erin i only did this because i love you

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Back to the Past (Hamilton x Reader) 6

Words: 3000+

Warnings: none

A/N: the tags are now at the end of the story because they’ve gotten hefty (HEFTY HEFTY HEFTY) okay anywho enjoy i guess. OH YEA FYI i gave your best friend a name so have fun with that yall

Part1 Part2 Part3 Part4 Part 5 Part 7

Tu te fous de ma gueule! (You’re kidding me)” Lafayette said, widening his eyes.

“She’s my best friend, Lafayette. I know her.” You grew furious, tightening your hands. Laurens looked at your stance, and stood in front of you blocking your view. You tried looking around him, but he followed your movements. “Laurens, move. We have to make sure she doesn’t do anything to him.”

“You’re too angry right now. I think we should bring you back to the camp.” Laurens said, still standing there. You sighed in frustration, shaking your head. Your best friend was the witch. She’s the one that sent you here, that cursed your friends, Hamilton. But, why?

This is making less and less sense.

“Laurens, I need to confront her, I need to find out what’s going on.” You began walking to them, but you felt an arm grab your wrist. You turned back quickly, glaring. Mulligan held your arm, preventing you from going further. “Herc, let me go. Now.”

“No, I cannot do that. I cannot let you risk your life.” He said, looking at his friends. They all nodded, turning to you. “Like you said before, we have to watch and see. Do not make any more commotion than we already have.” He tilted his head, making your gaze look around. The men and women were looking at the four of you, questioning in your eyes. You frowned.

“But Herc, she’s my friend. I need to know.”

“Not now. Let’s go to the table and just watch.” You bit your lip, but nodded, letting them guide you back. You kept your eyes on her, watching her talk to Hamilton. He was giving her a polite smile, looking even more uneasy than before. You tapped your foot on the floor, glaring at her. She did not even glance at you, enjoying herself. Laurens placed his hand on your shoulder, smiling at you sadly.

You wanted to go over there and kill her yourself. But the three men around you would stop you before you could even stand. So you continued to stare, at least until their gazes turned to your table. Hamilton was the first to look, raising his eyebrow at your stare. You glanced down at your empty plate.

Mon amis, they are coming here.”

They walked toward us, Hamilton wearing a hesitant look on his face. Your best friend held her arm in his, her eyes only focused on you. You were about to get up, but Herc gave you a warning look, making you sit down.

“Lads, this is Miss Erin Greenwood. She requested that I showed her my friends.” He glanced over at you once, then looked back at his friends.

“Nice to meet you, Miss Greenwood.” Lafayette said, the first to stand. She held out her hand, and he froze. Usually, he would not hesitate to kiss a woman’s hand, but the situation called for a different tactic. He pretended to not see her outstretched hand at all, bowing to her once. Laurens and Mulligan greeted her, their calm demeanor confusing you. How could they just act this way towards the woman who erased their memories?

“And who is she?” She said innocently, looking at you. You glared at her, causing a nudge from Laurens. You were still sitting down, refusing to be polite to this woman.

“Ahh, this is Y/N Y/L/N. She is not from around here, but it seems like she cannot leave.” You frowned at his passive-aggressive behavior. Again, you had to remind yourself that this was not him.

Erin greeted you, curtsied once. You did nothing, staring at her. She smirked at your lack of common courtesy. “Hmm, Y/N. You are a very interesting woman.”

“That’s what everyone seems to say these days.” You replied.

“Would you like to talk? The men here seem like they have something to discuss.” You glanced at the four of them, and they all looked at you. Herc seemed the most worried, shaking his head at the suggestion. You gave him a sympathetic look, turning back to Erin.

“Sure.” You replied, and walked away with her. You could hear the four of them arguing as you walked away with Erin. It was quiet for a little, until you finally spoke up. “Why the hell did you do this? Why would you bring me back in time? What is going on and why shouldn’t I just punch you right now?” You hissed, following her to the refreshments table. She offered you a drink, buy you refused. You did not need more curses in your life.

“Y/N, I only did this because you did the same to me.”

“You keep on saying that, but I have no idea what you’re talking about.” She laughed, sitting at a table nearby, you sat across from her, waiting for her to say something, anything. Instead, she just sipped on her drink. “Come on now, Erin! Say something!”

“You cannot force me to say anything, Y/N. Remember the one who is in control here.” She said, an edge to her voice. “Besides, Hamilton seems to have taken a liking to me. It’s entertaining to see him hate the love of his life.” She giggled, placing her drink to the side.

What was she talking about?

“You see, Y/N, we have gone through this, multiple times. You and I like Alexander, there’s some sort of love square instead of a triangle, and he always picks you. Every. Single. Time.” She held on to her glass tightly, and you noticed cracks appearing.

“You’re not making any sense, what are you even saying?”

She shrugged, looking over at Hamilton. The boys were talking casually now, glancing at the two of you ever so often. You saw Mulligan looking at you, concern in his eyes. You smiled, not wanting him to worry.

“I don’t even know anymore. It’s tiresome that I am the only one who remembers everything. Why can’t you just wake up in another life, knowing that you are going to meet me soon enough? And that you’re going to take Alexander from me again.” She sighed, stirring her drink with her finger.

“Are you talking about reincarnation?” You asked, and she nodded.


“For fucks sake, Erin, just-“ She stopped stirring, looking up at you. There was an evil gleam in her eyes, so you decided to rephrase your words. “Erin, we were best friends. Can you just tell me what’s going on?”

“You see, you and I were friends in Athens,” you widened your eyes, “Yes, stop staring at me like that, it is in fact Ancient Greece. Can I continue?” You nodded.

“We were servants, maids of some man who I care not to talk about now. We grew to be friends, agreeing that we should escape from the job. It was not easy, you, see, we were to pleasure the man. He had a wife, of course, but sometimes he wanted to mix it up a little.” You saw the fear in Erin’s eyes, and you grew sympathetic towards her. “We ran out, one day, and stumbled across a group of men. I knew you were terrified, since it was my idea to run away in the first place. They noticed that we were dirty and barely had on any clothing, so they brought us to their home.”

“Long story short, they were the boys; Lafayette, Mulligan, Hamilton and Laurens. Although that wasn’t their names back then. I liked Alexander, and you knew, so you avoided him. He was a flirt, but he seemed to gravitate towards you, always talking about how amazing Y/N was. It was frustrating, and I appreciated how you ignored his advances. Mulligan liked you, though, and you never noticed, taking his flirts as just kindness. It was really sad seeing him like you and you not like him. Eventually, though, he asked for you to be his bride. You agreed.”

“Why would I agree to marrying someone I wasn’t in love with?”

“That’s how it was back then, Y/N. You were glad to be with a man of his stature. Hamilton was furious, but of course he didn’t tell his friend that.”

“It was horrible. Alexander ignored me the whole time, and if he did talk, he would ask about you. He crashed the wedding, by the way. Drama and more drama, and by the end, it was the two of you who were married. It’s funny, how things ended. I wanted to be with him, I deserved to be with him. I talked to a local priestess and she convinced me to learn magic. I thought I put on a curse to separate the two of you. I didn’t think this would happen, I didn’t know we would be stuck in this loop. I was being a stupid girl, in love with a man who would never love me. I still love him,” She said, now playing with her fingers, “All of us. The boys, me and you, we’ll be stuck in this loop forever, until you figure out how to break it.”

You were quiet, absorbing all the information. Alexander and you, you were supposed to be together, you were meant to be together. You looked at the table of friends, smiling at the laughing Hamilton. He looked towards you, and his smile dropped, he looked away. You looked back at Erin.

“Why did you make him hate me? You were never a bad friend to me. But you made him hate even looking at me. Why did you even send me here?” You were indeed hurt. She made this whole curse happen, and now, she made the one person who would make this bearable despise you. She was not as much of a villain that you made her out to be, but she still made this happen.

Erin sighed. “I did it because I hated just standing in the background the whole time. You don’t know how it feels to see the one you love, love someone else. I wanted you to see him hate you, Y/N. I needed to see you hate him too.”

“You do realize that I don’t love him, right?” You said, and she laughed, rolling her eyes.

“Right. You don’t, but you will. If you haven’t already been lying to yourself. I’ve seen this dozens of times, Y/N, trust me.”

She was frustrating. It hurt for Hamilton to hate you without any reason, but you only liked him. You took another look at him, noticing that your friends were gone. You stood up quickly, looking around frantically. Then you noticed something.

Everyone was gone. You looked back at Erin, and she smiled, putting her legs on a chair next to her.

“What are you doing-”

“I don’t need anyone overhearing our conversations. Especially those friends of yours,” She scoffed, “but then again, they were mine too, on multiple occasions.” She nodded her head to herself, pursing her lips.

“Why did you send me here?” You asked, and she laughed.

“Actually, you did that to yourself.”


“Remember when I told you about the musical?” You nodded, and she continued, “Well, you were researching about Alexander Hamilton, you clicked on some link. I have no idea how that sent you back here, but it did. And it sent me as well.”

“If we’re reincarnated, then what happened to us? Our selves in this time?”

“Well, your name was Margarita Schuyler van Rensselaer, the sister of Hamilton’s future wife. You died in this timeline early, and you weren’t supposed to, by the way. Since you died, I ended up dying as well. My name was, hmm, it doesn’t really matter. I’m not important.” You heard the tang of sadness in her voice. “This is probably why Alexander dies early as well.”

“He dies?” Your heart dropped. She raised her eyebrows.

“Wow, you really are an uncultured swine. You were much more interesting in London, by the way. Being a spy and all,” You raised your eyebrows, “Did you not listen to the soundtrack? Aaron Burr shot Hamilton? His friend turned enemy? Wow, you really don’t know.” You thought of Alexander being killed, and your felt your heart jump.

It’s funny, you did not love the man, and it’s already hurting because of him. You tried not to worry about it.

Emphasis on tried.

“How do I get the curse taken off Hamilton?” You asked her, and she smiled. You were thinking that this woman was more like infatuated with Hamilton instead of being in love with him. Talking about someone you love dying is not an easy subject, and no one would want the person they loved to be manipulated like this.

“I knew I was forgetting something! You must fall in love with him, or, the other way around. Either way, it does not really matter. It will work, you just have to make him like you. The curse will wear off each time you play one of his heartstrings, until it completely goes away. ” She glanced at the nonexistent watch on her wrist. “Oh, look at the time! Have fun, Y/N! I’ll see you on the other side!" 

“Wait, Erin, how do I get back-”

She snapped her fingers, and you blinked.

The music was no longer playing, and the place was completely empty. Erin was gone, and you were sitting alone at the table. You felt a hand on your shoulder, and turned to see Lafayette standing there. He smiled down at you.

Mon ami, are you alright?“ You nodded. "We were looking for you, the witch that calls herself Erin and yourself were gone. It is, how you say, worrisome. Mulligan is outside, and Laurens is checking the room with water bowls.”

“The restroom, Lafayette?”

“Ahh, yes, mon ami. I apologize for my English.” He said, blushing. He took his arm off your shoulder, and you stood up. “Hamilton is looking as well, Y/N. He seemed very nervous.” You bit your lip.

Hamilton was nervous? Why was he nervous? Shouldn’t he hate you?

“Thanks for telling me.” He nodded, smiling at you once. The two of you decided to wait for them to come back to the room instead of chasing after them. Hamilton was the first to come in, and you saw relief in his eyes. That emotion quickly turned to annoyance, and he bothered you on his much chaos you caused. Laurens came after, a smile almost breaking his freckled cheeks. He touched you hand, squeezing it.

Mulligan came in last, desperation on his face. His eyes met yours, and he walked over to you quickly. You were surprised that he pulled you in his arms, hugging you tightly. You haven’t had the comfort of a hug in a while, so it was refreshing, you wrapping your arms around him. You heard someone clear their throat, and Mulligan let go, smiling down at you. “I’m glad you are safe.” He said, a small blush on his cheeks.

“Thank you. Thank you all for looking out for me. But I need to speak to Hamilton.” They all looked at Hamilton, and he had the most shocked look on his face. They waited for you to continue, and you looked at them expectantly. “Alone.” Lafayette and Laurens nodded, walking away. Mulligan stayed behind, refusing to move from his spot. “Herc…”

“Is this about the curse? Shouldn’t we all listen?” You rubbed your head. You were going to tell them, but you needed to speak to Alexander first. He was the one most involved in it.

“Yes, and I’ll tell you, but just give me a few minutes.”


“Go, Mulligan.” You replied sternly, and he was taken aback by your change of tone. He turned around and walked away, closing the door behind him. You turned to Hamilton, and his mouth was in a line, showing no emotions. He stood tall, his arms behind his back. His stance was very unwelcoming, but you could deal with it for now. You sat at a nearby table, gesturing for him to sit as well. He hesitated, but sat, saying nothing.

You began explaining the whole situation to him, and he was unpredictably calm, at least until you got to the part about how you needed to break the curse. He snickered, leaning back in the chair. “I do not even like you, how would I fall in love with you? The way of ridding of this curse makes no sense. There is no slither of hope.”

“I know, trust me, I know.” You did not want to argue with him, it was too exasperating. Instead, you touched his hand. He flinched, moving away quickly.

“Do not touch me.” He stated, and you nodded.

“Fine, Hamilton. I’m just stunned that you fear a woman’s touch.” 

He sneered, and before he could reply with a snide remark, you stood up, opening the door for the three musketeers to come in. “You can come in now.” The three of them walked through the door, nervous.

You told them the predicament as well, and they all nodded. Hercules was the most distraught though, you could see it written on his face. Since your impromptu visit here, you noticed that he rarely showed how he felt. But the veins swelling on his hands and the tightening of his jaw showed you that he did not like this one bit. “So, you and Hamilton are meant to be together, no matter what may happen?” You nodded, and Hamilton laughed behind you.

“I know, it’s quite preposterous. Can you imagine Y/N and I together? That will be the day.” You rolled your eyes at him, and Mulligan could not help but notice the interaction between the two of you.

You and Hamilton did not realize it yet, but there was no more tension in the room. Hamilton still disliked Y/N, but not as much as before. He could stand next to you without frowning in distaste. And you were smiling. Mulligan saw the potential when the two of your first met, and he could still see it now. He hoped that you would come to like him instead, but you told him you could not. And now he knew why.

“Mulligan? Are you ready to go?” Laurens asked, touching his friend’s shoulder. Mulligan nodded, giving him a tight smile.

He knew that he would get the short end of the stick. It always seemed to end that way.

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Look, I spent four years on the west side in a patrol car. That was my education.

Given I am a study oriented blog, I feel this post is necessary. It’s almost August (yay new semester!), and I have just about gathered all of the supplies I plan to use this semester. Also, I’ll give you the low down on prices because we are all on a budget.

First things first: I’m a junior taking 18 hours - Classes include: British Literature II, Shakespeare’s Comedies, Advanced Spanish Grammar, Honors Political Science, Linguistics, and World Civilizations. My point is I am completely humanities oriented. You won’t find much math and science help here, sadly.

Notebooks: I use five star notebooks because they are my favorite. I know they are more expensive, but they are awesome quality. I prefer notebooks to binders because I just find it easier to have a notebook on my desk that I can quickly flip through. Binders are bulky, and I typically end up taking out looseleaf to take my notes and putting them back, etc. It’s a pain in my ass. I have a graph paper notebook for history because it is easier to take notes, for me. I use the Cornell method for history type classes, and the graph paper gives me a lot more working room. The others are either 1 or 3 subject college ruled notebook. Some notebooks share 2 classes. All together, I have 4. I’d estimate I spent about $20.00 on notebooks.

1" Binder: I have a 1 inch binder to keep my powerpoint printouts, syllabi, and handouts in. It’s small and can keep all loose papers together. I also use the binder to keep the study guides I make in. The binder is what I go to before an exam, project, etc. I know this seems complicated, but it has always worked for me. I keep flashcards and study aids in there as well. The notebooks are for the pieces, and the binder is for the sum. You can find 1 inch binders everywhere, and for little money - I believe I got mine at Office Depot for about $4.00.

Sharpie Gel Highlighters: Again, these are are pricier than most highlighters, BUT they are my absolute favorite.They last forever and look so neat in your notes. I got the big pack with all the colors they have. They also came in a cute little pouch to keep up with them in. The big pack was $15.00 at Office Depot; however, they have small packs with the basic colors for about $6.00.

Papermate Flair: I use papermate flair pens, mainly. I typically use these for book notes/study guides/ and for my planner. They are felt tip, and I love how bold they are. Great for color coding. I buy a pack of all of the colors, then a four pack of the black ones. For both, it’s about $20.00.  Like the highlighters though, you can get smaller packs. For basic colors and a two pack of black, you can get away for about $12.00. My obsession runs deep with these pens. For lecture notes, I use regular BIC stick pens. They are super cheap. My lecture notes are usually messy with a lot of info. No point in wasting my flair ink on them. TIP: Sam’s Club sells a pack of BIC stick pens in blue, black, and red, with 2 highlighters, a permanent marker, and mechanical pencils for $5.00.They are awesome.

Index cards, Post Its, Tabs: Things like these I tend to stockpile. I use them for everything. When it comes to these things, DO NOT GO TO AN OFFICE SUPPLY STORE. They are a rip off. Target and Walmart have awesome school supply sales this time of year. You can get a single pad of post its for a dollar in almost any color right now at target. I use them in textbooks, my planner, novels, EVERYTHING. Not a penny wasted. They are great for organizing. 

I’m not picky about index cards. They’re all the same. I buy mine in the 300 packs and they are about $2.50, depending on where you get them. Mist places are the same. I get white and usually some colored ones. The colored ones may be a dime more. It’s not a huge difference whatsoever. I use index cards for vocab in history and spanish, and I also use them for major themes in my literature classes. 

Erin Condren Planner: My Baby. My Pride and Joy. I LOVE my planner. I got it in April when they were deeply discounted because it was only 9 months. It spans from April 2014 - December 2014. I did this so I wouldn’t be throwing away so much money in case I didn’t like it. I fell in love. You can customize the cover with your own colors and name and ahhhh, its amazing. I keep so much in here: to do lists, my actual planning (assignments, appointments, work hours, etc), lists of books and movies, goals, and in the back I’ve even created a space for assignment and exam logs. It is in my bag at ALL times. Recently, Erin Condren has released the new planner for 2014-2015. She has new designs and has made some awesome changes from the 2013-2014. You can get 18 months for $55.00. I know it sounds steep, but that is a year and a half of use. They are sturdy and hold up amazingly. I know Lilly Pulitzer ones run around $40.00, but these are so much better. FiloFax is also rather pricey, but I have a secret love for those. MY POINT IS, a good planner is important. If you happen to cross over to EC though, I have a $10.00 off referral code I’d be happy to give you. Soon, I hope to do a post about how I’ve organized my planner.

I hope you guys have enjoyed my supply rant, haha. I just get so excited and you guys share my joy. Good luck this year! There’s not much that can stop you.

Happy holidays holtzbert fans

So I was an extra in the concert scene of ghostbusters and when they’re trapping the ghost holtzmann had a line to erin that went something like this: Holtzy: make sure you don’t cross the streams because the beam will bounce back and make every atom in your body explode Erin: what?! And you’re only telling me this now?! Holtzy: I’m only telling you because I love you Hopefully Sony doesn’t come for my ass for this. I was very disappointed it didn’t at least make it onto the gag reel since they did that exchange on almost every take.

Halloween with Justin

Considered it was October 31st, Justin and I had decided to go to Canada to be with Justin’s family. Halloween had always been a big part of my life. My parents always used to decorate the house, and even though I never actually wanted to dress up – at least not as a teenager – they always made me, and honestly I couldn’t thank them enough, because if they hadn’t made me, then I wouldn’t have been here – with Justin – because we met at a Halloween party 2 years ago.
“Y/N, JUSTIN!” Jazmyn yelled as Justin and I came in through the front door. We had just arrived, and considered that we just had spent 13 hours in a plane, we were tired, but I was never too tired for Jazmyn and Jaxon, and Justin for that matter.
“Hey sweetie” I said as I bended down in front of her. Jazmyn ran into my arms and hugged me tight. Luckily I had hit it off with both Jazmyn and Jaxon ever since the first time I met them.
“Where’s my hug?” Justin asked as he pouted. Jazmyn and I pulled away from each other and looked at Justin. Jazmyn ran over to him and jumped into his arms.
“BIEBER!” she yelled, apparently that caught Jaxon’s attention, because a few seconds later he stood in the doorway. I charming smiled, wriggled my eyebrows and opened my arms for Jaxon to come hug me.
Jaxon shyly walked over to me and wrapped his tiny arms around my body, he was so cute.
“How’s my prince charming?” I asked him, Justin shyly giggled and looked down.
“Good” he mumbled. I smiled widely and gave him a squeeze.
“Don’t be so shy, Jaxon, I’m just messing with you” I told him, Justin nodded his head and pulled away from me.
“Come here, buddy” Justin said as he bended down, Jaxon went over to him and hugged him tight.
“Y/N, come see! Mom and I bought us matching costumes” Jazmyn said, she grabbed my hand and dragged me upstairs to her bedroom.
“Look” she said as she pointed towards two costumes, which I guessed was witch costumes.
“Aww, we’re going to be matching” I told her as I picked her up, even though she was getting bigger and almost was too big to be carried around.
“I’ll just put mine and Justin’s stuff in our room, then we can go downstairs and carve some pumpkins” I told her. Jazmyn smiled and jumped down from my arms.
“Okay, I’ll just get mom” she said, I nodded my head, then she ran downstairs, and I went into Justin and I’s bedroom for the next week.
“Hey baby” Justin suddenly said from behind me. I turned around and walked over to him.
“Hey” I told him as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I pecked his lips and sighed.
“I’m so tired” I told him, Justin nodded his head in agreement and sighed, too.
“I know, but we’ll just carve some pumpkins, then we can take a nap, and then go trick or treating with Jazmyn and Jaxon” he told me, I nodded my head and closed my eyes.
“Let’s go” I told him. Justin grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers. We walked downstairs and went into the kitchen, where we greeted Jeremy and Erin. Even though they weren’t together, they luckily could stay in the same room, there actually wasn’t any problem in that.
“Hey” I smiled as I hugged both of them.
“Where’s Pattie?” I asked them. Jeremy and Erin looked at each other.
“She isn’t coming” Jeremy told me. I furrowed my eyebrows and frowned.
“Why not?” I asked him. I looked at Justin, who cleared was upset, which I totally understood! He missed his mom, and who could blame him? He barely saw her anymore!
“She got caught up at work with a meeting, but she’ll be here to spend Thanksgiving with us” Erin explained. Justin nodded his head and sat down by the table. I went behind him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I pecked his neck and nuzzled my head into his neck.
I never liked seeing him this upset.
Justin smiled and turned his head, then he pecked my lips.
“Why don’t you guys start carving there pumpkins?” Jeremy asked Jazmyn and Jaxon, and Justin, too.
“Y/N, can I have a word with you?” he then asked me. I gulped and nodded my head. Justin frowned and looked at us weirdly.
I shrugged my shoulders at him and went with Jeremy into the living room.
“Don’t worry, Y/N! It’s nothing bad” Jeremy chuckled, he must have seen the look on my face.
“I just wanted to thank you” he told me, I raised an eyebrow and crossed my arms over my chest.
“For what?” I asked him, Jeremy smiled widely and sat down.
“For taking such good care of my boy” he told me, “He’s going through a hard time at the moment, and if you hadn’t been by his side, then I’m not sure he would have made it this far” he told me. I smiled and sat down beside him.
“Justin means everything to me, he’s the love of my life, and all I want to do is make him smile, because he deserves it” I told him. Jeremy smiled widely, then he pulled me in for a hug and stood up afterwards.
After a few hours of carving pumpkins Justin and I went upstairs to our bedroom.
“So, I’m the love of your life, huh?” Justin asked with a smirk, I gasped and started pouting.
“You listened to our conversation?” I asked him, Justin smirked and nodded his head.
“Yeah, and thank you” he told me, then he laid me on the bed and hovered over me. He kissed my lips, then he laid down beside me, and we both fell asleep.
Around 7pm Justin and I woke up again, only because Jazmyn and Jaxon came into the room and jumped into the bed.
“JUSTIN, Y/N IT’S TIME FOR TRICK OR TREATING!” they told yelled, I groaned and sat up. I was even more tired now, if that was even possible!
Jazmyn dragged me out to one if the many bathrooms in the house and made me sit on the toilet.
“Wake up, Y/N! You need to help me get dressed” she told me. I rubbed my eyes and nodded.
“Okay, let’s do this, we need to impress the boys” I told her.
I helped her get into the dress, then I made her sit on the toilet as I made a very light makeup on her precious face.
“Okay, now you get dressed, Y/N” Jazmyn told me. I had no problem in getting dressed in front of Jazmyn, I had done it lots of times before.
I stripped out of my sweatpants and sweatshirt, then I put on the dress and made a light makeup. Then Jazmyn and I both got on our hat’s and went downstairs.
We went into the living room, where we heard talking. I cleared my throat, which caught everyone’s attention.
“Whoa” Justin said as he stood up. Him and Jaxon were dressed as Power Rangers, which involved in Justin Justin wearing a really tight, spandex costume, and of course I couldn’t help but stare at his gorgeous and sexy body!
“Right back at ya’” I told him as I smirked. Justin walked over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He pulled me closer and placed his lips on mine, but sadly the kiss didn’t last long, because Jazmyn and Jaxon started screaming; “GROSS!”.
“Are you guys ready to leave?” Erin asked them, they both nodded their heads, then they grabbed their bags and went out of the front door.
Jeremy and Erin was also dressed up, so we all went with Jazmyn and Jaxon, and they really seemed to enjoy it. Justin and I sure had a lovely evening. Justin kept kissing me, and he tried to grab my ass – more than one time – but luckily he dress had a lot of layers, so I was the only one that could grab any ass, because it was so easy to grab his 😉

Did you guys have a scary Halloween? 🎃

Wedding day (Requested)

*Y/N Pov*
Today is going to be the most beautiful day in my entire life. I was excited as hell and I’ve waited so long for this day to come. I woke up in the morning with Justin, my fiancé, by my side his arms wrapped around me. A smile flashed over my face and I decided to just lay there and enjoy the moment. Around ten minutes later I finally got up and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and washed my hair before I got dressed. As I finally was ready I went downstairs and made some breakfast. I set the table and headed back to our sleeping room to wake Justin up. I softly kissed his lips until he opened his eyes and looked at me. He smiled immediately. “Good morning beautiful”, he whispered and stroked my cheek before leaning in for another kiss. “Good morning baby. Breakfast is ready”, I answered after the kiss and he told me that he’d get ready so he got up and I went back to the kitchen.

After we had breakfast Kendall came by to pick me up. I gave Justin a goodbye kiss and he told me that he was excited. “So am I.” I smiled at him and left with Kendall. We went to her house where Hailey already waited. I gave her a hug and then they immediately started doing my hair and my make up. I told them they should get a makeup artist but they wanted to do it all by theirselves so I let them. It took them around one and a half hour to finish but as soon as I looked in the mirror I saw that it was worth it. “Girls, you did a great job! I’m looking amazing”, I admitted full of joy and gave both of them a hug. “Thank you!” Kendall left the room and came back with my wedding dress. We choose it together and I really love it. They helped me to put it on and once again I looked at myself in the mirror. I really felt like a princess and I was sure that Justin would love it.

The time came when we had to head off to the church. In front of it they both have me a last hug before going in and taking their seats. My mother and my father who have waited for me came over. My mom looked so happy and so did my dad. She gave me a hug and almost started crying. “You look so beautiful, Y/N!”, she said and tried to calm herself. She went in because my father was the one passing me to Justin. “I love you my little princess”, he whispered giving me a kiss on my forehead. I smiled because I was so happy. “I love you, Daddy”, I replied.

The music started playing which was the sign for us to walk in. I linked arms with my Dad holding the bouquet in the other hand and then started walking in. Everyone stood up and all eyes laid on us but I just looked at Justin who was waiting for me at the altar. He smiled so bright as he saw me.

We finally got to him so my father gave him my hand. They hugged and then he took a seat next to my mother in the first row. “My beautiful bride”, he whispered in my ear what caused me smiling brightly.

We sat down and the vicar started to talk. “Dearly Beloved, we are gathered together here in the sign of God – and in the face of this company – to join together this man and this woman in holy matrimony, which is commended to be honorable among all men; and therefore – is not by any – to be entered into unadvisedly or lightly – but reverently, discreetly, advisedly and solemnly. Into this holy estate these two persons present now come to be joined. If any person can show just cause why they may not be joined together – let them speak now or forever hold their peace.”

He paused for a moment but then resumed.

“Marriage is the union of husband and wife in heart, body and mind. It is intended for their mutual joy – and for the help and comfort given on another in prosperity and adversity. But more importantly – it is a means through which a stable and loving environment may be attained.

Through marriage, Justin and Y/N make a commitment together to face their disappointments – embrace their dreams – realize their hopes – and accept each other’s failures. Justin and Y/N will promise one another to aspire to these ideals throughout their lives together – through mutual understanding – openness – and sensitivity to each other.

We are here today – before God – because marriage is one of His most sacred wishes – to witness the joining in marriage of Justin and Y/N. This occasion marks the celebration of love and commitment with which this man and this woman begin their life together. And now – through me – He joins you together in one of the holiest bonds. This is a beginning and a continuation of their growth as individuals. With mutual care, respect, responsibility and knowledge comes the affirmation of each one’s own life happiness, growth and freedom. With respect for individual boundaries comes the freedom to love unconditionally. Within the emotional safety of a loving relationship – the knowledge self-offered one another becomes the fertile soil for continued growth. With care and responsibility towards self and one another comes the potential for full and happy lives.

By gathering together all the wishes of happiness and our fondest hopes for Justin and Y/N from all present here, we assure them that our hearts are in tune with theirs. These moments are so meaningful to all of us, for “what greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined together – to strengthen each other in all labor – to minister to each other in all sorrow – to share with each other in all gladness.

This relationship stands for love, loyalty, honesty and trust, but most of all for friendship. Before they knew love, they were friends, and it was from this seed of friendship that is their destiny. Do not think that you can direct the course of love – for love, if it finds you worthy, shall direct you.

Marriage is an act of faith and a personal commitment as well as a moral and physical union between two people. Marriage has been described as the best and most important relationship that can exist between them. It is the construction of their love and trust into a single growing energy of spiritual life. It is amoral commitment that requires and deserves daily attention. Marriage should be a life long consecration of the ideal of loving kindness – backed with the will to make it last.”

Again he stopped because it was time for us to exchange our vows. We stood up and Justin started to talk. “Y/N, we know each other for so long now and I love you with all my heart. You’re the reason why I am smiling and happy. You’re making me a better person and therefore I’d like to thank you. I’m so proud to call you my girl and very soon my wife. My beautiful loving and caring wife.” I felt the tears filling my eyes but I tried not to let them out because I had to talk now. “Justin, you’re the best thing that ever happened to me and I want to thank you for helping me whenever I needed you, for supporting me whenever I was down and for just giving me your love because it’s the most valuable thing that I own.” I finished talking and I wasn’t the only one almost crying. My parents had tears in their eyes and Justin had tears rolling down his cheeks as well but I couldn’t hold them back, either. The vicar continued his speech and turned to Justin.

“Do you Justin Bieber take Y/N Y/L/N to be your wife – to live together after God’s ordinance – in the holy estate of matrimony? Will you love her, comfort her, honor and keep her, in sickness and in health, for richer, for poorer, for better, for worse, in sadness and in joy, to cherish and continually bestow upon her your heart’s deepest devotion, forsaking all others, keep yourself only unto her as long as you both shall live?”, he asked and everybody now turned to Justin. “I will”, he answered looking at me with a smile on his face.

The vicar was now talking to me. “Do you Y/N Y/L/N take Justin Bieber to be your husband – to live together after God’s ordinance – in the holy estate of matrimony? Will you love him, comfort him, honor and keep him, in sickness and in health, for richer, for poorer, for better, for worse, in sadness and in joy, to cherish and continually bestow upon him your heart’s deepest devotion, forsaking all others, keep yourself only unto him as long as you both shall live?” I nodded and smiled while looking at my lovely future husband. “I will.”

“May I have the rings, please”, he asked and so
Justin’s little sister and his little brother came over to us holding the pad with the rings. They were sitting right next to Pattie, Jeremy and Erin in the first row and we were so happy to have them with us on our journey. We exchanged our rings and I had to admit that Justin really did a great job in picking them because they were the most beautiful and probably the most expensive rings on the planet. I would be happy with some cheap ones, too but they were just so awesome.

The vicar took the rings and continued. “As a token that you will faithfully perform these vows, you will now exchange rings.
The ring is an endless circle: a symbol of the covenant you are making here today.
As you place the ring on your fingers say:
<As I place this ring on your finger, I pledge myself to you. I am yours.>” He gave us the rings so Justin started placing the ring on my finger while saying this sentence. I did the same thing and then the moment has come when we finally could share a kiss as married couple. Everyone applauded and in this moment I was so happy. We slowly walked out of the church and waited for our sedan to come in front of it while everyone congratulated us.

We partied the entire evening but to be honest I was so happy to finally be home in the evening. I got undressed and laid down in my underwear because I was so tired. As soon as Justin was ready he came over so we cuddled. “I love you so much, Mrs. Bieber”, he mumbled smirking a bit before he gently kisses my lips. I rolled my eyes but anyways it was fucking cute. “I love you too my husband”, I responded. Smiling I continued our kiss for a while but we both were tired of this beautiful but strenuous day. “Good night, beautiful”, he whispered kissing my forehead before he closed his eyes. “Good night, baby.” I hid my face in his crook of the neck and thought once again about this amazing day before I fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

Wedding dress and wedding rings coming up

Happy Thanksgiving

Today in America marks a very important date. It’s a date of food. Lots and lots of food. More importantly, it’s a date of being thankful for what we have. This year, I’m thankful for a lot of things, people mostly. Specifically, I’m thankful for the 1,035 people who choose to follow me and read my work and encourage me. This is a shoutout to all 1,035 of you.

I do want to highlight a few people in my life who have made it better.

@iwantthedean Now, I know we don’t talk much, but I want to say thank you for all your comments on my fics. You were the first person I came to when I started writing because I wanted to get myself out there. Thank you for letting me tag you and for your encouraging words.

@supernatural-jackles Jen, you were my first tumblr friend. I’m not sure how our friendship started, but I have a feeling it had to do something with Where It All Began. That fic was the start of my dean!curiosity, thanks for that. Thank you for being an amazing friend and for sticking by my side. I’m sorry if I’ve ever annoyed you with how much I talk to you. You’re wonderful, Jen. Don’t ever change.

@lipstickandwhiskey Truthfully, I could write a novel about you Lips. I still remember the first ask you ever sent me. I know I already told you this, but you have been a big influence in my life these last few months. Thank you for all the conversations and spams of Sam’s hands(and butt, and hair). OH! And for letting me come to you with all the feels every episode.

@winchestersnco If only I had discovered you earlier. Thanks to Lips, you and I became friends and now I still can’t believe that we’re most likely going to go to phxcon and vancon together. Thank you for all the baby fever and for taking me to IKEA that one time. Lets do it again. You’re wonderful Erin.

@hasta-impalasta You’re my milestone buddy and I love that not only did we hit 500 roughly at the same time but we hit 1,000 at the same time too. You’re a great writer and I absolutely love talking to you. Lets do more of it.

I’ve gotta highlight a few of my favorite writers too, because I’m thankful for the wonderful reading material they’ve graciously posted on here and given to me(us) to view at no cost. 

@writingbeautifulmen Choosing you made me so ridiculously Dean curious it’s not even funny. As sad as I am that it’s over, I will for sure be going back and reading it some time. Your writing is wonderful, and I love the little conversations we have.

@impala-dreamer I always get excited when I see you’ve posted a new fic. You have an amazing tone that you write in, and I’m always so happy to read your posts.

@teamfreewill-imagine Your daddy!sam series and gen/jared series are two of my favorites right now. Your writing is wonderful and I always look forward to seeing your fics.

@torn-and-frayed You really know how to bring out the dean!curiosity in me. Though we don’t talk, I thank you for all the support you’ve given me. You are an amazing human being and an amazing writer. 

@d-s-winchester @thing-you-do-with-that-thing @oriona75 @ilostmyshoe-79 @impalaimagining @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps @imadeangirl-butimsamcurious To name a few off the top of my head and I’m sure I’m forgetting some, but thank you all for your wonderful fics and support to not only me but other writers out there. Y’all have special places in my heart. 

Originally posted by bitchandjerk