doesn’t want to be his friend!111          YJ: BUT WHEN IT’S ONLY US TOGETHER, WE KEEP TEASING EACH OTHER FOREVER. (LAUGHS) x YOUNGJAE: “THE MOST INTERESTING QUESTION WAS FANS ASKING ME IF DAEHYUN WAS MY BEST FRIEND AND I SAID NO.” (LAUGHS) AFTER THIS: DAEHYUN SAID “PFFFT I LIKE TO PLAY BY MYSELF TOO ANYWAY.” (LAUGHS) x BUT OMG LOOK AT THIS EVERYONE!111 DAEHYUN OMG WHAT AN ASSHOLE!11 POOR YOUNGJAE!111111111 DAEHYUN: IF I JUST HAVE ONE DAY TO LIVE, I WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND SAY EVERYTHING I’VE WANTED TO SAY.
YJ: DO YOU WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH ME TOO?
DH: NO. ONLY WITH PERSONS THAT I LOVE  X IT’S CALLED     TWO FRIENDS    JOKING   WITH    EACH OTHER    The most important : “TO ME, DAEHYUN’S EXISTENCE IS ALSO SOMETHING THAT CANNOT BE REPLACED. THE PERSON THAT I TALK TO THE MOST IS DAEHYUN. EVEN WHEN THERE ARE PROBLEMS OR QUESTIONS, I WILL GO STRAIGHT TO DAEHYUN AND TALK ABOUT HOW TO RESOLVE IT. WE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER’S PROBLEMS AND FRUSTRATIONS SO WE HELP EACH OTHER OUT ABOUT IT.” - YOO YOUNGJAE   The way Youngjae acts, the way he acts towards Daehyun, as a “Baby” everyone should just know and understand by NOW that is just YOUNGJAE’S WAY  YES HE IS A BITCH YES HE IS SARCASTIC and obviously sarcasm goes over most people’s heads but whatever Yeah, I just don’t know and I just can’t with all of this, it makes me feel stupid to even have to reply to this dumbass post because like I said, this could all be summed up with YOU GUYS DON’T KNOW SHIT SO STFU AND STOP PRETENDING YOU DO AND STOP FORMING HARSH OPINIONS ABOUT PEOPLE THAT YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW and honestly, stop being so invested in a friendship that is not your own Stop hating someone just because they have a certain way with their friend that YOU take as cruel, when really, it’s just harmless fun between ~friends~, at least that’s how I look at it  Stop making it seem like all Youngjae does is break poor Daehyun’s heart and Daehyun sobs himself to sleep at night because his BEST FRIEND/NOT BEST FRIEND IS A BIG MEANIE!11 Honestly, just SHUT THE FUCK UP Youngjae is Youngjae and he is a crucial part of B.A.P and he DOES matter, especially to Daehyun If you can’t accept him after two years then I think it is YOU that needs to be gone