emma atone

the quality of mercy (1/1)

Summary: In which Killian confesses to David and Emma. Spoilers for 6x12.

Rated: T

Warnings: None

Words: ~4.3k

Notes: I had a lot of feelings about the end of 6x12.  Title from The Quality of Mercy by William Shakespeare.  Much love and gratitude to my instrumental wife @ripplestitchskein for reading this through for me.

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The worst of it, Killian thinks, is that for a moment, he doesn’t recall the man’s face.

He was nothing but a liability, standing between his crew and enough riches to carry him from one day to the next, bleeding out a living until he could sink his hook into the crocodile’s neck. And he doesn’t recognize David’s father at first, because he’d been merely one in the stream, one of the nameless voices that whispers to him late at night, or early in the morning, growing louder and louder, until he’s forced out of bed – and out of the endearingly tight circle of Emma’s arms – to wander along the line where the town meets the sea.

Only now, this one has a name, and the longer and harder he peers down at the drawing, the more familiar he seems. Not only from a hazy memory, but from the set of his brow, the swell of his cheeks, features he sees in the man he now calls his friend, and in the woman he longs to call his wife. And here, in the midnight shadows of the home he shares with her, he holds tight to the incriminating pages, a wisp of the darkness still stirring in his heart suggesting he surrender them to the sea.

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anonymous asked:

can you pleaseeee write a fic where something happens to Killian and he realizes how many people actually care about him???

Since you asked so nicely ;) This is definitely a flangsty fic (fluff+angst is like my jam, that’s why this is so long probably) 

Never Before

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The sun has found its way out of the winter shelter, the rays of light warm on Killian’s body. It’s far more pleasant to stroll around in the warmth than it is in the cold with only his leather jacket as protection.

Killian’s steps are hastily taken and his pace is fast. The sense of punctuality the navy taught him remaining ingrained into his being, he is always on time but now it is going to be a close one. He completely lost track of time while working on the Jolly Roger and is making Emma wait on him at Granny’s.

One day, it must be months ago now, Emma suggested a lunch date and he agreed, never being able to say no to more time with her. Without planning another one, the next day they found themselves coincidentally taking their midday breaks at the same cozy Granny’s booth.

It’s the same every noon. He shows up and she’s waiting on him. Perpetual it may be, but it’s a routine Killian never tires of.

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anonymous asked:

So Rumple tells H00k that Emma is atoning for something she did. We find out she's trying to remove the darkness from herself and from h00k, presumably to atone for turning her "True Love" into the thing he hates most. The whole reason she did it was so she wouldn't be alone (and, with SQ goggles, so she doesn't have to face her feelings for Regina) But doesn't that "saving" of H00k's life mean Excalibur's wound will kill him as soon as he isn't a Dark One? Does Emma know this? (Cont)

(Cont) Is she trying to kill him on purpose? Also, her method: Zelena. By killing Zelena, she takes away what she thinks is Regina’s only obstacle to a happy ending. What if it’s all an exercise in self-punishment? Killing H00k and ensuring Regina’s happiness in one stroke? She realizes her mistake, decides that she deserves to be alone and in one action takes away what she feels are her two chances at a happy ending. Idk if that makes sense but I was wondering what you thought.

Hey Anon,

I don’t think what Emma told Hook about removing the darkness was true, even if she had him and Zelena shackled. She’s the Dark One, she deceives and it does not make sense to disclose your evil plans. You always want to be one step ahead. Emma knows this, she and Rumple actually talked about it.

Mr. Gold: Well, you have so much power. W-w-why do you need Excalibur? Emma: Tell me, when you were the Dark One, did you advertise your plans? Mr. Gold: My plans were always hidden. But my reasons were not. Every time I used magic, I told myself it was all for my son… to protect him.
Emma: How noble.
Mr. Gold: Despite my best intentions… I still lost him.
Emma: I’m stronger than you were.
Mr. Gold: Well, that… that really doesn’t matter. The more you justify what you’re doing, the more you push them away. And take it from me… you will always lose the ones you love the most.


After he says you will always lose the ones you love the most, her face falls ever so slightly. It’s barely visible, this is the most subtle acting ever, but it’s there. He got to her with that line. She also doesn’t directly contradict him. Right after this scene she runs outside to go cry in private

She’s included Regina in her family multiple times this season. Family is the most important thing for Emma. The entire episode is about Emma, Regina and Henry. So why wouldn’t this moment be?

I really don’t think Emma wants to save Hook again. The mistake she wants to rectify is probably making him the Dark One and not letting him go. She asked him if he loved her and that if not she would let him go. I think she was talking about letting him die. I don’t think this was about a decision of being in a relationship with him again, but about a confirmation of what she already knew. About making the right choice. And maybe she had some hope she did mean more to him and she would have tried to figure out a way to not let him die, if he had told her he still loved her.

So in short, I think this isn’t about Hook anymore and she’s not in denial about her feelings for Regina, at least not to herself. So as you say, if she took out Hook’s darkness, he would probably just die.


Now, is it just me or does the solution of putting the darkness inside Zelena and chopping her up with Excalibur sound a little silly? I can see her needing Zelena for another purpose entirely. Zelena was the one who tethered Merlin to Excalibur, she may need Zelena to perform that spell again. She also asked Zelena about he light magic wand, so she may need Zelena to use that wand.

When Zelena comes back she says that she couldn’t leave without making the Dark One pay. She goes on to reveal Hook is now a Dark One. How do we know Hook didn’t do something to Zelena and this is about making him pay? She’s clearly enjoying his pain and she’s trolling him. Zelena’s not going to help Emma, she’s out for herself, but she may also not be helping Hook.


I do think Emma is planning on sacrificing herself to rectify what she did in Camelot, yes. And it’s possibleher plan includes getting rid of Zelena for Regina, but I thought maybe she’d offer Zelena an escape to Oz in exchange for her help.

Zelena wasn’t a very big player in the AU, she was a bride who got jealous and angry because her wedding day was ruined. Not all that unreasonable, really. So I’m not sure how crucial she’ll turn out to be in the end…

Bullet Points: Leap of Faith

Birth–part 3 (part 1-2 here and here)

Bullet points are encapsulated scene analysis from the top of each act to the bottom. (each act is bookended by a commercial break)

1. So the establishing shot of this act is a picture of Gold’s sign from above, which gives it an air of overseeing. And the final shot of the first short scene is Killian asking what Emma wants from him with Gold’s sign framed perfectly over and above his shoulder. And it was Gold who set him off on a mission to find out what Emma is atoning for.

But  there are people still willing to believe Gold isn’t in this up to his eyeballs?? Ummmm…..ok.

As for me I say … BOING!!!!!!

2. I’m guessing the full moon behind Killian is gonna come into play again over the next few eps. “This will all be over tomorrow.” Has to have something to do with the phase of the moon.

3. In a very real way the exchange Emma has with RumpleDarkness! outside Granny’s mirrors the exchange she had with Merlin there last episode. 

Merlin told Emma that his life depended on her successfully recovering the spark and reforging Excalibur. RumpleDarkness! tells her his life (”Bad news for those of us that live in your head”) depends on her NOT succeeding in raising a flame and reforging Excalibur.

Merlin takes a laid back approach (No pressure) while RumpleDarkness! unsurprisingly uses the opposite method (just light it!) 

Their actions in the two scenes are completely opposite except for one thing … both are trying hard to influence Emma and get her to act in the way they want.

BOING B-BOING BOING BOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. RumpleDarkness! and his imitation of Merlin. Heh. Just in case anyone wasn’t making the connection. Very subtle, show. BOING!!!!

5. It’s very interesting that Emma goes into soft focus twice in this scene. First when RumpleDarkness! references Arthur killing her and then when she talks about not wanting to risk the lives of her family. 

When it comes to issues of death and protecting her loved ones that’s where Emma feels the pull of the darkness.

Beautifully shot. And breathtaking foreshadowing. 

6. So let me get this straight–Henry believes that a home and a future with Hook will be all the motivation Emma needs to drive her to willingly rid herself of the darkness. To overcome the voices in her head telling her to embrace the darkness and to instead embrace the exact opposite.

And he’s so on board with the idea of Hook and Emma together that he’s all about helping find a house for them to share where they can build their future. A future he has clearly discussed with Hook. 

And he gave the project a name which we know he only does with the ones that are especially important to him. The ones that have to do with finding a happy ending.

Man is it dusty in here, or what?

7. It’s the knowledge that Killian is actively planning their future together, that he has faith they’ll get back to the white picket fence life, that gives Emma the strength and determination she needs to head for the forest to take on Arthur/Regina/Merlin. 

Before she found out about the house fighting didn’t seem to even be an option. She was all about raising the flame. But once she sees how hard Killian is still fighting for their future she decides to fight for it as well. 

Of course as has been the theme for this whole arc, her intentions are good but her decision sets off a domino effect that threatens to destroy the very thing she’s fighting to save. 

Still it’s important to note how his faith in her drives her to action. (Psssst…that’s gonna come up again later.)

8. Snow’s reaction to Emma’s arrival is fascinating. I wish we still had a town shrink because man I would love to know what’s going on in her head. Hopefully it becomes a little more clear over the next two eps and then into 5b.

9. “You will hand it over now or I unleash Merlin.” THIS is the exact moment Dark Swan is recalling when she hurls Arthur into a tree in the Teaser telling him Excalibur doesn’t control anyone now.

The important point here is we can begin to see what’s driving Emma’s anger and resentment in Storybrooke. We can draw a direct line from SB to Camelot. Dark Swan is lashing out at those people she feels caused her current predicament. 

At some point though, she’ll have to face the reality that part of the blame, certainly not all but part, lies in the fact that she thought she could control the darkness enough to use it “one last time”.

Welcome to the slippery slope, Emma. 

There’s no question her intentions and motivations were good, but by trying to achieve her ends by embracing the darkness, even temporarily (or so she thought) she’s headed down a dangerous path. Which is of course the larger point the show has been making through this entire arc–bad decisions made for good reasons are still bad decisions.

10. Zelena is feeling her oats now that she has her magic back and the first thing she decides to do is take on the Dark One?? Emma’s side eye makes it pretty clear Zelena just joined Arthur at the top of the list. Again, a direct line from Camelot to SB. Dark Swan is fine with the idea of sacrificing Zelena because of the role Zelena played in everything that comes after in Camelot.

11. I adore the glee with which Zelena reads Hansel and Gretel. She is wicked in the best possible way.

12. Thank heavens for the magical onion rings because I am so ready for this baby to be born. Pregnancy storylines have never been my thing.

13. Nurse Ratchett cracks me up EVERY TIME but maybe that’s just because I’ve seen Cuckoo’s Nest like 20 times.

14. “Whose dark magic?” Ok I get that this is shocking Regina but the choices are pretty limited at this point, no?? 

15. Killian’s desperation to know the truth ultimately drives him to step off the roof. His faith in Emma is so strong that not only does he know she’ll save him but he believes it can withstand whatever she tells him about what happened in Camelot.

And this is really the crux of the matter going forward. Faith so strong it allows you to step off the roof of a building doesn’t just disappear in a puff of smoke. It is too strong a force to be destroyed by one act. Faith like that can be shaken but ultimately given time to find its feet it will come back stronger than ever.

Killian has tried “tough love” as it were and the success hasn’t been what he hoped for. He needs his Emma back on a level so primal he believes there is nothing she could say to him that can’t be overcome. 

This scene matters for a couple of VERY important reasons. First and foremost of course it sets up the emotional gut punch to come. But more than that it clearly establishes where Killian’s heart and soul stand. They stand firmly with Emma. His love for her is the thing of … oh let’s just say perfect fairytale true love. 

Anyone concerned that’s going to disappear is worrying for no reason at all.

16. Killian telling her he already forgives her for whatever happened in Camelot and her insistence she doesn’t need forgiveness sets up the emotional maelstrom to come beautifully. He can’t imagine anything as big as what’s coming at him and she is resolute she’d do the same thing again. 

There’s been a point in every one of the last few eps when I wanted to start watching between my fingers because the sense of something really bad coming down the pike was built so beautifully and so seamlessly into every aspect of the story from dialogue to writing to blocking to shot framing that I knew a gut punch was inevitable.

THAT was the exchange that did it in this ep. Because it was clear it would come back and be pretty much the opposite of what was stated.   

17. “I was a pirate for hundreds of years.” Interesting when viewed against the background of the somewhat fluid Camelot timeline. 

18. It’s not accidental that when Killian is telling Emma the stories of Barnaby and Edgar he looks her right in the eye but he can’t do the same when he’s talking about Liam’s ring. Clearly there’s more to the story. We definitely haven’t seen the end of the ring.

19. “All sins can be forgiven when someone loves you.” Killian needed to learn to forgive himself and Emma’s love helped him achieve that. BOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20. Killian telling her he was wrong and he does love her isn’t about him giving up on the idea of ridding her of the darkness. Of course he still wants to do that. But by examining the role love played in helping him overcome his own darkness he now understands it’s the most powerful weapon in helping Emma. 

Letting himself love her completely, the light and the dark, is showing her the depth of his faith in her and their love. It is a SPECTACULAR moment.

21. “There’s something I need to show you.” Once again his faith in her, his willingness to open up about his past and trust she’ll understand and accept it, gives her the strength to do what she needs to do. 

22. Let’s just tally up the leaps of faith in this act shall we? Killian picks out a white picket fence house to share with Emma in a leap of faith they can get back there, Henry takes a leap of faith that Killian’s actions will motivate Emma, Emma takes a leap of faith that she can control the darkness enough to use it one more time, Hook takes a literal leap of faith off the roof, He also takes a leap of faith in telling Emma the story behind the rings, and Emma takes a leap of faith he means what he says about loving her no matter what and agrees to reveal what happened in Camelot. BOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

23. Just like Emma isn’t revealing the entire truth at this point I think Killian’s inability to meet her eyes when talking about Liam indicates he isn’t either. And it’s something more than just guilt over Liam’s death or the pain of a sad memory. I’m guessing Emma isn’t the only one with a skeleton about to come dancing out of the closet.