ellie look at how bad it is i gave up after last night

anonymous asked:

"Who were you with?"

Another one I’ve spun out in my prompt requests. Warning on triggers for domestic abuse etc. There’s no violence in that particular part but it’s more mental, just for info. Not really proofread but I like spinning out things in thirty minutes on a Sunday night so here you go…x

11. Who Were You With?

You didn’t want to keep it from him but you knew it wasn’t going to be the best conversation you would ever have with him if you did bring it up. Anyway, what he didn’t know, wouldn’t hurt him, and Harry never mixed with the group you were out with on that Friday evening anyway, so it wasn’t like he would find out. In the private members’ club, no photos had been taken, so it wasn’t as though any photos were going to appear online either.

It wasn’t your fault either that some people you didn’t want to bump in to had turned up without warning. Whether they’d been invited by one of your friends or whether they just happened to be going out coincidentally wasn’t, and wouldn’t be, important to Harry. He wasn’t controlling nor was he disguising any behaviour under the pretence of being protective; you knew the signs of that all too well, but he did want to keep you safe, particularly from your ex-boyfriend, Mike.

Mike was bad news.

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Help! Not Just Anybody

Props to @louiseeleanorbee for helping me come up with the title way back when I wrote this.

Also…. So Y/N was Ella’s Mom in Secrets And Lies but in this story it’s a COMPLETELY different character. I was gonna use an OC but in my experience, people prefer reader characters sooo… Don’t get confused.

“How many more have we got left?” Spencer asked JJ with a loud sigh.

His friend look at the page in front of her and squinted. “Two. The next one should be along any second now. I’ll go put another coffee on whilst we wait. You doing okay?”

Reid nodded, grasping Jen’s hand when she squeezed his shoulder as she stood.

“I’m good. Just tired. And fed up of listening to people tell me how they’d raise my daughter for me. And then seeing the judgement on their face when they hear about her sister.”

“What’s funny is watching them struggle to hide their judgement. From two profilers at that. Nah, don’t think so,” JJ grinned at him, collecting their mugs.

“You’re doing the right thing Spence. A live in nanny will help you so much. And it’s not like you can’t afford it. You won’t have to worry about finding last minute sitters or having to run Ella over to Georgia or Amanda in the middle of the night. And I know you’ve missed being out in the field.”

“I know. It just….it feels like I’m asking someone to replace her mom. And that’s not right.”

Jennifer tilted her head to the side and gave Spencer another smile, a sadder one this time.

“You’re not though and she knows that. But you miss your job and Hotch can’t keep you out of the field forever, not unless you switch departments. And it’s not often were out of state for more than two or three days at most recently. I can’t remember the last long one…. ”

“Seventeen months and four days ago. We were out for thirteen days. The Edison Strangler.”

“See, good run. And you’re offering a great deal here. Accommodation, a car, an amazing salary. Jessica was doing all of that for free when she was looking after Jack. And you can’t rely on Georgia or Amanda forever. Amanda loves her grandchild to pieces but she’s getting on a bit herself and expecting her to take care of a nine year old constantly is a bit much.”

Reid shoved his hands through his hair. “I know, I know that you’re right. And I’m sure once we find the right one I’ll feel better about this.”

“You will, I promise. Now, coffee?”

JJ left the room leaving Spencer to his thoughts. He still wasn’t sure how he felt about having a stranger live with them and looking after Ella but both JJ and Georgia had convinced him that it was the right thing to do. Gee would still have Ella on the last weekend of the month but she couldn’t keep picking her up from school for him, not now that she had gone back to work full time. It hadn’t been so bad before when the girls were at the same school but when Gee had remarried and moved in with her new husband it meant a new school district for Ellie.

After Ella’s mom had died and Spencer had finally managed to pull his head together enough to care for his daughter, he’d made the decision to move Ella and him to a two storey town house near to his old home with Georgia, changing her schools so that she was in the same one as Ellie. But now, he hadn’t wanted to uproot her again, she’d already changed schools twice and although Ella and Ellie were obviously close, they hadn’t actually been in the same class so had both made other friends. It didn’t seem fair to make her change schools just so that it would be easier on him because she could go home with Ellie and wait there until Spencer could collect her. So for the past six months Spencer had been relying on Ella’s Grandma Amanda to travel across town to pick her up or Georgia and Tim, Gee’s new husband, to watch her until he could get home from work. Occasionally even Will would pitch in and Ella would spend time with Henry.

It was all affecting Spencer and Ella badly. When he had free time he wanted to be able to spend it with Ella, and when it was his weekends to have Ellie he wanted to be able to take the girls out. Instead, because he was rarely at home until late in the week because of work and then having to drive to various places to collect Ella from whichever caregiver was looking after her, chores were piling up which meant he needed to spend time doing them. He was also neglecting his job because he was constantly having to think about making sure he was in a certain place at a certain time, or what things he needed to do that night before he could finally rest. Hotch had been fantastic about letting Spencer stay at HQ but that wasn’t what Spencer had signed up for when he joined the FBI. He actually enjoyed travelling to the different states on cases but because of his situation, he’d had to pull back from that a lot. And so JJ had suggested he look into a nannying service. He had the room at home for a live in and he could afford it. Having someone there all the time would make things easier for him and Ella, she could come home from school and start her homework straight away and be in her own home. And as part of the role would be basic housekeeping, he wouldn’t have to worry about chores so could spend more time with Ella, and Ellie when he had her.

He was just apprehensive about having someone in his home with him. But he could see the benefits of it so had finally called JJ and had sh to and Derek help him redecorate and kit out the spare bedroom, as well as contacting agencies to put in ads. As Ella’s godmother, JJ was helping with the interviews although he could tell that she was getting exasperated with him. They’d interviewed last weekend too and none of the eight applicants they’d seen had been right in his eyes. They’d seen another five today, with two more to go. Hearing a knock on the front door he realised that the next applicant had arrived. He sighed deeply to himself.

Y/N had been sitting in her car for the last twenty five minutes, parked slightly up the road from the home of her next potential employer.

Her current family that she’d been with for four years were leaving for England in three weeks time and although she’d been offered positions with three other families, she hadn’t felt that initial click with the parents that she liked to. Whilst her main focus was of course the children she’d be looking after, Y/N had found that most children liked her and that she could adapt to them. It was the parents that were the problem. If she couldn’t work with them, she wouldn’t enjoy the job and that would have a negative effect on the children and her. And she wanted to be happy with her work, especially when it was one that involved her living in on the job.

Her next prospective employer was Dr Spencer Reid of the FBI. Her existing employers had actually informed her of the current new position, suggesting she go for it. The mom of her current charges had heard about the job from another mom at the school, a woman known as Jen. Jen was one of Dr Reid’s colleagues and friend, and had asked that Y/N go and interview when she learned that she wouldn’t be joining the family in England.

Y/N had done her research on the man, discovering that he was 37 years of age and had numerous degrees and accreditations, more than seemed humanly possible for a man his age who’d had a full time position within the FBI since he was 24. His resume was impressive and sightly intimidating to her but she wasn’t going to let that show. Her lack of degrees and honours had no reflection on her abilities as a caregiver. Interestingly enough the articles she’d read had not mentioned the fact that he was father, only stating that he was divorced and resided in Virginia. She guessed that given his job he liked to keep as much of his personal life as private as he could.

Checking her appearance in the rear view mirror a final time, Y/N gathered her bag and her resume up, locking her car and making her way to the front door. She was surprised when a pretty blonde woman answered the door, a woman she recognised from the gates of the school. She wasn’t there often but when she was, her son would always run to her beaming.

“Hi. I’m JJ. You must be Y/N?” her smile was welcoming and Y/N grinned back, extending her hand to be shook.

“Hello! Yes, I am. I recognise you from Green Acres.”

“Ah yes, Henry loves it there. Come on through and I’ll take you in to meet Spencer. I’ll pre warn you now, he’s a little cranky. This is the second weekend of interviewing.”

JJ was feeling optimistic about this applicant. Another school mom that she talked to had recommended her, singing her praises and lamenting how sad the family were that they couldn’t convince Y/N to join them in England. Jen had seen her too at the school gates, picking up her charges and they always seemed pleased to see her. Maybe that families loss would be Spencer and Ella’s gain.

JJ led Y/N through to dining room to where Spencer was sitting gripping a cup of coffee like his life depended on it. She felt bad for her friend, but she truly believed this was best option if Reid wanted to keep working at the BAU.

“Spencer, this is Y/F/N. Y/N, this is Dr Spencer Reid.”

Y/N crossed the room quickly and held her hand out to him, surprised when he didn’t take it. Behind her she heard JJ sigh.

“He has a thing about hand shaking…. ”

“The amount of bacteria passed during a single handshake is….” the man began to speak.

“Spencer, really? I’ve heard you say that line to every single applicant. You really should just shake their hands, it’s polite.”

“It’s fine, it’s fine. Don’t worry Dr Reid, I completely understand,” Y/N did to an extent, the amount of germs and bacteria the human came into contact with each day was immense and she always drilled good cleanliness and hygiene practices into her charges, carrying bottles of antibacterial gel in her bag at all times.

JJ touched her arm and gestured to one of the chairs. “Please, take a seat. Can I get you a drink or anything?”

“I’m fine actually, thank you. I have bottled water in my bag, one of the habits of being a nanny, always having snacks and drinks with you wherever you go.”

She didn’t mention the apple, boxes of raisins and the zip lock bag of carrot sticks she also had, or the bag of Reeses miniature pieces.

“Alrighty then,” JJ pulled up the seat next to Dr Reid. “Let’s begin. I’m Ella’s godmother, so I’m helping Spencer out. We’re trying to keep this relatively informal. If you could just tell us about yourself and how you came into this profession?”

“Okay, erm… So I’m 26 years old and I’ve been nannying for eight years with two separate families.”

“So you started when you were eighteen?” Dr Reid furrowed his brow slightly.

“Yes,“ Y/N replied, knowing where this was going.

“Did you not go to college?” he asked.

Had he not even read her resume at all?

“Nope.”

“Can I asked why not?”

“You can. You see, I had a bit of a turbulent time during my teenage years, I’m not going to lie and cover that up. My mom passed away when I was eleven leaving my dad and I, and my three younger siblings. Up until I was fifteen I was the good little daughter, helping to raise them and ultimately taking over from my mother. It felt natural to me, I’m great with kids hence why I do what I do. Then a few months after my fifteenth birthday I seemed to hit a brick wall and suddenly careered drastically off course. I started hanging with a bad crowd at school, skipping classes and generally being a teenage tearaway. My school work slipped massively and I suddenly had no ambition in life. I finally managed to pull myself back a few months before graduation but by then it was too late. I barely scraped together enough credits to graduate.”

Y/N paused to take a sip from her water bottle that she’d pulled from her bag.

“After I left school I started waitressing at this little diner. A family used to come in at least three times a week. A mom and her two kids. They were regulars, the mom worked long hours so didn’t want to waste time to home cooking so she took the kids out to eat most nights, and the dad worked away a lot. I started making small talk with them and getting to know them and after around four months, the mom approached me and asked if I’d ever consider nannying. She’d seen how good I was with her kids. She loved her job dearly but was feeling pressure to give it up because she felt like she was neglecting her kids. They had different sitters a few nights a week and she was constantly being let down. They had a spare room at the house and she offered me a better wage than what I was making at the diner. It was a no brainer really. I ended up staying with them for five years, until the youngest was headed off to middle school. I still see the family regularly. During my time with them, I completed some courses at the community college so I at least had some basic qualifications. I found my latest family, the Thompsons through my first job. The moms worked together. I’ve been with them for three years and would stay with them longer still except I don’t wish to move to another country despite the very attractive package they’ve offered me to go. My own family and friends are here, and two years ago I started taking a weekend class at the college, working towards a degree in psychology. It involves some online learning modules which I’ve been doing when the children were at school. Eventually I want to become a guidance counsellor so hopefully I can help other children make the right decisions instead of flying off the handles like I did.”

Both JJ and Dr Reid were nodding by the time she finished, JJ a genuine looking smile on her face. JJ then began to explain the ins and outs of what this particular position would entail. Only one child which Y/N wasn’t used to, but she would be on call pretty much all the time. Due to the nature of their jobs Dr Reid could be away for days at a time.

“The last weekend of every month you’d have free though. My ex wife looks after Ella then and she would still be on call for emergencies as would Ella’s grandmother. I am home most weekends, in recent months our unsubs seem to have been thoughtful enough to keep their activities to weekdays,” Dr Reid chuckled nervously at his joke and Y/N indulged him with a grin.

“Ella’s mom only has her once a month?” she did ask, feeling confused.

“Erm no,” a glance between Dr Reid and JJ.

“Ella’s mom passed away four years ago. Ella spends time with my ex wife so she can see her sister. You’ll meet her too and part of your role could also entail looking after her if I’m called into work suddenly on the weekends I have her. That’s only happened a handful of times though,” he explained.

“Oh okay. So how old is Ella’s sister?”

“She’s also nine. Ellie is four months younger than Ella…. ”

Y/N’s brain did the maths and took in the slightly sheepish look on the man’s face, noticing how attractive he actually was. It sounded like Dr Reid hadn’t quite been the oh so faithful husband which was odd. Y/N was no expert but she somehow didn’t expect that from the man sat in front of her, but then again people change.

Dr Reid sighed loudly, an annoyed look crossing his features.

“I can see you judging me. The same look every applicant has had so far when I’ve mentioned Ellie.”

He was right, she was.

“Sorry,” Y/N apologised. “I thought I was doing a better job of hiding my judgement, I guess I’d have to work on that being around a profiler. You do kinda deserve it though, you’ve got to at least expect it, especially when you don’t give the whole story.”

Dr Reid looked shocked and JJ’s grin grew wider. Every other applicant had stumbled over their words and blushed when Spencer had called them out on it, which he’d done every single time. He knew he deserved the judgement, the girl was right. This one though, was the first applicant to actually respond honestly and openly to his accusations.

Jen was pleasantly surprised though when Spencer pushed back his chair and stood.

“Y/N, would you like a tour of the house? I can show you the bedroom that would be yours if you accept the job offer, and you can see Ella’s room.”

“Wait… Job offer? Is the interview over?”

Dr Reid nodded. “It is for me at least. I appreciate how honest you’ve been with me about your past, and I respect that you didn’t try to lie when I called you out just then. As a profiler, you learn to read people and from what I’m reading from you, I think you’d be very good for my daughter. If you want the job, it’s yours.”

A silent ‘yes’ went through JJ and she resisted the urge to fist pump when Y/N stood up next to him.

“Show me my new bedroom then, Dr Reid.”

“Please, it’s Spencer.”

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Moving On - Kodaline
‘Sometime in the future we can share our stories, when we don’t care about all of our mistakes our failures and our glories…but until that day comes along we’ll keep on moving on’

Flying High Falling Low - Walking On Cars
'It’s that time of year again and you know I’d love to buy you something but you know that I’ve got nothing…’

Marry Me - Train
'Forever could never be long enough for me, to feel like I’ve had long enough with you’

Perfect - Ed Sheeran
'I found a love for me Darling just dive right in, and follow my lead. Well I found a girl, beautiful and sweet I never knew you were the someone waiting for me. Cause we were just kids when we fell in love…’

The Fighter - The Fray
'Lover held her love, she begs him not to go, she unwraps his gloves, the lover says I know I know I know. She touched his finger tips, kissed his trembling lips. Somehow they both know, he’s not coming home’

Say You Won’t Let Go - James Arthur
'I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough’

The Moment I Knew - Taylor Swift
'And it was like slow motion, standing there in my party dress with red lipstick, and no one to impress…’

If You Could See Me Now - The Script
'It was February 14th Valentine’s Day, the roses came but they took you away…’

Not About Angels - Birdy
'We know full well that there’s just time, so is it wrong to dance this line?’

I Wouldn’t Mind It - He Is We
'Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile, I wouldn’t mind it…’

Breakeven - The Script
'Still alive but I’m barely breathing…just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in…’

I Found Myself - Anna Clendening
'My heart was beating, barely breathing but still alive. Lost along the way I’d given up my fight…’

Dancing On My Own - Callum Scott
'Now I’m in the corner watching you kiss her. I’m right over here, why can’t you see me? I’m giving it my all but I’m not the guy you’re taking home…’

All Too Well - Taylor Swift
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night, dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light…’

Hurt - Christina Augilera
'I’m sorry for, blaming you, for all the things I just couldn’t do. And I’ve hurt myself in hurting you…’

Hiding My Heart Away - Adele
'This is how the story went, I met someone by accident, who blew me away…’

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
'Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection…’

To My Parents - Anna Clendening
'I’m sorry mum and dad I know I messed up bad, I should’ve done, should’ve done better. I’m sorry mum and dad for all the time I’ve had to get my life, get my life together but I didn’t…’

Take Me Home - Jess Glynne
'Came to you with a broken faith, you gave me more than a hand to hold…’

One - Ed Sheeran
'Tell me that you turned down the man who asked for your hand because you’re waiting for me…’

Leave Your Lover - Sam Smith
'I don’t have much to give but I don’t care for gold. What use is money when you need someone to hold’

In My Veins - Andrew Belle
'Nothing goes as planned…everything will break…’

These Four Walls - Little Mix
'I feel so numb staring at the shower walls…it’s begun the feeling that the end has come. And now the water’s cold.’

The Man Who Can’t Be Moved - The Script
'Going back to the corner where I first saw you gonna camp in my sleeping bag I’m not gonna move…’

T-Shirt - Birdy
'I know because I’ve spent half this morning thinking about the t-shirt you sleep in’

Still Falling For You - Ellie Goulding
'It took us a while, because we were young and unsure…’

One and Only - Adele
'You’ve been on my mind, I grow fonder everyday lose myself in time at the mention of your name.’

The Town - Niall Horan
'Waking up to kiss you and nobody’s there. The smell of your perfume still stuck in the air…’

Fake Smile - Rebecca Ferguson
'Put on you fake smile and wipe away your real tears, it’s not real anyway…’

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
'Oceans apart, day after day and I slowly go insane…’

Broken Arrow - The Script
'This time he’s not gonna be another could’ve been. This time she’s gonna live to work she’s not working to live…’

Above The Clouds Of Pompeii - Bears Den
'I was too young to understand the flowers sleeping in her hands…’

Alive - Sia
'I had a one way ticket to a place where all the demons go. Where the wind don’t change bad nothing in the ground can ever grow…’

One Of These Days - Olly Murs
'My room is big enough for the both of us, won’t you come around help me fill it up…’

Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
'I ponder on something great my lungs will fill and then deflate. They fill with fire, exhale desire. I know it’s dire my time today. I have these thoughts so often I ought to replace that slot with what I was bought 'cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence’

Near To You - A Fine Frenzy
'Near to you I am healing but it’s taking so long. And though he’s gone and you are wonderful it’s hard to move on.’

My Immortal - Evanescence
'When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears, when you screamed I’d fight away all of your fears’

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum
'Lying here with you so close to me, it’s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breath’

Secret Love Song Part II - Little Mix
'Why can’t I hold you in the street or kiss you on the dance floor? I wish that it could be like that, why can’t it be like that 'cause I’m Yours…’

Happiness - The Fray
'Happiness damn near destroys you, it breaks your faith to pieces on the floor.’

Please Don’t Say You Love Me - Gabrielle Aplin
'Please don’t say you love me because I might not say it back. It doesn’t mean my hearts stopped skipping when you look at me like that…’

Come To Me - Goo Goo Dolls
'I caught you burning photographs like that could save you from your past…’

All Again - Ella Henderson
'I am falling, but I’m too weak to fly. Now my heart’s wide open and you’re the reason why…’

I Know You Care - Ellie Goulding
'Clinging to me like a last breath you would breath…you were like home to me, I don’t recognise this street.’

Suitcase - Emeli Sandé
'Didn’t see it coming, no kind of warning, I can’t work out where I’ve gone wrong. His clothes are missing, but his key’s still here…’

I Can’t Make You Love Me - Adele
'Turn down the light…turn down the bed. Turn down these voices inside my head…’

Bad Blood - Bastille
'We were young and drinking in the park we had no where else to go. You said you’d always have my back oh but how were we to know…’

Better Man - Lady Antebellum
'When I first laid eyes on you in that downtown cafe I loved the way your auburn hair danced across your face…’

Shine - Birdy
'Shine, if your heart tells you to then who are you to question it. Shine, if the world gets you down don’t be afraid to wrestle it….’

Fix You - Coldplay
'When you try your best but you don’t succeed…when you get what you want but not what you need…’

Freedom - Rebecca Ferguson
'There is hope…even as the tears fall on your lips even as you take another sip…’

Wasn’t Expecting That - Jamie Lawson
'It was only a word, it was almost misheard and I wasn’t expecting that. Just a delicate kiss, anyone could’ve missed, I wasn’t expecting that.’

Yours - Ella Henderson
'I wear your winter coat, the one you love to wear…so I can feel close to what’s beyond compare…’

Kiss It All Better - He Is We
'He sits in his cell and he lays on his bed covers his head and closes his eyes. He’s sees a smoking gun and the coward he ran and in his arms is the bleeding love of his life…’

Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson
'He drowns in his dreams…an exquisite extreme I know. He’s as damned as he seems and more heaven than a heart could know…’

The One - Kodaline
'Tell me, tell me that you want me and I’ll be yours completely for better or for worse.’

Beautiful To Me - Olly Murs
'She ties her hair up tight, she puts her armour on when she steps outside…’

Only Love Can Hurt Like This - Paloma Faith
'I tell myself you don’t mean a thing what we got, got no hold on me. But when you’re not there I just crumble…’

I Hope - Rebecca Ferguson
'I used to hate you so easily, look into your eyes so eagerly and where there was cold I wouldn’t walk away.’

I’m Yours - The Script
'You touch these tired eyes of mine, map my face out line by line and somehow growing old is fine…’

Breaking the Law - Emeli Sande
'I’ll never stop braking the law for you. I’ll never stop helping to pull you through.’

Begin Again - Taylor Swift
'And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid…I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny because he never kid.’

Hard Work - Ella Henderson
'I know I’m not wasting my time, for you to be the reason I cry, and no I’m not gonna lie. You’re hard work but you’re good for me.“

Nature’s Law - Embrace
'You should never fight your feelings, when you’re very bones believe it…’

Shirtsleeves - Ed Sheeran
'When salted tears won’t dry I’ll wipe my shirtsleeves under your eyes. These hearts will be flooded tonight, I’ll wipe my shirtsleeves under your eyes’

No Angel - Birdy
'Remember once the things you told me and how the tears fell from my eyes. They didn’t fall because it hurt me, I just hate to see you cry’

Like I Can - Sam Smith
'He could be a stranger you gave a second glance. He could be a trophy of a one night stand. He could have your humour but I don’t understand 'cause he’ll never love you like I can’

Friends - Ed Sheeran
'That’s why friends should sleep in other beds and friends shouldn’t kiss me like you. Yeah I know there a limit to everything but my friends will never love me like you’

This Woman’s Work - Greg Laswell
'I know you have little life in you yet. I know you have a lot of strength yet. Should be crying but I just can’t let it show, should be hoping but I can’t stop thinking. All the things we should’ve said but we never said. All the things that you needed from me. All the you wanted for me. All the things we should’ve done but we didn’t oh my darling…’

Dead Man Walking - The Script
'Already seen it in your face already someone in place. I’m a breathing talking dead man walking’

Be The One - The Fray
'They’re two lovers in the night waiting on the sun to rise. Passing ships into the night under different skies. But you just whisper what you said one last time I could’ve sworn I heard you that 'you are mine’

Promise Me - Beverly Carven
'When I go away I’ll miss you and I will be thinking of you every night and day. Just promise me you’d wait 'cause I’ll be saving all my love for you…’

Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran
'Because I’ve been feeling everything from hate to love from love to lust to truth I guess that’s how I know you…do I’ll hold you close’

Lay Down - Ella Henderson
'Won’t you lay down and tell me the places you’ve been. Won’t you lay down and relive your story again…’

Bridge Over Troubled Water - Simon and Garfunkel
'When you’re weary, feeling small. When tears are in your eyes, I’ll dry them all. I’m on your side, oh, when times get rough. And friends just can’t be found. Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay me down’

For The First Time - The Script
'She’s all laid up in bed with a broken heart. Whilst I’m drinking jack all alone in my local bar. And I don’t know how, how we got into this mad situation. Only doing things out of frustration. Trying to make it work but man these times are hard.’

How To Save A Life - The Fray
'Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness. But I would’ve stayed up with up all night had I known how to save a life’

Black Is The Colour - Cara Dillon
'Black is the colour of my true love’s hair. Her lips are like a rose so fair. She’s got the sweetest face and the gentlest hands. I love the ground where on she stands’

Riding To New York - Passenger
'I met him in Minnesota, he was dark and overcast. With long grey hair and eyes that stared through me like I was glass. I asked 'where are you going to?’ He said 'I’m the wind I’m just blowing through’… then he lit up a cigarette and began to talk’

Lay Me Down - Sam Smith and John Legend
'Can I lay by your side? Next to you. Next to you. And make sure you’re alright…’

Castle On The Hill - Ed Sheeran
'I found my heart and broke it here. Made friends and lost them through the years…’

Silhouette - Tom Odell
'It’s just a silhouette, a flick of the blinds just a mind trick. I don’t know why but it reminds me of someone that I used to know…’

Supermarket flowers - Ed Sheeran
'Took the get well soon cards and stuffed animals. Poured the old ginger beer down the sink. Dad always told me don’t you cry when you’re down but mum there’s a tear every time that I blink…’

Sentences

1. "Are you kidding me?”
2. “What is going on?”
3. “Please tell me that was you?”
4. “How long have you been stood there?”
5. “Let me in.”
6. “Why is it so cold?”
7. “Paint is meant to go on the wall not your face.”
8. “Are you okay?”
9. “How long have you known?”
10. “That could’ve gone better.”
11. “You really thought that this was a good idea?”
12. “Where am I?”
13. “It’s One in the morning.”
14. “Let’s bake!!”
15. “Why are you holding our child like Simba?”
16. “I don’t trust you.”
17. “I hate you…”
18. “Don’t talk to me.”
19. “Just stay away from me okay?”
20. “You don’t know what it feels like…”
21. “They’re dead…”
22. “What do I do?”
23. “I’m pregnant…”
24. “This is going really badly. It’s like watching a car crash in slow motion.”
25. “I wasn’t staring! I was watching…intently.”
26. “This is what you call handling the situation?”
27. “Truth or Dare?”
28. “They’re your child before 5AM.”
29. “We’ve watched 12 episodes we need to stop now.”
30. “You know you can talk to me right?”
31. “Everything is going to be fine.”
32. “Aw, you’re so cute.”
33. “Don’t make me come over there.”
34. “Run.”
35. “Calm down.”
36. “Dance with me.”
37. “Just stop talking.”
38. “It’s getting late…”
39. “Wait. Are we lost?”
40. “Don’t go…”
41. “This is…a strange turn of events.”
42. “Everything we do is weird to everyone else but us.”
43. “That was the police…”
44. “Bro…”
45. “Please don’t hate me. I couldn’t bare the thought of not seeing you every day…”
46. “This is as far as I had got plan wise I’m afraid.”
47. “And now it’s snowing. Brilliant.”
48. “Yay…road trip.”
49. “Let’s play 20 questions.”
50. “What makes you happy”
51. “It’s complicated…”
52. “After everything…I’d still choose you.“
53. “This could only happen to me.”
54. “Say something…”
55. “Come here…”
56. “Don’t shut me out.”
57. “What are we waiting for?”
58. "We need to talk…”
59. .“We can’t keep doing this.”
60. "Haven’t you read that already?”
61. .“I can’t stand back and watch you do this…”
62. “You’re such an idiot.”
63. .“Why did you kiss me?”
64. .“Don’t pretend you’re not having fun.”
65. .“PUPPY!”
66. .“Do you really think I could replace you?”
67. “Because I love you…”
68. .“Duck.”
69. “I said there was a plan, I never said it was a good one.”
70. “Put. The snowball. Down.”
71. .“Did you just smile?”
72. .“When did things get this hard?”
73. "I suppose…we’re all stories in the end.”
74. “Did you have to hit me?”
75. “FOUR HOURS I’VE BEEN HERE.”
76. .“Come inside…”
77. “You deserve better than that.”
78. “You’d do that for me?”
79. “You were willing to give up everything…”
80. “Oh for the love of god just kiss already!”
81. “ITS HAPPENING!”
82. “Are you saying goodbye?”
83. “Another life…”
84. “Well that was stupid.”
85. “You love me really.”
86. “That was smooth.”
87. “Sometimes, the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.”
88. “I have a very good explanation for all of this.”
89. “Wait…are you actually struggling for something to say?”
90. “Nice save.”
91. “Do you want me to go?”
92. “What are you even talking about?”
93. .“How are you allowed out in public…”
94. “I’m going to stay, okay? I’m going to stay with you.”
95. “And when were you planning on telling me this?”
96. “Because…I care about you…”
97. “That’s stupid! Let’s do it!”
98. “Why am I friends with you.”
99. “It’s okay! You’re safe, I promise. It was just a nightmare.”
100. .“What is it? What happened?”
101. "It could’ve been worst.”
102. “what an appalling piece of advice!”
103. “Pizza and a movie?”
104. “If you weren’t so cute…”
105. “I mean you could’ve just stopped talking?!”
106. “You’ve been awake for 48 hours this isn’t healthy.”
107. “I think we should take you to hospital…”
108. “Please say you know who I am?”
109. “It must be awful to look at the person you love and for them to look back at you and have no idea who you are…”
110. “Nobody is invincible…”
111. “GIVE ME THE AUX CHORD OTHERWISE WE’RE MAKING THIS 39 HOUR ROAD TRIP IN SILENCE!”
112. “I would never forget.”
113. “Oh my god that rain is vicious.”
114. “Is it bedtime?”
115. “How’s my little soldier?”
116. “Bored. Bored. Bored.”
117. “Your go.”
118. “Stop staring.”
119. “Oh. Bit of a domestic going on.”
120. “You really don’t believe me…”
121. “What now?”
122. “I’m sorry, you’ve been cheating on me how long?”
123. “Look, I’m sorry I put you off when you were playing Mario Kart. Please can you let me back in now…”
124. “Don’t worry I took care of your animal crossing town whilst you were ill, I did all the weeding and helped almost pay off your loan.”
125. “Let’s get you to bed.”
126. “How can something so small be so loud?”
127. “Here. Take my jacket.”
128. “I’m not special. I’m nothing.”
129. “I don’t want to lose you.”
130. “I have calculated how far that window opens. Take it as a warning.”
131. “How was that supposed to help?”
132. “Come to bed.”
133. “Please sit down. I can’t pick you up off the floor if you fall over.”
134. “Look at me. Are you hurt?”
135. “How much longer can we keep doing this?”
136. “We could be happy…”
137. “Are you an actual idiot?”
138. “I may have..sort of… just adopted four dogs…”
139. “We’ve watched this film 7 times.”
140. “I could kiss you!”
141. “Are you limping?”
142. “On a scale of one to ten how illegal is this?”
143. “Wh..what do I do? Tell me what do I do?”
144. “Will you stay with me?”
145. “I’m doing this to protect you.”
146. “I’ve nearly lost you once. I’m not risking it again.”
147. “Two minutes. Just give me two minutes…”
148. “Welcome home.”
149. “I don’t belong anywhere…”
150. “What about us?”
151. “You are the human version of a headache.”
152. “I’m not sure how much more of this I can take.”
153. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
154. “Just take my word for it.”
155. “Look, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.”
156. “Sorry I stopped listening about ten minutes ago. What on earth are you talking about?”
157. “I thought I knew you but now? I don’t know…”
158. “Respect and trust go both ways.”
159. “Oh ye of little faith.”
160. “Well, I just put 2 and 2 together…”
161. “It’s a stupid stupid idea.”
162. “Why do I let you talk me into these things?”
163. “When are you going to stop pretending that nothing ever hurts you?”
164. “Who put you in charge?”
165. “What did your last slave die of?”
166. “In your dreams.”
167. “We make a pretty good team you and me.”
168. “Leave it. It’s not worth it.”
169. “I didn’t want to get you involved.”
170. “I shouldn’t have come…”
171. “We know how it’s going to end…we always have…”
172. “Do you know what’s it’s like? Wanting to give up but knowing you can’t because everyone else needs you to be strong.”
173. “I’m guessing that wasn’t part of the plan.”
174. “I haven’t got time for this.”
175. “What happened to being one of the good guys?”
176. “What was that you just threw at me.”
177. “If I have to do this then so do you.”
178. “Are you angry?”
179. “Why are you being so nice to me?”
180. “What if this isn’t how it’s supposed to be? What if we’re just clutching at whatever time we’ve got?”
181. “Maybe I wasn’t meant to have friends…maybe I’m supposed to be alone?”
182. “Ugh I do not have an interest in football I can’t believe you made me come here.”
183. “I’m too late aren’t I?”
184. “Don’t quote 'Only Fools And Horses’ at me I’m trying to be dramatic.”
185. “Even if I wasn’t awake I would be now.”
186. “I fall for it every time.”
187. “Don’t ever do that to me again!”
188. “Are you safe? Where you are now…tell me that if nothing else. Are you safe?”
189. “I want my family back.”
190. “I’m just tired.”
191. “I bet you think you’re funny.”
192. “Real monsters are human…learnt that a long time ago.”
193. “I had a weird dream about you last night.”
194. “If you’re going to have your friends round you’ve got to play nice.”
195. “Oh well that’s made me feel much better.”
196. “Did they lay a finger on you?”
197. “Of all the things to be hereditary.”
198. “You owe me a new door.”
199. “I’m going to bed because I can’t cope with this anymore.”
200. “Next time an idea forms in that head of yours share it with the group.”
201. “text me when you get there.”
202. “In hindsight it wasn’t my best idea.”
203. “Is that my hoodie?”
204. “Excuse me but let me get this straight. You want me to sleep here? In the haunted house?!”
205. “Okay well that’s broken.”
206. “But…it was so real…”
207. “Look, I appreciate you trying to be kind but you’re really not helping…”
208. “Drive!”
209. “Well this is it. This is how it ends!”
210. “Don’t look at me in that tone of voice.”
211. “How many energy drinks have you had?”
212. “As the adult here I shouldn’t be encouraging this.”
213. “Okay so we just follow the recipe. I mean how hard can it be?”
214. “Hi. Yeah. I’m lost and have less than £10 on me and my phone is on 3% Erm. Help. Please…”
215. “What the fluffing beans was that?”
216. “My stress levels reached crying in McDonalds yesterday but apart from that I’m fine.”
217. “Why does coming to a fair make me feel 12 years old?”
218. “I wanted to tell you. I really did. But how could I?”
219. “I was falling apart and no one could tell…”
220. “I’m you’re real dad/mum.”
221. “Well…this has certainly been the most entertaining evening…”
222. “I’ve seen enough episodes of Poirot to know nothing good ever happens on a train.”
223. “When are you going to realise that what you do effects everyone around you?”
224. “The memories hurt more.”
225. “I wish I’d just…I wish I’d done more whilst I had the chance…”
226. “We’re best friends because our parents could not cope with us as twins.”
227. “We’ve all lived through our own horrors and I think, no matter how fast we run, they’ll always catch up with us in the end.”
228. “I was replaceable…”
229. “Someone just ran us off the road.”
230. “If we’re going we have to go now.”
231. “I knew someone was missing from my life. I just didn’t know who…”
232. “We were young and messed up.”
233. “What do you know? You don’t know anything!”
234. “I wish I’d never met you.”
235. “I was scared you’d leave.”
236. “I don’t like the person I’ve become.”
237. “Why do you even put up with me?”
238. “He/she’s better off without me.”
239. “When did everything become so tragic.”
240. “Everyone has that story they never tell.”
241. “I’m leaving. I’m sorry but…i just can’t do this anymore..
242. "If you’re gonna be like that do it yourself.”
243. “Why do I let him/her treat me like that?”
244. “I’ll take them to school today.”
245. “I’m sick of everyone thinking I’m someone I’m not.”
246. “Just give me your hand.”
247. “Don’t do this…”
248. “You were always there when I needed you.”
249. “Mind if I join?”
250. “Maybe we’ll just have to figure this out together.”
251. “I heard this song and thought of you.”
252. “I’ll be back before you know it.”
253. “I’ll get this.”
254. “Just…take care of yourself. If you do one thing for me.”
255. “Out of all the things I thought I’d prepared myself for…I never expected to fall in love with you…”
256. “I can’t forget you.”
257. “I did this for you. All of this! Don’t you understand?”
258. “I may be a little drunk…”
259. “You look like you need a hug.”
260. “Try not to fall over.”
261. “Do you know how long I’ve been trying to tell you I’m hopelessly in love with you?”
262. “Well if you didn’t move it and I didn’t move it then who did?”
263. “Ah, the plot thickens.”
264. “Just shut up and get in the car.”
265. “Please let me survive this with a shred of dignity in tact.”
266. “But I dealt with it last time.”
267. “I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”
268. “You will call if you need me, won’t you?”
269. “Okay I admit it. I’m worried. I’d hate for anything to happen to you…”
270. “Have I told you how much I love you today?”
271. “How long have we owned this?”
272. “You’re quiet. What’s wrong?”
273. “Move over. I am not going top and tails with you.”
274. “They’re never going to hurt you again.”
275. “I am no where near drunk enough to be agreeing to this.”
276. “I made the excuse of having to baby sit. Though looking at you I don’t think it was that much of a lie.”
277. “Power cuts are all fun and games until the last candle goes out.”
278. “For god’s sake take some responsibility!”
279. “Don’t go to sleep. Stay awake and talk to me.”
280. “I’ll be home soon. I promise.”

‘ What were you both doing, Auntie Amy?’

This is based on a prompt sent by @cizavilation to @omeliafics

Thank you @jia911 for helping to proofread this fic- you’re the best! <3

Prompt : With the girls from the Omelia group chat we were talking about the 12x21 scene where Maggie and Meredith caught Owen and Amelia at the couch naked, and given that we also know that Zola took a glimpse of them lying naked together there… the prompt is: Can someone write something related with Zola asking Amelia what they were doing there? xD

Amelia Shepherd had just returned home from a tiring day at work after having back to back consults and surgeries. As she entered her sister- in-law Meredith Grey’s house, all she could think about was a warm shower and her comfortable bed. And Owen Hunt.

She smiled to herself as she recalled the events from two nights ago.

After Owen’s heartfelt confession to her in his office about his sister Megan and how he felt responsible for her disappearance, she felt a deeper connection to him. The fact that he decided to open up to her and tell her his innermost feelings and regrets meant a lot to her. It signified that he was ready to move on to the next phase of their relationship, which involved trust and mutual understanding. After she hugged him from behind and comforted him- he relished in her comforting touch and they remained in that position for a few long minutes before he finally stood up and turned around to hug her back. The warm hug eventually escalated into a kiss. The kiss then got heated until they had to pull away from each other before someone entered the room and caught them in their intimate moment. Still in a bliss from the kiss, Amelia had casually invited Owen to grab some dinner together as she was starving. They went to a cozy Italian restaurant within walking distance of the hospital and chatted throughout dinner. Owen spoke fondly of his sister Megan, telling Amelia about wonderful childhood memories he shared with her, how she fell in love with Riggs and how his heart broke for her when she cried in his arms after discovering that Riggs cheated on her. He told Amelia that he could never forgive himself for suggesting that she get on the plane. His sister’s disappearance had affected him more than he would have liked to admit and every single day he wished for her to return safely to him.

 Amelia had listened sympathetically to Owen’s story- holding his hands as a gesture of support, not interrupting him even once, which was rather uncharacteristic of her. After their scumptious dessert of icecream with chocolate pudding- Owen had invited Amelia to spend the night in his trailer. As tempting at it was for her, Amelia declined as she needed a long hot bath and a fresh pair of clothes to sleep in. Seeing Owen’s disappointed look- Amelia had the brilliant idea of inviting Owen to sleep over with her at Meredith’s house, stating the reason that both Meredith and Maggie were on call and the children and nanny were probably asleep upstairs.

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love is not over | jungkook

word count: 3k

genre: angst 

a/n: i can post part two if you guys are interested in it! also this is an au and features jungkook as a dad, she calls him daddy cause’ i don’t know the korean word for dad and i don’t trust google (sorry!)

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You woke up before the loud alarm could frighten you awake. Next to you, he still slept blissfully unaware that within the next minute an alarm was going to blare. You also knew that within the next minute you were going to have your daughter running in screaming and jumping, excitedly wanting to go to school. You found yourself sighing at the thought of the new day, wishing you could just go back to sleep – wishing it was a weekend, not a weekday.

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Accepting dark and finding light

Originally posted by faramaiofnerdwoodforest

Originally posted by castielamigos

Originally posted by heytheredeann

Fourth and final part.

Part One: In between the lines  Part Two: Easy lies and simple truth  Part Three: The puzzles we create

The Light by Sara Bareilles 

Dean x Reader    

Word Count: 7k

A/N: Lines borrowed from Season 11 episode “Alpha and Omega” are in Bold.

 


“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I didn’t want… Bye, y/n.”

There was a bird in a nearby tree chirping incessantly. You never shot a bird before but if you had a gun on you right now, you just might. From the moment you first heard Dean’s voice, the anguish that crossed that line and swept through you like a brush fire, had canceled everything else out. You were no longer at an outdoor table for a small cafe on Massachusetts street, you were trying to get into the head of the man that you had decided only a week ago you didn’t need a lover’s connection with, that you could handle just being friends. But now, after desperately trying to get an answer out of him and receiving a declaration of a different kind that stopped your heart, the world continued to spin.

Sounds of life filtered in; soft chatter from the next table, quiet whispers from the three people you were sitting with when your phone rang, that god damn bird continued to sing like it was a beautiful day while you clutched a cell phone to your face that no longer held the voice that just sent you soaring into the clouds then plummeting back down to earth.

Three pairs of eyes stared at you when his name broke your lips, “dean.” It burned your throat, your eyes, your lungs and then somehow you screamed, “Dean?!”

You pulled the phone away and stared at the screen. Dean’s number was still there, the minutes of his last phone call dictated in white on black. His last phone call. You hit callback already knowing it wouldn’t work. It barely rang before the voicemail kicked on and you wanted to break something.

“Y/n?” Elly touched your arm gently but you still jumped. “Is everything okay?”

You studied her face, saw the real concern that pulled at her brow even though she hadn’t noticed how completely bored you were during most of the double lunch date going on before your world collapsed. You glanced at Kevin and Steve who both looked genuinely concerned but you didn’t have time for this. You needed to find Dean.

“I’m sorry, I have to go.” You squeezed her hand and grabbed your bag next to your chair, “how much do I…”

Steve grasped your hand and smiled when you looked up at him, “I’ve got it. You look like you have somewhere to be.”

You stared into his eyes for a second still amazed at the good person that met your gaze then squeezed his hand, “thank you. I’m sorry.” You stood up throwing the strap of your satchel over your shoulder as Dean’s apology echoed in your head.

“Do you need anything? Company? Are you sure you’re okay?” Elly still looked confused and scared now too.

You hugged her tightly, “thank you but I need to do this on my own. I’ll call you later.” You pulled back and gave her a smile before you took off down the sidewalk heading for the library only a few blocks down and around the corner. You tried Sam’s number and Cas multiple times on the way but both went straight to voicemail.

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anonymous asked:

RFA with a delinquent MC? Can I request that?

(ο´ω`ο)ゝ I don’t see an issue with it! Since MC seems to be an adult, I’m going to make her an adult one? Like 20 or 21? Does that still work for you? If not, message me again and I’ll make another one where’s she like some young punk delinquent! I just won’t have her romantically involved with them tho.


Yoosung

-He never really expected you to be one to steal, especially since you were helping out the RFA and what they stood for

-So when he saw you pull out something from your purse at the store the two of you were just browsing in, in the car, he nearly yelled out at you.

-”D-did you just steal that??”

-You shrugged. “Yeah. It’s over-priced anyway.”

-He just gaped at you for a moment, before just keeping quiet until the two of you got back to his place.

-Now he was just questioning everything you owned. Was it all stolen? Did you just steal from people or from stores?

-”Mc, why would you steal? What if you get caught one day?”

-”I’ve never been caught-”

-”That’s…Not my point.”

-He just didn’t know how to talk about this. You kept acting so casual about it. It certainly turned him off from you, though.

-”Mc….I’m okay with you cussing and drinking, and maybe even smoking, but…Please don’t steal. From anyone. That’s something I can’t really stand.”

-He’d probably stop viewing you as a romantic interest, and just switch his feelings for you into feelings for friendship. I don’t think he’d like a delinquent mc much…

Jaehee

-Her big time realizing it was when she was assigned to help get you ready for the RFA party. 

-You looked like you had never worn a dress that was ‘girly’ in your whole life, and the glare you gave the piece of clothing helped proved her assumption.

-”Jaehee- No. No no. I am not going to wear that.”

-It took so many outfits until they found a simple black dress you agreed to wear, and even though she didn’t know much about make-up, the stuff you arrived in was not suitable as well.

-From that point on, she understood a bit more about your attitude from the chat around Zen and the others. 

-When the two of you went on little coffee dates (were they dates? Friendly dates? God, she didn’t know.) you always snapped at people staring at the two of you.

-You were…Very hot headed, to say the least.

-One night the two of you were walking in town- You were walking her back to her place- when a couple of rough looking guys blocked the way.

-Jaehee was a bit intimidated, but she had ages of Judo lessons behind her.

-She was not prepared when you started chatting them up, however.

-After an awkward few minutes of her nearly squirming and you and the guys talking about some…colorful subjects… You finally waved goodbye and continued your conversation with her.

-”Mc, you know them??”

-”Yeah, they’re pretty okay. You just gotta watch out for the buzz cut one. He has too much fun with the gang’s stash.”

-Stash??? oh lord. You kept proving her first assumptions wrong each day.

-She’d lowkey be constantly worried over you.

Zen

-He found out when he called you and mentioned his bike, and the two of you had a long conversation about it.

-He brought up his old highschool gang and when you did too, he panicked.

-”You still keep in touch with them? But they’ve changed, right?”

-”Kinda. The leader stepped down but everyone still respects him. The new guy is kinda annoying but. Whatever.”

-Oh god. What??

-”Mc….Isn’t that dangerous?? You still do these things??”

-You just rolled your eyes. This coming from the used-to-be wild card? Jeez.

-He didn’t know what to think. Every now and then he’d push the idea of you not really talking to your old gang anymore, especially since they were still punks, but you always shot it down saying they were family.

-Would explain how you could hold your liquor well though….

-As long as you didn’t steal or hurt anyone, or do any hard drugs, he’d be slightly okay with it. Just be nervous when you brought it up.

Jumin

-He never thought much about it. You did dress a bit like a punk, but he pushed the thought away. He never really understood women’s fashion anyway.

-He didn’t realize or ask about it until one day you mentioned you dropped out of high school.

-”What? Do you want to keep going? I can send you to a better school than what you were going to-”

-”Noooo, no no no. I am not going back to school, especially high school. Jeez, Jumin.”

-You went on to lament on how stupid and boring it was anyway. The only good thing was your gang.

-”I’m sorry, your what?”

-Immediate disapproval. Just hands down. “Don’t keep talking to them, they’re just a bad influence.”

-”What, are you my dad now?”

-(He was last night)

-The convo would probably turn into an argument pretty quickly. He’d have to spend a while thinking of if he really wanted to date you or not…

Seven

-”Can you steal Elly for me?”

-”….no.”

-He found out and was just. Littering you with ridiculous questions. Weirdest thing you stole? Why? Stupidest thing your gang did? Weird things?

-He’d think it was funny until he found out you were still doing these things.

-And that the weirdest thing you stole was…last week??

-”Hey, come on mc, stealing isn’t cool.”

-”It is when it’s all overpriced bullshit. I’m pretty sure I’ve taken a few things from C&R branch stores.”

-Oh my god. Okay, never tell Jumin about this..

-”Yeah, but like…You’ve already stolen my heart. Isn’t that enough?”

-”…….No.”

-Regardless, he’d slowly try to ease you away from harmful bad habits. Give you spending money, never let you near one of his damn cars, hack into gang member’s phones to make sure they don’t hang out with you too much…. The small things!

-Constantly, constantly, worried.



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anonymous asked:

Could I request an imagine where MC tells RFA + V and Saeran that she's pregnant?

YAY FOR FLUFF I NEED FLUFF TO DISTRACT ME FROM THE HARSH REALITY THAT IS MY LIFE THANK YOU ANON

sorry V’s is kind of short/bland, i’m still having some difficulty really characterizing him well

Yoosung

  • you thought it would be funny to drop the news while he was playing a game of LOLOL
  • he rips off his headphone set and turns around to gape at you
  • you just stand there grinning until he starts tearing up
  • he’s so so happy
  • pulls you into a huge hug that lasts forever
  • he’s saying something between his tears but you can’t really hear cause a) his face is buried into your shirt and b) he’s crying like a newborn
  • you do make out “happy”, “omg”, and “love you” a lot though
  • he pulls away when he finally stops crying
  • when you both hear some weird noise coming from his abandoned headphone set
  • he reaches for it and all you hear are distant cheers and congratulations sounding from the people he was on call with
  • yoosung goes bright red at the realization that he forgot he was on a call with his teammates
  • you find it funny though, and yell out a thanks
  • he spends a lot of time looking up parenting tips online to prepare
  • also loves playing his favorite music near your stomach so the baby can hear
  • you fear that your child will be born humming the LOLOL theme

Zen

  • he was sleeping when you suddenly darted out of bed and made a beeline for the bathroom
  • he blinks blearily at the sudden motion, confused at what woke him up
  • but once he hears you throwing up, he’s out of bed in nanoseconds and running for the bathroom door
  • “babe, are you okay?! what’s wrong?! did you eat something bad last night?!?!”
  • you clean up and step back outside, where he’s looking completely worried
  • “nope, morning sickness”
  • (you already knew because you took a test the night before - you wanted to tell him today since he came home late last night)
  • he takes a few seconds to process that before screeching and giving you the biggest bear hug
  • you’re both laughing and hugging 
  • he carries you bridal-style back to the bed before hugging you some more
  • he’s slightly worried that the child is going to be too good-looking about having too many work commitments because he wants to take care of you
  • promises that he’ll be home as much as he can now between work and practice to give you A+ treatment

Jaehee

  • you two have been looking for a way to have children and gave IVF a shot
  • you find out it was successful, and decide to wait until she gets home to break it to her
  • she ends up coming home hella late damn it jumin and is ready to get her 10 minutes of sleep
  • she’s surprised that you’re still awake, and ushers you to go to bed
  • “sorry, we just wanted to wait for you and sleep together”
  • “we???”
  • “yup. we.” you pet your stomach for good measure
  • she doesn’t get it at first, but then realization hits her like a truck
  • and she drops her files on the ground
  • shit the papers all flew out 
  • you’re now out of bed and helping her collect the papers 
  • except when you look up to hand them to her, she has tears in her eyes
  • she never imagined having a family would be possible in her future because of her demanding work schedule
  • but you made it possible and she’s so eternally grateful
  • get ready cause she’s gonna be the most efficient mom to ever roam this earth
  • she’s already got files and bookmarks dedicated to proper childcare and steps for a healthy pregnancy

Jumin

  • okay telling him through a chat message was probably not the most romantic
  • but he was going to be at meetings all day and you wanted him to know as soon as possible
  • except the minute you send the message he leaves the chatroom
  • you’re thinking his meetings started
  • until 15 minutes later he’s running into the house with a pregnancy dietician, prenatal fitness instructor and a childbirth educator in tow
  • “jumin wtf what about your meetings for–”
  • “cancelled them. don’t stand, save your energy.”
  • “i’m fine, thou–”
  • “actually, lie down. are you feeling okay? do you need tea?? a hot pack???”
  • the pregnancy specialist squad has to fight to calm him down
  • he’s super excited, but he’s also really really nervous about being a father
  • cause he doesn’t want to be like his dad –  he wants to be more interactive and closer with his kid
  • you’re sure he’ll be a great father, and he feels a lot better when you tell him that
  • he’s quite passionate about you having the most comfortable pregnancy though
  • he even has a person on standby just to go buy whatever you need to satisfy any food cravings you might get

707

  • doesn’t actually believe it until you show him the test
  • you thought he would get mega excited at the sight, but he starts tearing up instead
  • you’re slightly worried until he pulls you into a hug and starts saying “thank you” over and over 
  • during his past life as a secret agent, he’d never even thought to dream about having a family
  • and now it was right in front of him about to become a reality
  • he’s super hyped after he calms down though
  • a baby!!! you’re having a baby!!!
  • belatedly realizes he’s going to have to stock the kitchen with food other than PhD Pepper and Honey Buddha Chips
  • also does a whole lot of research on parenthood and how to take care of you during the pregnancy
  • he watched footage of a baby being born and was screaming louder than the woman in the video
  • loves loves lying in bed with you and talking to your stomach when he has free time
  • you learned early on not to give him naming privileges
  • “can we name her elly?”
  • “it might be a boy. also we’re not naming our kid after jumin’s cat”
  • “if it’s a boy, we can name him elliot!” 
  • “we’ll see, saeyoung”
  • “… if he or she’s born with long legs, can we name them longbaby? we can make our child famous like longcat!”
  • “that’s a definite no”

V

  • he’s so happy
  • you’d never seen him smile as brightly as he did when you told him
  • pulls you into his lap and nuzzles your neck for a loooong time
  • constantly asks if you’re feeling alright
  • like he asks an unhealthy amount of times
  • but you know he’s doing that because he cares
  • this man will cater to your every need
  • also loves taking pictures of you when he can
  • wants to do a photoshoot throughout your pregnancy to mark the progress
  • does his best to research proper methods to care for you 
  • you already know he’s going to be a goal dad
  • the kid’s probably going to be spoiled rotten though

Saeran

  • to be honest, you expected him to be indifferent about it when you broke the news
  • his eyes immediately went to your stomach after you told him
  • after a long staring contest with your stomach, he put a hesitant hand on it before asking “you sure?”
  • “yup, i did two tests. i can show you them if you want”
  • but then the gentlest smile you’ve ever seen touches his face
  • and he pulls you in for a hug
  • who is this man this isn’t saeran since when could saeran smile
  • sure you’ve seen him genuinely smile once every 4 business days, but his expression was one you’ve had yet to encounter until now
  • you’re standing there stunned before reflexively moving to hug him back
  • but then you hear a small sniffle
  • “….saeran, are you crying?”
  • “i’m not.”
  • “it’s okay if you a–”
  • i’m not.”
  • you laugh before saying “congratulations, you’re going to be a father. and a great one at that!”
  • you know better than to mention the constant sniffles you’re hearing, so you stand there rubbing his back until he’s ready to let go
  • never did you expect to hear him whisper “i love you” into your ear though who knew that phrase was in his vocabulary
  • it was an unforgettable day for you in more ways than one

anonymous asked:

Hey so my mom went through my phone "secretly"(even though it's actually very obvious) and now I'm really scared. If it's not too much trouble could you write a small fic where Laurens keeps a diary or something and he finds out his dad read it?Thank

Hey bby! <333 I’m so sorry your mom invaded your privacy like that. That’s such an awful feeling, I know. I sure can write you a lil something! I hope this helps and that you’re doing okay, kiddo <333 A huge thanks to @ciceroniantrash for suggesting that John’s journal include drawings and for being the best Suffering Friend ™ a girl could ask for <333

John Laurens started keeping a diary the day of his mother’s funeral. After the service and burial, when friends and family were milling about back at the house, John’s maternal grandmother found him hiding away in his room upstairs, flipping through an old photo album of him and his parents when he was an infant.

“My sweet boy,” his grandmother said. She smoothed back his curls, still short in his youth, and kissed his forehead. “I have something for you.”

John looked up from the photos. He was still young enough to be enticed by the possibility of a present. His grandmother smiled at him.

“It’s a journal, but not just any journal.” She pulled it out from her purse and he eagerly flipped it open. “You see, they’re no lines. Journals don’t have to be just words, John, they can be images.” She tapped the album still open on his lap. “And I know you like to draw.”

John had filled that journal from his grandmother years ago. He’d filled five since then, in fact, roughly one a year. And now, at sixteen, he found he needed his journal more than ever. When his mother died, he could talk about it. People knew he was sad. They understood on some level what he was going through. But this? This… feeling? His journal was the only one he could confide in.

He opened up his current journal to a blank page.

Today Alexander did the cutest ever. We were sitting in the cafeteria when he decided to use the straw from his drink then steal the one from mine and stick them under his upper lip. When he grinned at me, I lost it. Laf and Herc rolled their eyes, but I could tell they were amused.

I wanted him to put my straw back so badly. How weird is that? How fucked up am I? But lunch ended and so did my fucked up dream.

He doodled Alex with the straws in his mouth from a few different angles. He was putting the finishing touches on the last one when there was a knock on his door.

He slammed his journal shut and swiveled around in his chair. The thing about knocks at the Laurens’ household was that they were never a question. They were a courtesy. His father barged in one second later.

“John, are you doing homework?” he asked gruffly. He eyed his son’s desk, squinting at the blue notebook atop a pile of papers. “You were doodling again, were you? We talked about this, John. It was good when you were a kid and your mother… passed. But now you’re a man. Men don’t handle their feelings with doodles.”

John nodded. He knew how this went. Just play along and it’ll all be fine.

“Anyway, I came up here to let you know that you need to pick Mary Eleanor up from theatre practice or whatever the hell she does.”

“When does she get out from rehearsal?” John asked.

His father waved his hand dismissively. “I think five. I don’t know. The driver has always gotten her.”

John wanted to be angry, but he just sighed. He wasn’t even going to ask why the driver couldn’t get her today. It didn’t matter. All that mattered was that Mary Eleanor knew someone in the family cared about her.

“Okay, I’ll leave now,” John said.

His father nodded and left the room without another word or glance. John sank back down in his chair and put his head in his hands. It was going to be a long evening. He could feel it already.

***

“And that’s when I said, ‘Paul, get that curtain off of you! This isn’t The Sound of Music!” Mary Eleanor chattered as she and John walked into the house.

John shook his head, his face sore from all the smiling he’d been doing around his sister for the past half hour. At first the smile had been for show, but that never lasted long around Mary Eleanor. She had an uncanny ability to make John laugh, no matter how he was feeling.

“Niños, hice su cena. Su padre tomó su cena en su oficina.” The cook was bustling past John and his sister, clearly in a hurry. John had seen this kind of hustle before. It meant his father was in a sour mood.

“Gracias, Señora Marquez,” John replied.

John turned to Mary Eleanor. “Lava tus manos,” he said. She scampered off to clean up.

The dinner was already served, the table set. Normally it was left under a dome on the counter. His breath hitched. His father was clearly in a really bad mood.

Mary Eleanor bounded into the dining room and took her seat. John didn’t get to do the same.

“John? John!” his father hollered from his office. “Get the hell in my office this instance!”

Mary Eleanor looked up at her brother with wide eyes. He mustered up a smile for her before walking to his certain doom. As soon as he found himself on the threshold of his father’s office, he saw it.

His journal.

“Fuck,” he muttered under his breath.

His father looked up at him, no, glared, up at him. John had never seen a true glare before that moment. He swore his father’s eyes were glowing red, though he knew that part was just in his imagination.

“Do you care to explain this abomination to me?” His father growled. He grabbed the journal from his desk and flipped it open. “‘Alexander is the best person I know. The way his hair curls at the top of his head in the humidity, those tiny little curls like a halo, and his laugh, his genuine laugh, and his energy, his ability to write… I admire him. I love him. There, I said it. I love Alexander Hamilton.’”

When his father looked up from the journal, his face was bright red. “Explain,” he demanded.

“It seems like you already know.” John prayed the fear he was feeling didn’t show in his voice.

“If this is true, you’ll find yourself in a position you won’t like one bit, son.” Henry Laurens stood up and walked up to his son. He shoved the journal into John’s chest, hard. “So before you answer me, I suggest you take the evening to think it over.”

John saw his life flash before his eyes. His mother, Mary Eleanor, his father before politics became his life following the death of his wife… And he saw his future. Alexander. Alexander. Alexander.

“Dad,” John stepped forward and looked directly into his father’s eyes. “I’m gay.”

His father’s eyes widened in shock. “I told you to think this over, John!” he shouted.

“I don’t need to,” John said, his voice growing stronger with every word. “I know who I am. And if you have a problem with that––”

“Of course I have a problem with that! I thought I raised you right. I didn’t think I raised you to be a…” he looked John up and down, as if gay was oozing off of him now. “A disgrace.”

John simply nodded. “Fine. I’ll leave for the night. I’ll see you after school tomorrow.” John left his father’s office without another word and quickly ran up the stairs to grab his school books and a change of clothes.

Mary Eleanor wordlessly appeared in his doorway. “John? What happened?” Her voice was trembling.

“Dad and I just had a fight, Ellie. It’s okay.” He swung his backpack over his shoulder and gave her a hug.

“Where’re you going?”

“Alexander’s. I’ll be back after school tomorrow.”

“Okay,” she whispered, looking down at the floor.

“Hey, if you need me, call, okay?”

She nodded. John kissed the crown of her head.

He ran out of the house, ran away from his father who was screaming for him to get back in the house this instance or else! He called Alex on the way. He picked up on the third ring.

“J-Law, what’s crackin?”

John rolled his eyes. “Never call me that again.”

“Okay, I’ll cross that off the John Laurens Nickname List then.”

“Um, hey, Alex?”

“Um, hey, yeah?”

“Can I stay the night with you?”

“John, of course. Is everything okay?”

John thought over how to answer that for a moment. “I don’t know.”

“Get over here and we’ll talk,” Alex said.

“Yeah,” John said, a smile spreading across his face. “Thanks, Alex.”

“John,” the other boy said, tone serious. “You’re the closest friend I got. I’d do anything for you.”

“Thank you, Alex, I’ll see you soon.” John hung up the phone and sucked in a deep breath before whispering to the air. “Oh, and Alex? I’m in love with you.” He took off in a sprint toward Alex’s, everything he’d never told the other boy propelling him forward.

He didn’t know how Alex would react to his confession, or what his dad would say come the next day. But he knew one thing. He was finally being true to himself, and that was something they could never take away.

2

::This was quite the clever idea for an imagine, and by far I think this is going to be my favorite imagine, thanks Anon! I feel like breaking the forth wall in some way today, talk to me, lovelies::

                                                                                                   -Nobody 

(F/N) - Friend’s Name

(F/D) - Favorite Drink

          The job you’d always wanted, and you everything was finally right in the world. All of the hours spent pencil pushing, and now you were here; This plush office life was just for you, a comfy chair, room with a view at the pay- The pay was- Alright alright, Who are we kidding, you’ve all read my other stories. The reader is never a hundred percent okay in any of them; so let me tell you about how your life is really going. In reality, your back breaking work meant nothing, surprise! This is real life, So let’s give you a lesson 101 on how much of a shit show it is; You’re working in what you were sure used to be a closet, seeing as how the were no windows. Your chair, was straight from the kitchen table, you even had to buy your own cushions; And your position might as well be the assistant to the assistant’s assistant, so you were basically basically paid fuck all. Yeah, It was that bad; Now let’s spice it up with some fun, phone call!

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anonymous asked:

rfa reacting to needing to use the bathroom when their mc is asleep on them? (this happened to me the other night and my bf said he almost crapped himself because he didn't want to move me lmao)

Jumin:
You had fallen asleep while watching a news report with him, he seemed interested but you decided that it was boring and cuddled up on his lap. It was cute at first…

But then he REALLY needed to use the bathroom. You looked pretty damn cute just sleeping cuddled up to him too. He wouldn’t even kick Elizabeth 3rd off his lap let alone his fiancee.

He sits there for hours, of course acting like nothing was bothering him. Eventually, he ended up calling Jaehee and asking her what to do in his predicament.

He ended up gently moving you to use the bathroom about an hour later. It had to be done.

Yoosung:
He had been playing LOLOL when you came up to him in a sleepy manner and sat on his lap, facing his chest, on the computer chair.

After he beat a level, he realized he had to use the bathroom. He hadn’t noticed until now because of the heat of the game.

He was about to stand up to go when he realized that you were on his lap still, he had gotten used to the extra weight and warmth.

He let out a small whimper, there was NO way that he could move! You were sleeping!

He tried his best to stay still, but he ended up shifting uncomfortably a couple of times, trying to hold it in.

Eventually, he had to wake you up, “M-MC, I really need to use the bathroom. I’m sorry! I know you were sleeping. I didn’t want to wake you up!”

You laugh at him, telling him he could have woken you up sooner.

Zen:
You had been helping Zen rehearse some lines, and he noticed when you started yawning.

He suggested that the two of you should take a break, which he figured would last 10 minutes at most.

He was wrong.

Once he sat down on the couch, you cuddled into him and fell asleep on his lap.

Had he known that this would happen, he would have used the bathroom before the break, but he had not.

He hated the idea of waking you up. A princess didn’t deserve to be bothered while looking so peaceful.

He held it the whole time until you woke up. What a trooper.

He never told you what had happened, and you were none the wiser.

707:
He had been working on a hacking project while sitting in a corner in the living room.

He hadn’t slept with you in days, he always took short naps to keep him going. You missed feeling him beside you when you slept.

So, you decided that you would join him tonight. Unfortunately, you didn’t make it very long. You fell asleep cuddled into his lap within mere minutes.

He thought it was cute, but dismissed that thought as soon as he needed to pee. He glanced at all of the Ph.d Pepper cans beside him. There were a lot.

Of course, this was no problem for the great 707! He could hold it until you woke up!

He could not wait.

Trying to be clever, he suddenly shouted, “No! Not the cats! Think of all of the cats!”

Of course, his shouting woke you up and you gave him an odd look, “The cats?” You ask.

He shrugs, “I must have dozed off. I was dreaming about Elly~ Now, I must go save her!”

He ran to the bathroom.

You were engaged to an idiot.

Jaehee:
You had both been watching some of Zen’s musicals. The whole set up included! Popcorn, Soda, and lots of junk food. Jaehee protested it but ended up loving it.

After watching 2 of the musicals, you had dozed off on top of Jaehee, which she didn’t really mind. As long as you were comfortable.

Then, she realized that SHE was not comfortable. You looked peaceful as you slept, and if she woke you up, you wouldn’t go back to sleep. You would deny even being tired and that you wanted to stay up with her.

She didn’t want that.

So, she waited…and waited…and you didn’t wake up.

She had to move you eventually, as bad as she felt. She appologized the rest of the night and the next day no matter how many times you told her it was okay.

anonymous asked:

yo bruh did you ever post that story about how u shouldnt do acrobatic shit if u have the spins and josh yaking

ALRIGHT MOTHERFUCKERS THIS GOES OUT TO ALL YOU FUCKING SAVAGES THAT WANT TO HOOK UP WITH JOSH PREPARE TO BE FUCKING DISGUSTED

Alright so when we were living together there was this girl I’m gonna call her Janet okay I knew Janet from high school she was alright in high school I never really spent a lot of time hanging out with her but she was friends with a couple people we would hang out with all the time after shows.

Anyways Janet had a huge crush on Josh so she texts me one day to talk to him for her and I’m kinda thinking this is some high school bullshit but I’m like whatever he probably could use this it’d be good for him so I tell him and he asks me a couple questions about her and then just kinda walks away which wasn’t super unusual for him he gets bored of people and walks away.

So like a week later he walks up to me in the living room and he’s like “hey you remember that girl Janet? I wouldn’t be opposed to meeting her, but I won’t go on a date with her.”

Turns out, during that week, he was doing what he insists I refer to as “research,” which, every other time I’ve told this story I have described as “obsessive stalking,” which to be fair, is an entirely accurate description of what he was doing.

You see, we all had different standards for people we would date, and most of us would find out if people met our standards through actual real life interactions with these people. Josh decided it was much more efficient to comb through their entire online life to determine if they met his standards before even meeting them. The one thing we all had in common was that, even though our standards for dating were different, our standards for hookups were the same: they had to be attractive, and tolerable for one night. Janet met these standards, but not Josh’s indecipherable and most likely impossible standards for dating.

So we told her to come to our party that weekend, figuring it couldn’t go any worse than most of our parties (spoiler: we were super wrong). So she shows up to the party with two of her friends and I introduce her to Josh and we all start drinking.

I’m talking with one of her friends and Kyle is talking with her other friend and as we’re successfully charming these lovely young ladies, we begin to realize that the conversation between Janet and Josh is not going well. 

Let me put it this way: I could create an hour long video on how not to act when meeting someone you want to hook up with based entirely on what she did in the first 20 minutes. She was talking about high school (she had graduated 3 years prior), she was talking about her exes, she was talking about literally all of the things you do not talk about with someone you are trying to hook up with.

So as this is going on, Josh and I go to get drinks and he makes a comment about how super annoying she is and I’m just like “yeah okay but she really likes you and it’s just one night really the reward is worth a couple hours of bad conversation” and I was mostly right from the moment she walked in the door Janet had made it very clear that all she was there for was to sleep with Josh.

So we go back to the group and it literally just keeps getting worse. Every time we try to talk about something she hijacks the conversation and makes it about her, or just changes the subject to something she wants to talk about, and Kyle and I are annoyed as shit with her but we’re 1 being bros for Josh and being his moral support for this and 2 we’re trying to hook up with her friends so we’re sticking with it, but Josh is just getting progressively more annoyed and at a certain point he just stands up and walks away.

So Kyle and Eric and I start playing thumper and Josh joins in and he’s starting to have fun again and we’re starting to get rowdy and so he basically says he won’t walk away from her again as long as we keep taking breaks from dealing with her because he’s not wiling to miss the party to hook up with this girl so we’re getting rowdy and everyone’s having a great time and Josh sits back down with Janet and they talk a little before he comes back and joins the boys.

So we think that it’s around this point where she roofies him the first time.

Josh, being of inhuman physiology, does not react to being roofied at all. In fact, it’s around this time that he starts getting even rowdier. It’s also around this time that another girl at our party starts flirting with him.

This girl, who we will call Ellie, is actually interesting. She’s from Sweden, and she’s in Chicago on a work visa (I think she was a nanny but I don’t remember. Unimportant). Ellie is also very, very hot, and somehow, impossibly, she’s also very into Josh.

So suddenly, Janet’s chances of hooking up with Josh shift from “it’ll happen if we can keep them from talking to each other too much” to “only if Ellie wants a three-way with her” which is laughably unlikely.

So Janet starts to panic a little bit, which means she gets desperate, which means she roofies Josh again.

So after two roofies and probably 13 or so drinks, Josh is starting to struggle a bit. Because we were not in the habit of counting each other’s drinks, we all kinda assumed he had just drank too much. We agree to keep an eye on him from that point on to make sure he was okay, but otherwise kinda dismiss him.

We keep partying for like another two hours when Ellie walks up to me. Her roommate was heading home so she was going with her. She assumed (incorrectly) that Josh was too far gone to get it up, and she also assumed (correctly) that he was too far gone to eat her out in an effective manner. Assuming that spending that night with him would not be worth it, and not wanting to wander home in an unfamiliar city in a different country, she gave me her number to pass along to Josh, and headed out.

In retrospect, she is extremely lucky that she decided to leave.

So, now frustrated that the girl he had been hitting on all night was leaving, Josh went to option B: Janet. The two of them headed back to his room and, if it had been a normal night, that would have been the last I heard about it until morning.

It was not a normal night.

So everyone else leaves, and we all head back to our rooms with our respective partners for the night.

So I’m in my room with Janet’s friend and we’re getting started and I’m getting her worked up when I hear someone pounding on my door. I don’t respond because it was normal for any guys who weren’t hooking up that night to check on the others to see if anyone else wanted to hang until they were no longer at risk of getting the spins. Usually, this meant someone knocking at your door, and if you didn’t respond within a minute, they would assume that you were busy and leave you alone.

This time, the pounding keeps going, and I keep ignoring it. Suddenly I hear it stop and switch to the door next to mine, Paul’s door, and I assume that’s it, until moments later, the pounding starts on my door again. I keep ignoring it, until I start hearing giggling from the hall, which registers in my mind as a bad sign so I decide it’s worth pausing to find out what the fuck is going on.

So I open my door at the same time Paul does and standing between our two doors is Josh, buck ass naked and with the biggest grin I have ever seen on his face. I look at him as he’s standing there, his head flicking back and forth between Paul and I at a rapid speed.

GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED.” He’s literally shaking with excitement. My curiosity is piqued, but only enough to mostly offset the annoyance with being interrupted.

“What?” He snaps his head to me and I swear to god I thought it was going to start rotating like he was possessed.

“So Janet and I were having sex,” and I have lost interest. I was not getting interrupted just to hear you tell a story about your sex adventures. He could tell it tomorrow. I start closing my door. “And I fucking threw up in her face.

I literally freeze. My brain scrambles to process what he’s just said. There are a million voices in my head, screaming for me to close the door. Don’t find out how this ends, they say. This can only get worse, they say.

“And then I pulled out and nutted in her face!”

The voices were right.

I’m standing there, unable to move. My mind struggles to process what I’ve just heard. I hear Paul in the doorway next to me, hands over his mouth, whispering “oh my god” over, and over. He’s shaking, struggling to suppress a laugh. We both know that that’s absolutely awful and disgusting, but at the same time it is the greatest thing we have ever heard. Finally, I find the strength to speak.

“What?”

And suddenly, down the hall, I start hearing yelling. Janet is in the hall, wrapped in Josh’s sheets, vomit and semen in her hair. She’s crying, understandably.

Everyone comes out of our rooms to find out what’s going on, and things start to spin out of control. People are running around, trying to get her a towel or a washcloth to clean herself with. Eric is running to the kitchen to get water for her and Josh. I’m talking to her to try to get her to calm down, but she keeps freaking out.

I finally get her to calm down a little bit and she starts to stammer about how she doesn’t feel well. I’m trying to get her to explain what she means by “doesn’t feel well” and she starts saying she thinks she got some puke in her mouth. Josh is on our couch, wrapped in a towel, puking his guts out into a bucket.

While I’m trying to get her to calm down, Janet looks at me and asks me if she can get roofied from someone’s puke. I don’t understand her question so I ask her to elaborate.

“I - I roofied Josh and I don’t know if he threw up in my mouth can I get sick from that?”

And just like that, everything in the apartment stops (except for Josh yaking that goes on for like another hour). Literally at the word “roofied” every one of us just froze.

The night of our first party in that apartment, before anyone showed up, we all made a pact: if any one of us saw someone trying to roofie someone, we would pin the guy down and break his legs in as many places as we possibly could, before throwing him out on the curb. We all agreed that that shit was unacceptable and if anyone tried it in our house we would destroy them.

None of us had considered the possibility that a girl might roofie someone at one of our parties, and we certainly were not prepared for one of our own being the victim.

Janet, entirely on her own, starts describing how she roofied him. She tells us about when she did it, and that she did it twice. The more she confesses the angrier we all get at her, but we genuinely don’t know what to do about it.

So after a couple minutes of trying to figure shit out we decide that she has to go. One of her friends goes into Josh’s room to grab Janet’s things, she gets dressed and we kick her out, her friends following her out to make sure she got home.

I spend the next half hour with Josh trying to get him to keep a glass of water down, Eric cleans up the hallway, and Brad takes the sheet Janet had been wearing down to the basement to wash it. Finally, after 40 minutes, Josh stops puking long enough for us to force feed him some bread and cheese, and after 25 more minutes he stops puking. I spend 20 more minutes with him to make sure he’s okay.

The next morning, Josh wakes me up pounding on my door, standing there wrapped in a sheet, and asks me what happened last night.

“The last thing I remember,” he said, “is doing a shot with that chick Ellie.”

So I explain to him what happened that night, and he reacts to literally nothing, right up to the point where I tell him he threw up in Janet’s face, where he lights up.

“Fuckin’ right,” he whispers under his breath, before walking away.

Two days later he texts Ellie, they meet up, and after we all explain that night to her, the two of them start hooking up regularly.

Janet was banned from all future house parties and concerts.

Not O-fucking-kay

Pairing:Phan

Genre:Angst/songfic/au

Summery: Dan is hopelessly in love with his best friend Phil, but the thing is that Phil has a boyfriend currently. Sadness ensues. Its pretty much Dan venting.Based on “I’m Not Okay (I Promise)” by My Chemical Romance

Warnings: Mentions of attempted suicide and suicide. You need a box of tissues pass this point

Well if you wanted honesty , that’s all you had to say

I remember when we first met in year three. These boys were bullying me and were calling me things like “fag” , “baby” , “fat” , and “ugly” so you stood up for me. That’s probably when I fell for you. We have been friends ever since then and I have loved you for the same amount of time. But the bullying has gotten physical more and more in the last nine years, one time putting me in the hospital once even ( you gave me a teddy bear that I still have) Whenever you are about to go on a fate with your “precious” Steve, you ask me if you look okay. I always tell you that you look beautiful. I love how your black hair frames your pale face, the way your blue eyes sparkle in the sunlight. You never believe me , even though I’m nothing but honest with you. I don’t know why you can’t see that I actually love you and want to hold you in my arms. All of the times he stood you up, you never accepted my help, shutting me out as if you were Elsa from frozen.

I never want to let you down or have you go, its better off this way

Sometimes I feel as the only way I can cope with everything is by using my little silver friend. It clears my mind if all of the times you rejected me , the pain the asses at school cause me, my shitty home life, and all of the crap that happens to me. Some days when I am feeling depressed , you can see I’m upset and you ask me what’s wrong. I just tell you I’m alright. I’m just worried if I told you that our would leave me completely, never to speak to me again. Its better off that you didn’t know the demons I face on a daily basis.

Forget about the dirty looks. The photographs your boyfriend took

I remember that time when Steve got pissed at you because he accused you of cheating on him with me. He decided to post the nudes you sent to him on his Facebook for the whole world to see. I invited you to my house to sleepover and I comforted you . The sad part is that after all of the pain he caused you, you ran right back to him like a little lost puppy. To this day you still get weird looks from people, cause they think you are some whore. Forget about what they think. Now you see what caring about things like that did for me.

Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I remember after the Facebook incident you jumped out of the window of your bedroom. “It was attempted suicide ” you said. Luckily , the worst that happened was the fact that you fractured your foot along with a few scratches . I cried myself to sleep that night. It wasn’t in till the morning that I found out you weren’t dead. When you were in the hospital, Steve visited you and gave you roses to say sorry and you fell for that . All he really wants is to be able to fuck you. I’m not okay, you wear me out. You shred me up like cheese in a grater. Making me feel worse.

What will it take to show you that its not the life it seems. I’ve told you time and time again, you sing the words but don’t know what it means

I tried everything to get you to understand how I feel. You say you understand but you don’t have a fucking clue.

To be a joke , and look. Another line without a hook

You were the only person at our god damned school that was like me. We were both laughing stocks. People constantly made fun if us everyday. We were both different than everybody else.

I held you close as we both shook. For the the last time, take a good hard look!

Last night I tried harder than ever to get you to understand , even going to the point of yelling at you and shaking you. But nothing worked.

Forget about the dirty looks. The photographs your boyfriend

That night , you asked me for help with all of your problems. I told you to forget about all if that bullshit that’s happened to you, cause you deserve better.

You said you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed

You kept telling me as well that you get me and understand when in reality , what you thought I was feeling and how I felt were distorted in your mind. It was if my true thoughts were doing the photo booth tag. I’m okay now I finally gave up and pretended that everything was actually fine but I was really just putting my acting skills to good use.

But you really need to listen to me Because I’m telling you the truth I mean this, I’m okay! (Trust me)

It took me a little convincing but you finally believed my little lie.

I’m okay. Okay.Okay.

This is my last goodbye Phil. You will get over me soon. Don’t feel bad because you couldn’t help. It’s not your fault. Its just me. I love you Phil. Goodbye. Love, Dan. ×××××××××××××××××××××××××××××× I put down my pen and put the note on my desk. I get out of my chair and stand up. I walk over to my bed and stand up onto it. I walk toward the end of it and put the noose around my neck. I take in a deep breath and bite my lip. “Its over” I think “I finally can get out of this living hell” With that I jump and before my life is at an end six little words escape my mouth: “I love you Philip Michael Lester”

A/N Ik its really fucking sad. But I really like it tbh. Took me like two and a half hours to write. What do you think? Be free to leave any opinions in my askbox. Love you! Bye! -Ellie

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Song fics

Moving On - Kodaline
‘Sometime in the future we can share our stories, when we don’t care about all of our mistakes our failures and our glories…but until that day comes along we’ll keep on moving on’

Flying High Falling Low - Walking On Cars
‘It’s that time of year again and you know I’d love to buy you something but you know that I’ve got nothing…’

Marry Me - Train
'Forever could never be long enough for me, to feel like I’ve had long enough with you’

The Fighter - The Fray
'Lover held her love, she begs him not to go, she unwraps his gloves, the lover says I know I know I know. She touched his finger tips, kissed his trembling lips. Somehow they both know, he’s not coming home’

Say You Won’t Let Go - James Arthur
'I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough’

The Moment I Knew - Taylor Swift
'And it was like slow motion, standing there in my party dress with red lipstick, and no one to impress…’

If You Could See Me Now - The Script
'It was February 14th Valentine’s Day, the roses came but they took you away…’

Not About Angels - Birdy
'We know full well that there’s just time, so is it wrong to dance this line?’

I Wouldn’t Mind It - He Is We
'Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile, I wouldn’t mind it…’

Breakeven - The Script
'Still alive but I’m barely breathing…just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in…’

I Found Myself - Anna Clendening
'My heart was beating, barely breathing but still alive. Lost along the way I’d given up my fight…’

Dancing On My Own - Callum Scott
'Now I’m in the corner watching you kiss her. I’m right over here, why can’t you see me? I’m giving it my all but I’m not the guy you’re taking home…’

All Too Well - Taylor Swift
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night, dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light…’

Hurt - Christina Augilera
'I’m sorry for, blaming you, for all the things I just couldn’t do. And I’ve hurt myself in hurting you…’

Hiding My Heart Away - Adele
'This is how the story went, I met someone by accident, who blew me away…’

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
'Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection…’

To My Parents - Anna Clendening
'I’m sorry mum and dad I know I messed up bad, I should’ve done, should’ve done better. I’m sorry mum and dad for all the time I’ve had to get my life, get my life together but I didn’t…’

Take Me Home - Jess Glynne
'Came to you with a broken faith, you gave me more than a hand to hold…’

One - Ed Sheeran
'Tell me that you turned down the man who asked for your hand because you’re waiting for me…’

Leave Your Lover - Sam Smith
'I don’t have much to give but I don’t care for gold. What use is money when you need someone to hold’

In My Veins - Andrew Belle
'Nothing goes as planned…everything will break…’

These Four Walls - Little Mix
'I feel so numb staring at the shower walls…it’s begun the feeling that the end has come. And now the water’s cold.’

The Man Who Can’t Be Moved - The Script
'Going back to the corner where I first saw you gonna camp in my sleeping bag I’m not gonna move…’

T-Shirt - Birdy
'I know because I’ve spent half this morning thinking about the t-shirt you sleep in’

Still Falling For You - Ellie Goulding
'It took us a while, because we were young and unsure…’

One and Only - Adele
'You’ve been on my mind, I grow fonder everyday lose myself in time at the mention of your name.’

The Town - Niall Horan
'Waking up to kiss you and nobody’s there. The smell of your perfume still stuck in the air…’

Fake Smile - Rebecca Ferguson
'Put on you fake smile and wipe away your real tears, it’s not real anyway…’

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
'Oceans apart, day after day and I slowly go insane…’

Broken Arrow - The Script
'This time he’s not gonna be another cloud’ve been. This time she’s gonna live to work she’s not working to live…’

Above The Clouds Of Pompeii - Bears Den
'I was too young to understand the flowers sleeping in her hands…’

Alive - Sia
'I had a one way ticket to a place where all the demons go. Where the wind don’t change bad nothing in the ground can ever grow…’

One Of These Days - Olly Murs
'My room is big enough for the both of us, won’t you come around help me fill it up…’

Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
'I ponder on something great my lungs will fill and then deflate. They fill with fire, exhale desire. I know it’s dire my time today. I have these thoughts so often I ought to replace that slot with what I was bought 'cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence’

Near To You - A Fine Frenzy
'Near to you I am healing but it’s taking so long. And though he’s gone and you are wonderful it’s hard to move on.’

My Immortal - Evanescence
'When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears, when you screamed I’d fight away all of your fears’

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum
'Lying here with you so close to me, it’s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breath’

Secret Love Song Part II - Little Mix
'Why can’t I hold you in the steer or kiss you on the dance floor? I wish that it could be like that, why can’t it be like that 'cause I’m Yours…’

Happiness - The Fray
'Happiness damn near destroys you, it breaks your faith to pieces on the floor.’

Please Don’t Say You Love Me - Gabrielle Aplin
'Please don’t say you love me because I might not say it back. It doesn’t mean my hearts stopped skipping when you look at me like that…’

Come To Me - Goo Goo Dolls
'I caught you burning photographs like that could save you from your past…’

All Again - Ella Henderson
'I am falling, but I’m too weak to fly. Now my heart’s wide open and you’re the reason why…’

I Know You Care - Ellie Goulding
'Clinging to me like a last breath you would breath…you were like home to me, I don’t recognise this street.’

Suitcase - Emeli Sandé
'Didn’t see it coming, no kind of warning, I can’t work out where I’ve gone wrong. His clothes are missing, but his key’s still here…’

I Can’t Make You Love Me - Adele
'Turn down the light…turn down the eyes. Turn down these voices inside my head…’

Bad Blood - Bastille
'We were young and drinking in the park we had no where else to go. You said you’d always have my back oh but how were we to know…’

Better Man - Lady Antebellum
'When I first laid eyes on you in that downtown cafe I loved the way your auburn dances a cross your face…’

Shine - Birdy
'Shine, if your heart tells you to then who are you to question it. Shine, if the world gets you down don’t be afraid to wrestle it….’

Fix You - Coldplay
'When you try your best but you don’t succeed…when you get what you want but not what you need…’

Freedom - Rebecca Ferguson
'There is hope…even as the tears fall on your lips even as you take another sip…’

Wasn’t Expecting That - Jamie Lawson
'It was only a word, it was almost misheard and I wasn’t expecting that. Just a delicate kiss, anyone could’ve missed, I wasn’t expecting that.’

Yours - Ella Henderson
'I wear your winter coat, the one you love to wear…so I can feel close to what’s beyond compare…’

Kiss It All Better - He Is We
'He sits in his cell and he lays on his bed covers his head and closes his eyes. He’s sees a smoking gun and the coward he ran and in his arms is the bleeding love of his life…’

Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson
'He drowns in his dreams…an exquisite extreme I know. He’s as damned as he seems and more heaven than a heart could know…’

The One - Kodaline
'Tell me, tell me that you want me and I’ll be yours completely for better or for worse.’

Beautiful To Me - Olly Murs
'She ties her hair up tight, she puts her armour on when she steps outside…’

Only Love Can Hurt Like This - Paloma Faith
'I tell myself you don’t mean a thing what we got, got no hold on me. But when you’re not there I just crumble…’

I Hope - Rebecca Ferguson
'I used to hate you so easily, look into your eyes so eagerly and where there was cold I wouldn’t walk away.’

I’m Yours - The Script
'You touch these tired eyes of mine, map my face out line by line and somehow growing old is fine…’

Breaking the Law - Emeli Sande

'I’ll never stop braking the law for you. I’ll never stop helping to pull you through.’

Begin Again - Taylor Swift
'And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid…I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny because he never kid.’

Hard Work - Ella Henderson

'I know I’m not wasting my time, for you to be the reason I cry, and no I’m not gonna lie. You’re hard work but you’re good for me.“

Nature’s Law - Embrace

'You should never fight your feelings, when you’re very bones believe it…’

Shirtsleeves - Ed Sheeran

'When salted tears won’t dry I’ll wipe my shirtsleeves under your eyes. These hearts will be flooded tonight, I’ll wipe my shirtsleeves under your eyes’

No Angel - Birdy

'Remember once the things you told me and how the tears fell from my eyes. They didn’t fall because it hurt me, I just hate to see you cry’

Like I Can - Sam Smith

'He could be a stranger you gave a second glance. He could be a trophy of a one night stand. He could have your humour but I don’t understand 'cause he’ll never love you like I can’

Friends - Ed Sheeran

'That’s why friends should sleep in other beds and friends shouldn’t kiss me like you. Yeah I know there a limit to everything but my friends will never love me like you’

This Woman’s Work - Greg Laswell

'I know you have little life in you yet. I know you have a lot of strength yet. Should be crying but I just can’t let it show, should be hoping can’t stop thinking. All the things we should’ve said but we never said but we never did. All the things that you needed from me. All the you wanted for me. All the things we should’ve done but we didn’t oh my darling…’

Dead Man Walking - The Script

'Already seen it in your face already someone in place. I’m a breathing talking dead man walking’

Be The One - The Fray

'They’re two lovers in the night waiting on the sun to rise. Passing ships into the night under different skies. But you just whisper what you said one last time I could’ve sworn I heard you that 'you are mine’

Promise Me - Beverly Carven

'When I go away I’ll miss you and I will be thinking of you every night and day. Just promise me you’d wait 'cause I’ll be saving all my love for you…’

Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran

'Because I’ve been feeling everything from hate to love from love to lust to truth I guess that’s how I know you…do I’ll hold you close’

Lay Down - Ella Henderson

'Won’t you lay down and tell me the places you’ve been. Won’t you lay down and relive your story again…’

Bridge Over Troubled Water - Simon and Garfunkel

'When you’re weary, feeling small. When tears are in your eyes, I’ll dry them all. I’m on your side, oh, when times get rough. And friends just can’t be found. Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay me down’

For The First Time - The Script

'She’s all laid up in bed with a broken heart. Whilst I’m drinking jack all alone in my local bar. And I don’t know how, how we got into this mad situation. Only doing things out of frustration. Trying to make it work but man these times are hard.’

How To Save A Life - The Fray

'Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness. But I would’ve stayed up with up all night had I known how to save a life’

Black Is The Colour - Cara Dillon

'Black is the colour of my true love’s hair. Her lips are like a rose so fair. She’s got the sweetest face and the gentlest hands. I love the ground where on she stands’

Riding To New York - Passenger

'I met him in Minnesota, he was dark and overcast. With long grey hair and eyes that stared through me like I was glass. I asked 'where are you going to?’ He said 'I’m the wind I’m just blowing through’… then he lit up a cigarette and began to talk’

Lay Me Down - Sam Smith and John Legend

'Can I lay by your side? Next to you. Next to you. And make sure you’re alright…’

Sentences

1. “Are you kidding me?”
2. “What is going on?”
3. “Please tell me that was you?”
4. “How long have you been stood there?”
5. “Let me in.”
6. “Why is it so cold?”
7. “Paint is meant to go on the wall not your face.”
8. “Are you okay?”
9. “How long have you known?”
10. “That could’ve gone better.”
11. “You really thought that this was a good idea?”
12. “Where am I?”
13. “It’s One in the morning.”
14. “Let’s bake!!”
15. “Why are you holding our child like Simba?”
16. “I don’t trust you.”
17. “I hate you…”
18. “Don’t talk to me.”
19. “Just stay away from me okay?”
20. “You don’t know what it feels like…”
21. “They’re dead…”
22. “What do I do?”
23. “I’m pregnant…”
24. “This is going really badly. It’s like watching a car crash in slow motion.”
25. “I wasn’t staring! I was watching…intently.”
26. “This is what you call handling the situation?”
27. “Truth or Dare?”
28. “They’re your child before 5AM.”
29. “We’ve watched 12 episodes we need to stop now.”
30. “You know you can talk to me right?”
31. “Everything is going to be fine.”
32. “Aw, you’re so cute.”
33. “Don’t make me come over there.”
34. “Run.”
35. “Calm down.”
36. “Dance with me.”
37. “Just stop talking.”
38. “It’s getting late…”
39. “Wait. Are we lost?”
40. “Don’t go…”
41. “This is…a strange turn of events.”
42. “Everything we do is weird to everyone else but us.”
43. “That was the police…”
44. “Bro…”
45. “Please don’t hate me. I couldn’t bare the thought of not seeing you every day…”
46. “This is as far as I had got plan wise I’m afraid.”
47. “And now it’s snowing. Brilliant.”
48. “Yay…road trip.”
49. “Let’s play 20 questions.”
50. “What makes you happy”
51. “It’s complicated…”
52. “After everything…I’d still choose you.“
53. “This could only happen to me.”
54. “Say something…”
55. “Come here…”
56. “Don’t shut me out.
57. "What are we waiting for?”
58. "We need to talk…”
59. .“We can’t keep doing this.”
60. "Haven’t you read that already?”
61. .“I can’t stand back and watch you do this…”
62. “You’re such an idiot.”
63. .“Why did you kiss me?”
64. .“Don’t pretend you’re not having fun.”
65. .“PUPPY!”
66. .“Do you really think I could replace you?”
67. “Because I love you…”
68. .“Duck.”
69. “I said there was a plan, I never said it was a good one.”
70. “Put. The snowball. Down.”
71. .“Did you just smile?”
72. .“When did things get this hard?”
73. "I suppose…we’re all stories in the end.”
74. “Did you have to hit me?”
75. “FOUR HOURS I’VE BEEN HERE.”
76. .“Come inside…”
77. “You deserve better than that.”
78. “You’d do that for me?”
79. “You were willing to give up everything…”
80. “Oh for the love of god just kiss already!”
81. “ITS HAPPENING!”
82. “Are you saying goodbye?”
83. “Another life…”
84. “Well that was stupid.”
85. “You love me really.”
86. “That was smooth.”
87. “Sometimes, the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.”
88. “I have a very good explanation for all of this.”
89. “Wait…are you actually struggling for something to say?”
90. “Nice save.”
91. “Do you want me to go?”
92. “What are you even talking about?”
93. .“How are you allowed out in public…”
94. “I’m going to stay, okay? I’m going to stay with you.”
95. “And when were you planning on telling me this?”
96. “Because…I care about you…”
97. “That’s stupid! Let’s do it!”
98. “Why am I friends with you.”
99. “It’s okay! You’re safe, I promise. It was just a nightmare.”
100. .“What is it? What happened?”
101. "It could’ve been worst.”
102. “what an appalling piece of advice!”
103. “Pizza and a movie?”
104. “If you weren’t so cute…”
105. “I mean you could’ve just stopped talking?!”
106. “You’ve been awake for 48 hours this isn’t healthy.”
107. “I think we should take you to hospital…”
108. “Please say you know who I am?”
109. “It must be awful to look at the person you love and for them to look back at you and have no idea who you are…”
110. “Nobody is invincible…”
111. “GIVE ME THE AUX CHORD OTHERWISE WE’RE MAKING THIS 39 HOUR ROAD TRIP IN SILENCE!”
112. “I would never forget.”
113. “Oh my god that rain is vicious.”
114. “Is it bedtime?”
115. “How’s my little soldier?”
116. “Bored. Bored. Bored.”
117. “Your go.”
118. “Stop staring.”
119. “Oh. Bit of a domestic going on.”
120. “You really don’t believe me…”
121. “What now?”
122. “I’m sorry, you’ve been cheating on me how long?”
123. “Look, I’m sorry I put you off when you were playing Mario Kart. Please can you let me back in now…”
124. “Don’t worry I took care of your animal crossing town whilst you were ill, I did all the weeding and helped almost pay off your loan.”
125. “Let’s get you to bed.”
126. “How can something so small be so loud?”
127. “Here. Take my jacket.”
128. “I’m not special. I’m nothing.”
129. “I don’t want to lose you.”
130. “I have calculated how far that window opens. Take it as a warning.”
131. “How was that supposed to help?”
132. “Come to bed.”
133. “Please sit down. I can’t pick you up off the floor of you fall over.”
134. “Look at me. Are you hurt?”
135. “How much longer can we keep doing this?”
136. “We could be happy…”
137. “Are you an actual idiot?”
138. “I may have..sort of… just adopted four dogs…”
139. “We’ve watched this film 7 times.”
140. “I could kiss you!”
141. “Are you limping?”
142. “On a scale of one to ten how illegal is this?”
143. “Wh..what do I do? Tell me what do I do?”
144. “Will you stay with me?”
145. “I’m doing this to protect you.”
146. “I’ve nearly lost you once. I’m not risking it again.”
147. “Two minutes. Just give me two minutes…”
148. “Welcome home.”
149. “I don’t belong anywhere…”
150. “What about us?”
151. “You are the human version of a headache.”
152. “I’m not sure how much more of this I can take.”
153. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
154. “Just take my word for it.”
155. “Look, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.”
156. “Sorry I stopped listening about ten minutes ago. What on earth are you talking about?”
157. “I thought I knew you but now? I don’t know…”
158. “Respect and trust go both ways.”
159. “Oh ye of little faith.”
160. “Well, I just put 2 and 2 together…”
161. “It’s a stupid stupid idea.”
162. “Why do I let you talk me into these things?”
163. “When are you going to stop pretending that nothing ever hurts you?”
164. “Who put you in charge?”
165. “What did your last slave die of?”
166. “In your dreams.”
167. “We make a pretty good team you and me.”
168. “Leave it. It’s not worth it.”
169. “I didn’t want to get you involved.”
170. “I shouldn’t have come…”
171. “We know how it’s going to end…we always have…”
172. “Do you know what’s it’s like? Wanting to give up but knowing you can’t because everyone else needs you to be strong.”
173. “I’m guessing that wasn’t part of the plan.”
174. “I haven’t got time for this.”
175. “What happened to being one of the good guys?”
176. “What was that you just threw at me.”
177. “If I have to do this then so do you.”
178. “Are you angry?”
179. “Why are you being so nice to me?”
180. “What if this isn’t how it’s supposed to be? What if we’re just clutching at whatever time we’ve got?”
181. “Maybe I wasn’t meant to have friends…maybe I’m supposed to be alone?”
182. “Ugh I do not have an interest in football I can’t believe you made me come here.”
183. “I’m too late aren’t I?”
184. “Don’t quote 'Only Fools And Horses’ at me I’m trying to be dramatic.”
185. “Even if I wasn’t awake I would be now.”
186. “I fall for it every time.”
187. “Don’t ever do that to me again!”
188. “Are you safe? Where you are now…tell me that if nothing else. Are you safe?”
189. “I want my family back.”
190. “I’m just tired.”
191. “I bet you think you’re funny.”
192. “Real monsters are human…learnt that a long time ago.”
193. “I had a weird dream about you last night.”
194. “If you’re going to have your friends round you’ve got to play nice.”
195. “Oh well that’s made me feel much better.”
196. “Did they lay a finger on you?”
197. “Of all the things to be hereditary.”
198. “You owe me a new door.”
199. “I’m going to bed because I can’t cope with this anymore.”
200. “Next time an idea forms in that head of yours share it with the group.”
201. “text me when you get there.”
202. “In hindsight it wasn’t my best idea.”
203. “Is that my hoodie?”
204. “Excuse me but let me get this straight. You want me to sleep here? In the haunted house?!”
205. “Okay well that’s broken.”
206. “But…it was so real…”
207. “Look, I appreciate you trying to be kind but you’re really not helping…”
208. “Drive!”
209. “Well this is it. This is how it ends!”
210. “Don’t look at me in that tone of voice.”
211. “How many energy drinks have you had?”
212. “As the adult here I shouldn’t be encouraging this.”
213. “Okay so we just follow the recipe. I mean how hard can it be?”
214. “Hi. Yeah. I’m lost and have less than £10 on me and my phone is on 3% Erm. Help. Please…”
215. “What the fluffing beans was that?”
216. “My stress lessons reached crying in McDonalds yesterday but apart from that I’m fine.”
217. “Why does coming to a fair make me feel 12 years old?”
218. “I wanted to tell you. I really did. But how could I?”
219. “I was falling apart and no one could tell…”
220. “I’m you’re real dad/mum.”
221. “Well…this has certainly been the most entertaining evening…”
222. “I’ve seen enough episodes of Poirot to know nothing good ever happens on a train.”
223. “When are you going to realise that what you do effects everyone around you?”
224. “The memories hurt more.”
225. “I wish I’d just…I wish I’d done more whilst I had the chance…”
226. “We’re best friends because our parents could not cope with us as twins.”
227. “We’ve all lived through our own horrors and I think, no matter how fast we run, they’ll always catch up with us in the end.”
228. “I was replaceable…”
229. “Someone just ran us off the road.”
230. “If we’re going we have to go now.”
231. “I knew someone was missing from my life. I just didn’t know who…”
232. “We were young and messed up.”
233. “What do you know? You don’t know anything!”
234. “I wish I’d never met you.”
235. “I was scared you’d leave.”
236. “I don’t like the person I’ve become.”
237. “Why do you even put up with me?”
238. “He/she’s better of without me.”
239. “When did everything become so tragic.”
240. “Everyone has that story they never tell.”
241. “I’m leaving. I’m sorry but…i just can’t do this anymore..
242. "If you’re gonna be like that do it yourself.”
243. “Why do I let him/her treat me like that?”
244. “I’ll take them to school today.”
245. “I’m sick of everyone thinking I’m someone I’m not.”
246. “Just give me your hand.”
247. “Don’t do this…”
248. “You were always there when I need you.”
249. “Mind if I join?”
250. “Maybe we’ll just have to figure this out together.”

Thinking It Over- Part 2

This is the continuation of ‘Thinking It Over’ part 1

 http://ailingnoor.tumblr.com/post/153562460666/thinking-it-over

 Do check it out! ;)

Thank you so much lovely Phoebe @omelialover for helping me to proofread the PP details and characters. <3

And thank you Jordan @jordan202 for helping out with the medical detail in the middle as my Paeds knowledge might be little rusty already ;)

I’ve to admit - I didn’t watch PP and don’t have the time to watch the entire series, but lots of researching on PP Wikia and the wonderful Omelia GC helped a lot!  Thanks to the Omelia GC girls who always readily answered my questions about PP:D

Enjoy!! :)

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Addison gasped in shock as she saw Amelia standing at her doorstep, shivering and soaking wet.

 ‘ Amelia?!’she whispered in surprise and disbelief. She just couldn’t believe her eyes. Was this a dream? Sure, she did speak to Amelia on the phone at least once or twice a month and they FaceTimed occasionally, but for the past few months since Amelia had gotten married, they hadn’t been keeping in touch with each other often. Addison concluded that Amelia was busy with her newly married life.

 But now here Amelia was, standing right in front of her. Something was wrong, she could sense it.

 Addison quickly sprang into elder sister mode once she recovered from her initial surprise upon seeing Amelia, taking Amelia’s luggage.

 ‘ Come on in’. she ushered Amelia into the living room. ‘You’re soaking wet, damn it! You must be cold. I’ll make you a cup of hot chocolate. But first, you should take a warm shower and change your clothes first.

 ‘ Who is it?’ Jake called from up the stairs.

 ‘ It’s Amelia’ Addison answered.

 Jake was at Addison’s side in an instant.

 ‘ Amelia?!’ he exclaimed.  ‘You’re here!!!’

 ‘ Shhh….Henry is sleeping’ Addison whispered. ‘ And Amelia here needs a shower and some warm clothes.’

 ‘ You can sleep in the guest room.’ Addison offered, as Jake took Amelia’s luggage into the guest room and Amelia followed behind, smiling gratefully at Addison.

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anonymous asked:

Please write a Halloween themed drabble? I miss having holiday themed episodes on greys :(

I miss them too! Alright, I’m combining this with another prompt of Owen and Amelia babysitting Ellie – kind of. Just a fast & cute thing inspired by @pxsthumus. Also dedicated to @soldierboy-owen because of reasons. Set a bit in the future.

Halloween night; a night of magic and darkness, mystery and candy. Or that’s what the younger Shepherds had to say about it. Two hours spent taking them door-to-door through the neighborhood was enough to wear any aunt out, tagging along by request of the youngest little blonde while Maggie stayed back to hand out candy. Full-size chocolate bars, by her protest. ‘Fun size’ was never that fun, and it only made her steal more of them because of their tiny mind games. Meredith only relented after her sisters had managed to devour an entire pack of individually-wrapped Reese’s peanut butter cups in a matter of about two days. Full-size just to stop them from putting the entire house into a sugar coma.

Three kids ran door-to-door with a kind of energy adults were mystified to understand. Screams at the top of their lungs for candy, candy, and more candy as they wandered along in decorated costumes. The Wizard of Oz was this year’s theme, with Zola as Glinda the good witch, Bailey as the lion, and Ellis as a miniature Dorothy, dragging along with her a stuffed unicorn whom she insisted was much cooler than Toto. Laughter could be heard from blocks over, like some kind of cheesy kids’ movie, and the surgeons trailing after tried only to enjoy the night until at last the inevitable crash. Tiny feet fell out from beneath them as the Oz crew sat themselves cross-legged on the driveway of a stranger, trading snickers for lollipops and arguing over who got the most kit kats until they were collected by those in charge, the younger two carried home as they drifted in and out of consciousness.

Within the hour, each child was tucked away in their beds, fast asleep in dreamland so the remainder of the night spelled freedom – and freedom spelled a date for the neurosurgeon. Okay, so it was actually a staff costume party that sounded kind of lame if not for the redhead who would enter on her arm, but she was still pretty excited. Slipping into her witches’ robes, dark hair straightened down her back, she barely needed a moment to be ready, but still took an added second before opening the door to her boyfriend to double check her reflection – as if it were necessary.

Swinging open heavy oak, a grin spread its way across her lips at the sight of the trauma surgeon in his matching wizards costume. “Is that a wand in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?” As if she could resist that opportunity.

“You look…wow,” Owen breathed, laying hands to rest on Amelia’s hips as he stole a kiss. A few kisses, actually. The magnet between them never seemed to dull, no matter how long they had been together.

“Yeah? You look pretty…terrifying, actually. You sure you’re not really a death eater?” she grinned, threading fingers through his as two pairs of baby blues met and locked. “But still hot.”

“Thanks,” he blushed. “You ready to go?”

“Yeah. The kids are all tucked in, Meredith’s successfully downed enough tequila and Maggie took off like an hour ago, so I think we’re good to go,”

“Great.” He ushered her out to the night, giving her hand a squeeze as they stepped off the porch and down toward the car. Holding open the door to his vehicle, she gave him a nod. So gentlemanly.

Flicking on the radio, Amelia found at least three consecutive stations playing Monster Mash and Thriller in succession to fill their ride, making small talk of what costumes they thought everyone would wear. Nothing would beat the disco inferno costumes worn and matched entirely by accident by Richard and Ben the previous year, eliciting endless teasing so even Chief Bailey couldn’t scare them out of the mocking. This yeah, she was sure, they had called to plan ahead so neither would arrive in the same costume as the other.

“I always saw Isaac as a pink bunny, though. Very Chandler Bing,” Amelia commented.

“Don’t let him hear you say that when you see his Matrix costume.”

“For the third year in a row. I know we underpay residents, bu that’s just laziness.”

“Aren’t you the one who suggested we just go naked to this thing?”

“I said we should go as streakers. And it was a joke. The hospital couldn’t handle this bod.”

“Your body’s too bootylicious for them.”

Laughter erupted from her throat. “Did you seriously just say ‘bootylicious’? And I didn’t even have a camera.”

“You’re a bad influence on me, Dr. Shepherd,” Owen returned, pulling into the lot of Grey Sloan Memorial.

“So bad,” Amelia rasped. “What are you going to do about it, Dr. Hunt?”

He shot her a sly smile, but didn’t respond until the car was in park. For a second, not a word was spoken, just a mutual gaze, entrancing and unbreakable. Slowly pulling each other in until they met in the middle, lips connecting.

Ew!” came a squeal from the back seat. “Gross!”

Immediately, they broke apart again, turning in unison to face the source of the little giggles. “Ellie?” Amelia asked, eyes narrowing. “When did you– What are you doing here?”

“I want candy, too!”

She blinked. “What? Kiddo, we already went trick-or-treating tonight. Your candy is all at home, remember?”

“I know, but I wanna go grown-up trick-or-treating! I got my costume, see!” It was true. The dress was backward and the braided wig lopsided, but remnants of Dorothy still remained.

Owen laughed and Amelia echoed. “Little Bear, we’re not going trick-or-treating.”

“Why not?”

“Because adults don’t usually go trick-or-treating.”

“I don’t ever wanna be a grown up!”

“Stay young as long as possible, kid,” the aunt returned.

“Then why you all dressed up?”

“Because we’re going to a party,” Owen answered.

“And you’re supposed to be home in bed,” Amelia added.

“Ooh! Ooh! I love parties! There’s birthday cake at parties!” Ellie exclaimed, completely disregarding the last sentiment. “Cake! Cake! Cake!”

“Bed! Bed! Bed!” the brunette chanted, though an unmistakable smile still donned her lips.

The little girl pouted. “But I wanna be with you.”

Damn it, she knew just how to pull on Amelia’s heart strings. She was so bad at saying ‘no’ to the littlest Shepherd already. She looked to Owen for any kind of strength, but he was just as weak as her when it came to kids. They were going to be screwed when they had one of their own, if this was any indication.

“We should call Meredith,” was his only answer.

Meredith. Crap, she hadn’t even remembered Meredith. And of course this was going to earn her a lecture later – as if it were her fault. “Do we have to?” she whined quietly, but she knew he was right. They couldn’t very well let the older woman worry over her stowaway child.

No! Don’t call Mommy! She’ll get real mad and then I’ll be in big trouble, mister,” Ellis cried. “Please? I’ll be real good!”

How was she supposed to dispute that? Fingers clenched in her fist, trying not to be the pushover they all knew she was for the tiny blonde. “Your mommy is going to be very worried about you. We just need to let her know you’re safe.”

“Auntie Mia,” she sulked.

Like some kind of divine intervention, before Amelia could bring herself to dial the number of the home she shared with her sisters, her phone lit up. “It’s Meredith,” she stated, sliding her finger to answer. “Hey, Mer. Yeah, I was just about– Yeah, I– I know, she’s– Meredith, calm down for a second. I was just about to call you. Ellie’s fine. She’s with us. She stowed away in the back seat of our car. Yeah. Mhm, I know. No, I– Okay. Yeah, we’ll bring her back. I know.” She rolled her eyes, letting out a huff. “She’ll be home soon. Okay. Bye.”

“Do I gotta go home?” Ellie asked, lip jutting out and tears filling her eyes.

“You gotta go home,” Amelia echoed, tapping a finger against the arm rest of the chair. A beat passed. She looked toward Owen and then back to her niece. “But first, we’ll get you a piece of cake. How’s that sound?” That’s what Meredith gets when she yells at her sister on the phone; a sugar high kid to try and put to sleep.

Big eyes to mirror her own shot back up, a light twinkling inside. “Okay!”

“How about Uncle Owen runs inside to grab you a piece and we can play games out here while we wait?” Only because they all knew if they took her inside, there would be no leaving.

“Mhm,” Ellie nodded as the redhead took his orders and climbed out of the car.

“You know it’s wrong to sneak out of the house, right, Little Bear? Something bad could’ve happened to you.”

“But I wanted to be with you,” she answered.

“I know. I want to be with you, too, but next time let’s plan it first, okay?”

“You don’t like my surprises?”

“I love your surprises. Most of the time.”

“But not this one?”

Amelia paused for a moment before shaking her head. “No, honey.”

Ellie nodded, moping as she turned to look out the window. “You’re not mad at me, are you?”

Reaching back her hand to pat the little girl’s knee, she shook her head. “No, I’m not mad at you.”

“Is Mommy mad at me?”

“I think your mommy is just worried. Sometimes those two things look a lot alike. I’ll have a talk with her tomorrow, okay?”

“Okay.”

“Alright, now how about those games?” she asked, attempting to lighten the mood. Holding out her hands, she offered, “Do you want to play Miss Lucy? Or the alphabet name game? Or we could listen to Monster Mash for the millionth time.”

A smile cracked. “Alphabet name game! I go first! A is for Auntie Amelia!”

“B is for Bailey.”

“Or Uncle Buttface,” Ellie giggled. “And C is for Gramma Carolyn!”

“D is for Dr. McBear.”

“E is for Ellie!”

They continued down the list until neither could think of a name that started with X and they had to move onto a clapping game while they waited. Midway through their fourth round of Stella Ella Ola, a rap on the door pulled their attention away. “Looks like your cake is finally here, Little Bear.”

“Cake!” she beamed, reaching for the paper plate and plastic fork all decorated in pumpkins and crumbs. “Chocolate cake!”

“What do you say, Elle?”

“Thank you Uncle Buttface!”

He feigned rolling his eyes at the nickname he had been given long ago that had, regrettably, become a permanent use. He had Amelia to blame for that. It always made her laugh to hear, and if there was one thing the youngest Shepherd loved the most, it was to make her aunt laugh. He offered out another plate to the older woman, earning a flash of her dimple. “Thanks, chief.” Another nickname that lingered, well past his passing of the torch.

“Anything for my two favorite girls.”

At last a station somewhere in Seattle decided to move on from the two classics, broadening into This is Halloween and Ghostbusters, too, which earned a round of giggles as all three joined in to sing along. A subsequent game of I Spy was a monumental failure as it was soon realized that all that could truly be seen in the dark were traffic lights and shadows of figures. But alas the frat house wasn’t far from the hospital, as it was, so little was lost by that discovery. Besides, Ellis was more of a chatterbox rambler than even her aunt, so any silence was filled with stories of princess doctors and explanations of hospital gossip; especially the interns who had the misfortune of trying to keep track of the tiny Houdini when she broke free of the daycare to find her mom or aunts.

As they pulled up in front of their home, the little girl’s demeanor shifted, shooting a look toward her aunt. Amelia turned to meet the pout, but tried her best to ignore it as she unbuckled Ellie from her seat, wrapping arms around her to carry her inside.

“Don’t make me go in.”

“Ellie Bear–”

Please let me stay with you?”

“I promised your mom–”

“Pretty please with a ice cream and cookies and teddy bears and a cherry on top? I’ll be your best friend!”

“I thought I already was your best friend.”

Please.”

“Elle…” She pushed open the door to the foyer, pressing a kiss into a tuft of pale hair. “You have to go to bed now.”

“Stay with me!”

“I can’t, kiddo.”

“Yes, you can!” she protested, holding tighter onto her aunt as Meredith came running in.

“Ellis!” she exclaimed. “Don’t ever do that again. I was so worried about you.” She made a move to unhook the kid from Amelia’s arms, but it took both their efforts to make the transfer, eliciting tears in return.

“Sorry, Mer. We didn’t know she was there until we got to the–”

“Is that cake on her cheek? Amelia, you gave her cake?”

Big blue eyes flashed and she plastered on her best cherubic expression. “Owen’s waiting for me. Gotta run. Bye Ellie Bear!” Another quick kiss to the girl’s head before darting from the room. When in doubt, run the hell away.

Flopping back into the car, she grinned over at Owen. “Sorry about that.”

“Hey, I can’t say I blame her for never wanting to let you go,” he chuckled, putting the vehicle back into drive.

Cheeks flushed. “You’re such a charmer.”

“I’ve been told it’s one of my many skills.”

“Yeah? I look forward to a demonstration of those many, many skills later.”

“I think we can arrange something,” he hummed.

Flipping between frequencies, she started looking for anything less Halloween, finding an alternative rock station at last. He liked to make fun of her when she put on the 80′s pop to sing along to Boy George – a side of her she scarcely allowed others to see. “Did you see anyone when you were grabbing the cake?”

“Not really. Callie, for a second.”

“Damn.”

“Why?”

“I was hoping we could pretend we made an appearance and just skip to the more fun part of the evening.”

He laughed, unable to deny the appeal of that idea. “We’ll just stay a few minutes. No one will ever know.”

She beamed a cheshire smile as she climbed out of the car, wandering around to wrap her arm into his. “Just a few minutes.”

But it was deathly quiet as they approached the attending’s lounge, not a word nor hint of the life that once had been. Streamers and balloons seemed to have fallen from their place, trash bins filled with paper, plastic, and styrofoam, but food had disappeared from plates and lights turned out.

Or not,” Amelia sang.

“I guess we missed it.”

“Did Richard and Ben match again? Did Isaac finally discover a new costume? How much did Richard try to turn into pumpkin spice because he heard Zozo talk about it? The world may never know,” she dramatized, turning back toward Owen. “Sorry.”

“No, no. It’s not your fault Ellie stowed away with us. Besides, I love seeing you with her. And maybe one day we’ll have one of those of our own to constantly interrupt our plans.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“I’d like that,” Amelia replied.

“But first I think we need our own place.” He looped an arm around her waist, pulling her into a kiss. “No interruptions.”

“Mmm. No more interruptions.”

All I Want

Summary: If you were to ask most people Phil Lester wouldn’t be the definition of normal. Asperger’s syndrome forms a clear divide between he and his classmates–and one that’s not going to close anytime soon. Dan is the only one who doesn’t seem to mind, but sometimes he can’t help but wonder if anything he did made a difference. Because by the end of the year Phil is gone and nothing’s the same again.

A/N: There are a few orientation things I have to go to in a couple of days and then school starts next week. I’m going to try and stick with updating Sundays, but this might go on an unofficial hiatus for a little because of PBB and the general back to school season. Also look at this cool thing someone made it’s beautiful and you’re amazingly talented thank you so much.

*I myself do not have Asperger’s, and while Phil’s character is inspired by/dedicated to someone close to me who does if there are traits Phil has that come across as being vastly inappropriate/offensive I apologize and please don’t hesitate to let me know

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Chapter Two

    People are composed of an infinite number of things. You take a skeleton and add a brain, muscles, skin, eyes, a heart, and pretty soon you have yourself a human. At least that’s what the scientific definition would be, although Dan had never been very good at science.

   What makes someone who they are, well, that’s another story entirely and one that’s not quite as simple or literal as the anatomy of a human.

     Like anyone else Phil was composed of the same basic elements: bones, muscle, skin, fat, but when it came to what made him who he was the answer became a little more complicated.

     The second time Dan noticed Philip Lester was in the middle of gym. He’d managed to avoid participating thus far by claiming to have forgotten his P.E. kit each class, but eventually the teacher had called him and Dan was forced to abandon the charade and join in.

     Dodgeball was the current game of the week, and after being split into two teams Dan found himself standing against the wall and parallel to Phil, who was on the opposing team. Shoes squeaked across the floor as anticipation filled the air.

    The screaming of the whistle sent everyone sprinting to grab a ball, yelling and laughter breaking out as the two teams aimed them at each other. In contrast, Dan pressed back further into the wall and tried to blend in.

    Chris almost barreled into him as he ducked, the ball sailing over his head and hitting Dan squarely on the chest.

    Chris rolled to his and straightened, giving Dan an irritated look. “The hell was that?” Dan shrugged. He probably could’ve caught the ball if he’d been paying attention, but frankly he didn’t care enough about the game to devote the effort that would’ve taken.

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The one where you're famous and you meet at an award show (Niall imagine)

You were a famous singer. You were often compared to stars as Ellie Goulding. Still, you had your own tunes, own lyrics and music. And that was important to you. You wouldn’t want to be a copycat of someone else. You want to be your unique self. And that worked out for you pretty well. Today was the day of the Brit awards. It was the first time you were nominated and the first  time you actually attended the award show. You had to admit to yourself that this was not your favorite part of the ‘job’. You loved performing and making music and being around fans. But there was something about being around other celebrities, what made you feel very uncomfortable. Maybe because you still were very grounded? Other artists were often arrogant and bigheaded. You didn’t really like to be around them. But still, you knew your fans would love it if you came, so you did. When you entered the red carpet you immediately knew again what you hated about this. Paparazzi screaming your name, trying to make you look at their camera. But you couldn’t even make out where the voices were coming from because of all the flashing lights. You were really happy with yourself that you had decided to go for a short dress and ballerinas. Not high heels. You wouldn’t even be able to see where you walked. Your eyes were literally blinded by the lights. It didn’t really bother you that you were basically one of the only people without heels. This was just more you. You were trying to see where you walked until you suddenly bumped into someone and you immediately felt horrible. This was just something that HAD to happen to you. Typical. The person turned around and you were surprised to see Niall Horan in front of you, one of the members of One Direction. ‘I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.’ You stuttered apologetically. You still got starstruck often, especially now, because Niall looked even hotter in real life than you had ever seen him on television. ‘Oh, no problem!’ He smiled at you. ‘You are Y/N Y/L/N?’ His voice sounded happy. He could instantly make everyone smile. That was for sure. ‘Yes. Or more like Y/N extremely clumsy Y/L/N.’ You said, more to yourself than to him. He had to laugh because of your comment and you were surprised he actually thought it was funny. ‘Please don’t bother.’ He said right after. ‘I’m actually very glad to meet you. I think your music is amazing. I bought your album. It’s playing on my iPhone nonstop!’ He smiled. This really took you off guard. HE listened to your music? He even gave you a compliment. You never expected him to be this nice. Those boys were like REALLY famous. It would not have surprised you if they were those kind of arrogant and stuck-up celebrities. But they weren’t, at least… Niall wasn’t. ‘Thank you. I like your band too. Especially now!’ You weren’t really sure if it was good to add the last bit. But it was out before you realized. ‘What do you mean?’ Niall asked confused. You were still standing on the red carpet and you were walking further next to him, not looking towards the flashing cameras anymore. ‘It’s not always easy to find celebrities who aren’t a little bit too full of themselves. You are actually much nicer than I had expected.’ You were really totally ruining this conversation. These were not things you had to say. But to your surprise, Niall nodded agreeing. ‘I know what you mean. But I have my boys to keep me grounded. We all do you know. But talking about my boys. I really need to go and follow them now. Otherwise people are going to think we split or something, you know how they get.’ He joked. ‘It was lovely meeting you, Y/N.’ He added. And when you said that it was lovely meeting him too, he waved one last time, before he disappeared between the crowd again.

You saw him back when you entered your table with your people. One Direction had the table next to you and Nialls eyes immediately met yours. And when they did, they lit up. Not only his, but yours two. You had to confess to yourself here that you kind of liked him a lot. Although you knew him for about ten minutes. He was not only really, really good looking, but also just really easy going and nice and friendly. He stood up from his seat and walked towards you. ‘You know, if you want to you can sit with us. The boys really want to meet you to, Y/N.’ He said in your ear. You really loved the idea and got up to sit with them. It was so fun meeting them all. They were all so nice. Louis was basically hilarious in everything he said. Liam was really sweet and he wanted to know everything about how you wrote your songs. Harry was a lot less arrogent than you thought he would be. He was so grounded and normal and fun. It was really cool to see. And Zayn wasn’t at all the bad boy you pictured him to be. He wasn’t the most talkative, but he was interested in what you said. He even apologized for some of Louis’ jokes. But you didn’t really mind. He was funny and you had a great night. But Niall was still the one that caught your eye the most. He sat next to you and you couldn’t hold yourself to look at him every two minutes. And you loved the fact that when you looked at him, your eyes met almost every time, like he felt that you were about to turn your head to him. And when they won the award for best British group, you applaud and cheered for them, just like they did to you when you won best female solo artist and best single of the year.

When the night was over, you said your goodbyes to all of the boys and when you came to Niall he kissed your cheek, and you really needed to get a hold of yourself here. Because at this point you really liked him a lot. ‘It was, again, so nice meeting you…’ Niall said sincerely when his lips left your cheek. ‘I feel just the same, Niall.’ You smiled happily at him. ‘Give me your phone for a second.’ You added and when he did, you put your phone number in it. ‘Just for when you want to hang out some time.’ You said when you gave him his phone back. ‘I have a feeling, it won’t take me long to call you.’  He smiled big. You were so happy with yourself that you DID attend this event, because otherwise you would never have met these boys, and especially this boy. You were already counting the minutes to meet him again and maybe have some private time, off camera. 

NOTE: this was a request from two different anons. Hope you like it a bit :-) 

So many fans/viewers missed the point of last night’s episode. It is the beginning of Meredith’s new journey.

I think it was a perfect way to see everyone deal with Derek’s death. Meredith has always been the one who deals with things by herself and that’s why she left Seattle. Amelia has always been the one who shuts her emotions off every time something bad happens. April needed to do something else, Bailey is always a sucker when it comes to love. Richard wanted someone by his side and Owen needed to do something else so he went back to the army etc. This is the reason why they showed everyone throughout the year. This episode was about the living after losing Derek. Re-watch it and pay attention and you will see!

And regarding Calzona, this is why I think we didn’t have any Calzona scene last night it’s because they are really building up for a cliffhanger. The time jump was around 9-12 months, Arizona was still living with Alex and not dating anyone, Callie was still single and was building a friendship with Dan throughout these months.

For me Arizona’s speech to Jackson was her talking about Callie, “you have to let her do that” this is what Arizona is doing with Callie she’s giving her space to “learn how to walk again” by herself. And If you all remember Shonda’s respond to a tweet after 11x05 where she said “preach” when someone said that “they needed to kick ass separably before they could kick ass together.“ and that’s what we saw last night from Callie, she was kicking ass with the robotic leg. Arizona is already kicking ass as a fetal surgeon. So now we just have to wait for them to kick ass together.  

The stocking scene with Callie & Sofia and her stopping and looking at Arizona’s stocking with sadness, that scene for me was Callie remembering last Christmas with Arizona and the fact that she cares about her (YAY we finally saw the living room). The same thing happened with Arizona at Alex’s place, she remembered her Christmas with Callie and Sofia and that’s why she stopped decorating the Christmas tree because she misses doing that with them. And for the first time since 11x05 we saw some sign of them co-pareting.

I’m interested to see what’s next for Meredith’s journey. We have a chance to see Meredith progress and show to the world that you still can survive and move on no matter what happens. And for those saying Meredith is becoming Ellis, she is not. The point of the parallels/flashbacks is that Meredith did the opposite of what her mother did.

  • Ellis: Richard left Ellis, Meredith had to call 911 when she tried to kill herself, she gave up Maggie, she moved to Boston with Meredith and never came back until Meredith had to bring her back to Seattle and put her in a home, Meredith started to work at SGH. 
  • Meredith lost her husband went away to learn how to deal with the kids alone, she had a baby, she almost lost the baby, Zola had to call 911 because Meredith was bleeding from the pregnancy, she returned home with her kids and started to work at the hospital again.