epsilon!church

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I was actually super happy to get this suggestion because I haven’t been able to figure out what to draw but these two definitely are something I should have! These two pictures are named lina and epsy.png and dadsilon.png appropriately :y

I hope you like these, I enjoyed drawing them!

(please don’t repost or use w/o permission, and leave my description; thanks!)

RvB15: Mysterious Cobalt Guy

So, here’s the “inverted colours” image of our character wearing Church’s armour.

And here’s another image (THe yellow is on the door behind him, this isn’t Wash.

FInally, we have this image, which shows the Wanted list.

The top row shows Sarge, Grif, Simmons, and Donut.

The second row shows Lopez, Caboose, Church, and Tucker.

The bottom row shows Carolina and Wash.

Wash is in his grey armour, and is separate from Church. So this isn’t them thinking that Church is alive because Wash was using his name and armour. Given than Hargrove is likely orchestrating this, he probably knows the state that Epsilon was in prior to the end of Season 13, and Epsilon introduced himself to the galaxy as Epsilon, not Church in his broadcasts.

So… who is this mystery Church?

Church canonically has dissociative identity disorder. In canon, they use the old term, “multiple personality disorder,” but it’s the same thing. Church has DID.

“Like reverse-engineering a multiple personality disorder.” - Wash, in season 6, chapter 16.

I also believe it’s mentioned one other time, but I can’t quite remember when. If anyone remembers, please let me know.

Church also has C-PTSD, or Complex PTSD. It’s a different, more recently added version (if i recall correctly) of PTSD that describes the effects of prolonged trauma rather than just one event.

symptoms include:
difficulty with regulating emotion (bouts of depression, suicidal thoughts, explosive anger, etc)
dissociation
feelings of helplessness/shame/guilt (“This green indicates a high level of anger stemming from suppressed feelings of inadequacy.”)
isolation/distrust of others
a repeated search for a rescuer (“That’s why you made me, Church. You made me to take on all the things you can’t handle. Just like you always have.”)
feelings of hopelessness/despair (“They presented Alpha with scenario after scenario of stress and danger.” “They made it seem like his failures were hurting all of the people he cared about, and there was nothing he could do about it. It drove him mad. Broke him down even more.”)

Alpha Church was abused, created other personalities in his mind to protect himself from the abuse, finally put all memories of the abuse into one of those personalities and forgot about it completely (that’s DID). Then he lived the rest of his life with symptoms of C-PTSD because of the trauma, but couldn’t heal because he had no way of accessing those memories.

Then Epsilon came around, with C-PTSD and DID as well, except he got to learn about his trauma, face it, develop a strong relationship with the fragments(alters, in DID terms) that the Director had taken from Alpha, and heal/recover

Church (both Alpha and Epsilon) is canonically mentally ill. Please don’t ignore this.

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I like to think that they watch on from a better place.

… and make bets on what’s going to happen.

Tex is way better at this than Church.

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