elena's face in this is just... lols!

Girl, I guess {TVD 8x16 Review}

OK guys, this is the last time I will have to warn the TVD fandom about writing in real time! Here it goes: You all know the drill, I write my thoughts in real time which means if I make any mistakes at the beginning of my review, I might have rectified them at the end. This will include: anti-Damon, anti-Delena, anti-Steroline, anti-Bamon, anti-Bonenzo sentiments. It will most likely reference other TV shows including Kdramas and may include observations of the show’s anti-blackness and racism. Are you ready? Let’s. Go. 

1. That SC kiss is still awful. Slow-mo it all you want guys, it’s just going to accentuate how awful it was.

2. Kinda salty that the hotel’s wifi isn’t much better than the data on my phone.

3. Seriously, Vicki and Kelly being in hell makes no sense.

4. “The magic was too much for her” HOW THOUGH? Bonnie did way more strenuous magic in freaking season 2. LIKE?

5. “No no no no no”, Stefan is panicking that Bonnie might be dead and Caroline’s just like, Oh. I know we all talk about how Paul has checked out but what the fuck has Candice been doing?

6. So like why is Elena in a random ass wood in a random ass white bed? Is this what Bonnie’s world looks like? Because I thought it was a rundown Mystic Grill.

7. Nina’s wig is AWFUL.

8. How would Elena seeing Bonnie make Elena think Bonnie is dead though? Like, isn’t it just that if Bonnie dies, Elena wakes up? Who said anything about meeting each other in a random ass forest before Bonnie dies?

9. So Elena doesn’t even blink an eye when Bonnie tells her “I can be with Enzo now”? Like she just accepts that her friend is going to die to be with someone who was an enemy when Elena was awake?

10. How does Enzo have the power to bring Bonnie back to life? Is Enzo an angel? LIKE? Rules DO need to exist, Julie.

11. The look of relief on Stefan’s face when Bonnie wakes up is so nice to see.

12. Vicki, stop talking. I also like how no one has tried to tie her up to keep her from ringing the bell. Just because you can’t kill her doesn’t mean you can’t contain her.

13. “I can’t go back there, you don’t know what it’s like” because the show literally hasn’t shown us anything.

14. How predictable is it that the DE reunion is really a DK reunion, oh! Like season 1 when he thought he was kissing Elena! CLEVER. Like 100 anons came into in my inbox like, I bet it’s Katherine, the moment that reunion aired. Well, at least Damon realized it was Katherine this time, you know, after hugging her and being all, “You’re both OK.”

15. It is so tacky they made her say, “Hello brothers.” Like omg, why isn’t it over yet

16. So Katherine is in Elena’s dress. Is Elena just naked somewhere? And she straightened her hair, like how much time did she have to do this?

17. “Her PHYSICAL body” I do miss seeing Paul and Nina onscreen together again, that “so over it” attitude is very reminiscent of season 2 and the delivery was hilarious.

18. Although this Katherine is a little off, she actually seems a little more unhinged, like the way Nina says, “the devil” in that tone and “Why do you think he wanted you? Because I  wanted you. DUH.” Like this is probably the first time I’ve been like so you’re crazy.

19. I don’t know why but Stefan is making me laugh so far. Damon is all “Dammit Katherine” and Stefan’s HAD IT, he’s just like YO let me stab this bitch “We gotta find, Elena, let’s go” and he LEAVES. Like he’s ready to go into battle. It also makes me feel like it’s Paul rushing to finish a scene like, “It’s the last episode, Ian, let’s GO.”

20. CAROLINE. VAMP SPEED. Walking down the stairs with a teddybear all chill and shit.

21. This is so low energy, Alaric and Caroline should be yelling at the top of their lungs, like if you want me to believe this is life or death then the characters needs to be amped, they need to be scared and frenzied, this feels like any other fight in any other episode.

22. Alaric, seriously, demote Caroline to Auntie because that’s how she acts with those twins anyway.

23. At least Katherine took the time to dress Elena in a shirt, a cardigan and jeans. It’s very thoughtful of her.

24. Me at Stefan’s face when he sees Elena on the ground:

25. So Katherine’s hair is suddenly curly again? Does she have superpowers?

26. Oh great. The fact that Katherine said Elena would choose Stefan over Damon just confirms that Elena will in fact choose Damon over Stefan. Just had to spit in the SErs’ faces one last time, I guess.

27. Lol watch Katherine actually be Silas getting into everyone’s heads and voicing their deepest fears. Again.

28. I want to feel something about this SC scene but I’m legit bored. “Please, please don’t make me leave you, please,” was sweet. That’s about it.

29. Like I’ve seen Stefan emotionally distraught at having to part ways with Elena:

and I know SErs are upset over the “I love you so much” but it’s not this:

30. It really doesn’t feel like the “world” is coming to an end, everyone is actually pretty chill. Like the season 2 finale of Buffy was the world ending (again) and everyone is freaking the fuck out:

and this is just like, Elena is unconscious, Matt allows Vicki to ring a bell that will bring hellfire and there’s the slowest evacuation in the world. We don’t even see randoms freaking out in the street. Whatever.

31. Of course Bonnie is staying behind.

32. “Downtown Mystic Falls”, I mean I guess. As the crow flies? WHO WROTE THIS. You are NOT in Lord of the Rings.

33. So I’m confused about this plan, Bonnie is going to redirect hell fire through the tunnels away from MF into hell … so these tunnels lead into hell? Bonnie knows where hell is? The fire won’t destroy the tunnels?

34. Aw, Paul is acting! But yeah his speech to Damon is meh because Damon doesn’t deserve shit.

35. Considering that vampire blood can’t work on people who have ingested the cure, why would compulsion?

36. Why would I care about a Donovan family reunion?

37. So Grams is still around even though the Other Side is gone?

38. Bonnie pulled a Gandalf. “You shall not pass.”

39. Sorry, it was supposed to be a powerful scene but like nah.

40. So a bunch of black women who I’m guessing are the Bennett clan are pushing the hell fire away to protect a town that does not acknowledge their existence. Mmkay.

41. “He’s the better man, he’s the right man.” LOL EXCEPT NOT. HOW? Because he was FINALLY willing to sacrifice himself after almost two centuries?

42. He probably whispered something about loving Caroline to Elena.

43. I feel like I’m supposed to be sad that Stefan is dead but like I’ve seen this coming for a while.

44. LOL Magic School/Hogwarts where Jeremy teaches, this is SO BAD.

45. I’m sorry but these “peaces” just look like individual prison worlds.

What an AWFUL series finale, like it was SO BAD. I can’t even, I mean it’s laughably bad but like THIS is how you’re ending a supernatural series? WHAT DID I JUST WATCH? Nothing happened! Stefan sacrifices himself to make sure Katherine’s in hell when the fire comes but he dies when the fire goes through the tunnels so why wouldn’t Katherine just be dead if they kept her tied down in the tunnels when the fire came? And then Caroline and Alaric open a boarding school for magical kids in which Jeremy teaches for absolutely no reason and Klaus is a donor because why not and Vicki finally achieves nothingness except nothingness is peace with Tyler somewhere even though Tyler basically treated her like trash and the Other Side is gone so how they’re still watching the living is beyond me. And then Bonnie travels the world and that somehow makes her happy as if she hadn’t traveled before. Matt got a bench, good for you Matt. And Elena goes to med school and has a happy life with Damon we don’t see and then they die and each of them spend their peace not with each other and it ends. Like … why tho? How does this make sense as ending? I should’ve been drunk for this. Plus side is, Stefan has still only called Elena the love of his life.

Matchmaker (Sam Drake x Reader)

This little thingy just popped into my head and I decided to write it. I’m working on Facing the Past too, don’t worry ;)

Also I’m writing this on mobile, so sorry if it’s shittier than usual lol


A few days ago Elena had ask you over the phone if you could babysit Cassie, because she wanted to go out for dinner with Nate. You said yes, that little 4 year old was your weekly source of happiness. You came over once a week for a visit, to chat with your old friend Elena, and while you talked, Cassie would always play nearby, and waited for you to go join her.

She always asked her parents when would you come over again, because she really liked you, you were very kind and funny and she thought that you were pretty too, and she always said that when she grew up, she wants to be like you. She would always ask for your opinion if she got a new dress or a pair of shoes, and when she found out what was your favourite colour, suddenly it was her favourite too.

You thought that it was incredibly cute, and you felt flattered that she loved you this much, that practically she thought of you as a role model.

But you weren’t the only one she looked up to. She would always point to a picture on the wall, where she was with her uncle, Nate’s older brother, Sam. Both of them were having huge smiles on their faces, Cassie sitting on Sam’s lap and they were eating ice cream. You’ve actually never met him before, because he was travelling a lot with Sully, but every time you looked at that picture you couldn’t help the smile that always form on your lips.

That picture practically radiated happiness, with cute Cassie and that handsome uncle of hers, and remembering how she always talked about him, saying how great he was, it really started to bother you that you never had the chance to meet him.

When you knocked on the door, you heard a squeal from inside and you grinned widely. Suddenly the door opened with a giggling Cassie behind it.

“Y/N!” - she threw out her arms and you bent down to pick her up.

“Hey princess, how are you?” you asked as you kissed her cheek.

“Can we watch The little mermaid, please!” - she pleaded as she tugged at a lock of your hair playfully.

“Again?! You’ve seen that movie like 50 times already!” - you heard Nate say as he walked out of the kitchen to greet you.

He leaned over and you kissed each other on the cheek, then he ruffled his daughter’s hair.

“Of course we can watch it, then we can watch Beauty and the Beast, we can even have a Disney Marathon if you want.” - you suggested.

“Yay!” she squeled and buried her face in your neck as she hugged you.

You laughed along with Nate, then you noticed as Elena came down the stairs.

You let out an impressed whistle when you noticed her elegant blue dress and her make up.

“Oh hello there.” - Nate purred as she walked over.

Elena and you giggled and you greeted each other with a hug and with a kiss on the cheek too.

“Mommy you look like a princess!” - Cassie exclaimed happily.

“Thank you, sweetie.” - Elena poked her nose then looked at you. - “Okay the fridge is full, you two can eat anything you want, but Cassie, you have to be good for Y/N okay, do everything she says.”

You rolled your eyes.

“I mean it’s not like I haven’t babysit her before… ”

Cassie nodded.

“We’re a good team!” - she said confidently and you held up your hand for her for a high five.

She slapped your palm with hers louldly and the four of you laughed.

“Okay, well then have fun!” - said Nate as he and Elena gave a kiss to Cassie and they left you in the house.

“Okay, wanna eat first or we should start with the movie?” - you asked her as you put her down and you threw your bag in a nearby chair.


You let out a gasp and you put your hand on your chest dramatically.

“Girl, you sure you can’t read minds?”

Cassie laughed out loud and followed you into the kitchen to grab some food for the movie.

Soon, you were both snuggled up in the couch, with a big bowl of ice cream and two spoons. You both would sing along to the songs and sometimes you would say the dialogues to each other giggling when one of you messed up.

When the third Disney movie was on, you felt your eyes getting heavier and heavier, and soon you fall asleep.

Sam wanted to surprise his brother, sister in law and niece by visiting them. Him and Sully weren’t supposed to come home for another two weeks, but the job went smoother than expected and now he was on his way to his brother’s house.

Well, it was a little after 9 pm so it’s really gonna be a surprise visit. He tought that maybe he should go to a hotel first, and visit in the morning, but decided against it. After all, Nate had given him a key to the house so he could go there anytime he wanted.

So with that thought he walked up to the house, opened the door and went in.

It was pretty quiet and dark inside. He found it strange, usually both Nate and Elena were still up at this time, and sometimes Cassie too.

When he walked further inside, he noticed that the tv was on, it was the only thing that made noise or gave light. He looked around but didn’t see anyone.

‘Hmm, maybe they forgot to turn it off?’ - he thought and smiled when he noticed that it was the Lion King.

He started to walk towards the couch, and when he went around it to sit down he jumped a little when he saw two figures sleeping on it. Both of them were laying on their sides. He recognised Cassie but didn’t recognise the woman behind her. One of her arms was around Cassie, and Cassie was holding into her hand in her sleep.

Sam caught himself smiling at the sight and he sat down in the armchair, his gaze flicking from the movie to the sleeping figures, then back again constantly.

When his focus was on the movie he heard a gasp and his head snapped to the couch. He saw as Cassie was looking at him with wide eyes. He grinned at her and when he saw that she was about to squeal at him as she usually did when they meet, he put his forefinger on his lips to stop her.

He stood up and walked quietly in front of the couch and kneeled down. Cassie reached out her hands and he leaned over her to give her a hug.

“Hey, Princess.” - he wishpered and heard her giggle.

“Uncle Sammy! I didn’t know you were coming home!” - she whispered back as they let go of each other.

“I wanted to surprise you.” - he smiled at her. - “Where are you parents?”

“They went out for dinner.”

Sam nodded then looked at you.

“And who is she?”

Cassie looked at you too then turned back to Sam with a big smile.

“Oh! She’s Y/N, mommy’s friend and mine too, she’s so funny and smart and kind and she’s so prettyyy!” - she rambled and Sam chuckled at her.

“Oh really?” - he noticed that you were ptetty that’s for sure. - “Tell me more about her.”

And so she began telling her uncle how she met you and what things you do when you two are together.

Sam felt himself smiling as his niece practically praised you, and his eyes constantly travelled to you. It was nice hearing how good you are with Cassie and seeing her happy made him happy too.

When he noticed that Cassie started to talk slower and her eyes shutting for a few seconds every now and then he told her to go back to sleep. She practically fell asleep on command he caressed her hair with a smile.

You jolted awake when you heard loud giggling.

You sat up on the couch and turned your head towards the kitchen. You saw Cassie sitting at the table and another figure was making pancakes. You narrowed your eyes and they instantly widened when you recognied the man from the picture.

Handsome Sam.

Both of them looked at you when they saw as your head popped out from behind the couch.

Messy hair, sleepy face, confused eyes.

And Sam felt himself grinning.

He held up a plate of pancakes for you.

“Want some?”


Lol it’s 11:16 PM and i feel like its shit but i wrote it now so… Did you like it?

Caroline to Damon: "You felt that way about Elena." - Not really??

Damon never felt like he deserved Elena … but the difference between SC and DE was that never really mattered to him. He gave all these speeches about how Stefan deserved Elena more, how he was bad for her, but that’s all it was talk. Damon’s “selfless” moments in doing the right thing and letting Elena go–for his brother, for Elena—were always there one minute and gone the next. Whereas Stefan was literally ready to leave town for both Elena and Caroline, Damon didn’t. BECAUSE HE NEVER COMMITTED TO IT.

“I don’t deserve you … but my brother does.”=/=“If I’m gonna feel guilty about something, I’m gonna feel guilty about this.” *First Delena kiss*

“Elena choose you. I’ll leave town.” =/= “I should be long gone by now. I’m busy fighting with my brother.”

“I’m letting you go. I can’t change who I am, but I won’t change YOU.” =/= “I need you. You’re the best influence on ME.”

“Your love for me was compelled away, but you’re happy. You’re better off without me.”=/= “I want to be with Elena.”

Stefan came back to both Caroline and Elena too, but in his case letting them go was him being a martyr while Damon was actually BAD for Elena. Letting her go was always the right thing and Damon always knew that. But did he care?

Damon did care for someone though. He cared enough to leave, to desiccate, to completely remove himself from her life because he thought she’d be better off.


Caroline was trying to force parallels with SC/DE in terms of love and feeling unworthy … but the true parallel here is BD/SC and I think even Damon recognized that. That’s why his reaction was so awkward and uncomfortable a second because even if he did feel that way about Elena he never did what Stefan was doing with Caroline. He did with Bonnie. Damon of course wouldn’t understand this so really didn’t want to dwell on it and let it go.

“I can’t atone for my mistakes if I keep making them. I’m not dragging her down with me.” VS “I’m leaving because I’d rather let you down once than let you down the rest of your life.”

So no, Caroline. Damon felt that way more with Bonnie than he ever did with Elena. We recognize that as Bamon shippers … but the question is, will the writers?


  • His father beat him his entire life. He was never good enough and a constant disappointment to a man who never hesitated to raise his hand to Tyler if he did something he didn’t like.
  • Said father died before ever giving Tyler his approval.
  • He formed a close attachment to his Uncle Mason who was later murdered for no reason, other than the fact Damon didn’t like him and/or to spite Katherine.
  • He then had to continue having close conversations, fighting alongside and/or helping the people who murdered his uncle.
  • He found out he was a werewolf and was forced to make the turn after his own best friend, the one person he trusted most in the world, tried to kill him.
  • Not only did he have to deal with the change, he also had to live with the guilt of Sarah’s death.
  • He was manipulated and played by other werewolves, who had him distrusting everyone he thought he knew.
  • He was then forced to turn into Klaus’ first successful hybrid, evoking the sire bond that ruined his life.
  • He turned to and fell in love with the beautiful Caroline Forbes. So in love that when Klaus forced him to bite her against her will, he left Mystic Falls in an attempt to break the sire bond.
  • He broke every single bone in his body over and over again in an attempt to break the sire bond.
  • His body was taken over by Klaus.
  • He was willing to let everyone kill Klaus despite knowing he could die too because of the sire line.
  • He tried to help others break the sire bond. Their freedom was so important to him that he was willing to have himself placed in concrete with Klaus inside him, just to give them all a chance to run and/or find a more permanent solution.
  • His attempt to help his fellow wolves resulted in the murder of his mom, the only remaining family member he had left. This also led him to be betrayed by someone he thought he could trust; Hayley.
  • He was forced to go on the run for months out of fear Klaus would kill him if he ever returned home.
  • He gave Matt Donovan his freaking mansion because he wanted his human friend to be safe from vampires while he was gone.
  • He risked his life to come back for Caroline’s prom.
  • He risked his life again to return for Bonnie’s funeral.
  • The woman he loved then slept with the man who murdered his mother.
  • It was him who helped everyone realise Katherine was inside Elena’s body.
  • His body was possessed again, this time by a Traveler. He fought against this possession with a strength so strong, he was able to take back control long enough to warn his friends. This possession later killed him.
  • He spent months trapped on the Other Side alone.
  • His childhood friend, Bonnie, had to sacrifice herself in order to bring him back to life.
  • He had a chance to be human again and fought valiantly to remain so.
  • He wouldn’t become a deputy because he ran the risk of triggering the werewolf gene again.
  • He then had to kill his dying girlfriend to trigger the curse for a second time, becoming a werewolf again.
  • He left Mystic Falls and joined the Armory in the hopes of doing good with his life.
  • He was put in a coma by Damon for no justifiable reason. 
  • He survived this coma and was then murdered for nothing more than a plot line that went nowhere because Elena didn’t even mention Tyler’s death when she woke up. He was murdered because Julie Plec was lazy and clearly had no idea what to do with the final season. He was murdered and no one mentioned it again, apart from in The Originals and that was just because they want some bone.
  • Tyler died believing his face would serve as a reminder for of the moment Damon gave up. That he would be the one person Damon would never forget killing, but lol. His murder was never, ever mentioned again apart from a brief flash in Damon’s mind.
  • He left all his research to Matt, knowing his friend would continue the good work he’d been doing. It was this same research that helped them against the Sirens.
  • Tyler now spends his afterlife watching over Matt Donovan.

Come on everyone, think. Elena waking up is a vital point in the series finale. Do you honestly think the CW would show her face when it’s supposed to be the climax? Not unless Elena is actually Katherine. That’s why they previewed the not so Elena after all because she is the baddest bitch of all in reality. I betcha you when Katherine/Elena hugs Stefan, he will know that’s not Elena’s hug. Just watch. I am calling this now.

Tormund’s eyebrow

Saturnineaqua: I LOVED Brienne’s face when she was beating Podrick and saying “nope!” She just looked so suave and proud of herself,lol.

Elena: Oh yeah. Then BAM Tormund appears and wipes  that smugness off her face. I mean, that’s their relationship right there, right?

Saturnineaqua:  Yeah! The way he strolled up! You could see his eyebrow before he was even in view. 

Elena:  That eyebrow has a life of its own, it needs a separate contract with HBO. He was just STARING at her so confidently, tilting his head on the side, eye fucking the shit out of her and thinking “Ok I got this”.

TVD 2x01 Review

1. How fitting to review 2x01 today with all of the Bonnie/Katherine discussion happening on my blog.

2. Also, this is totally unrelated but AMC has been marathoning Jurassic Park for like the past how many hours and I have it on mute right now while I do this review and can someone tell me why in the first Jurassic Park, the little blonde girl gets the flashlight and turns it on and attracts that dinosaur to the car? Like I never got it and it FRUSTRATES me. So am I missing something? OK back on point.

3. John doesn’t seem to be in too much pain considering his fingers are cut off.

4. I like how when Stefan comes to the Gilbert house and runs up the stairs to examine Jeremy, he and Elena cling to each other briefly. Details, man.

5. So I’m not a vampire? Dammit.” “Jeremy, don’t say that. Why would you want that?” “Did you hear about Anna? What happened to her tonight? She’s dead.” Likkle boy, your logic is ridiculous.I don’t know if it’s Steve’s acting or the writing is just being lazy with it but if the whole allure of vampirism for Jeremy is that he can shut off his emotions then I need to see him overwhelmed with emotions all the time, like he essentially needs to be an empath and not the supernatural kind but the kind of people who are highly sensitive to their own emotions and to the emotions of people around them and he just wants it to stop. OR the show has to emphasize that Jeremy is a, what, fifteen year old kid and his logic is of a fifteen year old kid.

6. Also I really love how agitated Stefan is but also very precise with Jeremy lile LISTEN TO ME, YOU WILL DIE IF YOU KEEP THIS UP, DO YOU HEAR ME? And he gives him a little smack like YO ARE YOU LISTENING THO? which isn’t the same thing as Damon threatening to make him unconscious and grabbing his arm since this was like PAY ATTENTION BECAUSE THIS IS IMPORTANT AND I DO NOT HAVE TIME FOR YOUR ANGSTY SHIT BECAUSE YOUR ANGSTY SHIT WILL KILL YOU. I find it very paternal. Especially since Stefan softens when Jeremy looks him in the eye and says he understands.

7. Damon figuring out that Katherine is back is SOOOO funny though because he is SO trash, like no honey, you weren’t kissing Elena, sorry.

8. I would’ve preferred if he slammed Katherine against the wall so hard that it cracked, they ARE vampires and Stefan is handy he couldve fixed it later. Details, man.

9. I like how Damon spent this time being all Katherine is omniscient, if she wants you dead there’s nothing you can do about it, we won’t figure out her plan oh but I can TOTALLY stake her.

10. Yes, Carol and Liz casually walk around the house talking about vampires and murder like there aren’t other people around. This is a mansion, there should be like 30 rooms you can go to to talk.

11. It’s cute how Stefan anticipates Elena’s needs, he threatens John because he knows she doesn’t want him in her life and she knows he threatened John to leave because she knows he can anticipate what she needs. Also their hug outside of the hospital is one of my favourites because she just needs to be comfortaed and hugging Stefan does that for her.

12. Ian needs to chill with the eyebrows for real.

13. Damon underestimated Grams and she was like boy please. Damon underestimates Bonnie and she’s like lol you tried. Why exactly is Damon so overly confident when he’s always proven wrong? DErs: It’s a defense mechanism to hide from his insecurity. Me: He needs a new one. Or get his shit together.

14. LOL the music surrounding Katherine makes me laugh because it’s so dramatic. Damon made his entrance killing like 5 people. Isobel had randoms walking in front of cars and forced a gay rodeo cowboy to have heterosexual sex. Katherine is just being trifling right now.

15. I always liked this Steferine scene in the Lockwood Mansion because Stefan is SO done, like he is just so over Katherine and her bullshit and he treats it like her bullshit instead of making it this OMG SHE’S DIABOLICAL and Nina and Paul play off each other really well so there’s also this tension but she is SO trifling and Stefan is just like omg I fucking HATE you

16. I also like that Katherine is the only one actually thirsty for Matt?

17. I also like the piano rendition of Breakeven.

18. “Why would you be surprised that I kissed you?” “That’s not a surprise, I’ surprised you thought I’d kiss you back” classic.


20. The alarm on his face as he drinks from the flask and Mason comes in is priceless though, one of the few actual teenage moments of TVD

21. Stefan legit has some pretty crazy exes though. Katherine stabs him because he said he hated her, Rebekah is Rebekah and Valerie made Caroline burn at his touch, like lmao, women fall DEEP for him man, Elena stormed into the cabin of a powerful old-ass witch? Lol.

22.Also find it super cute that Elena tends to his wound.

23. I like how Damon is like OOH LET’S FIGHT and Stefan is like I just got stabbed, I’m tired. Grow up, Damon.

24. Stefan’s speech to Damon about how he’s not going to let Katherine destroy the part of him finally willing to feel is mature and all but I need the show to stop acting like Damon didn’t feel before Elena because the problem has always been that Damon can’t control his fucking emotions and that leads to him killing people or hurting people. He spent 145 years loving one woman, clearly he felt. He slaughtered a house full of women in the 90s because Stefan said he kept failing and he was upset. He turned Vicki because he was sad. It’s Stefan who was willing to feel when he met Elena. Like they mixed up their own narrative. And it’s not like anyone can say that Damon developed a healthy love for Elena and that’s why it’s different than his obsession with Katherine because he didn’t! Same shit.

25. No idea why Katherine and Damon’s bickering suddenly reminds me of siblings, I think because I find them so petty with each other.

26. I really like Katherine’s bra though, I always like her lingerie, I’ll give her that. 

26. I love the way Katherine is looking at Damon now like, yo I just came for some D and now you wanna talk about feelings?

27. “There is something going on between us and you know it” can we appreciate the fact that Elena actually looks alarmed, like not even like he’s hitting a nerve, she’s looking at him like WHAT are you talking about?

28. I remember the first time I watched this I was like oh Damon that sucks, both women have been like “It’s always Stefan” in the same night basically one after the other, that’s rough, you’re an ass though and then he killed Jeremy and I said SEE YOU’RE AN ASS THOUGH. Then I watched it again and like, Original Katherine said it was always Stefan so you go to the woman you’ve transplanted your obsession onto and try to force yourself on her and she says it’s always Stefan so you enact violence on her by killing her brother.Stay classy.

29. The whole exchange between Stefan and Elena about Damon’s motivations still piss me off, it doesn’t matter, he killed her brother because he was upset, like that dialogue should’ve been used to ask questions about Jeremy and Elena being like so how does it work again, what did Isobel say? Do you think he’s going to be OK? Why hasn’t he woke up already?

30. Still super cute that Stefan kisses Elena’s shoulder.

31. The first actual stake-raising thing Katherine has done. (Killing Caroline).

Thanks for reading!

Delena Meta: Sex, Friendship, and Other Things

In 5x02, Damon implied that Elena was basically just with him because he’s good in bed. Yeah, it’s a joke, but it masks a bunch of insecurities Damon had. Jokes are usually a way to tell painful truths with some emotional distance. Damon had no idea why Elena loved him. How she could. Which is why things got screwed up between DE later in the season. It was all brewing underneath.

This is very, very obvious, but I’m gonna say it anyway. DE is not in any way based around sex. Its foundation is not in any way based in sex. Is sex a component of their relationship? Yes. Just like any healthy relationship. Their sex is about connection. That’s why almost every freaking time they do the deed or kiss, the writers have them break to look at each other in awe or after that first one in 3x10 Elena just looks stunned. Not a coincidence. Conscious choice by the crew. I don’t know if many people in this fandom have had sex, but…yeah…that’s not what you do when you’re having a one night stand or when the relationship is just about sex. That’s what you do when you’re in love…

Elena pulls Damon’s face away from her in 3x19. Because she wants to take the moment in and just takes a second to look in his eyes. And a moment to look at his lips. There’s history with that. History of wanting to kiss him. She’s looked at Damon’s lips 12,000 times in the series lol It’s even there in the first shot with DE in 1x02. And in this shot? She can finally kiss him. It’s a release of all those seasons of wanting to. Does that make their relationship only about sex? No. Their build up allowed them to have a solid foundation. Sexual attraction is a part of a relationship.

Season 6? Oh, it’s the exact same. What do you know. The crew make it a point to have them break from kissing and do this a whole lot in the series.

It took them over three seasons to get to sex. It’s a foundation based around friendship. A really, really awesome friendship that beat all odds.

Damon called Elena out on her suicidal tendencies and desire to give up: “All you’ve done is give up” (2x12) and helped her find a way out of that hole by accepting her. All of her. Not pretending she was the anti-Katherine when she showed Petrova qualities since day one. Not acting like she’s perfect so she needed to hide the darker parts of her. “Maybe I’m better off dead.” “Don’t you think like that.” With Damon, Elena could say gross, ugly things like that. She didn’t need to pretend she was perfect or happy. There’s no place for ugly statements like that in an epic love, in a perfect love. With Damon the “ass,” she didn’t feel the need to keep to some romantic script. She could just show how broken she was. And, she was. All through the early seasons. Especially in these moments in early Season 4. She expressed suicidal tendencies in the episode before, as well. “I was supposed to die.” :/ Damon helped Elena heal and feel “alive” (repeated throughout the series) even though for a really long time she felt she should have died with her parents. 

For a few seasons, she kept trying to fix the glitch that was her survival. I mean, come on, really obvious example: what was the point of her going in to the tomb where Stefan was in 2x10? She couldn’t fight off Katherine. She was ready to be a martyr for her boyfriend. She felt responsible for all those deaths that continued to happen in the series. And, that sucks. Elena played the role of the good girl as best she could in the early seasons because she wanted to do everything in her power to be someone who deserved to live, that wouldn’t disgrace the memory of her parents. She was overcompensating and hid the ugly bits as best she could. Except around Damon. Which we’ve seen since like day one. We see her anger. We see her “fun” (1x11). He saw right through her when they first met (3x22) and she didn’t feel the need to play a role with him. Someone who finds his/her way to deal with that level of survivor guilt and suicidal tendencies? Badass mofo in my book. The fact that Damon helped her? Incredibly important friendship that’s been integral to her growth. 

Elena became Damon’s “only friend.” Enzo’s friendship was based more around hate and revenge. I’m not sure if Damon ever had someone a) call him out on his shit constantly but b) not dismiss him just because he’s done bad things. You know what I think’s the most awesome part of this? She had a gazillion reasons not to become his friend. Her boyfriend that she trusted gave her 12,000 reasons to just dismiss Damon as the evil villain. He’s done despicable, inexcusable acts. But, she saw past that and saw Damon’s point of view right away. Didn’t idealize it. It was “twisted.” Which is good and an important part of their relationship. She sees him and his flaws and all of him pretty clearly. She knows he lashes out and even why (4x13) and tries to help him heal in all the ways he needs. 

She validates him in a gazillion different ways that he needs, one being that she’s constantly the one proposing/talking about their forever. Her proposals show how she wants a future that is real and possible as opposed to thinking she should die and not look for something that could really exist or last long term (SE’s “always” could never exist unless she died ASAP which I’m thinking she was hoping for. I think she was hoping to keep her promise with her “always.” I just don’t see how it’s possible long term. Elena would be arrested at a certain point for dating a 17 year old. This kind of sums up their relationship for me and why I find it unhealthy for both characters–they’re complicit in deluding each other as opposed to helping each other grow by accepting each other’s flaws and calling each other on their shit, etc.). Huge for Elena to point a real future with a dude who always chooses her life above all else. By asking for a forever with him, she’s indirectly and pretty actively saying she wants to live. And, Damon gets to feel validated often with this. Which he needs because he’s majorly insecure. Huge for him. For both of them.

“Some things could matter again.” “Maybe but it seems a little unrealistic to me.” 

“It matters and you know it!” 

In 1x07, she pushed him to be more because she saw he was. Because it matters. It relates to that 1x03 conversation. They helped each other figure out a way to have a healthier relationship to the past, figure out what to let go of (e.g. cheerleading) and what to hold onto/could matter again (e.g. the Damon underneath his mask). So, Damon and Elena are both right and wrong in the 1x03 conversation. Some thing could matter again. Sometimes, it’s better to let go.

She apologized about Katherine (1x03) when I doubt anyone said anything like that to him. Maybe ever. The look on Damon’s face says it all. That tells you how long that dude’s been alone wearing his evil monster mask. She saw the good in him and slowly helped him to admit he feels (2x12), hugged him when his heart broke (1x14), jumped over fire to save his life the day after JNSI (2x02), which is just crazy town and just shows how much she believed in Damon. 

She helped him go from Damon’s “only friend” to the Damon of Season 6. Who’s largely repaired his relationship with Stefan and is friends with a bunch of people in the crazy world of TVD. She’s even tried to repair his other friendships like Dalaric. She helped him reconnect with the world around him and validated him not just by loving him, but also by validating the way he loves. He never loved “too much.” Just the wrong girl. When Elena told Damon she couldn’t stop loving him in 5x16? Yeah, that’s a big moment. First time in Damon’s life where someone’s expressing unconditional love. A couple episodes earlier, Stefan was telling Damon not to show his face again. Damon thought he had no one. He thought he was just a glitch like Elena, just by existing and being himself. And, finally, by 5x22, he had someone who was “all in” with him. He didn’t have to go it alone. Those insecurities in 5x02? Largely repaired. “I’ve been in love. It’s painful and pointless and overrated.” and “I’m a fatalist”? Nah. Damon in Season 1 was a romantic in fatalist’s clothes. (I’d say the opposite for Stefan?) Damon of Season 6 is like girl’s gonna see me and fireworks. That’s what Elena Gilbert’s friendship did for Damon Salvatore.

Elena was there for him since day one in ways Stefan never could be. Stefan and Damon don’t understand each other very well. They love each other, but yeah. I feel like Elena was the first person to ever see Damon, all of Damon, and accept him. Consistently believe in him but also consistently call him out when he does bad things. All of this allowed him to heal from past wounds, wounds that had been there his whole lifetime until then. And, dude’s old. So, that’s a pretty long time and pretty incredible thing for someone to just come along and do what Elena did for Damon. No wonder there’s that line: “You are by far the greatest thing to ever happen to me in my 173 years.” No wonder it’s exactly like the one in 2x22: “It’s okay [that I deserve to die.] ‘cause if I’d have chosen differently, I wouldn’t have met you.” Parallel. With or without sex, their friendship, their relationship is everything Damon Salvatore ever needed. And more.

And, that’s my OTP :)

don’t you just love Kol

remember those kennett scenes when he was eye sexing the shit out of bonnie

remember when he was at a bar with klaus and then caroline came and kol said “she looks like a tasty little thing” and “she certainly looks good walking away from you”

remember when he punched elena in the face and threw her around lol

gotta love kol

anonymous asked:

I would love dark!Bonnie because I've been wanting her to slap Elena across the face since Season 3. That sounds terrible because I hate seeing girls fight but Elena needs to be either punched or read for filth for being so unappreciative of Bonnie.

lol omg

I understand the Elena hate, I really do.

It’s frustrating because she was so much more likeable for the 2-3 episodes this season when she wasn’t under Damon’s influence. She just loses herself in the possibility of him, loses touch with all the qualities that once made her the heroine of the show.

The fact that the contrast is so stark is interesting, though, because it definitely makes you feel like it’s completely intentional.

That’s also part of why I’m not sure I buy into the idea that the writers “ship” DE. I feel like they know how to present DE in a way that will make some segments of the fandom swoon, but everything about what they’re writing is so blatantly pointing to the fact that throwing away your assured happiness, safety and success is a stunningly SELFISH and tbh stupid thing to do. That it sounds romantic and the for that reason the temptation is real, but losing yourself in that way is not something that actually benefits you or the people who love you.

If they wanted us to believe it was actually a GOOD thing for Damon and Elena to be together, they could have shown us that underneath that drama something solid and healthy was being built.That if you give Damon a new perspective by pulling him away for 4 months, and you peel away all of the confusion that came for Elena because of the sire bond and her transition, there was something left of DE that was different, healthier.

But that’s not what’s happened. The moment they’re in each other’s sphere of influence, Damon becomes the insecure, controlling wreck he’s always been with her, and Elena becomes the wishy-washy, self-centered shell of a girl, floating along on the highs and lows that come with his obsession with her.

And all that is portrayed very obviously. These characters enhance each other’s insecurities, not their strengths, and we are meant to see that.

I’m realizing now that this has very little to do with your message about dark!Bonnie, lol. Sorry, apparently I had some pent up feelings <3

A dark!Bonnie arc seems like it would be more and more satisfying with each episode we get now. The way Elena took the news of that Bonnie was alive was just so spectacularly self-absorbed… the first thing she does (hours after finding out) is track down Damon and harangue him for not taking her with? And then rather than asking how her friend is doing, she asks about Damon’s time over there with Bonnie, wanting to know what they did.

To reiterate: Bonnie is all alone in a time loop, with no magic, and stuck with a known sociopath. And not once does Elena demonstrate any level of worry for her friend.

Can you imagine if Elena was stuck in an alternate dimension with a monster and no supernatural abilities, what Bonnie’s reaction would be? Bonnie would not focus on ANYTHING ELSE until she got Elena out of there (most likely by killing herself, lets just be honest).

Just once I want Bonnie to question that blind adoration she has of Elena. Just ONCE.

Also apparently Elena doesn’t even think to tell Jeremy that Bonnie’s alive until the next episode. How does that work?

TVD 1x19 Review ... tipsyish (heavy on the ish)

1.       Love the way Elena smiles at Stefan.  And how they smile when they kiss.

2.       Also like when Elena says “We’re going to be late” and Stefan is like oh let me grab my stuff, Ill be right behind you, she has a slightly crestfallen expression like, we’re not going to walk in together? But…

3.       Why exactly didn’t John just kill Damon and then tell the town that he was a vampire? Why is this plot elaborate when it doesn’t need to be?

4.       Legit, Damon’s smile is like the Grinch’s.

5.       BONNIE.

6.       That weave is fucking terrible.

7.       “I’m here on behalf of my mother.” “Behalf of or in spite of?” I don’t understand this as a response, it’s supposed to be witty but like … is Damon saying that Anna is here, as in on the world, despite her mother who is “destructive”? Am I just too buzzed to understand the response or is it actually just misplaced? It feels misplaced. It’s going to bother me.

8.       Ofc Bonnie is back and no one is really talking about her grief, like Elena “tries” but Caroline interrupts and is Caroline but when Caroline tries to gauge if Elena will drop out of Miss Mystic, I love that Bonnie has this grin on her face like lol, MF still the same.

9.       Aww, Stefan and Elena hanging up with “I love yous”!

10.   Lol I like how Damon is acting like Stefan stealing blood bags is the only thing that’s compromising their safety in MF as if John, who he tried to kill doesn’t know that he’s a vampire and as if it wasn’t his damn fault that the council was altered to vampires in the town in the first place.

11.   Why do they keep making a big deal of Pearl and Katherine being best friends? Like there really is no significance to that.

12.   One of my favourite SE dances! They are so goofy! This is so adorable.

13.   Literally never see Elena this goofy with Damon.

14.   Even in Bonnie’s grief, she has to say she won’t put Elena in a situation where she has to choose sides. Can’t even let her be angry and resentful and sad freely.

15.   I kind of like Anna’s butterfly earrings.

16.   I would expect the MMF pageant to have its own hair stylist but I guess not.

17.   I just realized they’re playing a string version of “Clocks” in the background when everyone is getting ready at the pageant.

18.   Now I want to listen to Clocks. It also reminds me of that Peter Pan trailer.

19.   I think I got a glimmer of Old Elena in her exchange with Amber because Amber is anxious and freaking out about being the centre of attention and Elena is all “oh do you want privacy so you can change?” but when Amber opts for air, Elena has this smirk/grimace on her face.

20.   LOL so Damon and Elena actually had NO scenes together for 21 minutes and 25 seconds, they’ve barely interacted this ENTIRE season, it actually isn’t that much of a love triangle when they’re BARELY together but oh yes, 1x19 the EPIC DE episode, the EPIC DE scene that is SO contrived.

21.   This entire thing just reminds me of Stefan’s very valid point in season 8 when he’s like so you could’ve helped me, you could’ve tried to look for me but you chose to dance with Elena instead except of course him dancing with Elena is like … she hasn’t done anything for you to do this, Damon, it only makes sense if you’re trying to stick it to Stefan, which is what this entire episode is about. He constantly talks about how Stefan is drinking human blood but doesn’t actually do anything to help him then he goes to Elena and is basically like so your boyfriend isn’t Mr. Perfect anymore and then he chooses to dance with her instead of being a decent brother. Trash.

22.   Laugh my MOTHERFUCKING ASS off to that anon who said Paul was a terrible actor. That agitation and anxiety and high and lows and desperation and guilt in this ONE scene with Amber is fucking everything.

23.   “That’s the first time I felt it. How sexy he was.” Really? Because you look like you’re about to throw up, my girl.

24.   I used to give them the MF dance but it’s actually not that sexy/charged of a dance it just so happens to be the sexiest/most charged dance of the DE dynamic, which isn’t the same thing at all. Like Nina’s trying to bring it with her eyes but Ian has no presence, he’s just squinting his eyebrows.

25.   And she has that little grin and I’m like …  I guess? There isn’t anything particularly special about this dance though, but like whatever, let’s make something out of literally nothing because it’s the Delena way.

26.   Blood on shards of mirror doesn’t automatically mean vampires, but whatever.

27.   Out of control, addicted, spiralling Stefan is mid-feed but he hears Elena’s voice and he stops feeding. This is an example of showing not telling.

28.   Also I get that Bonnie wanted to stop Stefan from possibly hurting Amber so that’s why she used her magic to stop him but legit if it were me and I was supposed to have the rage that Bonnie had, I would just make Stefan finish Damon off and then incapacitate him later.

29.   Stefan and Elena’s second “You shouldn’t be here”

30.   DE fans like to compare this scene to the compulsion scene that Damon fails in season 4 because when Stefan says, “Why would you risk it?” she says “Because I did this” and when Elena has faith that Damon will fight the compulsion he says, “Why because Stefan did?” and she says “Because I love you, because you love me” but here is the thing about context, Elena has repeatedly said that she loves Stefan in this scene without saying I love you. “You shouldn’t be here.” “I know.” “All you did is expose me to who I really am.” “No, you can’t scare me off.” If it was simply a matter of her feeling guilty then she wouldn’t have to be the one in the room, it could’ve been Damon. She says “because this is my fault” because she’s devastated that her blood started his downward spiral and psychological break, this entire scene is about love and their love conquers this part of Stefan’s life. Damon said sorry and sped away.

31.   “Stefan, I’m not going to give up on you, I BELIEVE in you” I just realized that when Elena confronts Stefan about the blood at the pageant he says, “Elena, I thought you believed in me…” and she’s showing him that she does. Makes this scene ALL THE BETTER.

32.   Even the way she strokes his hair as he’s spiralling downward, that physical need to comfort him through his pain. Lmfao, DE could never. SC could never.

33.   And the way she tries not to cry before stabbing him with vervain.

Thanks for reading! I was vaguely tipsy in the beginning and quite sober by the end.

Surprise! The Sequel. [TVD 1x12 Review]

Welcome to the 12th review of season 1! As per usual, here are the guidelines: Considering that I haven’t sat down to watch a full episode of the past seasons of TVD in a few years and my memory might not be the greatest I will start with my usual disclaimer: I write my thoughts in real time so if I make a mistake at the beginning of this post, it will be corrected by the end. There will be anti-Damon and anti-Delena senitments and I feel the need to say there may be some anti-Jenna sentiments too. I will probably bring up other shows and call attention to misogynoir, racism and anti-blackness. OK. Ready? Let’s go.

I love how Stefan and Elena are lying down on her bed, talking about what’s happening in the town, that level of intimacy just in the fact that they’re together on her bed and it isn’t sexual, it’s about how comfortable they are with each other.

I still think it’s bullshit that Jeremy would invite the pizza guy in. I also really hate this scene because I want more details, like at least see vampire hoodie dude get into a car with the actual pizza delivery guy bleeding in the backseat.

Paul’s jeans fit much better now.

Omg Paul is just all chiselled features. This man is beautiful.

“Oh yeah, Elena and I had a blast!” You two were barely together.

Yay, more lunch! Sorry, I just couldn’t recall when they ever ate lunch so the fact that I’m seeing them eat it makes me happy because DETAILS. If only we got a class other than history that wasn’t in a dream.

“If it’s what you and Matt want then it’s not about me.” We don’t ever get a conversation like this about Steroline, like Elena just kept her mouth shut and she never talks about SC as a couple, which I find telling.

I also never understood why Nina uses her left hand to brush the right side of her face, like her hair out of her face, I always found that weird.

Lol Elena leaves Bonnie with the bill. Of course. And doesn’t say thank you.

It really annoys me that the first guy to show interest in Bonnie in the show is just using her. Ugh.

Especially since they could’ve been really hot. And cute. I’m annoyed.

“It’s because we’re predators, Elena. We hunt, we stalk, it’s often as exciting as the kill.” See, Stefan never once distances himself from the darker aspects of vampirism, so I don’t know where the DErs get of saying he pretends to be a saint.
The way he strokes her face, omg.

Matt and Caroline are so cute, their almost paint fight and the way he says, “I MEAN I thought you always told everyone else what to do.”

OK so Elena and Jenna do have separate cars.

“I’m really sorry it won’t be any help for your Diabolical Plan. The Sequel.” I love dry Stefan so much.

It’s kind of funny watching Ian’s hyperactive eyebrows against Paul’s pretty stationary ones.

“See that’s your problem, Damon, you apply all of your shortcomings to everyone else.” Ha, could say the same thing about DE shippers.

So, funny story. When I had cable and would watch my teen dramas, my mother would always complain about them and say how much she hates them but then I would see her standing in the hall watching them over my back. Happened with OTH. Happened with Gossip Girl. And it happened with TVD. So I’m at the scene where Elena is doing her hair and the compass is on her bed. I remember being soooooooo into the scene, like OMG THE SUSPENSE THE COMPASS IS MOVING and then I just hear my mom yell, “She is STUPID. If you’re in a town overrun by vampires and your vampire boyfriend gives you a vampire compass that finds vampires would you not have that damn compass everywhere you go??? SHE’S AN IDIOT. What’s her name? I don’t like her.” Lol. And now eight years later, I tend to agree.

It’s funny, in KDramas when a loved one’s number is saved it’s always something like “My Yoon Jae” or “My Gyu-woon” so just seeing “Elena Gilbert” on Stefan’s phone is like … aww, come on, can’t it be “My Elena”??? lol. Although tbh I probably wouldn’t like that. Kdramas get away with a lot of things that American TV can’t.

Aww Stefan’s hand on Elena’s leg as they talk about the vampire. So sweet. Simple gesture but it shows his protectiveness and his need to comfort her.

And then when Elena slips her hand over his to comfort him for being worried about her. My feeeeeeeeeeeeels.

Also Paul is total James Dean here. Who was that person who said Ian was more James Dean than Paul? Like … WHAT?

“What’s Damon doing here?” At least Bonnie looks mildly indignant.

Also it takes some kind of gall to stand before Bonnie and Caroline, two people who Damon had tried to kill and not feel a type of way.

I do still find Elena’s *turn to Stefan* “May I have this dance?” to be hilarious and necessary. And Stefan’s smile is amaaaaazing.

Paul’s hands are kinda low on Nina’s hips, lmao.

Anna’s hair is a little weird.

“You’re doing that thing again, where you pretend we’re dating even though we’re not” LOL that was a little harsh. The way Anna brushes it off is cool though.

I actually just noticed that when Matt walks up to Caroline and Bonnie at the Grill he’s actually smiling until Caroline is classist af.

Also totally forgot that Stefan and Elena actually have a blast dancing before he pretends he won’t dip her, like they’re smiling SO goofily.

And Damon is looking at them jealous for absolutely no reason because he’s hardly spent any time with Elena but seriously, that’s what love looks like Damon.

The fact that Damon can call himself Stefan’s legal guardian and none of the adults side eye his relationship with Elena? When she’s supposed to be the Rory Gilmore of Mystic Falls, beloved by the town?

“Tonight was so much better on paper.” Just like how the SC relationship was so much better on paper? I get it, Caroline.

Lmao I’m watching all these other people dance and yeah Paul’s hands on Nina’s hips has me like mmmhmm.

Lol he moved them up to her waist.

Oh back to the hips.

Their dance kiss is still one of my favourites, like it just shows how much he loves her.

The way Damon dances with that blonde is utterly ridiculous.

ALSO LOL. “My Boyfriend’s Back” is a song I did a vid to for Steroline and Stelena back in the day, I didn’t realize they played it in 1x12.

It’s actually good to see Elena active in a scene. This is one of my favourite Elena’s scenes [when she fights with Noah]

One of the things I actually like about the Stefan torturing Noah scene is Damon’s facial expressions in the background because he knows how much Stefan loves Elena so he’s just like lol yeah you shouldn’t play tough because he WILL make you suffer. Also seriously, Stefan’s intensity in this scene, that type of protectiveness over Elena that isn’t shown through “I will break your arm” so much love.

I think I really like Mattoline because it reminds me of me and my best friend in high school and it’s really realistic.

I also like the Mattoline kiss, it’s very cinematic.

Also find it cute that Elena is on her couch and Stefan is making her tea in her kitchen because they’re just so at home with each other.

And the way she looks at him giving her the tea, like isn’t my boyfriend so considerate?

“It’s going to take a lot more than a road trip and a rescue for me to forget who Damon really is.” Oh, so the necklace was the dealbreaker then? Also, it wasn’t a road trip, he kidnapped you. Also y’all are acting like he hasn’t damaged this town and that he’s just a dick. For Stefan that makes sense but Elena honestly should not be this calm.

At least with Spike, Xander and Willow only stop fearing him when there’s a chip in his head that makes it impossible for him to feed on humans so he’s no longer a threat to them.

This was a weak ending.

anonymous asked:

favorite stelena hug? favorite se scene from each season? :D

LOL. Upping the ante are we? Haha OK. This is going to be LONG  btw. Because of the gifs. Blame my need to show receipts. Favourite Stelena hug… omg that’s harder than favourite Stelena kiss because there are just SO many hugs.

I love the 5x19 hug because it just showed how much things haven’t changed between them. Stefan opens the door and the first thing she does is hug him and I know Elena hugs everyone but when she hugs Matt or Tyler or Caroline or Bonnie, it’s this “let me comfort you” hug but with Stefan it’s this relieved “omg you’re alive and I need to be comforted by your embrace” hug so I really liked that in 5x19:

I love the 2x01 hug because John is driving her crazy, Caroline is in the hospital, Katherine is out and she and Stefan are talking about all of that and she has this look on her face like the world sucks right now and we can talk about it but I need to feel you against me right now and when her head is on his should you see her relax like it’s visible, her eyes are closed and she nudges herself into the crook of his neck:

I also really really love the 3x20 hug because Elena is just trying not to feel, trying not to think, trying not to do anything and Stefan walks her through it and she honestly surrenders to him, like she actually leans forward and just unfolds into him:

But my favourite hug? 2x08 and it’s because I think it epitomizes the Stelena relationship. First of all Elena basically flies into Stefan’s arms, like going top speed and colliding into him and when she’s there that relieved smile on her face:

And not only that but she actually nudges herself into that crook in Stefan’s neck, like she nuzzles him because she’s *home*, she’s exactly where she needs to be and wants to be and yearns to be at that moment and she’s good:

And what’s beautiful about that moment is that it’s so natural and organic and so unapologetic and honest that she doesn’t even think about Damon and not in a purposeful way, like neither of them actually mean to hurt him in this scene but their love is just a fact and it’s a fact that they need to embrace in right now:

And Elena remembers that Damon is there and she genuinely thanks him because she owes him her life:

But then the moment passes and she goes back to Stefan and it’s not a guilty “oh so maybe I should keep hugging Stefan now” she really needs to be there, she really needs to be comforted by him, like again she nuzzles his neck and her eyes are closed because them together and hugging is what matters. And Damon honestly just has to deal with that because it isn’t cruel or intentional it’s just what it is and that was what I always appreciated about the triangle when it was Stelena. They aren’t selfish, they aren’t intentionally harmful, they aren’t rubbing anyone’s face in what they have, it’s just that what they have is so powerful that everyone can’t help but bear witness to it.

Now as for my favourite scene in EVERY season. Lol. OK. Well. In season 1 … surprisingly it’s not their love scene even though their love scene is fantastic. I love 1x20:

And I love this moment so much because at that point, it was the darkest and most troubled their relationship has been, Stefan’s demons are out of his control and he’s doing everything he can to push Elena away because he loves her; this is the one time where “he’s scaring her because he loves her” actually works because he’s telling her to leave and the way she says, “No” is like “Fuck you, you’re stuck with me. We’re in this together so you better recognize” and Stefan immediately backs down because he could never actually hurt her and she brings out his humanity whether he wants her to or not.

In season 2 … I really like 2x16 and the morning makeout, lmfao:

Because it’s happy and it’s goofy and it’s sexy and it doesn’t take over the plot. This is their moment before they go out the door and have to deal with Damon and the supernatural and the chaos, this is their happy bubble and I also love how it’s basically like Elena lives there, she has clothes there, she goes to his dresser and also that they’re both JUST getting dressed and Stefan is like “Or we could just not go?” and I’m a sucker for when men lift/carry women so when I first saw that I was like omg #goals

In season 3 … It’s not even a question. It’s 3x05 when Stefan fought compulsion. And it’s funny because some of the most powerful Stelena scenes are in season 3 and season 3 has so many to choose from like their phone call in 3x01 or when he catches her from the bleachers in 3x06 or when she tells him to fight in 3x07 or when they dance in 3x14 or when she tells him to feel and he wants to but can’t bring himself to in 3x14 or when they say they never stopped loving each other/will always love each other in 3x18 or when they dance in 3x20 and their hug in 3x20 and finally their kiss in 3x22. There are SO many season 3 scenes to choose from but it was so easy for me to say 3x05 because everything sort of originates from that moment, even the phone call in 3x01 because 3x05, this moment:

Is the foundation/backbone of the Stelena relationship. Stefan literally did the impossible here because of his love for Elena and because of her love for him, there’s a moment just before he pushes Klaus away where they both stare at each other and it’s like a connect, like Stefan gathered what he needed within himself to get the strength necessary for this moment by that gaze with Elena. And Elena is there throughout it all like “I love you” so it’s not just Stefan fighting for them, Elena has been fighting for him and them since the summer and continues to do so throughout this entire episode and in this scene because when Klaus pushes him against the wall, she runs forward; she know she can’t do anything but still the instinct is to run forward to protect Stefan. How could this not be my favourite scene? Lol.

In season 4 … that’s actually a bit weird because I do think Stefan and Elena have great moments in season 4 but they’re also frustrating and I can’t always separate my old bias against Elena and how the writers wrote her from the scenes they’re in together. It goes without saying that I love the 4x02 and 4x03 makeout scenes and I absolutely love the 4x01 scene when she says choosing him was the best choice she ever made and the way she touches the wall because she has this need to feel him and the way Rebekah stares at them, begrudgingly moved by how much they love one another  and I love when they’re on the rooftop:

Because it’s basically like an engagement and that was intentional. The way Stefan reaches into his pocket and the way Elena says, “daylight ring?” and how he slips it onto her finger, that was meant to show a lifelong commitment to each other and it pisses me the fuck off that the show destroyed that SO quickly but anyway, I love that scene. I love when they wake up together in 4x02 and in 4x04 their entire workout sequence was great because it was informative and goofy and sweet and sexy and comforting all at the same time:

I love 4x16 because the sexual tension is real and Elena doesn’t have humanity so she doesn’t pretend like it’s not there. You all know how much I adore 4x19:

^^ Like your eyes are shining, Elena. STOP LYING.

In season 4 … It’s funny, this was going to lead up to how 4x10 was going to be my favourite Stelena scene because I find it so telling that a) Elena says she’s sorry about “all of it”. Stefan asks her “sorry that it happened or sorry that I found out”:

Now I’m not saying she regrets sleeping with Damon but no one just says “I’m sorry about all of it” when the question is posed that way because it suggests that somewhere inside of her, she is sorry she slept with Damon.

b) Elena is mortified at the thought of Stefan not erasing her from his memory but the love he has for her, their entire relationship, like she looks like she’s going to cut Rebekah for even suggesting it and then when she says no, the thought is inconceivable to her:

And it was really sad but so well-acted how Stefan is silently being torn apart and all he wants is to just make everything stop and instead of lashing out and screaming and drinking or killing her loved ones, he’s trying to contain it to himself and just asking for some relief and it was sad because it went to show how much he loved her:

And the way she was holding on to him and to him remembering them, like I know the entire episode was supposed to show how much she was not in love with him anymore but the urgency with which she needs him to stay and talk to her and remember her, the tears in her eyes, I mean it show otherwise and it’s the same look she had in 2x06 when they broke up when neither of them wanted to:

And when he walks away, she runs after him and I found that so telling because she NEVER runs after Damon and that was the first time I realized that because Stefan said all he needed to say and he’s defeated but embraced the fact that they’re no longer together, he wants to be alone and he deserves to be alone but Elena can’t accept that or handle that, which is selfish yes, but I also think it shows how sort of uncontrollable her feelings for Stefan are in the sense that it makes her urgent and agitated with a need to be there, to hold him, to talk to him, to have him not hate her so it felt like she couldn’t not run after him:

And people say that if Elena was really pressed she would’ve vamp sped and blocked him but here’s what people are forgetting: when did Elena ever use her vampire powers unless the show specifically needed her to for plot device? Girl was a TERRIBLE vampire. Damon is about to kill Jeremy and she can’t even snap his neck? HE WILL WAKE UP LATER.

But then I remembered that 4x21 happened but I don’t want that to eclipse 4x10 so 4x21 is an honorary favourite scene of season 4 because it showed the sheer power yet again of the Stelena relationship. Elena legit pushes Damon out of the way, she’s a mess, she’s in turmoil, she’s in an emotional storm and it’s only Stefan who can calm her down, Stefan who can walk her through it, Stefan who she listens to and trusts implicitly and naturally so that she can calm down and Damon watches because that’s pretty much all he’s good for:

For season 5… I was originally going to choose 5x02 even thought Stefan and Elena aren’t in it together *really* because it shows sort of how in tune they are with each other in the sense that Elena has been thinking about Stefan all summer and he’s been thinking about her too and when she finds out that hes missing, like girl is mad:

like I’ma-kill-you-me-and-the-entire-dorm mad:

and there is such vitriol in her voice when she says to Damon, “Stefan has been suffering for months while I’ve been rolling around with you” like … but you have no regrets, Elena? OK cool.

And while Stefan being in trouble is what causes her to be so angry and to fuel the compulsed anger, thinking about Stefan and finding him is what calms her down and allows her to break through it:

Which speaks to their bond in the sense that Elena never could bear to see Stefan in pain or in trouble, as I’ve discussed before, there’s a certain agitation and urgency to the way with which she needs to relieve him of his pain and yet being with Stefan is what calms Elena of her pain and focuses her and we saw both sides of that in this scene so I love it.

However, what I love more is in 5x18 the moment after the visions disappear because they are both so absolutely devastated that they aren’t living this perfect life with each other and it isn’t dramatic and it isn’t Elena screaming or flailing and Stefan throwing shit out the room, it’s subtle and it’s poignant and it’s powerful because they stare at each other, Elena is teary-eyed and Stefan’s expression is raw and they both know what they lost, what they could now never have, what they both want and want with each other and the simple line “Does that mean that is’ over?” that dejected hopefulness in her voice as Elena says it? Spoke VOLUMES:

And finally, for season 6 I absolutely love the 6x04 proposal scene because Elena’s sincerity and giddiness is real and Stefan’s words, “You have always been my best friend. I have always loved you […] you are my rock…” they’re just as real and just as sincere and just as true as Elena’s reaction and it reaffirms yet again that marriage is a theme in the Stelena relationship. And the 6x22 goodbye scene was beautiful because it showed all the ways and reasons why Stelena should’ve been endgame and Paul and Nina delivered on their subtlety again and it was frustrating because you saw the bittersweet laughter and the tears in their eyes and hear the words Elena is saying:

and you’re like … but it’s Damon though? HOW?

But my favourite scene has to be 6x21 because that was when all of my Stelena feels came rushing back full-force and unapologetically for such a simple and short scene because that Stelena magic was just so present:

^^ Like even the way Elena is moving back and forth in that giddy, flirty, nervous way and the way Stefan is sort of dapper and charming and a little bit smug in the way he’s looking at her, it’s so season 1 episode 1

and this laugh and smile is unreserved and almost pure and it has this I’ve-known-you-forever-and-yet-I-feel-like-you’re-speaking-to-me-for-the-first-time quality to it that’s also very season 1

and Elena is checking him out here and it reminds me of when she asked how good he looked in a suit and it reminds me of 2x14 when she realized how hot he looked in that jacket. Like it was just SO Stelena.

So. This is my sinfully long, gif-filled, rambling response to your question. I hope it was enjoyable to read!

anonymous asked:

Why would we be "salty" your ship is a fan serviced mess that has no continuity or logic and was created simply to satisfy Ian. I don't care about bamon anyway but you have to admit it's fan service and downright bad storytelling

Lmfao first of all only a supreme level of saltiness the likes of which would rival the Pacific Ocean would have you in a bamon shippers inbox right now lets get that straight, it’s okay embrace the saltiness I don’t mind. Second of all if you “don’t care about bamon”, again why are you here I didn’t call for you I didn’t summon you there’s no reason for you to bring your butt hurt delusion into my inbox.

It’s always incredible yet slightly mind boggling that DE stans ever have the gall to start trying to preach about fan serviced and forced relationships when you’ve just finished what I’m sure was your 35th time today watching that fucking rain kiss that was written and directed on twitter like really ya’ll really wanna do this shit today? I don’t want to hear shit about it being a reward for the fans because what the fuck were you being rewarded for? Being the only people to religiously and ceremoniously kiss the ass of every writer on twitter and convince them to flush their entire show’s development down the toilet? Congratulations I guess.

You do understand what fan service is right? Because developing a relationship that you and a select group of shippers do not like isn’t fan service sweet pea. Lets get that fucking straight. DE shippers and whatever BJ shippers are left are quite literally the only people upset with this storyline. That’s not fan servicing Bamon, its developing an interesting character dynamic that most people including casual viewers and critics are responding to positively.

Where was the fan service police when literal canon has been erased in order to prop DE? Why exactly were you not up in arms about the writers literally treating Stelena like it didn’t happen and saying that Elena has been in love with Damon since season 3, even though we as the audience know that was complete bull shit. Fan service is throwing away your own canon and mythology and shitting and rewriting previous relationships just to make sure a loud group of children on twitter don’t throw a fit. Fan service is not concerning yourself with actual storytelling and character growth and attempting to please one faction of your viewership even if it sinks your show and god damn did it sink. (Side note what exactly do you think caused the abysmal ratings in season 5 because quite frankly almost every episode and story arc in some way traced back to DE so since they bring in the money and views and they make the show what it is why did no one tune in to see the beautiful story that is Damon and Elena…don’t worry i’ll wait)

So again I ask where was the fanservice police when Stelena was being rewritten to make sure DE was seen as the bigger and better Stelena? Where was the fan service police when whole plots are sacrificed to make sure Damon and Elena maintain the focus of the show even when were literally begging them to stop. I’m not sure if your aware or if you think that Julie Plec just thought up the plot of TVD one day while sitting at a bar in Atlanta but in case you actually think that let me let you know that is in fact false . L.J Smith wrote TVD she created these characters that you love and alternately hate so much. She created the relationships that are playing out on screen and yes that includes Bamon. Julie Plec paying homage to the books that created this show is not fan service, and the fact that their relationship has had to develop subtly in the background is the real fan service because that was yet again to make sure the focus stayed on DE. It’s okay that you dislike Bamon I don’t give a rats ass about your opinion so trust me I’m not offended but just have the balls to say that instead of acting like your some warrior for good storytelling and continuity when you don’t really give two solid fucks about that and just want Damon and Elena to have sex every Thursday for your own amusement and pleasure.

I’m still processing Bamon being fan service lol. Oh wait I remember didn’t everything have to be rewritten to make Bonnie and Damon’s relationship develop? Didn’t canon have to be destroyed for them to make sense on screen? Their relationship has bent almost to the point of breaking entire arcs and plot lines. And hasn’t the fact that the audience is beat over the  head with their dynamic and the narrative is as subtle as a brick to the face the fact that they’re toxic and bad for each other but omg just cant help it driven critics to question how the show can be saved at this point? Oh wait that’s your ship not mine…

I have a head canon for the TVD season 6 finale that I thinka few people may like, scienter already knows what I’m going on about ;)

Ok so Julie Plec said “just wrote the season 6 finale, I can guarantee you have NO idea what’s coming…” so that got me thinking, could Katherine be making a return? Is it possible she is stuck in her own prison world and somehow finds a way back with Kai and the other vampires?? Imagine the final scene of the episode, Elena’s saying something then all of a sudden she has this awful look of pain on her face and drops to the floor, dead. Katherine pops up, Elena’s heart in her hand, that well known smirk on her face and says…

Could that possibly be the big twist in the finale?? I would be in shock but also think it would be fantastic!! TVD NEEDS Nina, that much I believe to be true. But that doesn’t necessarily mean she has to play Elena…

This could certainly be the lead to a possible Bamon romance, I like Datherine too but I don’t think Damon would ever go there again lol. She better not go near Stefan though, as much as I used to ship them together, those days are LONG gone. I’m sure though that if she tried Caroline would put her back in her place ;)

Just something to think about….

sapphicseas  asked:

ugh nisha I've been trying so hard to read damon's expression after elena says bonnie is something else to him and I just, I like to think I know him pretty well but I can't fucking tell what's going on inside his head but something about his face just kills me

Right?? I mean:

If she hadn’t kept talking and launched into the accusation that he was just trying to get Elena to fall in love with him again, I feel like this was an about-to-have-an-epiphany-about-the-true-depth-of-his-feelings-for-Bonnie look. lol

Also, did you notice that they actually stormed OUT of the Bamon kitchen, and down the hallway to have this fight? And what do you think framed this moment because of that?

… the Fireplace of Doom ™.

Sometimes I think when Steroline turns romantically canon and it’s just Stefan holding her face and he’s looking at her eyes and it will say a million things but I think what we’ll see mostly there is clarity like “How was I blind all this time?" 

And he’s confused but you will see that he’s so in love with her and it’s gonna be one of those epic moments in TVD where we will finally see Stefan truly and genuinely loving someone who does not have Elena/Katherine’s face (small lol) and fuCK MY LIFE I NEED THIS NOW!

TVD-6X09- Lights Will Guide You Home

Did anyone else think of the song “Fix You” by Coldplay after this episode? When you try your best and don’t succeed. The failed Bonnie mission was kind of frustrating because the logical thing to do would have been to meet her half way. But I love this show too much to let that bother me. As sad as Bonnie not making it back for a second was, it still makes a great storyline for her. And the only thing that’s keeping me sane is the fact that I knew ahead of time that she wasn’t going to make it…Along, with the fact that we for sure know that she eventually will.

But this episode wasn’t just a failed mission. It was also the beginning of the road back home. With the symbolism of that being Damon is Elena’s home.  I loved all the subtle hints this episode brought. The fact that their mission was to bring Bonnie back home. The domestic kitchen scenes. Elena going to her old house for the first time since she burnt it down. The parallel between what she did to that house and what she did to her memories of Damon. Even the song that played during that scene by her front door. These were all subtle signs indicating that Damon is her home. And she is on her way back to it. And its Damon’s good… It’s his light that is guiding her there. 

“Being with Damon makes me happy.” - Elena 4x10

I’m sure everyone noticed just how much Elena smiled in this episode. From the first moment we see her with Damon. He manages to put a smile of her face. That’s one of those things that can’t be erased, I guess. And I can’t decide if it’s because he knows exactly how to make her laugh…or if he does it without even realizing. But I know one thing for certain and its that, that smile on her face is her buried feelings for him surfacing. That glimmer of a feeling is growing and it trying to make its way past the compulsion. It’s only a matter of time. I can feel it.  

“Oh tss… No, Don’t. Damon, I want Bonnie back more than anything. She’s my best friend. But to you she’s something else. Isn’t she? She’s a chance for me to realize what a great guy you are so I can fall in love with you all over again. Doesn’t matter who get hurts in the process…as long as Damon gets what Damon wants.” - Elena 

This lash out was completely understandable. That’s the Damon she has in her mind. She doesn’t remember all the selfless things that Damon as done. How he almost died saving Caroline from Tyler. How he gave her that necklace despite what it meant to her about Stefan. How he stayed after Elena chose Stefan and helped her transition into a functional vampire. How he gave her the cure despite his insecurity of her feelings for him. How he blew themselves up in the grill and was left behind because he was trying to help Liz. She doesn’t know this Damon. So, its understandable that after hearing that he compelled his best friend and kept it from her, that she would think that he was trying impress her. Because despite the conversation they had last episode at the bar. She still thought that he cared about getting Bonnie back to win her over. That’s the whole reason she asked him in the first time. Because she saw it as an opportunity to see the goodness in him. Because she wanted to be won over. She wanted to fall in love with him again. That’s why she says what she says. But what upset her was the fact that he lied to her. And she took that lie as if it was proof that he hasn’t changed at all. Because in her mind, hiding what he did meant he was doing this for selfish reasons. Because she didn’t realize that he would do something like that for Bonnie. She didn’t know that he cared about her that much. And that’s why once he says that it wasn’t for her. Once he gives her his reason why he is doing this. Once she sees and understands that he became genuine friends with Bonnie over those months. It made what he did to Alaric okay somehow. You see? It wasn’t what he did that upset her, it was what she thought his motives were behind it. Because deep down she knows she would have done something similar. And that’s why she stands behind him after Alaric punches him. Because now she sees that he ruined his relationship with his best friend for the sake of getting hers back.

I also loved this fight because it shows that nothing has really changed between them. She has never held her tongue with him. They show each other how upset they are. Nothing is left swept under the rug with them. And that’s how its always been. That’s why she makes it clear that she is upset over the phone when he tells her what he did to Stefan to get Bonnie back the first time. That’s why she yells at him that she can’t just stop loving him and he yells at her that they were toxic. That’s why she needed to tell him about those versions with Stefan. That’s why she asks him if he was mad at her and he tells her why. That’s why even after he died, she tells his ghost “You lied to me” through her tears. There is no defense. There is no ignoring the truth… There is just pure honesty.

“You know, I could have sworn that this used to squeak.” -Elena

“It did. I fixed it.” - Damon

The symbolism, people! The swinging bench is still useable. It still works. There is just a little squeaking that is kind of annoying. And Damon fixed it. Well, Damon and Elena’s relationship right now is just a little squeaking swinging bench. Elena memories loss is that little squeaking noise. And Damon is on his way to fixing it. Its foreshadowing at it best! At least that’s how I see it.

“Bonnie and I came her everyday. It was the closest thing I had to a picture of you. And I needed every reminder I can get.” - Damon

“It’s funny, I used to have so many good memories of this house. And after just one bad one. I burnt it down. I just couldn’t bare to look at it again.” - Elena

I love the poetry behind this. While Elena did everything to let go of Damon and forget him, Damon held on to every memory he had of her. Thinking of Elena is what got him through those months. While complete denial was the way Elena got through hers, until she decided it was easier to just forget him completely. Because that’s what Elena resorts to when things are too painful. When the memories are to hard to bare, she burns them all away. And the reason why the writers did it this way, was to show Elena that what she did was very rash. It kinda also shows the differences in maturity. Because burning down your house and compelling to forget your entire relationship with someone is a very immature way to deal with things. And that’s fine…because that immaturity gives a certain realistic dynamic to her relationship with Damon. Now, I’m not saying that Damon is 100% mature. But holding on to the memory of her shows a certain aspect of his maturity. I like seeing that dynamic because its a reminder that this relationship is between an 170+ year old vampire and a 20 year old newbie vamp. And there’s a certain beauty to that. 

“Bonnie is going to get to the house and we are going to be gone.” - Elena

“Until the next comet. Or full moon. Or eclipse. As long as we have that we can go as many times as we want until we get her back.” - Damon

This scene was so precious to me. Not only because of the fact that they are both sitting at the Gilbert grave, leaning again its tombstone. But because it’s Damon giving Elena hope this time. When for so long, she was the one giving it to him.

There is still hope. 

HeyWe’ll survive this.

It is real, I know that it is.

No, no, no. Wait. Just give it a second.It’ll clear up.

The universe doesn’t control anything. 

It’s a beautiful change  for him comparing to their search of Stefan.

You made me feel like an idiot for having hope. You are an idiot. We both were. 

And just because Kai is out and the ascendent is destroyed, isn’t going to make Damon lose that hope. The idea that Bonnie is all alone is going to be motivation enough for both him and Elena to keep trying. And that’s way Damon and Elena are so great together. Because they don’t let each give up. 

“I’m sorry I compelled away the memories. They were only half mine.” - Elena

“We’ll make new ones.” -  Damon

I don’t even one what to say about this. Even though Damon caresses her face with the intention to start making new memories then and there. (LOL because that sounded really dirty) This entire episode was them making new ones. That time they went through time and space to get Bonnie back. That time she found Damon’s video dairy and he didn’t let her watch it. That time Damon taught Elena how a beeper works. That time they popped champagne and made pancakes together. That time Elena got mad and stormed out. That time he found her and fixed it. That time they sat on the swinging bench and talked about the importance of memories. These are all new future memories for them. For Elena, For Damon. For us. Which is what makes this episode and this storyline so perfect. The creation of new memories is literally the road back to the old ones.

They are the lights that will guide her home.