How did I live, was I kind enough and good enough?
Did I love enough?
Did I ever look up and see the moon and the stars and the sky?
Oh, why have I been sleeping
Such a storm of feelings inside of me.
LASTLY(cause I need sleep): What he is. Basically, Mark and Jack's negative self-deprecating thoughts amplified, combined, and personified. Those thoughts of, "I'm not smart enough", "I'm not creative enough", and "I can't do it good enough" all multiplied by 1000 and made human.