endless flailing

“I’d always hoped that when I finally said ‘I love you’ to a girl, she’d say ‘I know’ back, like Leia did to Han in Return of the Jedi.”

- Simon Lewis, City of Bones

“It doesn’t matter if I get my memories back or not,” Simon said. “It doesn’t matter if another demon gives me amnesia tomorrow. I know you: You’ll come find me again, you’ll rescue me no matter what happens. You’ll come for me, and I’ll discover you all over again. I love you. I love you without the memories. I love you right now.” […]

Isabelle said in a calm voice: “I know.”

- Born to Endless Night


Long Post, Sorry

Earlier this week I was surprised by a few birdies, so I want to give a proper thanks. I’m sorry if this seems conceited to anyone, but I really had to share because I was in actual tears.

Not long ago, muss senpai did a giveaway for her cute suitor cards, and I remember feeling relieved Rayvis wasn’t included because I already knew if I didn’t win him I’d be so crushed. And then, while walking through the tall grass of my Tumblr dash, a wild Rayvis card appeared. Add to that, at the time I was going through some things so I was already pretty down, seeing a card filled me with so much happiness and dread at the same time, because I felt it would be impossible to get him.

I saw some of my friends reblogged it, and without asking, I kind of more or less hoped they were doing it for me? 😅😅I had high hopes anyway, but was too afraid to ask them; I didn’t want to make assumptions. 😂 

And then, none of us won, and as I predicted, I was devastated. I pretended I didn’t see muss’ announcement lol I wanted to forget about the whole thing.

Then this week, I got the mail as my mom and I were heading out, and I see my name on one letter. I almost thought it was spam mail because it was a regular envelope but nicely printed lol omg… I looked at the sender like “Who is Mandi?” (Ma-chi I’m so sorry, I was out of it lol). I open it and see a postcard with anime characters on it, so my next thought is, “oh this must be legit because who would send spam anime mail to me?” 😂😂😂

AND I LOOK. AND I SEE THIS CUTIE. And each piece slowly gets registered like the cute Spyro shirt, Linkypoo, the chess pieces, /).(\ the sofas ahem, and later on the Zelda-themed watch. I was in tears, and giggles from seeing the card. I was so touched, I was speechless, I really couldn’t contain my feels at that point lol. I clearly recognized muss’ art, and the name Mandi finally registered to me as our resident Leo/Masa/Sasu/Kenshin/Sid/Nico/hammock lover, but I had to be sure and confronted them all lol

I want to thank @lustfullyleocrawford for orchestrating this, apparently they were all trying to get me the original card, and @midnightuglystepsister for making the cards and this one itself.

Mandi told me she did this because she imagines Rayvis as “mine." We all know he’s a character in a romance game but, even just knowing this makes me cry lol. As someone who’s ace and often struggles with thoughts of never finding someone who will love and accept me as I am, I quickly got attached to Rayvis. I think that is one reason why I really resonated with him, as he has repeatedly and continually shown his care with MC and that he wants her to be comfortable with him and herself. He is special to me because of this, and having even one person kind of see us as "canon” (in a loose sense) made me so happy. I’m sure Mandi didn’t know this at the time but really it makes me so happy, I’m glad she told me.

I want to thank @f-dee @kseifert @emigotchi @passengersaraht @juzbijou @confused-tofu for being in on the whole thing, doing their small part for the chance at sending Rayvis home to me. I really can’t thank you enough, every time I think about it I want to thank all of you guys again and again. This is really special for me and I feel so honored to have friends who would do something like this for me. It was so thoughtful and I know a lot of love went into this, and I really just can’t say thank you enough to show how grateful I am. So please enjoy my endless flailing over this and a cute pic of Linky admiring it as well. We both love it so much guys. 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

Wednesday schedule:

8-9p: Watch Blindspot

9-11pm: Rewatch kiss and promo on endless repeat while simultaneously flailing on whatsapp. Use only capital letters, emojis, and exclamation points when texting. Use duplicate vowels eveeeeeeeeeerywheeeeeeeere to adequately convey depths of emoooooootion. 

you are gold and silver (1/2)

@clairelutra, what was once a drabble has grown so far beyond that, i am honestly embarrassed at my utter lack of control. here is the first half of this goddamn fic, because the second half is incomplete and not anywhere NEAR as ladrien as the first and also this technically covers your “almost-kiss” prompt, PLEASE ENJOY!!

special thanks to my beta @kickassfu for patiently putting up with my endless flailing over writing this, to @mirthalia for introducing me to the glory that is draftin, to @vaisraviina for their inspirational headcanon, and to hugh grant for his ridiculously catchy psuedo-80’s vocals. and before anyone asks, no, it is not a ddr machine.

In which Ladybug learns something that leads her to making some very bad decisions, up to, and including, thinking that Adrien Agreste was ever cool.


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A/N: For emmaducklingswan, who requested kitchen table smut a looooooOong time ago. Thanks for your patience and for your endless flails, you are sweet pea <3

Words: 2,967
Rating: S is for Smuff

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I’ve been looking at you

For a long, long time

Just trying to break through

Trying to make you mine



They haven’t had a moment alone in weeks. Between disappearing townsfolk, curses, wicked witches, strategic planning, and everything else — there just hasn’t been any time. Throw in another (heartbreaking) loss, a fight with Henry, the final battle and True Love’s Kiss (Jesus fucking Christ), and Emma was starting to believe that maybe they’d never get a second to themselves again.

She should have known better.

She should have known that he’d be resourceful and finagle some arrangement with Regina to watch Henry for the weekend and to convince David to cover her evening shift on Friday. She also should have known that while he may be her hero, he was still definitely very much a pirate, and that his innocent offer for dinner was actually just a ruse because he never really intended for them to make it past the threshold of her apartment. 

She’d have to remember to thank him later.

His tongue moves insistently against hers while his body presses her firmly into her door. She sighs into him, writhing beneath pure masculine heat and muscle while her fingers tangle in his hair. “So much for slow,” she murmurs over his lips. 

He chuckles and shifts away to pepper kisses lightly along her jaw. “I am going slow.”

Heat. There is so much heat. It’s clouding her head and tying her stomach up into huge knots of desire and passion and Jesus. “That’s not-” She inhales sharply at the scrape of his teeth over the dip where her neck and shoulder meet. Shit! “What I meant.”

“Pity,” he murmurs, and his lips are trailing over her shoulder.

It was a bad idea to wear the red fucking dress, a really bad idea. She should have worn pants and her leather jacket…or a Goddamned potato sack. Surely they could have kept their hands off of each other long enough to have dinner and go slow, if she’d just worn a fucking potato sack. 

She can’t breathe, her chest is too tight; she can’t even think straight, she’s too far steeped in him — touch, smell, sight, taste, sound. Fuck. All of her senses are in overdrive and if they don’t stop she’s simply going to combust into a million Emma pieces and she’ll be of no use to anyone ever again. Alright, so she’s exaggerating that last bit but damned if she doesn’t feel like that anyway.

“Hook,” she croaks out eventually, making him groan in protest as she plants her hands firmly on his chest in an attempt to cease his overly-attentive (and very talented) mouth.

She can feel the rise and fall of his chest beneath her fingers along with the erratic beat of his heart and knows that it matches the rhythm of her own perfectly. He rests his forehead against hers but doesn’t say anything as they catch their breaths. A laugh bubbles up from her throat as she curls her fingers around the charms on his necklace and tries to anchor herself to him.

God,” she pants.

“Killian, actually,” he chuckles, and nuzzles his nose against her. “Pleasure to make your acquaintance.”

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I can’t believe the blood colors used on them got ruined.

As promised, the fantroll requests I’ve taken! in order, from @robot-bomber-bunnie, @sparkledragons, @thespritelady and a pal of hers, @j4ck-of-4ll-f4ndoms and @kalkallico! I’m sorry about the huge amount of variation between these, I did them on different days and in different moods.

If anybody would like to request something like this, I still accept some!

So I sort of completely skipped my 1k (combination of oops and laziness), but I reached 2k followers recently and IDK how the hell it happened so I just have to say how much I love each and every one of you, whether or not we’ve talked (my inbox is ALWAYS open––I promise I don’t bite). I’ve been on here for almost a year now and it’s been endless flailing fun and ridiculousness and hilarity and being inspired by gorgeous edits and fics and meta and everything else.

Now, here are some truly wonderful blogs I drool over on the reg. For those of you in the OUAT fandom, no matter what you ship or stan for, at least check them out and follow them if you’re not already. Some absolutely stunning graphic/gif-makers, fic and meta writers, spoilery bts info and just insightful and hilarious people I can’t gush about enough.

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I will follow you all. Until the ends of the earth.