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Last night at @thehotelcafe my first performance ever! So much fun debuting at my producers show along side so much talent! @elythecreep #creepshow #beautifulmess #emmadewing 🎶🌟

“I know my body. What happened is that I got so caught up in the applause I forgot how I should dance. All my life I’ve been what others wanted - in dancing and in life. Now I’m doing it my way.” - #gelseykirkland She was the best ballet coach I’ve ever had, and biggest ballerina inspiration. #merde by emmadewing http://ift.tt/1R3gSmA

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So special to sing at @thehotelcafe ! Personally this is the most important song I’ve written for myself, and it felt amazing to finally share it! I didn’t want to stop haha. 🙏🎹: @elythecreep #creepshow #paperdoll #hotelcafe #emmadewing

I went to bed way too late to be up this early but I am so oh well ha. I had a dream my producer called me and said I talk to him too him much and he thinks it’s because I have no friends, okay so isn’t that a lame dream, I love going to bed to escape everything but not to be told I have no friends haha, maybe this dream bothered me because most of the time I feel like I really don’t have friends… My closest friends went away to college, others live in NYC or other parts of the world from when I lived there for a year. I love seeing my college friends when they come home even though I can’t relate to anything there doing. I didn’t even go to one day of high school or one day of middle school let alone college. Id hate that… I guess when there gone I don’t really make effort to put myself out there. I’ve never had a big friend group, sorta always felt like a loner. I love people, I love connection but weirdly have always just felt so different from everyone with my goals, career path and everything. A lot of people don’t understand what I’m doing some think oh wow that’s really cool, but I have no one to talk about it to. I have no one who’s like on the same page and I don’t blame them why would they understand. I’m thankful for the few friends I do have Id rather have a few that understand me and that I can trust, then try to be mrs poplar and have a big “squad” I dedicated my whole childhood to art, you don’t have a lot of time for friends and at this point I’ve dedicated the rest of my life to it. I’m happy with my choices I don’t need a lot of ppl to validate myself or make myself feel better. I know who I am and I’m good enough for myself. You don’t need a lot of friends to be cool or popular or fit in. A lot of friends can be beautiful but sometimes being a little loner ain’t so bad either. When a bunch of people pop up in my life or when everyone leaves my life, I will stay the same. Whatever way your thrown embrace it there’s beauty in both. You just need to be confident enough to say I love myself and if you like me too we can be friends and if not I still love myself. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to learn how to love was myself.

“Feel your lips against my neck, soaks in like water. Before say you have to leave..can you stay longer” 🎶 Still can’t believe my song is finally out, thankful for each and every play, hope you all can feel and relate to the passion put into this song. 💔 ( Link in Bio ) 📷: @arianadewing #BeautifulMess #emmadewing #whatsEmmaDewing

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🎶💧🌹Beautiful Mess🌹💧🎶 #beautifulmess #whatsemmadewing #Itscoming #emmadewing

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Writing songs and being a diva because today’s modeling job gave me hair sass Shout out to @elythecreep for putting up with me! Lol I love my producers 💘 @aliaut 🎶 💃

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Little sneak peek of my single Beautiful Mess.🎶💔 #BeautifulMess #whatsemmadewing #EmmaDewing #song #singer

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Wish I could write about how I feel sometimes, like the really horrible feelings you feel. That you just want to get off your chest but I try my best to only express it to very few. I don’t want to be one of those people that complain about everything or write depressing posts. I truly want to inspire and uplift. There’s so much negative nonsense everywhere the last thing the world needs is one more teen angst poster, but at the same time we live in a fallen world, which means sometimes your heart falls with it to. Some days it’s just a little break others it feels like your hearts shattered all over the room and when your trying to pick it back up as fast as possible you end up stepping on it and now you have cuts in your feet. Haha, maybe that’s just how I feel. I think to much, I give myself too much. I don’t know how to protect my own heart. I think my heart is so pretty lol I wear it on my sleeve trying to show it off and give some to everyone but then it gets poked so much it just hurts. Sometimes I feel it so much it feels physical. Haha now I’m laughing at myself bc I just said I wasn’t going to write something depressing and this is. Life’s hard, people are harder and im the hardest. Thank god that each day is a new day. That’s really how you have to look at it. I can be something completely new and improved everyday. No one can stop me from growing and changing into something better. Everyday is a new chance so im going to take it. I feel under appreciated and like what I do is never good enough for anyone, so instead of trying to work so hard to please everyone, im going to just focus on being good enough for myself and God at the end of the day my time on earth is going to be very short to in heaven and all the stupid shallow things that consume my life are all worthless next to God.

💗 DANIEL 💗

Today is my soul mate lover boys birthday ! I love celebrating him, I celebrate him everyday. He’s turning 20 which is funny / a bummer bc I just turned 21 two months ago which means I can’t show him my hot club moves yet. 😞 lol.. He’s surfing right now while I’m in bed being lazy and emo. He has such a youthful spirit, where I’m more of a old soul without him I wouldn’t probably know how to relax and have fun. I never ever thought I’d find someone who understood me, because before Daniel no one really did. Id freak everyone out with how extreme I am and they would be more interested in hearing a crazy story rather then actually caring… Or they would just try to hook up with me. Its amazing what happens when you let go and you let God. I totally didn’t think I’d even date Daniel. I used to always feel like the crazy person no one could relate to. With Daniel we both loose are minds together. A lot of people have said I’m so young to be this serious.. But no one really knows the things I’ve been through the reasons I know myself so well, and Daniel on the other hand has been through enough shit for a life time, because of both of our bad times it just feel like heavenly magic to have found eachother. We both felt like black sheep always and now we have are own little herd. Hahaha.. I’ve never felt so looked after. I thank god for all what that man has blessed me with and so does he. We are slow to anger and quick to forgive. He’s the greatest joy I’ve ever had…I’ll be celebrating his birthday every year for the rest of my life and Im so honored to do so. I’m thankful for the decisions I made with relationships. I stayed supper guarded I don’t have a list of exes I kept to myself a lot.. Daniel did too it worked for us. Waiting for someone that’s worth your heart rather then giving your heart to a million people and then trying to put the pieces of yourself back together is too hard. Always be honest with yourself, don’t let people take advantage of you, know your self worth! Everyone deserves to feel loved and lifted up everyday. I love you Daniel happy 20th my dear. ❤️