emergent self


So many of you have helped us so much, and we can’t thank you enough!! The pup’s tumor has gotten much larger and we couldn’t take him to the vet during the middle of the hurricane, so we’re taking him in for surgery tomorrow. Unfortunately, we hadn’t finished budgeting for the operation because of how soon it is, so we’re covering the difference with funds set aside for rent, and this is my attempt to replenish that so we’re not late.

The operation/medicine alone is roughly $400, and the blood analysis, $100, so it’s a big chunk more than what we’ve currently saved. Sadly, it’s the bare minimum, and if we had an extra $200 to drop on testing to see if it’s benign or malignant, we would, but as of right now, we can only cover the cost of getting it removed. Luckily, they offered to send it off for testing at a later date when we are ready to pay, but fingers crossed it’s nothing serious. :(

These are regular price/regular deadline slots(aka they’ll be done at the end of the backlogged queue, which is scheduled to be finished at the end of September) so please keep that in mind before paying me! I don’t want to mislead anyone about when they’ll be getting them. :(

Anyway, I only have 9 slots open right now, so message me or email me at ASKTHESTARGAZERS@GMAIL.COM to reserve yours! Anything helps! <3

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WRITTEN BY A COP: Everyone should take 5 minutes to read this. It may save your life or a loved one’s life. In daylight hours, refresh yourself of these things to do in an emergency situation… This is for you, and for you to share with your wife, your children, & everyone you know. After reading these 9 crucial tips, forward them to someone you care about. It never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.

1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do :The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do!

2. Learned this from a tourist guide. If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse,
DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you… Chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you, and he will go for the wallet/purse.

3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car, kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy.. The driver won’t see you, but everybody else will. This has saved lives.

4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.
DON’T DO THIS!) The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head,
and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR ,

If someone is in the car with a gun to your head DO NOT DRIVE OFF, Repeat:
DO NOT DRIVE OFF! Instead gun the engine and speed into anything, wrecking the car. Your Air Bag will save you. If the person is in the back seat they will get the worst of it. As soon as the car crashes bail out and run. It is better than having them find your body in a remote location.

5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
A.) Be aware:look around you, look into your car, at the passenger side floor ,
and in the back seat.
B.) If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door.
Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women
are attempting to get into their cars. C.) Look at the car parked on the driver’s side of your vehicle, and the passenger side.. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)

6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot. This is especially true at NIGHT!)

7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN!
The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; and even then,
it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN, Preferably in a zig -zag pattern!

8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked ‘for help’ into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.

9. Another Safety Point: Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last, and she called the police because it was late
and she thought it was weird.. The police told her 'Whatever you do, DO NOT
open the door..’ The lady then said that it sounded like the baby
had crawled near a window, and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over. The policeman said, 'We already have a unit on the way,
whatever you do, DO NOT open the door.’ He told her that they think a serial killer
has a baby’s cry recorded and uses it to coax women out of their homes thinking that someone dropped off a baby.. He said they have not verified it, but have had several calls by women saying that they hear baby’s cries outside their doors when they’re home alone at night.

10. Water scam! If you wake up in the middle of the night to hear all your taps outside running or what you think is a burst pipe, DO NOT GO OUT TO INVESTIGATE! These people turn on all your outside taps full blast so that you will go out to investigate and then attack.

Stay alert, keep safe, and look out for your neighbors! Please pass this on
This e-mail should probably be taken seriously because the Crying Baby Theory was mentioned on America ’s Most Wanted when they profiled
the serial killer in Louisiana

I’d like you to forward this to all the women you know.
It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle..
I was going to send this to the ladies only,
but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc.,
you may want to pass it onto them, as well.

Send this to any woman you know that may need
to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it
and it’s better to be safe than sorry..
Everyone should take 5 minutes to read this. It may save your life or
a loved one’s life.

fakers and freezers: taurus, gemini, libra, scorpio, sagittarius, and aquarius.

what all of these signs have in common with each other is that they have some of the deepest capacities for feelings in the zodiac. this is not to say that the other signs don’t have deep feelings – just these particular signs have feelings that are so interconnected to their souls and identities, that they sometimes can’t mentally, emotionally, or even physically handle their feelings being hurt. because of this, they end up in one of two groups: fakers or freezers.

fakers: gemini, libra, sagittarius
fakers get this title because they seem to be two-faced. they say one thing and act or do another. in relationships, they seem to be so genuine, so loving, so perfect, and then one day they’re either giving the exact same thing to someone else or they cut you off from those feelings. this is because they can’t turn off their feelings and they want to keep from getting hurt. first, they feel what they feel and bottling up is too detrimental because it goes against who they truly are. the problem is that they will pull that from someone the moment they deem them undeserving. cross them or take them for granted or something that otherwise deeply hurts them and they will change in a heartbeat with no apologies and sometimes with no explanation, in an emergency exit plan of self-preservation. on the other hand, they don’t want people to push them away, so they perform in specific way to get specific responses from others that are generally positive. 

freezers: taurus, scorpio, aquarius
freezers cope with their intense emotional capacity a bit differently. instead of throwing themselves all the way in emotionally and then very suddenly withdrawing when it’s no longer emotionally productive, they choose to always keep a part of themselves away from everyone. they may refuse to share certain feelings or they may just never fully be themselves with other people, but there’s always a part of them that absolutely no one will see. if they let you in, you’ll definitely see more than anyone else has previously, but you’re still never going to see everything. the kicker is that they are 100% honest about everything – except this. because they feel so deeply, they often feel that by keeping a part of themselves secreted away from everyone, they prevent people from having the power to truly hurt them. no matter what others do, they will always have that piece of themselves to retreat to because it’s untouched. this is also why scorpio enjoys seductive power, because they know that they can make others give their whole selves without reciprocating – it gives the illusion of being invincible. 

college advice™
  • make friends in every class u have. i don’t care if it’s awkward nd uncomfortable at first bc at the end of the semester and ur ass doesn’t know how 2 do any of the questions on the final review i promise becky that sits a row behind u will
  • don’t drink too much coffee bc it stains ur teeth. try mountain dew or other energy drinks 4 late night study binges. BE CAREFUL when using monster, red bull, 5 hour energy, etc. bc these are the worst for ur heart so make sure to Read The Labels And Warnings before overdosing the night before ur chem exam
  • stock up on ramen nd mac nd cheese. they’re cheap nd are ready to go in like 3 minutes. when u haven’t eatin in 14 hours during midterms and u think u might actually Die ur friend 3 minute mac will be there for u when no one else will
  • cut off people who suck. i mean academically socially and romantically. if they don’t give a shit about their grades u don’t need to give a shit about them yall im serious
  • c’s get degrees!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • for the love of god please check ur student email
  • eat a vegetable every once in a while. ur decaying body will thank u
  • keep in contact with ur friends who don’t go to ur school. It’ll be nice 2 talk 2 someone who doesn’t know about the scandal in the biology department at the end of the week
  • get to ur first class of every semester at least 30 minutes early. i’m not fucking around either bc if u want a good seat and decent parking u better set ur alarm
  • if ur professor’s a dick or throws something at u file a complaint. u could get him fired. don’t let them tell u “this is college” bc that’s not college it’s fucking harassment lmao
  • sit where there’s an outlet or where u can see and hear the professor
  • actually go to class and Especially go to long lectures. they’re snooze fests but You Will Fail if u miss out on too much
  • wear headphones everywhere u go on campus. no one will talk to u it’s gr8
  • no one cares what u wear. i’ve seen people in formal business suits to scrubs to pajamas in class. wear what ur comfortable with nd won’t get arrested 4 wearing. the rest of the population is just as dead inside as u
  • check ur online courses The Most. Ur professor isn’t obligated to tell u when shit’s due and they more than likely won’t
  • drop the class if u can’t make above a 70% average. trust me
  • don’t buy textbooks until the second week of class bc if u buy all ur textbooks before actually seeing what the professor wants u to get u will waste $1000 and cry urself to sleep when the bookstore won’t take ur returns
  • if u work save at least $25-50 of ur weekly paycheck for an emergency fund. ur future self will thank u
  • don’t buy from the campus bookstore. they’re blood-sucking vampires who feed off freshman. amazon does textbook rentals for Very Cheap so don’t waste money that could be used on food
  • know where the library nd computer labs are nd what services they offer (like free printing, test proctoring, etc)
  • get a study group nd make a gc. they will emotionally and academically support u. get to know these ppl nd meet them at 3 pm at mcdonalds on a sunday to take ur online exams. they will be strange but u will all pass
  • get to know ppl inside ur major. just trust me on this
  • do ur readings and turn things in on time. u will sleep better at night  
  • don’t take more hours than u can handle. u will become a shell of the person u were before the semester started
  • sell ur fancy ass graphing calculator u used for one class on ebay
  • drink water nd take care of urself
  • call ur mom every few days. she will love to hear from u
  • don’t die. just switch majors

If you’re in a situation where you need help from the police but you can’t speak out, there is something called “silent solutions.” If you’ve ever called 999 you know that they ask which service you need (police, ambulance, fire). If you don’t answer, you will be asked to cough or make another noise to tell the operator that you need help (like a kidnapping). If you can’t make any noise at all, it goes through an automated system. If that happens, you will be required to hit 55 if you need the police. 999 is the U.K. emergency number, so check within your country because it might not be the same.

I’m honestly so grateful for Ronan Lynch. He’s a character who is both religious and LGBT, as well as mentally ill (or at least I would argue he is), who doesn’t end up miserable by the end of the series. 

A lot of times, that kind of person dies or gets an unhappy ending in fiction, but Ronan doesn’t. He doesn’t destroy himself. He emerges from all his self-hate and accepts that he can be more than one thing at a time. He ends up with a family and a boyfriend who is also one of his best friends. 

It’s really empowering for me, as someone who is also LGBT, mentally ill and a Christian to see that kind of representation and growth in a character that I connected with so deeply. Thank-you to @maggie-stiefvater for giving us the blessing that is Ronan Lynch.

The worst mistake i’ve made was thinking that the world was going to wait for me. I thought that maybe, as I emerged from my self-made cage, the world was going to welcome me with wide spread hands and the sun was going to shine down on me and the moon was going to find me in the darkness. Yet, the reality is, the world doesn’t even remember me and the sun dries away my tears and the moon is hidden behind the clouds. The only thing that guides me and is there for me are the stars, although what I only see is a ball of light that is meeting death, yet manages to twinkle in the sky as if it’s full of life.
—  1-04-09-11

So I had a freetime with no internet for a while, and well, I decided to train a little more…
Seriously, draw on a tablet is waaay more difficult than I thought, but I’m not giving up! Anyways, for you guys, some Gency ♥ (Even though I like Mcgenji better)
Hope you all like it, and forgive me about the ocean of mistakes I still do,  I will improve I promise ♥
(I’m still wanting to make new friends and of course getting new tips, so if you have a free time to help or just want to talk, please DM me!)

Always carry a small bag with

Rollerball perfume
Mini hand lotion
Hand sanitizer
Phone charger/headphones
Compact mirror
Hairties/bobby pins
Oil blotting sheets
Extra pair of underwear
Nail file
Mini deodorant
Mini mascara/lipgloss
Some cash in case of an emergency

Brother Jungkook tells Taehyung to take you on a date, GONE WRONG. Pt.7

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Originally posted by rapnamu

Taehyung’s p.o.v 

I can’t say that it didn’t hurt when she said that it didn’t hurt me when she rejected me, because heck… it really did. I don’t know how I became so emotionally attached but I did, and it bugged me that she wouldn’t go on a date with me. But then again, I understood why she wouldn’t want to. She was right, what I did was unacceptable, and I should be thankful already that she forgave me for all the things that I’ve said and done. To say that I broke her, must really mean that what I did was scarring. 

Keep reading

Lotus: bloom in mud

This darkness will soon be gone,
But my love, you’ll have to be strong,
Cry, for mourning is must,
But don’t let yourself breakdown into dust

For some days people will keep talking,
Don’t let them get you, just keep walking,
They’ll fake their sorrow and ask about your pain,
The pain which is prominent like a blood stain

Anger will accompany the pain that you feel,
Don’t suppress it if you want to heal,
Scream into the darkness of the night,
Do whatever but don’t give up your fight

There will come a point when you’ll just want to break,
When you’ll want to submerge in pain and hate,
But you’d have to hold on with all that you have got,
Remember for your loved ones you’ll have to be stout

Be strong…it’s easier said than done,
They can’t know the struggle over losing someone,
They don’t hear their voices every single day and night,
And say they know your pain thinking they’re right

Don’t get upset if no one understands,
This is your fight and you alone will have to stand,
Fallen stars will watch you from the sky,
So fight! With your head held high

Memories will stay within your heart,
Promise yourself to get a new start,
A start filled with hope and light,
A start to make all the wrongs…right

Slow and steady you’ll learn to live again,
Making sure your sacrifices don’t go in vain,
Offer your battered​ soul some peace,
By putting away the letters those formed crease over crease

Things will go smoothly until someone reminds you again,
Your soul will again go insane,
But don’t you let your heart break,
You’ve fought hard till now…don’t go back to hate

I know it is hard and you’re hurt and bruised,
I know you might want to hide,
But baby you owe it to the fallen,
To live your life with love and pride

Again I say remembrance isn’t bad,
But don’t get stuck with memories you couldn’t have,
Listen to your heart; it’ll show you the right path,
And one day you’ll cherish the struggle you did in the past

Laugh and soon you wouldn’t want to cry,
Then all the pain will vanish and all the tears would dry
You’ll see the beauty around once again,
You wouldn’t shy away from dancing in the rain

Just let me tell you some last things,
Don’t you ever let anyone suppress your wings!
Because you are meant for the higher skies,
But know that success comes to those who try

Emergency Commissions

I hate doing this but this is a last resort for me.
Back in February I lost my job due to my mental illness, I’ve had money saved away for paying bills but I ran out over a month ago now and I’ve only just been able to get by.
I’ve been trying to get a job in my city as it’s better for my mental well being but it’s beyond difficult when you live in the second smallest city in the UK.
These commissions are cheap so they can help me pay for the minimum of my bills and pay my friends back for letting me borrow money.

Anything with a simple background is £10 (That also includes colour, shading and lighting)
It’s £10 extra for a detailed background 
And just for lines it’s £5

To commission me please message me or drop me and email at:

Here are some examples of my work

Please consider hiring me, thank you.

BC Firestorm

Emergency Safety for self and family (Remember check in on elders)
1- Keep the gas in your vehicle as close to full as possible- seriously, all summer.
2- Get all of your important documents (insurance papers) and keepsakes together in one place.
3- Have food and water ready to go.
4- Keep a phone charger with you
5- Make a safety plan with loved ones in case you’re separated.
6- Look out for your neighbours. If you know Joe down the road works night shift and may be asleep go wake him up. Same goes for neighbour’s pets. If they can’t get home to rescue them try and help.
6- If you are evacuated stay calm, follow directions, be courteous. It’s easy to panic but that makes everything worse.
7- Listen to emergency broadcast on the radio, that’s where all up to date info will be.
8- Call your insurance company if you’ve been evacuated. Pretty much everything will be covered from gas to hotel (depending on your policy, so keep receipts)
9- When people offer to help, take them up on it. For the most part it’s human nature to help one another in a crisis.
10- Do not wait to the last minute to leave. It may not seem like a threat in the moment but fires move quickly and can be unpredictable. Having to drive through flames to escape is not something I’d wish on anyone, be cautious.
Need to add any medications for yourself, family and pets going with you
In addition to medication and pet carriers…we included our pets favorite toys as it can be traumatizing for them. We also have a small tent in case we can’t get to family and friends due to road closures.
My friend shared this from my friends wall and copied and pasted it.
Please one and all, Dont ignore this. Stay safe and prepared


The Paths.

0 - Fool - Falling blindly forward along a course of action. Reckless creativity and bravery.

1 - Magus - Mastery of chaos and order. Action with perfect knowledge and power.

2 - Empress - Detachment. All is understood and everything is permitted.

3 - Hermit - The light bearer and keeper of perfect and secret knowledge.

4 - Dragon - Emergence. Self forming and self sustaining process. The process is the product. Beyond thought or conception. Simple being in action.

5 - Angel - Carrying out the design. Doing ones duty with perfect knowledge and detachment.

6 - Justice or Adjustment - Resolution of internal conflict. Change in self in accordance with will.

7 - Lust or Strength - Union of will an purpose unhindered by thought. Pure absorption in activity.

8 - Priestess - Agent of chaos. Impulse forward and onward. Perfection in unity which requires no explanation and for which none is possible.

9 - Star - Receptive creativity. Divine inspiration.

10 - Lovers - Perfect contentment. State of being where all makes sense and all is as it should be.

11 - Death - Experience and awareness of time. Knowledge of lack of control, that there is that which is beyond control.

12 - Fortune - Purpose uniting seeming random events. Embracing the random.

13 - Hanged Man - Seeking of higher knowledge. Suspension of action by deliberation.

14 - Devil - Heresy. Lies. Approximation of truth. Transmission of the light and its corruption by expressing the inexpressible, and yet it is this corruption that makes it useful, takes it from abstract to applicable.

15 - Tower - Shattering of unity of thought and sense by time and memory. Futility of thought to predict the future.

16 - Art - Pursuit of desire. Creation of that which moves us. Manifestation of love.

17 - Emperor - Domination of the external. Desire must be fulfilled by that which one does not control.

18 - Sun - The inner light. The confidence of knowledge. Confidence whether it be justified or otherwise.

19 - World or Universe - The object of desire. That which appears to be objective and solid because of our attachment to it.

20 - Scarab - Manifestation. The process whereby the shells of illusion control our future perception.

21 - Mask or Judgement - The thought of the self. The masks we wear and judge ourselves by.

22 - Bondage - The enslavement of our ego self to desire. The ego wants and believes it acts, yet lacks real power to effect change.

23 - Mirror - The process by which a thing look upon itself and discerns self from other. Futility of knowledge of the objective in acknowledgement of the reality of the subjective.

24 - Rapture - Product of pure desire that craves nothing and all things.

25 - Moon - Qualia. The redness of red. The sense of experience apart from its information content. The awareness of that which cannot be known or described but is experienced.

26 - Aeon - The advancement of knowledge beyond knowledge. Knowing the limits of what can be known. Speaking in silence.

27 - Shadows - The shattered unity of the objective. The multiple actual. Superposition in quantum mechanics. The multiverse.

28 - Stage - The shattered unity of the subjective. The self as no longer identity but the stage upon which the ego selves appear.

Stigmergy is a consensus social network mechanism of indirect coordination, through the environment, between agents or actions. The principle is that the trace left in the environment by an action stimulates the performance of a next action, by the same or a different agent. In that way, subsequent actions tend to reinforce and build on each other, leading to the spontaneous emergence of coherent, apparently systematic activity.
—  Wikipedia