I want to live a full life. And my greatest fear is that I will be stuck/trapped somewhere doing something I don’t like for my whole life… never being fulfilled. That is the problem. I am too afraid to begin because I am afraid of what I’ve projected into the unknown. To be quite honest any life would do for me; I have no preference on how this will go. All I wish for is fulfillment. I know that I could be fulfilled doing anything because I find beauty in everything I do. The problem with me isn’t that I don’t know what I desire, the problem is that I hold the fear (the belief) that I cannot achieve it.

People tell me all the time to remember back when I was little and whatever I loved to do as a child is what I should pursue as an adult… that’s the thing! I wanted to be: a doctor, a surgeon, an actress, a dancer, a singer, a director, an artist, a masseuse, a chef, a comedian, a poet, a writer, a performer in a circus, a midwife, a scientist, an Egyptologist, a marine biologist, an explorer, a student, a teacher, a lover, a fighter… I was interested in everything! And trust me, I’m not over exaggerating.

The problem wasn’t that I didn’t have desire, because I had/have SOOO much of it. The problem is me setting expectations… and of course when they’re not met I become disappointed and depressed. I remember signing up for ballet classes and when I got there it wasn’t even a dance studio. It was just a room with mirrors. There were no ballet bars, or tutus, or windows… just florescent buzzing lights. The teacher was impatient and cold. I remember telling myself to just stick it through this class and that I never have to come back again. But I got so upset I ended up leaving the room to go to the bathroom and ended up sitting in the bathroom for the whole class… the teacher didn’t even notice I was gone.

My life has been what feels like a series of disappointments; one after the other. I live in this beautiful world inside my head but when I come outside and try to accomplish something the dancing sugarplum fairies seem more inviting than the harsh reality. So I end up just giving up and going back to where I’m happy and safe; inside my head. This world wasn’t originally made to be an escape goat. It was just who I was… but as time went on my vivid imagination was like a comforting special stuffed bear or a warm cup of milk.

I never wanted to escape reality. Since the age of five, I remember feeling so heartbroken when all I had left was my imagination. I remember feeling that there had to be more to life than this. So I kept hopeful. But every time I greeted a new opportunity with a smile, my smile was violently slapped off my face. As time went on I stopped reaching my hands out to new opportunities. I just sat and watched as they passed me by. I used to see the world as a series of decisions I could make at every second. The world was full of endless possibilities and most importantly, I saw it was full of magic.

I lost the ability to see the magic in reality. I can still see it from afar but only because I keep myself at a distance. If I were to jump into it I would be filled with terror; every beautiful flower would seem like it was a cruel and sick joke. I want to believe in the magic I believed in whole-heartedly as a child. I want to trust myself. I want to jump. I want to live!!! I’m just so scared.

You are loved on the transparent level of Pure Being, beyond the limits of your space-time human form. It is only the Self in the apparent other that is truly loved. -Anon I mus

The Seven Hermetic Principles

“The Lips of Wisdom are sealed except to the ears of understanding.”


“THE ALL is MIND; The Universe is Mental."This Principle embodies the truth that "All is Mind."It explains that THE ALL (which is the Substantial Reality underlying all the outward manifestations and appearances which we know under the terms of "The Material Universe”; the “Phenomena of Life”; “Matter”; “Energy”; and, in short, all that is apparent to our material senses) is SPIRIT…


“As above, so below; as below so above."This Principle embodies the truth that there is always a Correspondence between the laws and phenomena of the various planes of Being and Life.


"Nothing rests; everything moves; everything vibrates."This Principle embodies the truth that "everything is in motion”; “everything vibrates”; “nothing is at rest”; facts which Modern Science endorses, and which each new scientific discovery tends to verify.


“Everything is Dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet…”It explains that in everything there are two poles, or opposite aspects, and that "opposites” are really only the two extremes of the same thing, with many varying degrees between them.


“Everything flows, out and in; everything has its tides; all things rise and fall; the pendulum-swing manifests in everything; the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; rhythm compensates.”This Principle embodies the truth that in everything there is manifested a measured motion, to and fro; a flow and inflow; a swing backward and forward; a pendulum-like movement; a tide-like ebb and flow; a high-tide and low-tide.


“Every Cause has its Effect; every Effect has its Cause; everything happens according to Law; Chance is but a name for Law not recognized; there are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the Law."It explains that: "Everything Happens according to Law”; that nothing ever “merely happens”; that there is no such thing as Chance… only law unseen.


“Gender is in everything; everything has its Masculine and Feminine Principles Gender; manifests on all planes."This Principle embodies the truth that there is GENDER manifested in everything — the Masculine and Feminine Principles ever at work. This is true not only of the Physical Plane, but of the Mental and even the Spiritual Planes.

The Emerald Tablet Of Hermes & The Kybalion: Two Classic Bookson Hermetic Philosophy

Vibrate at the Highest Frequency Possible.

All of Life is Energy that vibrates at various frequencies. Each frequency has its own life patterns and manifestations. The Universe is the ultimate “radio” and we each vibrate at our own frequency. The way we can change our personal life, or that of planet Earth, is to shift frequency to “play the tune” we wish to be or to create. All one really needs to do to change any aspect of their life, heal any disease, create abundance, or achieve Transfiguration of the physical body into the Ascended Realm, is to raise their vibration and frequency. Vibrational frequency is defined as the rate at which the atoms and sub-particles of a being or object vibrate. The higher this vibrational frequency, the closer it is to the frequency of Light. Everything we do, every word we speak and thought we think sends out a vibration that attracts to it an experience of like vibration. Very simply stated, if we send out fear, we attract fear. If we send out love, we attract love. Raising of frequency can be done by anyone. In addition to the personal benefits gained by vibrating to a higher frequency are the profound effects produced in the world and all life forms. Each person who shifts higher affects the entire planet, as all of life is lifted along with them to a certain degree. 

The 7 Magical Chakras - Affirmations

Root Chakra - money, career and is your foundation

Affirmation: “I feel grounded support under my feet and am unconditionally loved. I am safe.”

Sacral Chakra - sexuality and creativity

Affirmation: “I welcome and acknowledge all my feelings and desires. I am easily able to discern which support me, and which need to be released.”

Solar Plexus Chakra - personal power

Affirmation: “I honor my truth and my body. I am powerful.”

Heart Chakra - relationships

Affirmation: “I am deeply loved and very lovable.”

Throat Chakra - communication and self-expression

Affirmation: “In silence I hear my deepest truth and it from there I speak my truth.”

Third Eye Chakra - intuition

Affirmation: “I see with clarity through the eyes of Source.”

Crown Chakra - connection to source.

Affirmation: “I trust the higher power and know that I am one with all that exists.”

You can restore the flow and clear any stagnation or blockages from the chakras using the following techniques:

Massage: Each chakra has a physical point that responds to massage. Massage is administered by using a small circular stroke in a clockwise direction in the area corresponding to the chakra.

Yoga: opens up your energy lines and increases energetic flow

Meditation: rebalances chakras by increasing energy flow; enhancing relaxation, clarity, and healing.

Visualization: Seeing the vortex of chakra energy vibrant with color and spinning optimally will reset the centers to proper alignment.

Affirmations: Positive statements that reinforce healthy energy flow in each chakra center.