especially right now omg

Life goal: become fabulously wealthy and use that money to fund a bunch of all women versions of musicals even if I’m too old to act in them bc I know I am not the only woman who wishes she could sing some, or all, of the male parts

Me: idk. andi mack seems like some dumb gmw rip off. its probably gonna be shitty. *watches it anyway so i can judge it*

Me, now enlightened: ANDI MACK. ANDI MACK. SAY IT AGAIN FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK. ANDI MACK. ANDI MACK. A N D I M A C K.

anonymous asked:

Is there a case that Rafael had a hard time dealing with, one that he always goes back to?

//This is actually a really good question! I saw this right before I got in the shower so I had a little time to think about it, and I actually came up with three cases that he tends to think about a lot.

One is the case with the People VS Jeremy Jones, AKA the time Rafael went after a gay man married to another gay man for targeting gay men as a hate crime. Now this one he tends to remember pretty positively, because he did an amazing job handling this case, but as a member of the LGBT community himself, it also kind of stuck with him as being really disgusting. I’m listing this one first because of the three it made the least impact on him, but it still bothers him pretty regularly. The community is supposed to be a safe place for everyone in it, and he really hates how badly it failed at protecting those men in this case.

Another big one is the People VS Jolene Castille. That was the case with the southern celebrity that shot an unarmed black kid because she assumed he was a rapist – and also the only time we’ve seen Rafael cry in court. Castille was acquitted for this one, and Rafael still constantly thinks about it and wonders if he could’ve done more to ensure the conviction. That one really got to him, especially since he himself was once a poor POC kid living in New York City and just trying to get by. He used to see this kind of thing a lot as a teenager, where his friends and neighbors were arrested for what seemed to be breathing where they weren’t wanted. And it makes him sick that it’s still going on. He fought as hard as he could to get justice for Mehcad Carter, but it was an uphill battle from the start and he didn’t manage it. He so badly wanted justice for that family, and he wasn’t able to get it. And there are times he lays awake at night feeling like he should have fought harder. He should’ve worked more. He should’ve said this instead of that. He should’ve done whatever it took to let Mehcad’s memory rest peacefully. But he tried, and he did what he could. He just doesn’t feel like it was enough.

The worst one though, the one that sticks with him constantly, was the case against Alejandro Muñoz, his childhood best friend. It brought up a lot of old feelings, and this is one of the three episodes I thought about the most when I started working on Rafael’s characterization (this one, the one with Amaro’s dad, and the one with Rafael’s mother and grandmother being the three episodes). This one really messed him up. First of all, at this point I’m almost positive that Rafael was a little in love with Alex for a lot of their youth and never acted on it or mentioned it, and also that whole situation they bring up about how Yolanda and Rafael had a thing but she ended up “choosing” Alex (probably went after Rafi because he was going to Harvard and then found out that Alex was interested in politics lmao, I hate that woman so much I can’t tell you). So these are relationships that Rafael has been stuck in a web of for years up to this point. And the way they treat him, I can only assume that Rafael’s been horribly manipulated by both Alex and Yolanda separately on multiple occasions. So emotionally speaking, it wasn’t just about him dealing with being disillusioned to someone he used to care about, it’s also like if an emotionally abusive boyfriend he never got over and the woman who got away both showed up at the same time and started pressing all his buttons. Additionally, Rafael’s getting grief from basically every other over POC character who’s around that episode in equal measure for pursuing it at all, or not going after him hard enough. There’s that whole thing where the priest tells him off for going after Alex at all, and then  Nick tells him that he’s not going after Alex hard enough because he feels bad for leaving for Harvard. And Rafael does definitely feel bad for leaving. He often feels that he should’ve stayed with his roots and helped his mother and grandmother. But he left because he saw people being hurt and no one standing up for them, and he wanted to be the person who would fight for people who couldn’t defend themselves. He never forgot who he was or where he came from, he just left them so he could protect people who needed to be protected. But it doesn’t stop him feeling guilty for it. On top of that, he says in the episode how his mother used to tell him that Alex was going to be mayor someday and never said anything like that about Rafael. So one can only assume that his mother – whom he clearly adores despite her constantly finding fault with everything he does and blaming him for anything that goes wrong – was probably furious with him for pursing this like he did. And so putting away Alex almost felt symbolic of denying who he was in a lot of ways, and abandoning his past; even though that’s definitely not what it was. He made the best decision he could and really tried to do the right thing, but it was like being stabbed in the heart and then expecting to be fine right away. And it still haunts him. He still wonders if he did the right thing. Put in the same situation, he’d do it again, but he’s never really stopped feeling guilt over it.

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i regret nothing (insp.)

guys bitty’s birthday is in 5 days??? do you think him and jack are going to get to spend it together????? he’s turning 21, are rans and holster just going to get him as drunk as possible??? I hope he has a great day no matter what

CAN I JUST SAY HOW VERY GRATEFUL AND HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW??? I AM SO HAPPY AND VERY GRATEFUL RIGHT NOW AND ALL THESE FEELS - BECAUSE YOU GUYS - AND ALL YOUR LOVELY MESSAGES AND FEEDBACK AND TAGS - I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY - BUT I AM OVERJOYED BY THEM. THANK YOU, SO - -RUN UP TO YOU AND GIVE U A BEAR HUG- THANK YOU! ALL OF YOU, THANK YOU!

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lol the gif set of Oliver saying he needs felicity there reminded me of this video. This is him right now especially after this week’s episode :( :D

OMG JOHANNA THIS IS THE PERFECT REPRESENTATION OF OLIVER IN 3x07. I AM LAUGHING SO HARD I THINK I POPPED MY DIAPHRAGM.

I AM CONVINCED THAT THIS IS LOST FOOTAGE OF OLIVER IN THE LAIR AFTER SEEING THE RAYLICITY KISS. OMG. THE WAILING. THE HEARTACHE. POOR OLLIE.  

anonymous asked:

Every time I look at your blog I'm sure my ovaries explode. I love how you remember even the little things about the show! I love you and your blog so much! <3

Oh god, right! When I see our boys it is like…

Awww thanks. omg those boys make my ovaries explode, I’m surprised I have not spontaneously combusted yet. If I could get pregnant all the times Jensen or Misha or Jared made me….well you know…I would have a billlion kids right now

I feel like..omg and especially when I am doing screen shots or gifs and looking at them over and over. Oh god so hot. Thanks so much, you should message me your url so I can follow you =)

They are so damn hot

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