If you do not embrace your past and your darkness, then you will never be whole. I spent the longest time of my life trying to ignore, reject, and dismantle the parts of myself which I perceived to be undesirable. This includes my emotions, my thoughts and my mistakes which I perceived to all be stains of myself and distorting a worthy perception of my self. You can guess that this caused me even further distress as you cannot cure a sickness by attempting to cover it, or simply by wishing it away. Lately, you may have noticed that you are receiving thoughts dating back to childhood, or receiving memories in small Bulks that you cannot seem to fully decipher, or perhaps even dreams of childhood homes. You are being called to re-assess and reconnect with yourself. Your whole self. Your higher self. Recognise that masculine and feminine energies must exist as one. Recognise that wholeness is the secret of God. The only way to successfully rid yourself of ailments is travelling to the root of them, finding out what initially caused them, and seeking the cure from there. I feel as if we have been conditioned as a society to favour covering and suppressing aspects of ourselves that we do not want to deal with, as opposed to listening to them, and what it is they attempt to express. After all, any type of pain tries to warn the host of symptoms of danger, so that they may bring correction and solution. Man is whole. There exists no separate or incomplete parts of man, and therefore it is vital to incorporate all parts of man in the journey of attaining ultimate oneness. The problem with many when trying to rid themselves of anxiety and depression and similar ailments is that they try to silence them, through things such as overeating, destructive behaviour, alcoholism, excessive partying, drug abuse, and medication, as opposed to identifying what their feelings are trying to bring attention to. We will find a lot of the time there are unresolved matters that we bury deeply within, namely from childhood, and whilst we think that they are lost, they are stored in parts of our bodies. Our soul bodies, emotional bodies, and spiritual bodies, and there they may manifest in sinister ways. It is important to do regular self work, this is identifying with the soul. We are constantly going through new experiences and downloading new data, if we shut off with ourselves we never align with our highest self and highest order. The shadow self is the self that we try to repress and forget. It consists of painful past memories, and thoughts and actions that are born from them. But we are wrong and selfish in our desire to deny this self. For this is silencing our pain and telling it that it is not worthy of a voice. It is just as worthy of a voice as all other parts of ourself. We are worthy of a voice. We can only truly attain self love when we welcome this shadow self, and finally acknowledge it as a living and working part of ourself. That is the key toward ascension, toward aligning with the universe to be apart of the great cosmic shift that is currently taking place. The shadow self is also very much related to the childhood voice. As many things occur in childhood that have shaped our later being, the painful memories that may provoke our darker behaviours are all stored there. True healing means digging deep into these parts, and giving your inner child the love and worth that has previously been denied to it. It is time for your inner child to recognise that It has always been loved, that it came from love, and that he or she was always worthy of that love, the eternal and maternal love of the multiverse. Blessed be.