Perhaps it is more important to forgive ourselves first for everything we weren’t yet ready to become before we can grow from our emptiness—till’ we reach the sunflower tainted skies and become everything we wanted ourselves to be in order to be deeply loved by the universe—and finally when the time comes—be deeply loved by ourselves.
—  Juansen Dizon, Spring

Somdays.. Do you ever just feel like this.
Do ever get down and out about that no matter how hard you try, it still feels like its all for not.. wether its helping someone, trying something new or even just to get SOMWHERE in life.. to achive something in life… but never actaully get there.. you feel like your whole life is just a constant struggle, an endless loop of struggle..

I have learned that feeling empty sometimes is okay. I’ve got to refill myself with something at some point. Art, love, solitude, random acts of kindness. I really don’t know, but that’s what makes being whole again so exciting.
—  Juansen Dizon, Emptiness

When I say I’m in love.

*When I say I’m in love, what I mean is I’m lost.

Not dancing through flowers, dew drops on my fingertips,

Barefoot, care free, picnics in the park, stars as bright as diamonds,

Movies in pillow forts, safe hands on my hips.

What I mean is I’m in pain.

Glass shards for a heart stapled together with dynamite,

Fragile steps taken on icy veins

Directly supplying my head with unfulfilled dreams and loneliness,

When I say I’m in love, what I really mean is

I don’t belong to myself.

Your careless touch, your sultry words enslaving my bones,

To work and stretch and press into your hand-made shape of a human,

So perfect for you that you grow tired of the lack of fight I once had,

So you walk away to your new vision of a girl.

So you walk away and leave me empty of my soul

Taken with you as a trophy of your triumph,

Hidden away in your mantelpiece,

There to be admired but not touched.

The shell that’s left of me rotting under your nose still begging for you to

be mine, be mine, love me.

When I say I am in love, I mean I am empty*


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