end of life as we know it

My thoughts on SPN episode 12x19:

  • Oh snap. This is some trigger warning shit up in here. 
  • YAAASSSSSSS to Cas being honest about where he was and what he was doing. YASSSSSS TO HONESTY. 
  • Ok ok ok I know I have shipper goggles on. I’ll own that. But this Dean being mad at Cas scene… this is like every fanfic I’ve ever read. And it is giving me life. 
  • Dean admitted he was worried about Cas. Legit said that it was not okay for Cas to just go missing because he wAS WORRIED. IT HAS BEEN TEN MINUTES. THE EPISODE COULD JUST END HERE AND I’D BE COOL WITH THAT. 
  • “You, me, and Sam. We’re just better together… so let’s go Team Free Will.” YASSSSSS DEAN. THIS IS ALL I’VE EVER WANTED.
  • Are you frickin’ KIDDING ME!? Cas left??? And stole the colt??? And is going rogue??? After that heartfelt talk???? UUUUGHHHHHHH why writers why??? THIS IS WHY WE CAN’T HAVE NICE THINGS.
  • I’m mad as hell. Answer your damn phone Cas.
  • Ok, Cas, you have the girl. You’re having second thoughts about murdering her. WHY haven’t you called Dean or Sam yet??
  • Welp. Guess I was wrong about the whole honesty and trust thing between the Winchesters and Cas thing. 
  • LOLLLLLL Dean saying, “It’s like herding cats” when referring to Cas is the best. 
  • WHHHYYYYYYY would Dean just give up his keys? Like. Come on man. 
  • Is Cas being… manipulated by an unborn baby? Yeeeeeah no thanks. 
  • Aw I miss Joshua’s other vessel :( 
  • Nooooo not the colt *cries tears of endless sadness* 
  • I love Cas being badass. I love Cas healing Dean. 
  • I do NOT love Cas being weird as hell and just abandoning the Winchesters. NOT A FAN. NOT. A. FAN. 

In conclusion: The mixtape scene was everything. EVERYTHING. 

The Tower of Joy scene just gets me, yo, and I finally figured out why.

Lyanna didn’t have any ulterior motives. She didn’t care because she wanted Jon to take the Iron Throne or rule Winterfell. She didn’t want to protect Jon because she thought he was the Prince that was Promised or Azor Ahai or a head of the dragon. By the time we see him, we know that baby is going to have six seasons worth of hell ahead of him and there’s still way, way more to come, even if Jon does survive and inherit the North and/or the Iron Throne.

I don’t know, man. All Lyanna wanted was for Ned to keep her son, her baby, safe so he could live a happy, peaceful life and, in the end, he didn’t even get that.

the-cat-and-jackal  asked:

I'm finding a hard time dealing with the idea of detachment. I know that one day this life will end and move onto the next one, most likely. But I worry about a close friend of mine, I can tell we've met in a life before this, but I'm worried about leaving her and not meeting her in the next life. Is there a way to get over this? Are we just connected in general? She's not buddhist but Catholic

This kind of thinking can be dangerous because it puts too much emphasis on past and future. 

If your belief in reincarnation is causing worries, then the belief is not useful. Instead it has been hijacked by your ego. 

I once asked my guru what would happen if our bodies died before we became enlightened. Would all of the effort we had put into our path go to waste? He replied that our spiritual practice and meditation would magnetize us towards a rebirth with favorable circumstances to continue our spiritual practice. 

That was a helpful response. It gave me the confidence and focus to continue applying all of my effort toward my spiritual practice. 

At the same time, when people asked my guru about past lives and future lives, he would always emphasize being present in this life and practicing meditation now. The point was to awaken from the illusion of rebirth and thus attain supreme peace in enlightenment. 

This is a skillful wisdom of his. He doesn’t deny rebirth and uses that belief to help us focus on meditation now. Yet also he cautions us not to get too hung up on past or future lives. 

Wanting to be reborn with certain people sounds similar to Christians who want to be in heaven with certain people. It is taking a belief and using the lens of the ego to try and find happiness in that belief. It is a mistake. 

For all you know, you were a mushroom in your past life and you will be a dolphin in your next life. Or something wholly alien. You just don’t know when, where, and as what you might be reborn as, if that. 

So focus on what you do know now. You have a human body, you have the opportunity to awaken from illusion and thus find lasting peace in bliss, and so you can practice meditation and spirituality accordingly. 

Work with that. 


Week in the life

As of tomorrow I’m going to start a week in the life journal about living, working, studying with DID.

I wanted to give a fluid idea of how things are for me day to day so I’ve purposefully picked a week where I’ll be dealing with a range of different things I think people will find useful to know about

Tomorrow will be day #1 and the journal we continue as different alters come out and I’ve advised them to carry on documenting their feelings and activities so at the end of each day I can post it.

I wanted to show not only the things we all do and what we find challenging or enjoyable but the amount and patterns of switches

I hope it’ll be useful to some people wanting to learn about DID or to people with DID who can relate or wonder how to manage things

I’ll be using the tag #weekinthelifeofDID,

i’ve just realised the absolute brilliance of what ends up happening to the doctor’s memories of clara: in the era where it was declared ‘we’re all stories in the end’, the doctor’s punishment for trying to erase clara’s story from her head is that he gets to know the plot but not the story

plots are just a cold, emotionless summary of what happens in any given story, the story is the who (heh), what, where, how and why of it happening, the emotional heart of it for the doctor is scooped right out, leaving only the summary of events 

this is also probably a factor in why he decides to get photographs of bill’s mother for her bc he empathises with bill not having a story of her and wants to help her fill in that gap

CPD 4x20 “Grasping for Salvation”

Another David Rodriguez’s episode this season, and I like it! I really welcome this change of pace where action is almost nonexistent but you are still glued to the screen fascinated by the character’s struggle. I don’t know if it’s David’s thing or he just happened to direct episodes like this one or he’s offered to direct them because it’s his style and they know he does it justice. Anyway, I enjoyed this Voight-based episode. Realistic (especially the end), deep, with a touch of humor. Good storyline for Voight and Jason. Though I’m slightly disappointed because I thought (and it’s 100% my fault, gotta learn how to keep my expectations really low) that this storyline with “some former CI who turned his life around” was bound to be a multi-episode arc for Hank. Still glad we got this Voight-based episode.

As for the next episode… Everybody seems to be sure that a surprising suspect behind the mask is somebody connected to Erin. Why? Given the episode title, “Fagin”, my guess is, our suspects are gonna be teenagers or even younger.

I was just talking with Milagros about how absolutely insane I can get sometimes (with all of the screaming, and terrible jokes, and the constantly referencing songs nobody knows) and we came to the conclusion that whoever ends up marrying me has to be some kind of CHAMP if he actually says he’ll be able to deal with whatever the heck I am for the rest of his life, and I was actually laughing for like 5 minutes because it’s true, like, heck.

My sister also said that when I do get married she’ll give the guy a “how to: deal with Ely” handbook so that’s sometime to look forward to


The first rule of gun safety is do not point your gun at anything you are not ready to kill.
I did not know if I was ready but the barrel felt so cold.
See the funny thing about life and guns is: neither particularly cares how ready you are and both can ruin you in a moment.
There were 21,334 firearm suicides last year and that’s why I store my guns at dad’s place.
The second rule of gun safety is that safeties are mechanical devices that can fail: even the safest paths we take in this life can have failure at the end of them.
That is not to say they are not worth taking.
The third rule of life is treat every question as if it is loaded and can explode back in your face if handled poorly.
To that end, nimble thinking and drinking have never mixed for me.
The fourth rule of gun safety is know your target and what is beyond it and there is a dope metaphor in there somewhere for those of you that actually have goals.
These are some other simple rules:
Do not store your guns and ammunition in the same place and like wise do not allow your liquor and your ex-lovers into the same space
Keeping your guns clean and lubricated transfers well into your bedroom if you can get over the unbridled narcissism of comparing your manhood to things that go “boom”
This world will demand your cartridge language: Bite the bullet, keep your powder dry
Keep your language loaded if you’re just an average guy
Stick to your guns, don’t run your mouth or your thumbs these things are simple if you try
Don’t listen.
Shoot straight and true through cold winds and blue days
Tempt fate with the glue that makes those fizzling relationships stay
The final rule of gun safety is keep your finger off the trigger until you are ready to fire
I wish I could tell you I’ve followed all the rules but, well, I’m a terrible liar.

I don’t know if someone’s pointed this out already but I just realised something….

So, as we know, Keith is the right arm of Voltron, and Shiro forms the head.

Shiro’s right arm is Galra tech. Not his full arm though: it seems like the part where the Galra arm ends and real arm begins is just about halfway, slightly above his elbow.

This means Shiro’s right arm is half-Galra.


The foreshadowing was there the whole time. Dreamworks played us like a damn fiddle.

“The secret of getting ahead is getting started.” – Mark Twain

“Do not wait to strike till the iron is hot; but make it hot by striking.” – William Butler Yeats

“It always seems impossible until it’s done.” – Nelson Mandela

“The best way for you to predict your future is to create it.” – Abraham Lincoln

“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.” – Confucius

“Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.” – Thomas Edison

“Don’t watch the clock; do what it does. Keep going.” – Sam Levenson

“What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals.” – Zig Ziglar

“By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail.” – Benjamin Franklin

“I am not afraid…I was born to do this.” – Joan of Arc

“The most effective way to do it, is to do it.” – Amelia Earhart

“We aim above the mark to hit the mark.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.” – Helen Keller

“The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing.“ – Walt Disney

“Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.” – Pope John XXIII

“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” – Arthur Ashe

“When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.” – Franklin D. Roosevelt

“What you do today can improve all your tomorrows.” – Ralph Marston

“Perserverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th.” – Julie Andrews

“The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.” – Thomas Paine

“I attribute my success to this–I never gave or took any excuse.” – Florence Nightingale

“Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do.” – Johann Wolfgang van Goethe

“Who seeks shall find.” – Sophocles

“Change your life today. Don’t gamble on the future, act now, without delay.” – Simone de Beauvoir

See Part 2 for more motivation.

time to analyze the fucking trailer

Ok… so let’s go scene by scene…

Here we see the cuties talking about how fucking intense Steven’s life is…

And then we hear the bombshell… "Sadie… never came home last night?”

Onion’s gone missing too! But wait…


“Steven… do you know what you’re doing?”

So he’s probs gonna go and rescue everybody…

But here’s the kicker… remember this from that article that came out a couple of weeks ago?

“"Spending time with the Diamonds”

What if Steven doesn’t come back to Earth by the end of the season?

What if this is how we learn about the Diamonds? After all, this show is from his point of view, and it would make sense if we learn about them that way.

As for this, this is probably from “"I Am My Mom”. The Diamonds don’t know about Steven yet, as far as they know he’s just a kid.

What if in this episode they learn that’s the son of Rose Quartz? And then they take him to Homeworld… and that’s how this bomb ends?

And as for that voice at the end asking “"Are you… my dad?”… I really don’t know.

This is gonna be huge.

It’s that thing when you’re with someone and you love them and they know it and they love you and you know it but it’s a party and you’re both talking to other people and you’re laughing and shining and you look across the room and catch each other’s eyes. But not because you’re possessive, or it’s precisely sexual, but because that is your person in this life and it’s funny and sad but only because this life will end and it’s this secret world that exists right there. In public. Unnoticed. That no one else knows about. It’s sort of like how they say that other dimensions exist all around us but we don’t have the ability to perceive them. That’s what I want out of a relationship. Or just life, I guess.

i adore adore adore the fact that the four main characters of skam are so significant for teen culture of this day? as a teacher in secondary school, these are genuinely teenagers’ struggles that i’ve seen in everyday life.  

with eva, we saw the loneliness and loss of identity of teenagers (specifically girls!) within a peer culture that requires a lot of social interaction: you need to “know” where your place is and that is your identification; through dating, but also through friendships. but, as eva said, maybe it’s okay that she doesn’t know right now, and that she has to find it.. on her own. one of her biggest strengths in the end is how honest she has become; with herself and with others. 

with noora, we see a character who explicitely identifies herself as feminist and finds a lot of value in being morally upright. but what happens when situations aren’t as black and white as we think they are? moreover, what happens to a girl who has been sexually harassed, and violated, possibly even raped? noora shows us that at the very least, it is important to communicate with people about your experiences to be able to get through those horrible experiences, even if it is only a little bit. 

with isak, we delve into the psyche of a lgbt+ teenager who has seen representations of lgbt+ culture in the media and has enormous difficulties with identifying himself as such. but his story doesn’t end there even though other shows might have stopped there; his misconceptions about religion (god doesn’t exist!!) and mental illness (i don’t want them around/ they are crazy) are real thoughts that go through people’s heads (especially in western culture). these are all perceptions that are formed by society, but it is important that isak was never demonised for these ideas; through communication with different kinds of people he got educated on things he thought he knew about and that changed him into the mature person he is now. 

and now, with sana, a muslimah with one leg in the Western culture and one in her religion which is seen as “unwestern” by many who critique it, has the time come to delve into a deeper understanding of those who experience (daily?) hatred in their lives through media and society. once again, communication seems at a forefront: “don’t let me be misunderstood” – listen to my experiences, to my life, to my explanations. she has been so infallible before, that it will be interesting to see what is going to be her challenge in her season; a character who is so focused on being right in everything she does – i think her unintentionally making a mistake having an effect on her and the people around her would be an excellent story. 

i guarantee that this series will have a long lasting effect on how teenagers, and people, are going to view each other in the long run. media teaches us to be afraid of each other; skam is that small light that shows there is more than fear. 

there’s also love. in compassion, in understanding, in educating. 

and i can’t wait to look back on it all and say: you know, that norwegian series for teenagers in 2015? i felt validated, i felt heard, i felt loved by that series. i’m gonna show my love in return to other people. because we have learned something from it. 

alt er love. 

psa for the yoi fandom: russian names & how to use them

Russian guides: masterpost | patronyms | terms of affection | answered asks

I’m going to start by swearing this isn’t me just complaining but a general resource for the Yuri on Ice fandom because I’ve noticed some mistakes in the naming conventions used among the fandom and want to help correct them. Especially in how the fandom treats diminutives. I absolutely love seeing the huge amount of interest in Russian diminutives, etc. in fanart and fics and hopefully this breakdown will help continue that trend and interest and even spur some more ideas in fandom content.

So let’s go through some important details below the cut!

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Maggie Rhee in The Walking Dead Season 7 Episode 16 | The First Day of the Rest of Your Life

‘ The decision was made a long time ago, before any of us knew each other, when we were all strangers who would have just passed each other on the street before the world ended. And know we mean everything to each other.
You were in trouble. You were trapped. Glenn didn’t know you, but he helped you. He put himself in danger for you. And that started it all. From Atlanta, to my daddy’s farm, to the prison, to here, to this moment now. Not as strangers…as family. Because Glenn chose to be there for you that day a long time ago. That was the decision that changed everything.
It started with both of you, and it just grew. To all of us. To sacrifice for each other, to suffer and stand, to grieve, to give, to love, to live… To fight for each other.
Glenn made the decision , Rick. I was just following his lead.

Sometimes I hate being trans. A lot of the time, actually. While everyone else is moving forward, you’re feel like you’re waiting, waiting, waiting. For the next GIC appointment. For hormones to show any effect. For surgery. For the next surgery. For forms and reports and assessments to be filled out.

These things take weeks, months, years. Whole parts of your life get eaten away on waiting lists for services that are already stretched to their limit. And all the time you want everything to stop - to right itself in some magical overnight miracle. You spend nights crying and asking ‘why me?’ Why am I the one who has to be stuck here? 

But you will get there. I promise you. Nobody knows patience like us trans folk. We have to be strong, mentally, emotionally and physically, because we are forced to be by our very nature. It’s something huge to bear and it’s okay if you’re not always okay. It isn’t fun, and it isn’t fair. And it’s okay to grieve - for being born with the wrong parts, or for all the times that your body restricted you in life - for the things you wish you had. Grieve if you need to. 

There is light and dark to everything in life. Being trans is no exception. Keep going. Wait and fight and grieve and celebrate and live - in the way that only we trans people know how. 

You’ll come out stronger in the end.