ellie winston

Chapter 2

Originally posted by themarip0saaa

Chapter’s: 1 , 3 , 4 , 5 , 6 , 7 , 8 , 9 , 10

Where she went Masterlist

Chibs was the first to stand up and walk over to me before wrapping his arms around me.

“Lassie, we’ve missed you so much, how have you been?” Chibs questioned as I smiled at him before answering his question.

“I’ve missed you guys so much as well and I’ve been good. I stayed in New York for most of my time before coming back home.” I said as we pulled away from each other.

“You’re going to have to tell me all about New York, once you’re all settled in,” Chibs said as I smiled and nodded my head as Bobby and Piney came up and embraced me into a hug as well.

“I sure will,” I said as I pulled away from Bobby as Piney walked up to me next.

“We sure missed you kid,” Piney said as I began to hug the older man.

“I missed you too, Piney,” I said as he pulled away with a smile on his face. I felt Jax’s arm retake it’s placed on my shoulders as he pulled me into his side before beginning to walk towards the dorms with me on his side.

“I-is that John’s original bike?” I questioned as I walked towards the 1946 Harley-Davidson that was put on display. I stood in awe of the beautiful bike as Jax came to stand beside me.

“Yeah, it is. Isn’t she beautiful?” Jax questioned as I nodded my head. “C’mon, we’ve got some settling in and catching up to do,” Jax said as he walked towards his dorm with my suitcase in one of his hands and his keys in the other. I followed him into his dorm to see that it hadn’t changed all that much. Jax still had the American Flag hanging above his bed, he had his two dressers on opposite sides of the room, and his bed looked like it hadn’t been made in days. I smiled to myself as Jax turned towards me with a big smile and wide arms.

“Welcome home.” I chuckled as I walked over to his bed and took a seat.

“It’s just as I remembered,” I said as Jax plopped next to me. “Now, tell me where John is,” I said as I looked at Jax with wondering eyes as he avoided my eye contact.

“A year after you left… Dad was going on a run and… His brakes gave away on his bike and he lost control and… Well… He crashed into semi-truck.” I felt my heart shattered as Jax spoke. If I never had of left this might have never have died.

“W-what?” I stuttered out after a few minutes of complete silence. “W-why didn’t any one t-tell me?” I stuttered out again as Jax sighed.

“We tried to but when you left you never told anyone where you were going or anything,” Jax said as I felt tears brimming the rims of my eyes.

“I never should have left…” I said as I let a few stray tears fall down my face. “It’s all my fault…” I said as I put my head in my hands.

“Hey, hey, it’s not your fault,” Jax said as he pulled me into his chest. “It was bound to happen (Y/N). Whether his brakes gave out or he got shot on that run. John knew what he signed up for and he was ready to fall at any moment. Don’t ever think or try to blame yourself for his death.” I nodded as Jax held me close as I let a few sobs come out.

Soon enough, I felt myself begin to calm down as I pulled myself from Jax’s side. Jax turned to me and raised his hand to my cheek so he could wipe away a few straw tears that were left.

“Are you good?” Jax questioned gently with caution afraid that I might burst into tears again. I nodded my head as she sent me a sympathetic smile. “Listen, I hate to run but I need to get everything set up for your welcome home party.” I nodded my head as he began to stand while I did the same.

“It’s okay, I think I’m going to shower. It’s been a long trip.” I said as Jax nodded before pulling me into a hug.

“Things will turn up for the better soon enough, I promise,” Jax said as he turned and headed for the door before opening and closing it behind him as I sighed.
I stood up and began to shed some of my layers of my clothes as a knock came to the door.

“Knock, knock,” Opie said as he stuck his head in with his hand covering his eyes with his hand. “Are you decent?” Opie said as a smirk came across his face.

“It’s not like you haven’t seen me naked before but yes, I am,” I said with a chuckle. Opie removed his hand as he chuckled.

“True. I was just stopping in to see how you were making out and how everything was coming along.” Opie said as he walked further into the room as he took a seat on the bed.

“Everything’s coming along pretty nicely,” I said I look around for a towel.

“Except, I don’t know where Jax keeps his towels,” I said as Opie chuckled.

“In the bathroom.” I nodded my head as Ope began to stand again.

“Well, I’ll let you get to your shower and I will see you tonight. Sound good?” Opie said as I nodded my head.

“Okay, see you soon,” I said as I went up and wrapped my arms around the giant.

“(Y/N), before I go, can I ask you a question?” Opie questioned as I nodded my head.

“Why do you have streaks of black going down your face? Are you trying to become the newest member of KISS because if you are I think you might need to try a little harder on your make up.” Opie said as I began to chuckle.

“No, I’m not,” I said as I kept giggling. “Jax told me about John,” I said as Opie nodded his head.

“He’s gone but not forgotten.” I nodded in agreement as Opie pulled away from our hug. “Enjoy your shower and I’ll see you after.” He said as he went and opened the door before closing it behind him.

“Why did I ever want to leave this place?” I said to myself as I walked into the bathroom before shutting the door behind me.

                                                Time Skip:

I had just finished drying out my hair as getting ready as a knock came from the door.

“Come in,” I said as I took one last glance in the mirror.

“Woah, don’t you look good? I think this plaid shirt looks better on you than it does on me.” Jax had said as he walked into the room. I had thrown on his oversized plaid shirt, while underneath I wore a simple white tank and some plain black leggings with my white converse on my feet. I giggled at Jax’s comment before speaking up;

“But in all honesty, do I look okay?” I questioned as I fiddled with my hands as Jax looked me up and down.

“You look beautiful, darlin’. Now, your party guests await your arrival.” Jax said as he stuck out his arm for me. I giggled before walking up and taking a hold of his arm and walking out of the dorm while shutting the door behind me. We walk down the hall way, giggling like teenagers with a secret.

“Welcome home (Y/N)!” Everyone shouted when we reached the end of the hall.

“Thank you, everyone! I missed all of you… Well, most of you. There are some faces here that I don’t actually recognize.” I said as a few chuckles were shared around the room. Everyone went back to what they were doing as I walked to the bar.

“Can I get a beer?” I asked the guy behind the bar as he nodded his head with a smile.

“Sure thing, sweets.” He replied as he turned around to get my drink. As he did so I began to size him up. He looked like he was about in his twenty’s, he had short shaggy ginger hair and he was wearing a patch that read ‘PROSPECT’.

“Here you are.” He said as he handed me my beer and I took a sip.

“So, you must be the famous (Y/N) I’ve heard so much about.” He said as he leaned down in front of me. I chuckled before nodding my head.

“I am and you must be that famous prospect I heard nothing about,” I said as he chuckled this time. “What’s your name prospect?” I questioned;

“Kip, Kip Epps but everyone calls me Half-Sack. Except Gemma calls me Eddie.” I nodded my head with a confused look.

“Why do they call you Half-Sack?” I questioned as he chuckled.

“Well, you see I used to be in the army and well…” He began as he began to undo his pants before shoving them down and exposing his half nut to me. “I got half of one of my nuts blown off and I gained the nickname Half-Sack.” I could feel bile rising in my throat as I turned away.

“Jesus Christ! You could’ve just told me that!” I said as he chuckled before hauling his pants up and speaking again.

“Well, where’s the fun in that?” He said as I giggled and nodded my head.

“True,”  I said as I took another sip of my beer.

“Well, well, well, what’s a pretty girl like you sitting at the bar all by herself?” I raised my eyebrows at Half-Sack before turning on my stool to see a 5’9 Puerto Rican guy with a shaved Mohawk and two tattoos on either side of his Mohawk. I took notice that he had a Samcro patch on and that he was also a full patched member.

“Well, a pretty girl like me is sitting at the bar all by herself because she’s enjoying her beer and having a nice conversation with her nice bartender. Now, if you don’t mind I’d like to get back to that.” I said with a fake smile before turning back to Half-Sack.

“You don’t want to talk to him!” I rolled my eyes at Kip before turning around again.

“And why not?” I questioned as the Mohawk guy smirked at me again.

“Because you could be talking to me.” This time I almost spit my beer out laughing as I attempted to speak up;

“And, why would I want to do that?” I said as I noticed from the corner of my eye Jax had begun to watch us. The Mohawk guy had begun lean in closer to me as he spoke.

“Well, not only am I a better conversationalist but I can also be a good lover as well.” I tried to stifle my laughter as I noticed Jax starting to make his way over to us.

“Listen, Hun, I’m sure you’re a terrific conservationist and an even better lover but there’s a problem with this…” I said as Jax came over and stood right behind the kid.

“And, what would that problem be? Because I’m sure we can get through it together.” Before I could respond Jax spoke up for me.

“That would be me.” I watched as the kid almost went white as he turned around to face Jax.

“Oh, Jax… She’s with you?” He said as Jax nodded his head. “Well, then I better get going.” He said as he began to walk fast in the other direction.

“Thank you so much,” I said as Jax smiled before speaking up.

“Anytime darlin’. Listen, follow me I want to show you something.” I nodded my head as I picked up my beer and followed Jax up the ladder.

Once, we reached the roof Jax walked me over to the edge where he had a couple of lawn chairs laid out. I walked behind Jax before taking a seat in one of the lawn chairs as Jax did the same.

“Wow, Jax… The view is breathtaking.” I said as I over looked the city.

“It is, isn’t it? I love coming up here to clear my mind or just to relax.” Jax said as he lit a cigarette and took a puff.

“So, who was that guy who was flirting with me?” I questioned as I leaned back and looked over at Jax.

“His name is Juan Ortiz but we all call him Juice.” I nodded my head as I thought of the weird names the newest members have.

“So, Teller.” Jax looked over at me as I continued. “You’re now VP and when the last time I saw you, you had just stared prospecting. What else have I missed?” I said as Jax chuckled.

“Well, after you left. I finished high school with Tara and then she just got up and left.” I stared at him in shock.

“She left?!”

“Yeah, she wanted me to go with her but I didn’t want to leave the club and she wasn’t a big fan of the club, you remember that?” I nodded as Jax continued his story. “Well, then after she left I started fucking around with different croweaters and then…” I looked at him as I nodded for him to continue. “I got married…” I felt my mouth and my heart drop as Jax chuckled.

“Okay, it’s bad enough I missed John’s funeral and that skank leaving but now I missed my best friend’s wedding. You’ve got to be shitting me?!” Jax continued to chuckle as I heard footsteps in the distances; I turned to see Opie coming over to us with someone trailing behind him.

“I was wondering where you two went,” Opie said once he finally reached our destination. I began to take notice of who was behind him.

“Donna?!” I questioned as she came into my view.

“(Y/N)?!” I jumped from my chair and ran over to my old best friend before wrapping my arms around her.

“Oh my god, I missed you so much!” She said as I laughed into our embrace.

“I missed you too,” I said once we pulled away. “Now, everyone sits! We have a lot of catching up to do.” I said as they all nodded in agreement. Jax stood up and gave his seat to Donna before taking a seat next to Opie on the ledge. “Jax continues your story,” I said as Jax chuckled.

“Alright, alright. I ended up getting her pregnant but she was addicted to crack and I don’t do crack whores so I divorced her about two months ago.” I nodded as a question sparked up into my head.

“What about the baby? Did she lose it or did she have an abortion?” I questioned as Jax begun to answer.

“Well, she’s still pregnant now but when she has the baby, I’ll get full custody.” He said as I nodded my head before turning towards Opie and Donna.

“What about you guys?” I questioned as Donna giggled.

“Well, Ope and I got married.”

“Are you serious?! I missed my other best friends wedding?!” Opie, Jax, and Donna chuckled as Donna spoke again;

“It’s okay, we only had a small ceremony. I didn’t have any bride’s maids or a maid of honor because she wasn’t there.” I smiled as I grabbed her. “And you knew I was pregnant in high school?”


“Well, I had a beautiful baby girl and we named her Ellie and now I’m pregnant again!”

“Oh my god! Congratulations!” I said as I leaned over and pulled her into a hug before doing the same with Ope.

“Well, what about you?” I looked at her confused. “Why did you leave? Where did you go?” I had a feeling this question was going to come up sooner or later. I glanced over at Jax before speaking up.

“Well, I went to New York before I cam back up here,” I said as Donna nodded.

“And I left because… Well…” Before I could finish what, I was going to say I saw a familiar car begin to pull up onto Teller-Morrow parking lot. The car came to a stop as the driver began to turn off the car and open the door. By now, everyone else had taken notice of what I was looking at, as they all turned around. I watched as the driver began to get out as my heart dropped once again.

“I left because of her,” I said as Tara stood up from her father’s black cutlass and up towards the roof, where we had all been standing staring down at her.

Lucifer Playlist

Originally posted by noeli94

Hey fellow Lucifans! This hiatus is like a drop-kick to my feels, so I made a Deckerstar playlist to help fill the void! I organised it by character pov and tried to follow the show’s timeline of events, because yes, I am that bored, and my music enthusiasm and anal retentiveness knows no bounds. I have plenty of other songs and for other characters too, if anyone would like me to make another playlist just give me the nod! Enjoy!

You Blew Me Off - Bare Jr. (L)

She Got the Devil - Danny Farrant and Paul Rawson ©

Who Are You, Really - Mikky Ekko ©

Strange and Beautiful - Aqualung (L)

Can’t Pretend - Tom Odell (L)

Monster - Imagine Dragons (L)

I’ll Be Good - Jaymes Young (L)

The Devil’s Dancefloor - Flogging Molly (L)

Down Low - Alex Winston ©

Explosions - Ellie Goulding ©

Eve, the Apple of My Eye - Bell X1 (Both)

I Found - Amber Run (Both)

Love Is Blindness (U2 Cover) - Jack White (L)

Someone To Die For - Jimmy Gnecco (L)

Skin - Rag ‘N’ Bone Man ©

All I Want - Kodaline ©

Blood On My Name - The Brothers Bright (L)

My Top Deadpool Moments

Now that he’s getting more popular and there’s more people entering into the fandom I want to show my favorite Deadpool moments ( in no particular order ) beyond just his jokes. Don’t get me wrong, he’s great comic relief but he’s also so much more than that and I want to give people an incentive to dig deeper because I think you’ll like what you find. And if you don’t, that’s okay. If he’s always just going to be comic relief to you or if you end up hating him that’s your perogitive. But I welcome anyone who is a part of the fandom to feel free to come to my blog any time and discuss!

I’ll put the rest under read more so it doesn’t clutter anyone’s blog or weigh down the mobile users.

Obviously there will be some spoilers under the cut so please know that going in. I’ll try to keep things fairly vague so I don’t spoil everything, though.

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If you're the one for me then I'll be your hero by larrycaring

Louis Tomlinson was expecting a normal trip to California with his mother and sister to visit his family. However, when he agrees to join her younger sister to find the famous pop star, Harry Styles, Louis’ world turns a bit upside down.


Yesterday, you said you didn’t like me… Did you mean it?”

Louis furrows his eyebrows. It’s one thing to not give a fuck about a celebrity when you hear about them on TV or on the radio, or when you say you don’t like them, but never had Louis thought he’d have to explain to Harry Styles himself why he didn’t like him.

As a matter of fact, it’s not that he doesn’t like him. He… He doesn’t really know. And Harry is waiting for an answer.

or a Larry Starstruck AU I had to write because I needed pop star Harry.

Starstruck AU

Words: 31,520
Relationships: Harry+Louis
Additional Characters: Niall Horan, Liam Payne, Zayn Malik, Lottie Tomlinson, Jay, Anne, Robin Twist, Simon Cowell, Ben Winston, Taylor Swift, Ellie Calcutt, Karen Payne, Nicola Payne, Ruth Payne, Mike Twist, Josh Devine, Libby Lam
Published: 19.11.2015



❄️ Snowflakes  ❄️

“Good friends are like snowflakes, all different and beautiful” -Unknown 

I decided to draw a cover (or all of the 5 main characters together) of a new story called snowflakes! It’s pretty much a humorous story compared to my 2 other stories I’ve created!

Bottom ( Left to right ) 
-Daniel,the cluster A.K.A the accidental oc 
-Ian,the humanized wolf 

Top ( Left to right )

 -Ellie,the virus 
-Winston,the scientist monster A,K.A the monster dad of the group 
-Gerald,the cursed flower 

Title: Hearts Will Bind You
Author: Liz
Chapter: 13/?
Word Count: 3,391
Rating: MA
Genre: Drama, Angst, Romance
Warnings:  Language, Sexual Situations, Incest
Summary: Avery is the middle child of Rhett and Ellie Winston and she didn’t expect the summer before her senior year to be so eventful but thanks to the arrival of Zac, a man who takes up the ad to help on her father’s farm she is proven wrong.

Zac on the other hand came to Georgia to help his brother out like he has been doing every summer for awhile now but this summer well he got more than he bargained for out of it, thanks to the farmer’s daughter.
Excerpt: “So he frenched you?!” Presley exclaimed as she shook her head.

Link: Chapter Thirteen


Posters: Nick Cave’s 20,000 Days On Earth: As one of the most enigmatic rockstars and songwriters of the last 35 years, it’s about time Nick Cave got himself a deifying biopic of sorts. 20,000 Days On Earth is a peculiar film, a single-location drama-documentary depicting a fictional day in the life of the Bad Seeds, Birthday Party and Grinderman frontman, featuring past collaborators such as Blixa Bargeld, Ray Winstone, Warren Ellis and Kylie Minogue. It’s already won two awards at this year’s Sundance Film Festival and is scheduled for release in the UK on September 19th.

janne-enchy  asked:

(Ask of a friend who doesnt own tumblr) "something I want to See From you is what dog breed you think the companions and factions would own and what they do together/How they Use them. Thank you if you do this! ^3^"

Ahhhh okay this was much longer than originally expected but I’m quite pleased with it. ^-^ Alrightly roo well @janne-enchy​ I hope your friend enjoys this and tell her I said thank you for sending it in because omg I got to look at so many dog pictures because of this it was so much fun. Also Danse’s dog’s name would be a tip of the hat @raiven-raine​ and her wonderful character ;)

Hancock: A Chocolate Lab named Sam. She’s really just a pet and she is completely spoiled tbh. Hancock complains about her sleeping in his bed, “You have a bed over there! Go get in it!” he always tells her pointing to her pile of blankets on the floor, but has yet to push her out when she joins him for a nap. She’s friendly to most but does seem to have a natural talent for knowing who the bad guys are and does not try to hide it (even going to far as to nip one man, who later turned out to be planning on killing Hancock). Needless to say she got a treat for that.

Nick: A Bloodhound named Winston. Half because useful for when your tracking people down in the Commonwealth, half because he just wanted someone with him when he went off for a case by himself. Nick’s been known to have full conversations with Winston, even around people who could most certainly talk to. “Now don’t give me that look, Winston. You know as well as I do that she won’t be there. We’re gonna have to go down into the sewer. Look, I know you don’t like it but we gotta,” Nick sighed. “Of course there’ll be treats you old mutt.” He says it’s easier to bounce his thoughts off Winston. Ellie says he’s crazy. Winston just listens to what his people has to say and hopes he’ll get a treat soon.

Deacon: A Canaan named Iris. She was originally just suppose to be used to support one of his disguises but they bonded during the mission and then he just couldn’t give her away afterwards. He takes her with him on some recon missions but mostly she says at HQ now. She kinda mopes when he’s away, but is always so excited when he comes back. Course by then she’s gotten used to sleeping in his bed and he has to deal with her trying to sleep on his chest every night. She’s not useful for much except for fetching balls, but she has been known to really calm down the nervous newbies who pass through HQ just by being around.

Maccready: A Weimaraner named Lucy. Did he want a dog? No. Did he need a dog? Also no. Did he have a dog? Yes. Their paths crossed one afternoon when he was literally thrown into a dumpster by some of the Gunners had been with at the time. She had been in there with three of her dead siblings. He couldn’t leave her. The other had made fun of his feeble attempts to get her healthy again, but he had done it. Eventually she was just as playful and healthy as any other dog. He probably would never admit it, but having her around makes him feel safer. She’s a good guard dog and on top of that not even a little gun shy (which is a good thing all things considered). The only problems he’s ever had with her are her not getting along with Dogmeat. Other than she is the epitome of a good dog.

Preston: An American Foxhound named Henry. Henry was given as a gift from someone who wanted to express their gratitude for Preston saving their lives. Preston was very unsure about it at the time, but he had accepted him. He was already trained and everything he figured, what’s the worst that could happen. Apparently the worst is that Henry bays at literally every single stray noise he hears. And Preston has had to run after more than once because he went sniffing off to find a Radstag or a squirrel or just something. Preston complains but he loves him anyway.

Cait: A Mini Dachshund named Dog (Cait is so creative). Only God knows how Cait managed to find such an old dog in the Commonwealth but she did and ended up keeping him. Dog’s got about the same temperament as Cait does tbh. He barks/growls at pretty much anybody who isn’t Cait or Sole. Cait, Dog, Sole, and Dogmeat go out on walks quite a bit. Cait always ends up carrying Dog back home though. “Short fella outta learn the he can’t keep up with such a big dog,” she always says.  He likes to try and sleep under her, which annoys Cait but, she let’s him burrow under the covers with her anyway.

Piper: A Beagle named Biscuit. Nat just hadddd to have a dog. She begged Piper for months until Piper finally agreed. The pup somehow ended up being more of Piper’s dog than Nat’s though. He likes to try and get in her lap when Piper is writing. Which often prompts the talk she so often has to have with the pup. “Now, Bisk, we’ve talked about this before. When I am writing, there are no cuddles and there are no pets and there are no treats. Go lay down,” she told him, putting him back down on the floor. He always gives her that look that makes her feel very guilty about the whole ordeal but she had learned she couldn’t cave when she got those looks or else he just wouldn’t listen. And that was how he always managed to wiggle his way into her lap whenever she sat down anywhere beside’s her writing desk.

Danse: A Golden Retriever named Lucky. Sole gave it to him after the whole Blind Betrayal ordeal, they said it would help him, maybe take his mind off things. He had agreed only because Sole had seemed so hopeful about it. And perhaps he was unable to admit it but Lucky really had helped him. More than once she had comforted him when he was having a panic attack or when he woke up from a bad dream. And all she asked for in return was that he take he takes her for walks and that he play ball.

Curie: A Schipperke named Shadow. She stumbled across him one even and almost shot at him because she thought he was a Molerat, but then he came closer and she realized he was just a dog. A mangy, skinny dog at that. She couldn’t leave him like that. So she ended up taking him home and taking care of him. She had meant to give him to somehow she just kept putting it off and putting it off until finally she just ended up keeping him. She may of may not give him too many treats……..It’s probably a good thing they go for so many walks. He’s just a pet really, but he is also a great watchdog. Course he barks at everything that moves, but that’s okay. Curie says she’d rather be woken up because he was barking at the wind than dying in her sleep cause it wasn’t just the wind.

X688: A German Shepard named Nuka Cola (mostly called Nuke or Nuka). Nuka was trained and breed specifically for battle. The Institute had wanted to see how well the dogs worked with their coursers. Nuke did very well but once the mission was over the scientist had wanted to take the dogs back, which was unacceptable. Of course X6 couldn’t directly disagree with such an order, as that would contradict his programming and mean he had gotten attached to the dog. Sole stepped in though. There was quite an argument but in the end, X688 got to keep Nuka. Now Nuka goes on every mission with him and also has a bed in his room at the Institute. The only problem she has is that she growls at the scientist, but they don’t dare say a word about it when X688 or Sole is around. Both of whom give her extra treats when she does it.

Strong: A Saint Bernard named Bernard. It’s not really that he got a dog it’s more like, there was a dog and he gave it some food and then the dog just decided to stick around forever??????? Strong just calls him Bernard and feeds him really. He’s gotten attached to the stray though. He has bashed people’s heads in more than once because they had shot at/ kicked/ or just been mean to the dog. In turn the dog keeps watch while he sleeps. They have an agreeable relationship.

Desdemona: A Boxer named Thor. He’s a bouncy big dog who has really always been there for her. She’s had him since she was a child. For some reason scares quite a few members of the Railroad though. Some say she needs to get rid of him. Dez tells them, “You can either deal with him, or you can leave.” They go for walks semi regularly. He’s about the only reason she goes out anymore. When she can’t do it, she makes Deacon or Carrington take him. They’re the only ones she trusts with him. She does worry that he’s getting old but Carrington says he’s healthy as a horse as far as he can tell, so she tries to relax about it.

Maxson: A Rottweiler named Odin. He tends to scare the Imitates, but really that’s not his fault. He’s actually pretty friendly, the children aboard the Prydwen love him. He always begs for food in the cafeteria but Maxson says they shouldn’t feed him their food….not that that has ever stopped the kids from sneaking him some scraps every now and then. No one knows how Maxson ended up with Odin, not even Maxson, who had woken up one day to find a puppy in his room. Begrudgingly, he had decided to keep him though. He had convinced himself that the pup would one day be useful in a battle if trained properly, but really that dog has never been anywhere near a battle and never would cause Maxson had become so attached to him.

Father: No pup here. He doesn’t like dogs and has never had one.

Glory: An American Staffordshire Terrier named Fluffy. (A name Deacon had suggested as a joke) She got him because she was tired of going on missions alone tbh. Fluffy was more than happy to go anywhere she wanted as long as he got a treat and a scratch behind the ears when they got there. Glory likes to talk to him when they’re alone but never really does it when there are other people around. Somehow Deacon found out about it though and now he likes to tease her about it. “The secrets this dog knows,” Deacon often marvels. “Bark once for yes, twice for no, now,” he tell him and starts asking him questions. Glory just rolls her eyes and tell him, “Are you kidding? I have Fluffy sworn to secrecy. Plus, I’m the one who gives him the treats around here. You’ll never get a word outta him.” 

Why Left Behind makes The Last of Us even better

I’m listening to a podcast that talks about Left Behind and one of the hosts says that he feels that the DLC cheapens the overall ending of The Last of Us. 

To elaborate, he suggests that by exploring that specific time in her life Ellie has buried deep inside and never talks about (until the final scene), it fails the original narrative.

And all I’m thinking is actually how it does the absolute opposite.

Because LB actually enriches the ending of TLOU, making it more poignant and weighted. And not just the ending – the entire game, even. I’ve thought about the QZ and life behind and within the walls. How real and realised the soldiers’ lives are (through Winston’s letter and the remains left by the Colorado unit). Up until that point, the army has remained faceless and meaningless. Just as you come to care for Ish, you feel something about these soldiers. The right conversations will give you information about Marlene, Riley, Anna and Ellie that make them so much more nuanced as characters.

Oh, and Ellie. What this DLC does for her is astounding. You can’t help but remember and apply Hemingway’s much-quoted, “You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering”. For now you know exactly what Ellie keeps to herself. Being bitten and losing Riley are such important events in her life… and she doesn’t talk about them. And how, in some ways, she actually does. What happens during Left Behind has never left her.

It comes to the surface in little comments about video games and the “easy way out”, in terrible puns from her joke book, in things she mutters to herself alone while rummaging through her sparse belongings, and in the way she has, for over the course of a year, learned to whistle.

Going back to TLOU after LB makes it more painful to consider Ellie’s survival and growth. Because we know what Ellie’s thinking about, and she can’t articulate any of it to Joel because how the fuck do you even begin to talk about something like that? And when she finally does it, at the end of The Last of Us, there’s a whole new kind of hurting your heart does for this girl.